I just need to clear my conscience as I slept with an escort yesterday

I just need to clear my conscience as I slept with an escort yesterday.

I have a girlfriend who I've lived with for four years. She is out of the country for work and she has been the only person I've ever slept with. So during the weeks leading up to her being out if the country I've essentially become obsessed with sleeping with someone else.

I tried craigslist for the last week but only got responses from scammers or had no replies. I got a little drunk and ended up on an escort site were I ordered a hooker.

The woman that turned up was clearly not the person advertised but as she got here we got straigt to it and I just couldn't get hard.

I think I was already feeling bad and it wasn't until she started giving me head I got hard and we fucked with her on top.

Didn't last long, maybe about 5 mins as I kinda just wanted to get over with it as I couldn't kiss her or really feel her up.

I honestly had a really bad experience and realised there is a difference between a fuck and sleeping with someone you love but I can't shake this gut feeling of guilt.

I've tried to watch a few comedy specials to take my mind off it but they keep demonizing people that have cheated.

I think I just needed to tell someone so I came here, Thanks for listening.

You're fucked. Kill yourself.

You fucked up, OP. Hard. You don't ever betray the person you love.

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Just live with it or end yourself. Telling it her is worst thing you can do

I feel you OP been with the girl that was made for me for a year and cheated on her 3 times between February and June and texted one of the 3 just 2 days ago. I can't even look at my gf and feel worthy of her anymore. I just tell myself can't change the past can only do better in the future. But I continue to be a horny and drunken sorry excuse for a man. I'm working on it. Don't tell her though. You fucked up. It is selfish as hell to crush her just so you don't feel as bad.

Nice reddit spaces you fucktard. Sex with prostitute is not real sex, it's kind of a fantasy with real elements. Especially when it's with condom. So continue with your life, that never happened.

Your problem was that you dreamed and lived the experience before hand, and then when reality happened, the fantasy ended.

Also western prostitutes suck, If you'd had a proper girl she would make it her job to have you forget about your girlfriend.

>I've essentially become obsessed with sleeping with someone else.
retarded.
your only decent move now is to break up when gf returns.
You can choose whether to tell her about the cheating or pussy the fuck out and tell her some bullshit about you drifting apart and the attraction not being there anymore.
This decision will allow you to discover what kind of person you are.
The longer you continue the present relationship, the harder the inevitable fall. Bite the bullet.

You're weak, OP. I got cheated on in my first "true love" relationship, so, for self preservation, I have cheated on every gf I've had since.

I regularly fuck backpage escorts and have never gotten caught. You just didn't get a good one on your first try. Never have then come to you...in calls only.

>married 10 years.

people who cheat are objectively shitty people unless the relationship is basically over and you break up right after (sometimes you can't time a breakup right). OP you fucked up and you'll have to live with the fact that she would NEVER want to be with you if she knew the truth. The only thing you can do is tell her the truth and accept whatever decision she makes.

>I need

You want. Just like the escort.

For her. OP wants us to consider his feelings and help him with his fuckup in exchange f...hmm.

I can't really tell her, She is heavily depressed and whilst we are going through a rough period I do truly love her, Which I know sounds corny as fuck.

I'm just trying to come to terms with it.

enjoy your aids stupid nigger

So now when you give her STDs you can just like and say she's the whore who's been sleeping around, really tight game plan fag your a true nigger now.

>she is heavily depressed so because I love her I fucked someone else while she was working, likely supporting my ass to boot

Haha no you don't. You think you do but the real fact is if you did you would have never even had that urge while she was gone.

There's something to be said for feeling bad about it.

If you're going to tell her, the time is now. If not, and you're sincerely remorseful, don't do it again and avoid situations that may tempt you.

He feels bad because he can't take it back, kek. There is almost nothing to be said for feeling bad except that it usually means you fucked up.

Yeah and how about get tested before you fuck her over too.

Don't feel bad your gf probably cheated too
probably didn't even have to pay for it too

She probably fucks someone else right now anyways, so good job OP

nothing in it, you pussy, i do it at least a few times a year

fucking beta weakling

Who cares? Monogamy is a ridiculous social construct. Keep fucking strangers until you get over your conformist affliction, bitch.

bro just watch the hangover if you must try to justify your behaviour. one of the main dudes cheats on his fiance and it's all just one big joke.