Sup Forums I have 4 years clean off heroin and the cravings have been unbearable for the last 2 weeks...

Sup Forums I have 4 years clean off heroin and the cravings have been unbearable for the last 2 weeks. Whats your drug stories?

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Damn, after 4 years? I've never tried h but that sounds horrible. Fentanyl that they're putting in it has been killing a lot of people in my area (east coast) be careful dude. My worst thing is adderall, I just feel tired as fuck not taking it but i think I'm naturally just tired as fuck and uninterested in most things so I can't really blame the drug. I've noticed I have much more of a sense of humor when I'm clean though

I do tragic shit on drugs and alcohol so I just smoke weed and eat mushrooms

It's ok but for sure nothing like my experience of solitude and crime to keep my habit going. Better than requiem for a dream which is complete dogshit

Been clean for less than a year but I don't really get cravings anymore.. I never injected that shit tho

It comes in waves and its worse when i drink which i have been doing alot lately. But the urge never really went away. When people ask me what I want to do, I always lie and say i dont know. But i do know, i want to do opiods.

How long did you use? H or pills?

Well here's a tip from a paramedic if you decide to use it again don't be a dipshit and use your old routine maintenance dose that's how you idiots end up dead. So many god damn times have I heard "he's been clean for x months" or "he just got out of rehab" yeah and he fucking did his old dose. Tolerance is a real thing. Don't be a dumbass.

Haven't had any smack in 8 years.
I did the 12 step thing and it actually worked for me. It's literally not apart of my thought process anymore for real. But I did get addicted to everything else non-narcotic along the way. You name it porn, food, gambling etc. it's a weird ass disease where the main components of the disease are to convince you that you don't have a problem.
Best of luck though.

Started with pills then did h for about 7 months. My fav is white China. My friend overdosed tho on it and that's what made me stop I got scared lmao

i used alcohol to taper off opiates. its not a long term solution but it helps.

Nah Id smoke it if I wanted to relapse, pretty much impossible to OD if youre not drunk

Also i firmly believe that when junkies get out of rehab, slam a G and OD and die; they committed suicide. Ask any addict what happens if you do that. They will all say "youll die." It's not like we dont know thats what happens. That shit is suicide.

it's okay to talk about it with out laughing, that shit sounds traumatic. Glad to hear you stopped though. Stay safe man.

That mother fucker lived I wouldn't be laughing if he died. You too man

I've been using opiates since I was 14. I started IV heroin at 17. I'm now 20. I just got back on suboxone on Friday. I don't see myself as sober but I'm gonna try at it again. Don't fall into temptation op. You'll end up worse. Or dead.

Addiction in itself is slow suicide. Especially heroin addiction. I am a heroin addict in active addiction. It's awful

I've gone 6 months without tripping, because my gf don't want me to.. her views on drugs are demonalized, it's terrible. I don't know what to do, I miss lsd so much, and I wanted to work with it in the future.. but she is ruining everything

I miss having a purpose. My life feels empty and pointless now. When i was using i was filled with limitless purpose. Ever day i woke up and knew EXACTLY what I was going to do, what my life was about. That sense of purpose was so powerful. I feel lost without it.

Also I'm only laughing cause I'm to pussy to do it again. I've done Percs every once in a while tho

Currently in the beginning, or hopefully middle to end, of a stint as a meth dealer.
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My best friend just overdosed at the wheel and got into a head on collision 3 weeks ago. He and everyone involved lived and are okay. It scared both of us. I just got onto suboxone maintenance and am trying. I'm glad your friend lived and it scared you enough to try to stop. Good luck

7 Years clean in N.A. here. I don't have cravings, I don't miss the old days, I have lost the desire to use drugs. Just saying, life in recovery is pretty good.

Has she ever smoked weed? Theres a good case to be made that shrooms/lsd are similair. If you live in a legal state maybe try to smoke with her once or twice? That being said if you miss tripping that much youve probably been overdoing it, you can absolutely get addicted to acid.

been like 5 months since i smoked any weed, feelsbad. Stopped cause theres not stopping my insatiable desire for more weed, i just slowly but surely build up more and more tolerance and keep smoking more and more to stay in the dank high. I wish i had self control.

ive tried lean a couple times and i can already tell that i would be a full blown junkie if i ever touch H.
the drug isnt a problem if you can afford it tbh

Im glad to hear your friend made it, and being afraid of something that will destroy you isnt being a pussy. Its being rational. Heroin is a god, but it is a wrathful and vengeful god.

Look into Kratom. Is a plant from Indonesia the ground up leaves work on the same opiate reactors in your brain as heroin. Has pain relieving properties, 100% legal, not addictive.

What state do you live in? Is it gay or hillbilly clientele?

Your purpose is to stay sober now. To not put your family through hell anymore. You are doing exactly what you need to do. Don't waste your life away anymore. make a change. move somewhere else. Find a new job. You will find more purpose. But you can't without being sober.

I have a bottle of kratom in the kitchen, problem is my fat ass doesnt like skipping breakfast and lunch to make it have a good effect, and the 3 days of constipation isnt worth the weak ass high.

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OCs back when the big oxy wave washed over the south..did that for about 4 years then went to subs..did subs for about 4 years and just figured that one drug is as bad as the other..so about 3 years ago made a call and started doing opainas i only do 10mgs a day and try to wait until the end of the day to do it..play warships snort a bit between battles and really dont feel that bad about being a head..if you are clean stay clean...but if you swim well take a dip...

yeah. i know that what youre saying is correct, and the reason i havent used is for my familys sake. But if they suddenly went away, i just dont know if i could hold on. My dad paid a fortune to put me in rehab and i really am grateful.

Not addictive my ass. Keep using it.

I miss oxy man. I've only done it a few times from my wife's old prescription but the time I took 40mg I could barely see and it was amazing

That honeslty sounds like as good a life as a dealer can have it except for all the party boy snitches. Howd you get into it?

Sounds like u have shitty Kratom, or you are taking very little. As far as skipping meals, I take it everyday...it is better on an empty stomache, I take about an hour be4 dinner...takes about 30 mins to kick in.

Have used everyday for over 2 years. If I miss a day is like not having my caffeine in the morning. Isn't like opiate withdrawl.

I can tell you this. If youre sober. Your family isn't going to abandon you. Your dad loves you alot for him to do that.. what helps for me is helping someone else who is struggling in recovery. Get out there and help the sober community. That's a great fucking purpose if you ask me. Everyone in recovery has these times of discontent. But it will pass. Stay strong brother

Kratom is very addictive my friend. Having been addicted to both h and kratom I'd take the h. Kratom makes you tired much quicker horrible stomach pains and very irritable. If you use it occasionally it's awesome but be careful because being able to go to the store anytime and get it can be a blessing and a curse. Make sure you get Bali if you do it though because it will feel like snorting h and you have to do 8 grams at least 16 capsules if you buy like that.

Havent touched an opiate in 3 years and that was just 2 days of fuck up after the first year. I replaced it with tons of alcohol though and its made me fat and sad. If what youre doing works then more power to you my dude. Honestly its healthier than my "legal" lifestyle.

ya..i when i fist did oxy it really made me feel 16 again..that does go away..i hate to think i am killing my liver to just feel normal...but damn games on pills what can i say

>When i was using i was filled with limitless purpose. Ever day i woke up and knew EXACTLY what I was going to do, what my life was about
u are the ultimate tweaker

I bought it at a smoke shop so for sure its shitty, I took between 6-9 grams the 4 times i did it.

Try working out or boxing. DO NOT do suboxone ornmethadone it's just a lifelong replacement trust me. Those clinics scam the shit outta people if you can distract yourself for a month or two by staying busy and working you will make it bud!

That sounds really good. Helping people has always been something I enjoy doing. Im afraid that my sobriety is fake though, and that id hurt more than i help.

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>>When i was using i was filled with limitless purpose. Ever day i woke up and knew EXACTLY what I was going to do, what my life was about
>u are the ultimate tweaker
>Implying tweakers wake up everyday

Have used everyday for over 2 years. If I miss a day is like not having my caffeine in the morning. Isn't like opiate withdrawl. There are many different good strains, I buy several kilos at a time and resell. Not trying to shill my business, just letting you know I have been doing this for a while with no harmful results. It may be people are getting shitty Kratom from their smoke shop, and not fresh from the farm.

I was going clean for two months but then I took some leftover tramadol I found last night. I felt pretty fucked up though, but now I am itching so bad and I really wanna drink or trip right about now. I want more, man.

I did H not criss, so i wasnt any kind of tweaker.
Also people underestimate the power of "purpose"
Motherfuckers blow themselves up for that shit.

Checked and yeah I'm right there with you

Ya, most packaged stuff being mass marketed is pretty shitty and old.

You can't hurt. Get out there and do service to the sober community. You will not regret it. Stop doubting yourself. You can and will make it through. I believe in you.

lol i fucking hated tweakers when i was using, either their asleep for 36 hours and useless; or i'm awake and trying to nod and those assholes are peaking out the windows and trying to fix my garbage disposal.
Like, motherfucker CHILL

I also feel pretty bummed now cuz I was just talking to some guys from an NA group the day before. They literally gave me my 60 day chip and now I did this. Fuckkk.

Liver? Do you use percs

But ive been drinking so much for almsot 2 years now. Id feel like a fraud in front of all the "program" people.

Yup I did my fair share of crystal but only mixed with H and I never liked it too much. Tweakers are gross and unpredictable. I'm glad I don't have to deal with people like that anymore though.

It's not so much the trip itself, it's more the freedom to know that I can trip whenever i want. I always had at least 6 weeks between tripping in the past

Yeah she has smoked weed, and also done shrooms once as well, long before I knew her

Its a nightmare man, but just dont hate yourself over this. That'l only make it worse.
If you want to talk at all id be happy to hear it.

Be honest. You can't be a fraud if you're honest. There's always room for improvement dude. No one is perfect. Work on your drinking now if you feel you need to. Just don't pick up that needle.

This is why I do coke, good high with manageable effects. Not once have I had withdrawal symptoms and I come and go from it as I choose, nothing negative other than a few hours of depression after the comedown

Nice. Some people can manage it. But don't let it get into your head that it won't fuck your life up. I know plenty of people that said the same thing you're saying now and are in jail or dead from coke. Be safe.

Have you told her that you consider the ability/freedom to trip is important to you? To me and many people ive known hallucinogens have been a borderline spiritual experience If you phrase it like that to her, and put it as a dialogue not an ultimatum, you could have a healthy talk about it. Maybe she wont love it, but she may understand.

Thank you man, I'm not sure i deserve the support. But thank you.

You are aware of your self though which is really good. You're gonna do great man. Get out there and make action.

Pnp adds on craigslist led me to it. I'm tryna upload a pic but my phone's being a bitch.

I get addicted to anything that makes me feel good. Alcohol, benzos, opiates, and Kratom, to name a few. Alcohol was definitely the worst, but kratom and opiates had very similar withdrawals imo

You've came this far. You do deserve it. Anyone trying to get sober and better themselves deserves support. Have a good one man. Glad i helped

>dead from coke
Nigger what
You'd have to be completely autistic to OD and I've never felt any agression or risky tendencies at all, I get more friendly and social is all

Sometimes when I'm drunk and run out of booze I drink lighter fluid.

I get that the money and lifestyle is great, I'm a straight 4chanish introvert and never lived that life, but I get how that infusion of money and sex can be intoxicating. Just be careful, not many drug dealers retired rich and old.

I've known people who ODd off slamming coke and a person in his 40s who had an incredibly premature heart attack and died from sniffing. It for sure can kill you.

Im not quite sure i believe you.

You have no idea what you're talking about. How about you read up on the things you do instead of being a blind retard.

No mouthwash or pure vanilla on hand?

I have no idea about the way coke makes me personally feel? You must be tweaking now you fucking junkie

I don't have much money but I grow potatoes to make really shit shine and between batches of that I get low on booze. Mouthwash is a bitch because it only has

wait no sorry. I meant to ask you what pure vanilla does. excuse my shit posting skills.

>implying coke cant kill you
>using only your not dead retard ass as prrof
being this retarded

Thanks, user. It just feels so annoying cuz I just gave in so easily after two months, and now I am here begging my sister for some of her benzos. Ugh. Feelsbadman.jpeg

fuck man there are better ways to get high than that. Honestly youd be safer doing dustoff or some other grimy shit. But for real if life is that bad run away, do anything else, find a better purpose. If nothing else, I care about your struggle and wish you well. Much Love.

my friend's giving me his old car at the end of august. Not long left until I do just that. Going to drive to the other side of the country and start over from scratch, no more booze, no more shit.

thanks for the kind words man.

Of course coke can kill you just like every single other drug you fucking faggot, and you'd have to literally have Down syndrome to reach that point. coke is make for extended use and has one of the fastest onsets. Stay salty with your debilitating junkie substances

Both mouthwash and the vanilla were desperation moves. I ran out of vodka and still had the shakes and other less pleasent things. I don't recommend either but vanilla contains anywhere from two to thirty five percent alcohol depending on brand

Enjoy the cardiomyopathy and descent into degeneracy. Fucking cokeheads i swear their all the same.

Kek Oh really? I've noticed you haven't taken it upon yourself to elaborate on what you do.. I think I can guess based on the thread

yeah my dude im OP i did heroin for a long time then stopped. Now i drunk way to much.

drink too much* even

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Its free other than your transportation there. But it has an incredible sucess rate

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Even better lmao you had to make an entire thread based on the life destroying effect your shit has had on you while I'm here railing lines with absolutely no consequence

Best advice is to quit drinking while you still can my friend opiate withdrawals make you wish you were dead. Alcohol withdrawals may actually kill you

projecting much

wow youre right 20 year olds who do cocaine by themselves have never been punished for it later.
Silly me to forget that.

Ibogaine treatment in Mexico would be a much easier option. I know a couple people that swear by it

>getting this butthurt
Stop trying to defend the fact that you couldn't handle your poison and got swept up in addiction, some people have self control

original formula Listerine is about 54 proof with 26.9% alcohol, and many of the mint flavored mouthwashes are almost 22% alcohol. The alcohol content of Scope weighs in at 18.9%, and Cepacol at 14%

im rolling hard as fuck on acid right now, ama while im still here