I'll never have a life, I'll never do anything notable, I'll never be successful, i'll never be happy...

I'll never have a life, I'll never do anything notable, I'll never be successful, i'll never be happy, i'll never have anyone care about me, i'll never be good enough, i'll never not be fat, i'll never stop thinking of a girl I can't have, I'll never do what I want with my life,i wish i was dead

Hit the gym ffs.

>I wish I was dead
It's easy to make that wish come true
Kill yourself brandon

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This.
Be a fucking man, Brandon, for the love of god. You have to start somewhere.

stop whing and leave a trace of a man

do you want help or do you want to just complain? i'm being sincere with this question. but if you do want to complain, at least don't bump this thread and clog the catalog.

nigguh do something

Sup Forums is a board for discussing music.

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both, my life is falling apart, i've hit rock bottom and I don't see anything getting better.

Now you know why crazy feminsts have growned over the recent years.

well if you want actual help, get off Sup Forums, stop posting/going on facebook, don't go on reddit, don't use youtube for anything besides music, and stop cut out the internet as much as possible. stop drinking soda. stop masturbating or at least stop looking at porn. stop drinking. talk to your family more. see
exercise. don't wait to do this stuff. do it tomorrow. good luck. don't bump this thread.

cheer up brandon

I don't use youtube for music other than spotify. I don't have a good relationship with my family. I don't go on reddit. I haven't drank in about a week and a half.
i was doing this, then i got deeper into depression and stopped and gained back thew weight i lost. i slept the whole day away and woke up at 11pm.

how about you get a job you lazy white fuck

you think about lauren all the time because youre in your head all the time and dont have much else to think about. she's not for you, you wont have her involved in your life, and she's out of your leauge. accept it, mve on

I've been trying to with no luck, and I've been having really bad anxiety attacks over it.

you're probably applying for shit you're not qualified for. go to school get a shitty job and be a normal person like everyone else faggot

well do everything i said. stop going on the internet. stop masturbating and looking at porn. cut out soda from your diet. drink more water. exercise until you're exhausted keep it a routine at least every other day. preferably everyday. get off the internet. and start tomorrow. good luck.

I've never applied to anything I wasn't qualified for. I can't go back to minimum wage.
ok, i've done those things before but it's not helped much with my serious depression and anxiety issues. it it did for you than that's good.

Your family has essentially allowed this cancer to spread.. You wouldn't have the luxury of sleeping in because you're 'le tired' or anxious if you had to put a roof over your own head.

You don't seem worth more than minimum wage right now.

i think you might benefit from some sort of psychological help like therapy, there's something going on in your head.
well, we really don't know brandon and much about what's going on. he could have been taken in by someone

>ok, i've done those things before but it's not helped much with my serious depression and anxiety issues.
the exercise and severe diet change needs to be a long term thing. don't let your depression and anxiety be a crutch. you have to keep this as a routine. you can't just go back to a shitty lifestyle when you don't see immediate results. go for an intense walk/jog/run for at least 45 minutes to an hour. giving in to depression and anxiety will just leave you were you are. you can change it, but you have to do it yourself. however, you can do it.

i have done it long term, and have got results but always fall back into my depression and anxiety issues.

if it's that bad you need meds
and i see why you started this thread you need someone to talk to

Well whatever you do don't start drinking again, and don't do anything else, last time I hit rock bottom when my ex told me she never loved me and actually wanted to be with her ex, I ended up trading my piano and guitar for heroin and cocaine respectively, then somehow wound up having a paranoid episode, left my house because the birds outside were plotting to kill me, and just started walking away from my apartment, I was more or less homeless for about a week, in my fucked up state I threw my keys in a nearby trash can so people could follow me and break into my house. Cops eventually picked me up by the train tracks when trying to clear them out, realized I was insane, so they shipped me off to a psychiatric facility, and well that was the shittiest month of my life even though i can't remember most of it.

It can always get worse, but it can always get better also.

>but always fall back into my depression and anxiety issues.
that's why you have to keep going every single day. you can actually do it but you have to commit to it no matter how bad you feel, and eventually it will fix most of you're issues. also see
but i think you need a psychiatrist first. and you need to actually listen to people trying to help you.

i knew someone who was making $60 an hour being a marine welder and ended up having to go back to minimum wage. ended up an acloholic and tried to kill himself

brandon is the boogie2988 of Sup Forums

i'm drunk as fuvk but i feel you
i'm not going to off myself as i still enjoy the simplest things in life but you have to know you will always be a fuck up nobody
thats ok tho

being a no one is better than being actually insane, better to seek help than give up

you need to take the advice given in here and become a better person because right now you're a trainwreck. from what you've said some recent happenings lately made things a lot worse for you. sorry that things fell apart and you thought you were getting better. just because an obsticle has came up doesn't mean you have to quit and not try again. sorry you have to start from square one again but you have to keep trying..and also, forget about lauren dude god damn.
only if you want to be a fuck up no body

one user made a good point that she accomplished what he wanted to do with his life
he wanted to go to law school, he wanted to persue journalisim, and do something with music.

brandon is 27 without a degree or any experience
advising him on being a better person is for faggots, that's empty advise, you have to know what you're working with
you think he doesnt know all you're saying?

You need professional help, Brandon. If you're truly depressive, we can't really help you.

I don't wan tot be a fuck up nobody any more. I'm still trying to get things done I should have done years ago, like getting a car and getting out of my parents house (well, i technically am but staying with a family member but not on my own with my own place, things, and life)
I've heard of things like that happening before.

brandon, i don't know you too well, but i've been witnessing your depressive and self-destructive episodes here on Sup Forums for a few years now and i want to help you. i was like you at one point after a tragic death in my immediate family -- heavily into drugs and histrionic/depressive behavior, and i'm telling you from experience that it doesn't have to be this way. once you begin working on destroying this unresourceful version of yourself as i did a handful of times myself, you will see the light. the world will look so different; you'll have brand new tools to give it your all, as you and every other person on this planet deserves to. you gotta want it though. you gotta be willing to cry if you wanna laugh, among so much else.

you have no clue how fortunate you are to be alive.

drop a skype or a facebook or something and i'll hit you up

dude honestly you don't know what you want out of this life
you have these small goals to reach but you don't have a big picture to reach

>27
fuck, i thought he was in his early twenties. even if he gets himself together he'll never really have a life. people around that age are getting set in their careers, getting married, having kids, buying homes, leaving their party/fun years behind them and becoming actual adults, not still trying to get things done they should have done at 16-20 years old.

>defining self-worth through majority let alone anyone but yourself
do this guy and yourself a massive favor and stop posting, idiot.

Yeah, I gave up on a lot of my dreams and goals. I just left them behind. I see no future other than working my life away pay check to pay check.
Yeah.

well i saw some old shits at my college, it's never too late. brandon doesn't look old so he can still make it. he just has to figure out what he wants out of this life

>I see no future other than working my life away pay check to pay check.
this is the attitude i hate. giving up. look, i know nobody here is smart, but still. there's more to life than this

he's not wrong at all.

but he is, unless you're the consensus' bitch of course.
self-worth comes from within; don't tell me about how great your job is, tell me about the man walking in the door in the first place. people like robin williams are proof that nothing external matters if you're dead inside.

why did you though? why did you give up on them and make such a big mistake?

I guess because they were too unrealistic to people around me, when they really werent

dumbfuck

>I wish I was dead

I wish I was dead too, Brandon, but please don't air out your shit here. Now I have to filter out your name.

ITT: Mostly people who don't understand depression or anxiety at all (and one giant attention whore who is probably embellishing how bad it is)

As long as you've got this shitty pink and blue website to look at, you're not gonna be alone.

Then you should have taken control of your own life and done what you wanted, now look where you are.
Looks like he really needs friends and someone to talk to. I don't think he's doing it to annoy people here.

oh look, here comes the cool guy who thinks he's got all figured out

I have BPD. I think I get it at least a little bit.

Both of them are complex, people don't understand that. Depression isn't just feeling sad all the time, same with anxiety.

i'm sure your therapists told you as much

i bet sometimes when you're in a bed alone to night you imagine lauren cuddled up to you.

ITT: Brandon doesn't know how to handle real life so he goes on Sup Forums and doesn't have balls to face hard times on his own + he loves a caricature of an artist

Well fucking done mate. I hope that barrel is already loaded and stuck into your head.

i'm sure you've never have doubts about anything, you perfect little thing

i don't think that's it at all, just sounds like someone who has had a lot of problems.

I personally try to stay far away from all this trip-fag bullshit, but people on here are fucking vicious and I've seen constantly for at least the past year samefags talking shit about the guy in threads he hasn't even posted in. That's some pathetic shit right there.

>Doesn't know how to handle real life
Not true.
>Doesn't have balls to face hard times on his own
All I've done in the past fucking 5 years is face hard times.
>goes on Sup Forums
Well, you're here to.

Plus I went through enough "hard times" growing up, and I have no idea why I'm defending myself like that on here.
>people on here are fucking vicious
They are, doesn't get to me that much, maybe a bit annoyed but that's about it. There was one time where someone told me to kill myself for the benefit for myself and the people around me kind of hurt.

I want you to go back to how you used to be when you just talked about music and didn't do this shit. I get that you're in a living hell right now and need someone to talk to but this is NOT the place to do it. Take it to /r9k/ or /soc/ if you have to.

get your shit together and get back into society, that's all i can tell you.

Brandon, you need to recover from this mess otherwise you'll eventually put a gun to your head and sink so deep you'll end up under the tide with nothing but the night sky above you. You have to grab these lies by the throat using your strong hand. Also here's a beauty who makes Lavren look like aged milk.

Meh
Sup Forums is supposed to be "tough", but there should still be a sense of camaraderie.

We're all gonna make it. We're been in shitty places before, but we're still here to shitpost about it.

Just enrich yourself with these experiences and use them to help others you'll meet in your life.

Kill yourself. I mean it.

Once or twice.
You first.

>Brandon, you need to recover from this mess
that won't happen

>you'll eventually put a gun to your head and sink so deep you'll end up under the tide with nothing but the night sky above you.
this needs to happen to him.

that's fucked up what'd he do to you?

I actually have a life so no. I have people who care about me and rely on me. I actually have a girlfriend. I have a degree. I have a job. What the fuck do you have? Just kill yourself, you obese lardass.

he needs to kill himself. he is a waste of space who let down and anyone and everyone in his life.

You dont want to get better. You want sympathy and attention.

Youre a weakling who sees himself as a victim and expects the universe to massage your back and suck your dick.

Go drown your problems in alcohol like the rest of the cowards in our society, you entitled waste of oxygen.

this

He doesn't even want sympathy, he wants pity. Like a child who got the wrong toy for christmas so he cries until mommy picks him up and holds him

that doesn't mean he doesn't want those same things
not cool
sometimes when people are in times of stress and hopefulness, they'll reach out and want to talk to others, this is what I'm seeing from Brandon.

I'm going through hell right now and need someone to talk to. If I didn't want to get better I wouldn't be looking for work, I wouldn't be trying to lose weight, or thinking about going back to school for something.
I think you mean hopelessness.

I don' really like Joe Rogan, but this quote comes to mind everytime I hear the type of stuff OP posted,

>that doesn't mean he doesn't want those same things
he is incapable tho. he needs to commit suicide.

>not cool
very cool, actually

How do you know im incapable?

>trying
nigga keep telling yourself that. no you are not, you're in denial. this is the last (You) from me, you attention whore waste of space obese autistic manchild.

it's too late. you do not have the capacity for change.

I get you need someone to talk to, but you're somewhere where you'll be be verbally abused and ripped on for it no matter what you do.

That's it?

Great. And I'm sure you can prove all of that, especially on an anonymous image board. How can work on having such a big virtual ego, instead of supposedly changing something about yourself? I don't really care, as for all we know - all of these threads were shitposting rampages of a very lonely and sad human being.
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>took cocaine
>some how had a paranoid episode

hmmmm?

Yep, that's it. You've completely fucked your life. Enjoy your lonely life.

see? this is what I mean Brandon. You know your self more than anyone here. You need to get better and realize that even though you're having problems you have to just man up and change. It natural to want people to talk to.

But what's happened that threw you off and sent you into this?

Brandon is the result of entitled white children who werent beaten enough as kids. He thinks not having a girlfriend and being too lazy to get in shape and find a job is going through hell, while simultaneously having plenty of food to eat, a warm bed and internet. It makes my fucking blood boil. Theres people out there actually suffering, like getting raped by their step dads and poisoned by their own mothers and this faggot wants my pity. Listen fucker, no one is attracted to you because youre unattractive on the outside and inside. Maybe you should do something about that. Nobody on Sup Forums is going to type you into an in shape member of society.

Bur i can tell by your excuses and self victimizing mentality and entitlement to happiness that youre too much of a little shit to make a positive change. Im grateful for my suffering as a youth because at least i have perspectice, and i know what it means to really be in hell and have the world give a great big shrug of indifference.

the cat of /mu judgement has spoken.

his personality, which will never change.

Brandon, you, a tripfag, just made an r9k post on a fucking music board. please, enlighten me how you don't just want sympathy and attention as this user said.

dumbfuck

I was losing weight, had a job that was paying well, things were looking up. My dad and brother got hooked on hard drugs again and stole from me and family. I had to pay bills, get groceries and pay off dealer depts for them on my own. It got to the point where if I didn't give them drug money they'd steal money from me, steal my card, break the things I had and pawn my property. I ended up losing my job that he got me because of him stealing shit at work. A week before I was getting a car they stole my card and drained my account and left me with dept I still need to pay off. So in short I was getting better and everything fell apart because of my father and his drug habit.

>people doing hard drugs in the open
>zero state assistance

The US are such a third world country. Thank God I was born in Germany.

shit I was thinking that you were just whining

Cool story buddy. I totally believe every word of it.