Ya hanging in there, Sup Forums?

Ya hanging in there, Sup Forums?

>tfw you think about the end of western civilization a lot and how none of your hard work will mean anything

You work for 50 years of your 75 odd years on this Earth and then die and it's all for nought. Once you die and the few who knew you also pass it will be as though you never existed.

I just want a boyfriend

Gay man or fat girl?

Fag

I thought it was easy for gays to find other faggots? Why are you struggling?

Off-season, won't be a problem when I go back to college... I hope...

This is why im creating statues of myself with all my history and placing them all over the world

Best of luck, mate

I love her so much

Thanks user

How extensive is your history?

>tfw nobody will ever make a statue or painting of you

>anxiety and dread increase to fever pitch as I continue living vicariously through cinema while growing increasingly distant from any meaningful relationships, or the sunlight

i'll be fine

Its all gonna be lies

>when you realize information about you will actually last literally until the end of this species for possibly millions of years now that we're in the digital era and information can be backed up indefinitely... but its a bad feel and you dont want people right now to know about you never mind posthumans in another solar system researching earth's history

>growing increasingly distant from any meaningful relationships

This is impacting me. I generally like to be alone and am used to it now but I almost started crying earlier and an episode of Big Bang theory were they were all singing to Bernadette.

I'm really lonely.

Maybe you should get a dog!

I have a cat.

A cat's good too, maybe you could go to a bar or a pub, a nice one, get piss drunk and start a conversation with someone.

it's a liberating thought, really. only narcissists care about leaving a "legacy".

Here's the problem though, whilst I can socialise with people passably I often feel lonelier in their company than on my own. I just don't know or meet people with whom I have a genuine, deep connection.

Well shit, life's really hard and complicated, maybe you'll just find someone you will click with eventually, hopefully.

Most people seek immortality in one way or another, it doesn't need to be leaving a legacy, it could be children, religion or planting a tree.

>tfw you've been waiting on disability because you're a sick son of a bitch for 5 years
>tfw you finally get approved
>tfw you find out you're owed 20k from backpay

am I gonna make it bros? won't be long now til i get medicare and a check. Just a couple of weeks.

anyone else on disability?

>all my trolling and forum bans archived for eternity
seems fine

I also find it really hard to connect with people on anything more than a superficial level.

For some reason I feel my defences go up about what I like to do/hobbies etc. when talking with people, I become very stand-offish unless theyre that 1% that click.

Generally it takes me a few interactions with a person before I start to open up more, alcohol helps.

But at the moment im happy enough on my own.

>I can socialise with people passably I often feel lonelier in their company than on my own.

Probably not. That's just life I guess. A relatively recent study published in the times concluded that one in four adults have no close relationships in their life.

Not him but people used to say that to me 10 years ago

meanwhile they have moved on got married had kids got jobs etc.

Everyone seems pretty miserable atm tho senpaitachi sign of the times and all that

The hardest part is realizing you matter. You don't have to be agreeable. You don't have to take what you're given. You have a say, you matter.

>Hey Abdul, check out this statue I found.
>What an ugly faggot.
>I bet we can break it down and sell it for scrap.

Redddit

As long as you fags give me some quality kek material, I'm always hanging :^)

barely

Ugh... could you like, not?

this desu, I really can't imagine the future not being fucking shit

this is a good thing. all of those embarrassing moments you've had or regrets you've made literally do not matter. no one will remember them

That's fucking depressing, if I don't get a close relationship soon I'm gonna kill myself.

who /fear of failure/ here?

It fucking dominates my life. The only times (good and bad) I seem to push myself out of my comfort zone is when im drunk.

PRETENTIOUSNESS TRIGGER WARNING:

Most people I talk to seem to basically have no hobbies or interests or anything interesting about them. I feel isolated and can't open up to people because they are so boring. I can't say I like to watch obscure french movies, write short stories and play the piano after they tell me they "like to drink with friends and stuff", I'll just look like a faggot.

>I'll just look like a faggot.
once you realize you already do look like a faggot you'll be free

>They don't realise this is a simulated universe or a god made universe or a simulated universe with a god entity ruling over the universe

senpai, you can placebo effect this universe into your making

you already got lucky enough not to be one of the renderings born in sahara africa or some chinese shithole

why not try and push the envelope a bit further?

Drinking only helps for a little while.

it worked for 7 years for me then in 2014 i just fucking lost it mayne.

Been alone all this year no friends no job no life only me my dog and my mum

Fug

All those moments will be lost in time, like tears...in...rain.

these self-pity threads are so fucking gay

jesus christ

why was 2014 a universally shit year for everyone?

>I'm actually a boring person

>24
>starting up college again for the 5th time
>havent had sex in like 3 years

well.. it'll all work out at some point, right? hehe

>22 years and in HS now till summer
>College didn't want me this year because I failed when I was there at 21 (Sucked at math)
Holy fuck being surrounded by kids is humiliating, at least I can use that as fuel to become good at math and physics.

same here, except replace alcohol with drugs

don't know how much longer i can deal with it

Fear of failure is the worst. The worst thing is you fail by default through not trying.

>31
>applying for college for the 2nd time
>scared to submit portfolio for film because if they reject me I dont know what the fuck ill do.

Jesus christ.

Also, I really want to buy some weed, but for some reason despite living in a really hippy area I cant even find people to ask.

most people have very busy lives and are extroverted so all their pleasure time is spent being around others to relax, you're isolated because you probably literally are isolated and dont have anything to do and are introverted so like to spend time by yourself in your own home with your own interests

cancer is the worst... fear of failure is just weakness

Its the worst feeling of all.
I never really put myself out there and just go for it, at best I do a half-assed attempt and admit defeat.

I have a nice DSLR, microphone and tripod. I want to just start shooting stuff and doing my own vlogs yet everyday I wake up with a new excuse as to why it will fail and be shit.

Fine. It's the worst weakness. Happy?

why bother studying film at 31? just make shit and go work

film school is LITERALLY a waste of time, its just babysitting kids with too much money

if you want to make films youll make films, youll get paid fuckall like everyone else and if youre jewish or lucky youll get paid well one day for a short amount of time before you get spat out by the system because youre no longer hot if you ever were

feels bad man

every 22 year old looks like a child, dont worry about it

well for a few reasons.

My only experience is in retail. I travelled overseas last year and when I came back I applied for my old job again, and didn't get it despite having 4.5 years doing it.

Its only like $6k to do the degree, and I want to use it to learn how to start my own production company and start making my own stuff properly.

I also want to make some friends. I know literally no one in this town other than people in their 40s who I used to work with and have nothing in common with.

Worst case, I get a bachelors degree in a useless field and go teach English in Japan and spend my days chasing my yellow fever.

6k degree wtf? where?

yeah for that price maybe its a better investment than a company.

id still advise making your own shit as the priority and just using the degree to provide extr a knowledge fo your shit and people you can ask to come work on your shit/ask to work on theirs

All around me are familiar faces

I pray for death, but death never comes.

i think im gonna fail out of college this year Sup Forums

it's my senior year as a comp sci major and i have no clue what i'm doing. calc 3 is so hard. all my comp sci classes are nonsense and we have like 4 projects assigned already. i don't know what to do.

>$6k degree

From where?

maybe change your socks?

NZ

>id still advise making your own shit as the priority and just using the degree to provide extr a knowledge fo your shit and people you can ask to come work on your shit/ask to work on theirs

Yeh, Ive been writing my own stuff, I just want more knowledge on how to produce it.

need money

rent a room out, post an ad for actors, have the actors come in and read, contact the ones you like, pay for a camera and lightning and stuff, find a location, organise dates that everyone can work on, film the cunt, edit the cunt, release the cunt

>have OCD
>overcome a specific fear
>that fear becomes supplanted by an even greater fear based on the same subject
I'm in the early stages of going insane, I feel. My fears have become much more abstract but more pertinent. I have a fear that a letter I had written myself will be posted to Sup Forums with my full name not blocked out and some schizo will become obsessed with killing me. It's fucking absurd right? Then why can't I shake the fear that impending death is coming next my way? Based off of paranoia of something stupid?

I was, but Sup Forums has been so shit these last few months that it's getting really hard to keep going. This place was basically all I had and I'm scared of what will happen once it's gone.

Probably not too far away.