Hi fag, wat do thread

hi fag, wat do thread

>be me, 17 in college
>like gore and blood, get turned on by it too
>fapwithblood.jpg
>parents find out, take away computer
>unable to do any college work, not care
>fall behind all the work, finally get computer back
>start ditching college to just walk for literal hours doing nothing because too scared to go in class due to being so behind, tell parents ive caught up on work
>5 months pass, still not entered college at all, college called previously but i played it off
>been told ive failed by someone who was in my class, outside of college, expected to return september by my parents..
>cant go back because im off the course
>completely screwed up
>no friends, no one to talk to, spend 19 hours a day either eating, looking at memes (ive collected 6,000 different memes that i liked..) or doing nothing
>realise i eat to try be happy, not working
>self harm and more fapwithblood.jpg
>wanna kms but too scared too

idk what to do man

>be me, 17 in college
but how?

England, finished secondary school at 16 and started college straight after

An hero if you think its your only option.
But before doing that, try to turn your life around

Soo... stop being a weirdo and get your shit together.

Just fucking catch up too college already, so what you've fallen behind? If you get up your lazy ass now you can still make it OP and don't reply with some sorry ass excuse, just fucking do it.

no idea what you mean by "an hero"? but yeah I've tried - my parents are gonna literally go so mad when they find out about all the college shit unless i play it off somehow, which i doubt.

tried doing different stuff, tried working out but that ends pretty fast because i lose motivation, tried making friends which is hard when you don't go college because you're kicked out, tried lots of shit but idk anymore

> self harm and more fapwithblood.jpg
Wait, instead of lotion, you use blood? Aight..

ive been taken off the course

help :)

You man the fuck up. Cut your losses and start over in the next semester if your grants and scholarships aren't fucked up from your grades. Keep your pornography and other scandalous material on a USB drive that you hide in a very secure location.

You're too young to kill yourself, user. The world is yours, you just have to take it. Make your own happiness, don't wait for it to magically appear because it won't.

An hero means killing yourself.
Better to tell your parents now than keep them waiting.
Also, working out is great. Start gradually so you don't burn out and realize that results aren't gonna come instantly.
Just try to make your life better, and chances are you will.

cant tell them because then ill be stuck without everything since i live with them. yeah im not looking for results really just something to distract me but that always ends quickly.

I'm in England, we don't have semesters but I'm kicked off the course so the only thing I can think of is telling or faking to go college and "drop out" when I'm 18..

Just tell your parents the truth and do that semester again.
If they don't understand/accept that you failed because of preassure und fear, try to become indepentent, leave and stop being so incredibly depressing...
Reading about your daily activities makes me want to kill my self. Eating, memes and fapping to gore at the age of 17?
At least try some drugs or start drinking and make some friends

If you're kicked off the course without any hope of getting back in, then you need to tell your parents. Pretending to attend college will eventually backfire once the bills start coming in. I hate to say this user, but it's better to tell your parents straight up instead of waiting for them to find out on their own. You're fucked either way, but it's smarter to tell them.

It sounds to me like you have a lot of growing up to do. This will come in time, but I will say this - don't waste your time. Your young enough to get an education, by the time you hit your mid 20s your college education is over. Don't be stupid like me.

It's free currently as I'm under 18, that's why I want to say I've dropped out at 18, it's not that far away..

Yeah you're probably right, it's just really damn hard when you don't even wanna hit a year older. Pretty sure my family hates me too since all I do is sit looking at memes in a halfasleep state 247, always saying shit about me and never realizing I exist..

You aren't the only one who has gone through what you're going through. Count your blessings, I've seen kids end up on the street because their parents just simply don't want to deal with them anymore. Having them talk bad about you is nothing compared to the abuse that other people go through. Listening to what they say is hurtful, yeah, but it can be far worse. Be thankful that it isn't.

Also, and this is difficult to understand, but you need to stop putting your self worth into your parent's perception of you. You need to put your self worth inside yourself and not seek it from others. At the end of the day, your opinion of yourself is what matters. It's a part of growing up, and you'll get there, but you need to make it sooner than later before it's too late.

gtfo of there man sell some memes to angsty spergs and retreat to the woods

The depths are limitless.

I would suggest becoming a serial killer, though your lack of intelligence might be a hindrance.

Or start walking, and hope shit falls your way.
Don't kill your self.

Yeah I understand that, idk I probably would of ended up on the streets if it wasn't for the fact my parents would get £250 weekly or every two weeks for me living here, unsure but yeah. Ever since they've stopped receiving it, because I refuse to get special privileges for having a disability that I don't concern myself with or admit I ever have, they've completely changed, it use to be about doing shit and being involved in the family, now they don't even acknowledge that I'm in the house..

Yeah I have no idea how to do that haha, everything they say about me is right, lets face it, I ain't getting anywhere. I passed only one of my exams (i had 15), didn't even pass English, I've fucked up college.


I've thought about drugs, idk where to get them from though. I got addicted to sleeping though at one point, I lost a lot of weight due to not eating or drinking and just being asleep.

Honestly I'd be lying if I said I haven't thought about that, I actually fantasize about homicide quite a lot. I've spent a large deal of time thinking about it, from hiding places, where to murder to getting away with it due to walking around and researching what's got a large deal of people caught.

I'm not going to be the guy that says all drugs are bad, but if you don't have your shit together then drugs aren't going to help.

N0rp much?

Thought it'd be a good way to just forget about everything and be happy for once, I generally have no knowledge with how I'd even get them though.. I've thought about dealing drugs too before which doesn't seem that bad to me.

>too scared to go in class due to being so behind
i dont how to describe the anger im feeling after reading this...just fking kys...just go to the fking class and sit whereever u want nobody gonna ask u anything they dont really care if somebody ask just make some lie...like u were sick or away on vacation...