Hey Sup Forums I was wondering if any of you were experiencing or have experienced something similar...

Hey Sup Forums I was wondering if any of you were experiencing or have experienced something similar.. I have been having a hard time getting myself to do anything besides smoking weed. I know weed isn't the issue because I have done it for years now but recently I'm just not the same. I feel like I lost my personality and am just existing... not contributing to society. Has Sup Forums ever lost who they were?

bro I'm 33 and I sit back and go "is this really what I'm supposed to do until my 60s" .. just work and live.

wtf is the point of this life.

Dude.. I am 20 and I worked a cubicle internship this summer.... sat behind a desk for 55 hours a week. I guess this is life but this feeling seems like it has been working its way into me. killing my whole personality bit by bit...

OP what is your age, sex, race, nationality and religion, if you don't mind me asking?

20/white/m other two don't really pertain, do they?

>I know weed isn't the issue
That is your issue.

>I have been having a hard time getting myself to do anything besides smoking weed.

That's 'cause you're smoking weed.

I have thought of this a great deal. The question of meaning. I ask about your religious perspective because that can have much to do with one’s perspective, though not necessarily well-being. Not that you’d find anything I have to say useful, but at least I could speak from a better sense of where your head is at.

Shouldn’t ask about religion, more like: What is your existential perspective? Do you think there is a God in the heavens watching you and requiring of you a certain ethical code? Are you dubious about this prospect? Do you think we are evolved creatures or do you think we were crafted in some more metaphysical way, by a God or Gods?

it's the weed user. Why even bring it up unless you knew it yourself?

Take a break from smoking weed and develop other hobbies, skills, or passions.

Am I the only one taking this guy’s post seriously? Alright.

To ask what is worth living for one needs to know what a human being is. What have we humans traditionally found worth living for?

We can’t know exactly how it was inside the heads of our ancestors these past tens of thousands of years we evolved bigger brains, but we do have some idea of how they lived. Small tribes. It was a constant struggle to fight, eat, fuck and raise the next generation. Also being relatively illiterate, (up until just recently in evolutionary terms) means that we humans were likely under constant distraction by the drama of living. We probably just enjoyed having whatever reprieve we could get from the struggle. And imagine how crude humans have been when we looked at the stars and imagined what it was all about! How much more sophisticated our understanding of it all is now!

Our current intelligence, technologies and our storehouse of human learning comes at a price. We have the luxury to navel gaze like never before. We modern humans who are at least average in intelligence are apt to feel the weight of our own consciousness, of our own recognition of the speck we are in the infinite void of space.

Add to that the mundane ways we must feed and house ourselves, with jobs that are comfortable but mind-numbingly specialized, and it all seems to feel like the proverbial hamster being run on the wheel over and over again. And we are more conscious of life and the world as a cage than our ancestors ever could have been. At least they could more easily delude themselves with the reality of some great deity. Much harder to live in the semi-unconscious glaze that they must have been under. Again, it’s comfortable and privilege to be alive to day, but it probably does exact its own unique cost on the pschye.

Lifetime weed smoker.
Sorry but it is weed man smoke a bit less for a week or two youll be fine

god i hate philosophers.

no it's the weed. There's a reason we are all saying it, we've all been there.

I am a deist more than anything... I'm still quite confused. I believe in evolution and the big bang (huge science/math guy so I'm quite logical with things.) I don't know our purpose here on Earth or if we have one other than to be a conscious being. We are nothing but we can still make the best of our little world.

The drama of everyday life is stressful as fuck. I can't manage needing a phone, laptop, and books and all this shit for school and the amount of social interactions we have on a daily basis is pretty insane. I have learned a lot about humans and listened to a lot of philosophy to try and gain insight but whew that makes things more complicated. Daily stimulus has driven me insane.
It's hard to be successful and do things in life. Everything requires money, which in order to get money you need a college education, which requires a fuckload of work(currently) and life is one big constant wait.. We just wait and wait and wait for the thing we call "success" that we never achieve. I just wanna be happy man

So if that is the predicament what is the solution? Charles Murray wrote some good stuff on this subject. It's worth looking into. (Everything he wrote is worth looking into) But his is prescriptive. I keep it more simple.

I like to think of overcoming the malaise of life as something like this song from Squirrel Nut Zippers:

Trou Macacq

this is the story of the trou macacq, the pine box derby, the monkey track
This is the story of the trou macacq, the pine box derby, the monkey track
Not what i heard or saw on tv,
But what i witnessed entirely
Each bend in the road was infact another curve on the monkey track
Once upon a time we thought we were free
And had control over destiny
We saw ourselves a competent band
Able to reason, prosper and plan
But we had a chamber up in the moon
Circumstance made us change our tune
When the veil was torn from our face
We became the monkeys riding the race
Monkey!
You think you got the stuff it takes to break away!
Boy youll be on the track every day
Find more lyrics at Mojim.com
Talent, vigor,drive
Youll eat peanut butter the rest of your life
And these last things you can arrange
Find other people equally strange
Stuff yourselves in the van and ride the pine box derby to the finish line
I said: chris p. rides on a serious plan
Hes going to finish as fast as he can
The escalator takes it personally
And does not drive professionally
Charming enchantress and bones can run
Even if the winshield wipers are on
I the broadcaster avoid police
But the bat was led into custody

The lines: "And these last things you can arrange, find other people equally strange. Stuff yourselves in the van and ride the pine box derby to the finish line." That sums it up for me.

But there is much right now that prevents us from finding the people "equally strange" and doing what we wish to do. That is a whole different topic.

I avoid hanging out with people just to watch eat, smoke, watch shows while playing vidya. I even have a gf but I need help because this is all I ever want to do and it is definitely the weed.

I am depressed because I smoke and I smoke because I am depressed.

>it's not the weed
Kek

yeah, finding people equally strange is rough, I am a very lonely fella...
btw
>Find more lyrics at Mojim.com
made me lol

What the fuck you faggots talking about?

Facts.. too bad I got dumped by my gf of 4 years not too long ago and everyone around me smokes, watches tv, plays vidya and shit idk but they all seem happy / seem to have it together...

Yes I realize it is the weed. I wanna stop but it's my crutch for being so fkn lonely

So I wrote all that above about the monkey track, etc. I continue.

I am an atheist. I have a degree in philosophy. I am an old dude. For any man who genuinely carries the existential burden that is the nihilism of life, that struggles to find inspiration to act, I have this proposition: Find your crew and go on an adventure.

Also, I am a race realist. This necessity for the Faustian adventure has been more pronounced in white men than for white women or any other race. No slight to other races but that is how it has been historically. (Higher IQ peoples seem to share in this as well, eg the East Asians.) I think there are evolutionary reasons for this.

Never has there been a better time to go on a grand adventure. Never have humans had the capacity to do exhilarating, enlightening, unprecedented things.

But all is not well when it comes to taking this path. To live the Faustian adventure requires freedom. We do not live free. Across the Western world our freedom is imperiled and we have been reduced to consumers and worker drones. It crushes the spirt of the Faustian man.

(Will continue)

I have and will continue to. I feel like my desire for adventure and lack of motivation kinda fuck eachother up. Also I have really bad anxiety. Mostly when there are a lot of people idk around

That's why you keep continuing your education and work toward starting your own business.
Don't be a wagecuck for your entire life, use the skills you learn through work to be an entrepreneur.

I'm currently just finishing my second bachelors degree, then getting my masters, then I'm hoping to start up my own business which I've been slowly working towards for the past like 5 years.
I cannot fathom having to work a normal job for my entire life, I don't think I could handle it.

Continued...

Consider the modern working environment. (I will use the word fascist to personify the offenses against our freedom.)

If you are an employer you are not allowed to simply hire who you want. The fascist will overlook you at first, when you are small, but if you have any success the fascist will check that you have the appropriate people in your employ. The fascist will not allow you to simply choose who you wish to have this adventure with, this adventure to all make a living together doing something you care about. The fascist will demand that you have what the fascist deems is the appropriate number of women and minorities. The fascist will see if you are abiding by the dictates of thousands of regulations, all intended “for your own good,” containing the fascist’s notion of everything from general commerce to protecting the environment. The fascist will not tolerate dissent. The fascist will require you to employ people on your staff who specifically tend to the requirement the fascist is obeyed. The fascist will seize your business if you refuse his dictates. Even more, those in your employ may also give offense to the fascist and you may be required to pay for it, aggrandizing the pay of lawyers and bureaucrats even as your business crumbles to bankruptcy.

As an employee you are under similar restraint. You are under severe restrictions on your speech. Political opinions are not tolerated if they are deemed too anti-social or divisive. Political opinions approved by the fascists are given far more leniency. You may not give offense, so you must watch your actions and speech to see that the people around you do not find you in violation. Flirting and spontaneity become dangerous. Verbalizing differences having to do with culture and race is a landmine, subjecting one to the possibility of being fired. One can be branded with the heretical labels that the fascists have deemed unacceptable in our society.

(To be continued)

>I know weed isn't the issue because I have done it for years

(Continued)

All this is much worse if you are a white male. The fascist particularly hates you. The fascist believes the white male must be humbled and his influences lessened. This resentment is born out of the fact white males built modern civilization. They are deemed most dangerous to the new social order.

We used to have a bulwark against this sort of oppression. It was the ethos of liberty, sustained by a relatively homogeneous, high IQ population. No other economic, cultural and political situation could be better than what was envisioned by those old classical liberals who wanted freedom from the dictates of religion and king.

It wasn’t that they despised religions and kings, quite the contrary, they simply wanted the freedom to choose their own “kings,” their own religions- even if that meant they became their own king and their own religion! Liberty was the thing, and that included the liberty to give offense, to think and say offensive things, even to behave in offensive ways provided they weren’t criminal in the sense of force or fraud to others, or the violation of others property.

Gr8 b8 m8 i r8 8/8

(Continued)

So even though Europe, and especially America, freed itself from the authoritarian tyranny of religions and from the cruder sorts of tyranny of kings, we simply replaced that tyranny with the new fascist religion of egalitarianism. This new secular morality is every bit as oppressive as the traditional ones. It commands that you do not have the freedom to act against it. You must subject yourself to the new authority every bit as much as those authorities your ancestors struggled against and eventually went to war fighting.

In other words, the terminology has changed but the oppression still serves the same purpose- putting a moral veneer on the totalitarian control by an elite. Western man no longer crumples under the charge of heresy or offense to the king. Western man crumples under the charge of not being “tolerant.” He wilts and becomes servile when branded a racist or sexist or homophobe or any number of new sins that have been concocted to control him.

(To be continued)

Continued:

The result is the same now as it was traditionally. Unable to form adequate alliances against this tyranny the individual is reduced to a consumer and slave-like contributor to the economy. Not only is he unable to hire and fire who he wishes but his very private associations are now controlled.

It is not possible to find “other people equally strange” and have your own exclusive community. Exclusive communities violate discrimination laws. The fascist will not allow that, consumer. You may only think and act as an individual according to what the fascist allows. Even the expression of intent to restrict on some personal basis your private associations is an offense to the new religion. Not a heretics brand but a brand none-the-less. You will be stripped of your livelihood and reputation.

(To be continued)

that's the advice everyone is given idiot.."Durrrr just start your own business" that shit will happen to 2% of people who hear it. Shit can be just a taxful and stressful anyway unless you know what you're doing which most of you don't

It's not like you have to start a business and make bank, you just need enough to live off or enough to at least cut down hours with whatever other job you're doing.
If you stay a wageslave you'll an hero

Continued:

The fascist is not yet done stripping us of our freedom, for the internet too must now be censored and violators of the fascist dictates drug into the light of their twisted justice. America resists this the most, but it is already happening in Britain and Europe that the fascist extends his greedy hand to punish those who make comments on the internet offensive to his interests. Laws are being put in place as we speak. All major social networks have fallen to the pressure of the fascist and his tyranny is currently increasing rapidly.

The fascist targets the white man most of all, his biggest threat. The white man particularly has been vilified as the evil of history. He has been shamed and mocked in his own academia and his own media by the fascist. He is now so low and without form that the time is ripe to throw open the doors to all Western nations and see that the white man never has freedom again.

With a flood of low IQ, alien peoples the Western nations will fall into dysfunction, perhaps forever. People will be further atomized, becoming little more than sheep who work, eat and sleep in and endless loop. The fascist encourages this fate because he is extremely wealthy and extremely powerful. In his mind an enemy has been put under his control, has been made his slave.

(To be continued)

Continued:

So we men of the West smoke weed and play video games to medicate ourselves against a vapid existence. Even our children start to seem less and less our own. As the schools are also subject to the dictates of the fascist our children our propagandized to perpetuate the tyranny. We must pay the bills so we go to our own cage and send the children to theirs. We realize that we aren’t the influence on our own children that we hoped we would be. After all, we no longer have the freedom of association to build the kind of community around them that would protect them. And we sink further and further into despair.

It may be a comfortable existence, one filled with modern distractions, but it is soul-killing for the Faustian man, the man of bold spirit.

Until we wake up and throw off this tyranny we will not truly be free to take our own path, whether that be grand or small, with people of our own choosing in a community that is truly derived by organic choice of those involved.

(To be continued)

Continued:

Freedom of association used to be sacrosanct to the ethos of liberty. In America particularly. But even in America it is no more.

This is the most fundamental freedom we have lost, for when freedom of association is lost the ability to form into tribes that give meaning to life is also lost. We become detached, isolated, without purpose, and with enough propaganda we even call ourselves free when we are not.

Individualism is a noble ideal. I believe it is a very high and workable ideal as regards the relationship of a citizen to the law, to the government. But it is not how we humans evolved to live. We evolved to live in groups. We have power when we are with our band of brothers doing something that matters to us. When we are herded like sheep, no different from the other farm animals, to a neighborhood composition designed by our fascist overlords, to a job with fascist limitations, we lose our soul. (I am an atheist, of course I speak symbolically.)

(To be continued)

OP don't listen. This one has autism.

You are such a colossal faggot.

Continued:

So I would like to tell you, young man, to throw off your depression and find your band of brothers, but it is not so simple. There is a war on. The enemy has already declared war against you, though you may not realize it.

Understand that the classical liberal tradition was not meant to reduce us to individuals. Quite the contrary. It was to free us from the burden of a collective totalitarianism that required obedience to a certain ruling class or religion. In that space we were meant to form voluntary associations and live out our own particular adventure. When one gets the concept of the insights of those old, freedom-loving gentlemen it is enough to bring a tear to the eye.

(To be continued)

you just redeemed yourself. You are no longer a faggot.

Continued:

Yet it has all fallen apart. We allowed socialists and progressives and Marxists to corrupt the very idea of freedom. We have allowed them to take control. We have allowed them to strip our identity as a people.

For make no mistake about it, race is real. It never stopped being real in every sense. It never stopped being real as regards the biological reality of race and it never stopped being real to all the other races of the earth that define themselves in contradistinction to white people. And they are all agreed- we are racist and need to give more to them. If that isn’t racism I don’t know what is. But it is acceptable because the white man is the one who must be lowered so we are all equally unfree, so we are equally subject to the tyranny that otherwise the white man would organize against.

It may be possible for various ethnicities to coexist peacefully, even happily, but we have yet to achieve it. One thing is certain, racial integration will never be successfully achieved in an atmosphere where the racism is defined as bringing to heel the white man.

(To be continued)

Continued:

So the battle is on. Your generation will feel the brunt of it.

To reclaim a life of meaning is to reclaim our freedom to build up a tribe and live our adventure. When this is frustrated the first order of business is to go to war with whatever is impeding that. So for now we must find the band of brothers who are also awakened to the menace, then we must link together as many of these as possible to form a real front in the war against our liberty.

We will no longer be told who we can and cannot hire for our own business. We will no longer be told how we must speak and act in our own private lives, including in our own places of business. Although property laws are still important, we will no longer be told who we must have living in our neighborhoods, or who we must associate with in our private affairs and private institutions. We will no longer be subject to speech codes and “hate” laws. We will no longer be sent to war for the elite, nor will we allow our prosperity to be parasitized by the elite. WE WANT OUR FREEDOM BACK.

(To be continued)

Continued:

We will take education back. We will no longer allow our children to be propagandized against us, propagandized into becoming another generation of slaves for the fascists.

We will take back the media. We will no longer allow lies against us to go unchallenged. We will no longer passively allow the weakening of ourselves and everything we love by those who wish to demean us, to take from us the glorious inheritance our ancestors gave us. We will no longer cower in shame because they want us to. Instead we will recognize the predatory glint in their eyes. We will steel ourselves for the battle and put the predators in their place.

We must do this, our future depends on it. Otherwise your children will suffer an existence even more crushing than your own, for they will be confronted with a poverty and chaos that we do not yet experience.

(To be continued)

Continued:

That is all I have to say. I have struggled with the existential dilemma you are feeling for a lifetime, OP, and my conclusions come after many hours of study and consideration.

If you can bring yourself to it I would recommend the following sources for enlightenment. I do not agree with every position espoused by the following but they have taught me much:

Charles Murray (pretty much everything he wrote), The American Renaissance, The Mises Institute, Tom Woods, Murray Rothbard, Thomas DiLorenzo, Friedrich Hayek.

May we have the will to fight the good fight, my brother, and may I see you someday in the dining hall of Valhalla.

>"our own recognition of the speck we are in the infinite void of space"

>thinking space is real

kys

>I'm quite logical with things
>I believe in the big bang

pick one

It's been the same for me for a while now, also feel "it's not the weed" cause I know I felt like this before I ever started, but I think the difference is I could still sort of put it away and do shit.

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Ive skimmed this thread quickly and this is all ive seen

its hard to solve problems with this external locus. To blame is not the weed, it doesnt choose who smokes it, its your choice to use it to escape from life in a cheap and lazy way.

Satisfaction is earned, not handed out for free. If you want cheap bliss go get yourself some heroin and waste your life away as another spiking piece of shit.

Stop smoking weed, do something that you've always thought that you 'totally should do' but never managed to get around to, and do it.

This could be some simple responsibility, some activity, some art form, w.e. maybe just go out of your way to help somebody with something that they are working on. Once you do something, you'll find it actually feels really good to mildly improve yourself or improve the life of somebody else.

That happened to me before I even smoked weed. It's called an existential crisis and means you are ready to relearn everything you thought you knew and start the next chapter of your life. Be excited but also aware that tough times area ahead.. good luck user.

>(To be continued)
Pls no. Stop. The euphoria is unbearable and I didnt even read 90% of it