Were you molested as a kid? Did you date someone who was?

Were you molested as a kid? Did you date someone who was?

Did you keep it a secret or tell someone? Is it a bad memory or a good one now? and how has it affected your sexuality and kinks today?

Share your stories

>Were you molested as a kid?
No :(
I guess I was too ugly.

>be me
>be 7
>public pool
>alone because raised by single mother
>take off pants
>take off underwear
>man watching me, think nothing of it
>walks over to me says I'm attractive
>"okay"
>glides hang onto my genitals and fondles them
>no one else around
>uncomfortable.jpg
>leave quickly
>never mention it

never molested, though when I was 11 a guy tried to pay me money to get into his car and help him 'read a map'. It was like 630am and I was on my way to school. I never told anyone and for ages I had guilt that he'd kidnap some kid.

Mom fiddled my diddle from birth to puberty.
Everybody thought this was normal, and something kids needed as much as milk and diaper changes to be healthy.
There are some really sheltered microcultures out there...

>from birth to puberty
why the hell did she stop

what culture? Did she fiddle you to orgasm? Do it in front of people?

Wrap your brain around this one and weep for the death of logic:
"Because that's incest and that's wrong"

It wasn't incest before?
She suddenly knew what was right and wrong?

You tried to seem smart and you failed.
Try again

What I remember is getting a handjob with my bedtime story, and occasionally bath.
"What culture" one weird microcosm of a few 7th day families in a remote area of california.
The babydiddling is just the tip of the iceberg, as it were.

It wasn't public, or (allegedly) sexual in nature.

When I was about 4 or 5 my dad's lover would try to kiss me on my mouth she would use her tongue and everything. I'm a girl btw

found a porn tape under the couch and stuck it into the vcr when i was 4 probably fucked me up abit

was your dad there or was it only in private? How did it make you feel at the time?

Nice

>Were you molested as a kid?
Got fucked by a dude (and some of his friends, eventually) twice a week during ages 7 and 8. Loved it. (I'm a guy)

>Did you keep it a secret or tell someone?
Kept it a secret. I knew if I told someone it would end.

>Is it a bad memory or a good one now?
Definitely a good one. I wish I was still 7.

>how has it affected your sexuality and kinks today?
Hypersexuality aka nymphomania. I regularly go to the porno store arcade and suck a series of cocks and I've been gang fucked at the local gay sex club several times (hooray for Cumunion!), the local gay bar a few times, and some parties a few of times. Regular HIV tests, all negative, so far, in fact, I've never gotten anything.

Not that I know of. Though I have very strange almost hyper real dreams of weird stuff like that, but I think it's dreams more than repressed memories.

kek

I think so

I vaguely remember being in bed with my grandmother one time watching Terminator on TV.

After that I had weird stinging pains in my dick

Then we suddenly stopped seeing granny

I don't know if it's just a coincidence because I don't remember anything untoward physically happening.

what do you remember from the tape?

Tell us about the dreams, user.

Ever asked your parents about it?

nicccccce

>be me
>8 years old
>family friend is a foster parent
>some of her kids come to spend the night
>guy and 7/10 few years older
>fast forward to night
>bed not big enough so we sleep on the floor
>too early to sleep
>7/10 starts rubbing my crotch
>wtfareyoudoing.jpg
>reaches in my pants and keeps going
>begonethot.png
>start feeling weird
>kinda start to like it
>eventually stops and goes to bed
>fuckingtease.jpg
>never told parents
>never told anyone
>mfw I kinda liked getting molested
>wtf is wrong with me

how did it happen that you ended up getting fucked by this guy? Who was he to you?

you a man or woman?

would you consider yourself gay?

Dreams

Usually in them it's me around 5-6 years old or so, at an old familly friend's home, and after a catipilar(one of those white burning ones) burns me I end up asking her(My friend)s mother for help, she takes me into the bathroom, and from there she asks me to get naked even though my hand was what was burning, she then washes my hand when I was nude. I don't know why I have the dream, it's just super real, I remember the tree I touch and all, talking about ninja turtles at the time. It was weird.

Guy

Guy

Possibly. I'm pretty fucked up so I suspect I was.

A few months ago I "jokingly" mentioned to my sister that I was probably molested as a kid and she instantly clammed up, got a weird look and changed the subject.

Lucky, my gf never did that to me even and i rubbed her off snd sucked her tits

tits or gtfo

Some girl I know is being actively molested by her uncle
>mfw

pretty vanilla stuff, blonde chick and dude walk into this room with a bed that had one of those canopy things on it and he just rails her. it definitely fucked with me for awhile as i was trying to understand what i saw as a kid. now i love me some vintage porn though, something about the audio quality gets me

how are you fucked up? you male or female?

you think your sister did something or was maybe also a victim?

#neverlucky

how old is she and how do you know her? Does she like it or hate it?

I like to watch people shit on the floors. I'm female. I think I remember something about being shitted on

She never touches me inapropriatly in them or anythign, but it's weird that it's so vivid.

>be me 3
> hang out with family friend who was atleast 15
>she tells me about a game she wants to play with me
>sure I'll play.jpg
>she proceeds to touch my peepee and I grope her 15 year old tits
> make out
>this happens for months
>eventually get caught and we move away
I'm a horny piece of shit now I can't keep my hands off my dick and I jerk off atleast 3 times a day relationships are shit due to me being too sexual and not sexual at the same time no idea what I'm doing wrong,what do

>I was around 10, a lil boy
>I was sleeping in the same room that one of my big bros
>My bro was strange since mom died from cancer somme month ago
>One night he tried to present me a new game where he wanted me to touch his dick
>I didn't like it so he threatened me
>He touched me as well
>We did it for 2 month or so
>Until our dad discovered it
>My dad proteced me and sued m'y brother so he can be psycologycally supported and taken away from me and my lil sys
>The rest of my familly didn't agreed with him and defended my bro like what my bro did was nothing

It's what made it a very bad memory for me.

Maybe it's notre related but now i'm a pedo/furry and I feel sexually wrong.

Damn you have memories from when you were 3?
You got a good brain user

I dated a girl who was abused over the Internet. Horribly sad story, but she was kinky as fuck and absolutely submissive.

what do you remember exactly?

it's not so unusual, is it? I remember my 2nd birthday party

Yeah it's crazy how much I can remember from my childhood

tell us some of the story and what kinks she had?

He was a total stranger at first. I knocked on his door when I was "running away" from school and asked him if I could call my mom to come pick me up (long story, I was supposed to join the after-school math club, but they wouldn't let me join, plus problems at home = anger and fleeing school after being rejected by the stupid math club). He had porn playing, we watched it, and I ended up getting my dick sucked. I liked it, so I kept coming back every Monday and Wednesday for an hour when I was supposed to be in math club. I wasn't actually in the math club, so no one missed me at the school, and my parents thought I was in the math club, so they didn't miss me either for that hour.

yes & yes

not much story

>be me
>be 12
>public cinema
>girl next to me, 12-13yo
>she looks at me
>take my hand ant put in under hear skirt
>she have no panties
>she's shaved
>I got a booner
>she bend over me
>take out my hard penis
>uncomfortable.jpg
>start suck it
>did come 2 times under LOTR
>never seen her again
>

I was molested by a much older girl when I was in second grade. She said she was acting like a "big sister" when she took me to secluded places. Definitely bad memories and it fucked me up.

Just my preferences which have essentially no limits (aside from scat, which I find icky). Pretty much nothing bothers me and I can fap to anything.

My parents were missionaries and I spent a LOT of time in deep southern Mexico when I was a kid, along with dozens of churches in the USA ranging from normal to weird so there were plenty of opportunities. I don't remember anything though.

I do remember being the instigator in any kind of playing doctor and such when I was a kid though. I ran into several other kids who were most definitely sexually active at extremely young ages (down to about 4-5) even though I didn't understand it at the time.

always a story. Who did it and how old were you?

> Just my preferences which have essentially no limits (aside from scat, which I find icky). Pretty much nothing bothers me and I can fap to anything.

I think that's code for liking pizza, right?

>be me long ago
>be 5
>neighbor kids around 10 and 12 bring me into their home
>they put in their dad's VHS tape
>it's about 15-20 couples in a very large room all fucking on the floor
>I was astonished
>nothing more came of that

Later...

>be me, still 5
>neighbor from the other direction is a qt gril probably 6
>she has a rock tumbler
>she gives me a polished rock

on another occasion...
>she shows me her vagina
>she asks to see my penis
>I comply
>she asks me to touch her vagina
>I comply
>the knowledge from the porno escaped me
>I did not smash

How this affected me: I really love vaginas. I also collected rocks for years after that.

>God bless you, neighbor girl. I will never forget.

I remember showering with my mom when I was younger. Then she just dropped a big shit in the shower and a lot of it hit me. Then she was cleaning it off of me and I forget what happens after that

I'd rather not go into too much detail (she was young and it went on for a while). The guy's a scumbag loser though. I'd do something about it but he's on the other side of the planet.

Male supremacy, beating, throatfucking, being tied up. If you've never been on top of a girl with your fingers hooked down her throat pulling her into your dick between thrusts, then you haven't lived. She'd do anal and ass to mouth as well. Sometimes I'd tell her about how women were worthless and meant only to serve cock, and she'd just explode. Spit in her face, make her suck her buttplug during anal sex, etc.

Get you a freaky one.

Torture (real or fake), zoo, traps, midgets, whatever.

oh and I've tried to fuck dead animals lol

>Then she just dropped a big shit in the shower and a lot of it hit me.

not that i recall but me and my babysitter showered/bathed together a lot. she usually did all/most of the work washing me.

tyring hard to validate pedophilia

Live in simple shithole, classic European alcoholic step dad. late night, 12 years old and overly tired, larger man gets in my bed grabs my balls and sticks it in my ass. I already had an undying hatred, changed it into the deep withheld apocalyptic style hatred.

Shit memory I need as decomposed as possible. Think my sexuality is healthy, just my trust crap. I deal with relationships like a drug im taking, worried of the negatives of having too much, but love the refresh of a good session. Testicles are a weird thing, some of my worst nightmares are just reliving the pain of someone going for your weakest spot and making a point of it.

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Such a similar story, actually. A very hypersexualized home environment, but not negative at all from my perspective. Parents leading overt Dom/submissive relationship, sex dungeon, etc, I thought all this was normal. Still do :)

The local Cumunion spot is just around the block from my apartment, so much funsies :)

kinky AND a hot body? nice.

how long did you date her for?

na i was the 3/4 attention people on school
pretty girls used to like me and never tell me so i knew until we where almost in middle school
dat sucked

... He specifically said it was shitty reasoning...

Six years. Here are some more.

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I'm worried I was molested as a kid and I'm just repressing the memory. It would explain a lot about me.
But then again, I was a fat kid so I doubt anyone would be that tempted.

Used to play with neighbour girl. We were both about 7-8 and had already done the you touch mine I'll touch yours thing.

One day playing vidya at her house, her older brother showed us porn vhs, then asks if we wanna play like the film.

End up with her sucking me off and him guiding me how to fuck her. Didn't really work well but I did manage to penetrate. Brother was just stood there jacking and talking us through it. He bust his nut on her face.

Oh shit bro. I totally misread that. I thought you were insulting me. Sorry

Heh, I did some weird stuff as kid, all consensual and mostly between kids of the same age.
Yet, I can't shake the feeling, that I'm missing something. Like there is an important event in my life, I just forgot/repressed.

tell more. this is fascinating. I've run into people who grew up in "micro communities" as you called them who had pretty differnt views on sex.

please keep going I 'm incredibly interested - not just about sex, but other things about your community / life.

I'll write up my molestation story in another post.

moar?

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did it seem like he already did stuff with her and she knew what she was doing?

never any repeats?

and... erm... did she look cute with cum on her face?

Sharjah Ruler did

Along with current Dubai Ruler.

Khalifa Bin Zayed

Mohammed Bin Zayed

Sarah Palin

Kevin Rudd

Tony Abott

and many others who thought it would be nice to molest sheikh Zayed son because he was against them.

I was 4 at that time, but they get getting rekt by Karma..

I grew up in the system so I was very vunerable, it would make sense.

I wonder if there's a way to unrepress a memory. I don't want to suddenly wake up when I'm 40 and remember what happened. If it happened, I'd rather know now so I can kill whoever did it.

I got so used to being shitted on this website I got defensive and thought you were insulting me. Just ignore that post I was being an retard

wut

you m or f? I dunno about repressed memory bullshit. Growing up in the system might be enough to fuck you up without needing repressed molestation.

do.

Dated a chick that acted like she was abused. We got drunk sometimes and she often mentioned that she was abused when she was a child but never went into detail. One time she finally revealed this abuse was her mother slapping her in the face. Kek. Fucking bitch. She was only using an excuse to act crazy and for me to have some pity or something.

>weird memories from being young. Never felt close to my dad, but I always got these warm fuzzy feelings around this family friend. He used to baby sit me sometimes, but no specific memories. Family friend it turns out is gay AF, and when my fam finds out he isn't welcome anymore.

>10 years old, stay at friends house. ask him if he wants to see something that feels good. I start sucking his dick. Not sure how I know this. He tells his parents. he tells other kids at school. I get isolated pretty quickly lose all my friends in 4th grade/ 5th grade. was very sad. I thought alot about sex at that age.

>looking back, I think that family friend ( or my mom - who lacks boundaries ) used to give me head / play with my dick. No concrete memories.

>always seem to end up dating people who were molested as kids.
>gf1 was fucked by her dad. it fucked her up, but turned me on - couldn't ever mention that though.

>gf2 said she her dad would come in drunk at night and touch her. She got sent off to super expensive "reform" school. We fucked a few times - but she clearly had issues and relationship ended.

>gf3 says she wasn't molested, but has all the signs. Into violent sex / choking / etc. Her dad talks about sex too much with her, and she fucked one of her dad's friends during holiday break one year. she once told me "never ask me how many people I've slept with". Her dad used to run like a "porn duplication" thing when VHS whas a thing, but she said he quit when it turned out one of the girls was underaged. So lots of red flags there

I dunno list goes on and on.

Now you're a fag and don't know any math congratulations, user.

...

Mhmm, I'm carefully trying drugs to explore my mind. But I'm bretty sure the worst thing I'll realize is, that I'm a faggot.
Having memories of abuse come up, might not be that fun.
Have you considered a therapist? I think it would really help to have someone write down my thoughts, so I can explore them later. He wouldn't even need to comment or guide the process, just give me stepping stones from which to start.

Male.

You're probably right, something just doesn't feel right.

My oldest brother is a convicted paedophile but since I was in the system, he never got to me.

>be me about 7 years old
> have a 13 year old sister who is always on the phone with her girlfriends
>one day she puts the phone to my ear and tells me that her friend wants to tell me something
> "hey user you're really cute, can I give you a bj?"
> don't even know what a bj is
>"yeah okay"
>leave and can hear sister laughing

>fast froward a month and sister is having a slumber party with friends and phone friend
>they're all playing truth or dare outside, it's late so I'm in my room trying to sleep but cant do to noise
>hear phone friend giggling and my door creak open
>too nervous to say anything so I pretend to be asleep
>she comes up to me and whispers asking if I'm awake
> don't say anything
> she reaches underneath the covers and laughs, I sleep nude
> starts playing with my dick
> little boy boner, pretend to be asleep still
> she kneels over and starts sucking
>feel really weird, tingling all over
>don't really enjoy it at the time, it feels weird and I'm closing my eyes tighter
>she stops after a while and kisses my head
>leaves the room
>next day sister teases me asking if I had a good night

I don't remember much of it honestly. I was around 7 or 8, home alone with a friend and pervy stepdad. We asked him if we could run around the house naked, he let us, and soon after, he stripped down as well. I was a kid, being naked was no more than something humorous. I hate talking about anything that happened after that but you can guess what it was. I usually wouldn't even say anything about it but my grandmother mentioned it the other day and I found myself extremely uncomfortable.

I believe it is part of the reason I am depressed today, in a way I blame myself for it, but since another person was a victim as well I don't think I will ever be able to forgive myself for that even though i was a child. I don't have contact with that friend today. We haven't seen one another after the incident, I have no idea where she ended up, i hope in a better place than I am. I don't think it affected my sexuality in any way, but after it happened, I became a scapegoat for the rest of my family. Whenever my cousins did something bad, I would get blamed for it whenever I was around, i was apparently a "bad influence" because of what happened to me.

Today it is mostly a blur and it stays out of my mind most of the time, it didn't ruin me, i still have aspirations.

If you read this I am sorry for such a long post. I figured might as well share my story.

> >gf1 was fucked by her dad. it fucked her up, but turned me on - couldn't ever mention that though.

I know that feel user. the holy grail are the girls who turn those bad memories into good fetishes and fantasies. Nothing hotter than a woman playing like she's 7, calling you daddy while you fuck her, knowing she's playing out her real daddy in her 7yo pussy.

That's one things I don't get about these so-called microcosms like "naturists". They strongly claim "not sexual" knowing damn well it fucking is. My friend used convoluted explanations and strongly defended her reasoning to the point she realized she was repeating my points. Turns out she has had a thing for her dad and step-mom for a long time and they wouldn't reciprocate. I don't mind it, I believe it's beautiful. She was gangraped as a very little girl, so I can see why she (like many survivors) would gravitate to that lifestyle where they don't hurt kids, but go for the whole "primitive beauty of human life & simplicity" sort of thing.

7th Day families though?
You've seen some shit, user, I'm sure of it.

She's 17 I'm 18, I know her because she's my exs best friend (we got close at around the end of the relationship) and she's distressed but won't give details

are you dating my sister lol. that sounds like her. but she is actually fucked up BPD, and she obsesses about 2 "abuse" incidents, while ignoring the more real problems that we were basically abandoned by our mother, and that our dad is a well meaning shitfucker, but still a shitfucker.

I wrote

I tried the drug thing but nothing ever came up. But it definitely helped with other shit.

If you have the ability to trust a therepist then you're in a good position. They deal with this kinda shit all the time so that's probably a good idea.

your friend is a naturist? How old was she when she was gangraped and what happened?

Did she try anything with her dad and stepmom?

yeah I feel bad for kids like that. I've never run into anyone who had it turn out to be a good experience ( male on female ) ... but I've run int a bunch of guys were molested by other guys where it felt good / didn't fuck them up ect.

I'm not sure what the difference is.

Kek

>be me around 8
>be a male
>play around the room with female cousin and her brother of the same age
>everything is fine
>we get tired
>eventually lay down in the same matress
>i lay beside the girl while her brother lays down on our feet
>get a small boner due to touching and scratching cousin's warm skin
>take her hand and put in my boner
>she likes it
>reaches for my underwear
>she starts to stroke and i get even harder
>put my hand in a pussy for the first time of my life
>don't really know what to do with it
>stroke it too
>spend 30 minutes or so doing so
>no one noticed
>don't tell anyone
>don't ever see this girl again since parents divorced and she in my dad's side of the family

recovering "repressed memories" usually just results in giving yourself fake memories, don't mess around with that. Even if you magically "remember" it still could be fake. Better to live like nothing happened than get a memory that could be fake. Just live your life and don't put yourself thru something that might have not even happened.

I was molested when I was 12 by a friend of my moms and her husband. She'd babysit me while she and my dad were at work. They'd undress and undress me and "cuddle" me together on their bed. Husband would get a hard on and rub me. Wife would lick me and then fuck her husband in front of me. This went on for a year until my mom thought I could be left alone during the day. I wasn't traumatized. I have a normal sexual appetite and I have good relationships with all my girlfriends, it was just something that happened. Never discussed it with my parents either.

> I've never run into anyone who had it turn out to be a good experience ( male on female )

I have, though it's a minority to be sure.

More common is those women who had a bad experience but were left with a big DDLG or ageplay or even full on pedo kink,

you're a guy I assume. By 12 I was already fapping and fantasizing. Were you?

my ex was partially molested. when she was very little some dude took her into his apartment and smelled her underwear. she got scared, started screaming, and ran away. the dude let her go. maybe he got scared he would get caught.