Sup Forums I think I fucked up

Sup Forums I think I fucked up.
>be me
>go to bar with long time friend who is girl
>litterally have been good friends with her for 10 years
>was prom date, had many great memories of high school with her.
>we get to my house after bar
>says she wants butt massage
>give her butt massage
>pass out, wake up next to her.
>wake up
>ask her if she wants butt massage
>she does
>leads to oral sex..she cums
>tells me I can jerk off on her ass
>she says no sex but i ask if i can stick it in for live
>she says yes...leads to sex
>tells me i have a wide dick
>rides her ass on my dick
>tells me I can cum on butt.
>finish all is well.
>5 minutes later she starts crying about her ex..says she wished this didn't happen. Says she didn't want this to happen
>I apologise and agree we shouldn't do it again
>we get over it and get food.
>bring her back to her ex's
>talk to her on fb that night about a Wednesday fishing trip and her dogs..all is well.
>today she likes some of my memes and such
>all of a sudden disappears from FB
>go on trolling account and look her up
>SHE BLOCKED ME.fml
>didn't block me on Insta

I want to open dialogue with her and make and awkwardness right, she is one of my best girlfriends and I don't want her out of my life. I've been drunk since I got off work and I dont know what to do.

Will not post picture of her.

You've been a beta orbiter your entire friendship. Enjoy it when she goes off and gets a new boyfriend with complete disregard for your feelings.

>Live = lube *

post a picture of her and your destiny will lead to a greater sex life

That's the thing I have been. But I also don't mind being a beta friend, I have no desire to ever be with her. It was just a combo of horniness and her getting naked.

Wow that's pretty beta. Your genes will literally die with you.

she initiated it

no regrets

send her a message on instagram asking if she needs another butt message kek

I'm actually okay with that.

just ask her why she blocked you pussy

Just post your cuck porn folder then. It's a lot less sad than listening to you.

it looks likes she has friend zoned you thinking this other guy is her beau. For the mean time tell her you want to continue where you left off but if she want free meals/attention ignore her otherwise you will forever be her bitch

I will on Tuesday since she invited me to a concert and we are supposed to do a fishing trip Wednesday. I want to give her some time to not be upset. I should add she's a drug addict which I found out today. She almost made me feel like a rapist. Also found out she gave a hand job for 20 dollars the day before. I'm not gonna judge her on her lifestyle, on the ride home she told me how much she appreciated me and messaged me the same. I just have no idea why she would block me. Maybe her ex? Normally I wouldn't give a shit since I've fucked and chucked about 20 girls. But I've been friends with her for so long and such, I dont want her to be gone.

"go on trolling account"

You really are a fucking creature ain't you op.

op needs scrub his dick

Yea i know I am. I'm fine with that.

Jesus dude. Talk to her. It cant get much worse. She doesn't want to talk to you, so talk with her and try to understand what is up. Call her, it will be more honest.

Wow. What a beta.

I don't want to stir up shit like that immediately. Give it a few days and have a reason "like hey I saw your fb disappeared, we still going on the fishing trip" I mean we only talked like 2 or 3 times a month as it is.

honestly, ignore her.

she's over inflated this issue on her end, and did some dumb girl shit on social media. it's not important.

>oh noes she blocked me on a website!!!!

who gives a fuck. she'll figure it out and miss you being in her life and come back... or she wont, and you can count your blessings that you knew her for the good times and then she went crazy.

any attempt you make to contact her is not going to go well. don't tempt her to turn her regret into rape because you won't stop harrassing her.

just let her sort it out on her own.

I'm not a beta, I just have girls I bang and girls I don't. She was in the don't category.

This 1000x. All other answers are fucking retarded.

at least you got to plow her, so in the end, you're the winner

Seriously the day before she got picked up by a dude and a chick and ended up having a three some. I dont know what the fuck made her upset. I think shes just fucked up. I dont want to lose her as a friend but I also dont want to bug her. It just weird how we were cool immediately after and such. We even made plans you know? Wtf changed?

you had sex. that changed. also women and men cant be friends. we can pretend that we are friends, but we actually aren't.

I dont want her to think badly of me. I really do care alot about her and we've helped each other out on numerous occasions.

>apoLOGise

>I just have no idea why she would block me.
You breached the friend-zone for a few brief minutes and she doesn't want something you might post pissing off her current fuck. She most likely lied to the ex/not ex about remaining celibate the entire time they were broken up.

theres no going back from this suicide is the only option tbh
i was in the same situation a year ago and it ruined more than the friendship. i plan to kill myself in october

I'm thinking that might have something to do with it.

Greentext story.

you keep making the mistake of thinking this is about you. it's not.

just let her sort it out. she's already made up her mind on how she feels about what happened. now she's going to think about it. and either accept it, or change her mind.

nothing you did, are doing, or will do is going to change that process.

leave her alone. move on. and welcome her back if she reaches out. but she has to make the choice without your help.

to expound further

op, you are a beta white night. at least in her eyes. and you had casual sex. those two things don't mix. you are the type of guy a girl settles for when she's done being a ho. and her letting you out of the friend zone, fucked up her perspective on you. you're the last person she needs to hear from if you don't want to push her away for ever.