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>wife and I have been married for 8 years
>been watching cuck porn for past several months and find it incredibly arousing to me
>finally work up the courage to ask wife to do it before anniversary
>reluctant at first but agrees
>we end up finding a 6’ foot black guy (i have a black bull fantasy)
>comes over and i introduce my wife then we go to the bedroom
>he pushed her on the bed, takes off her panties and starts eating her out
>both enjoying it and so am i
>he then pins her hands over her head and begins kissing her on the neck
>he then begins to penetrate her
>she moaned deeply with lust and satisfaction and at this moment my stomach dropped
>quickly realized that when i was watching cuck porn i wasn’t getting off on being the cuck but rather i was getting off on being the bull
>felt sick but they were already fucking so i sat there and said nothing
>he creams the inside of her pussy and i rushed him out as he was done
>tell my wife to take a shower and didn’t mentioned a word about since
For the past couple of days i keep thinking about the way incident. The way she moaned, the way she grabbed him and looked into his eyes
I can’t stop crying that i let this happen and now i feel like killing myself is the only way out of this