Depression Thread

Depression Thread.
Anyone in therapy and/or on medication? Did it help you and what is it like to be on antidepressants? Will they just kill ALL emotions inside you?

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After thinking about suicide daily for over 2 years and 30 times a day before i finally got help, now on Escitilopram 20mg/day. feel great. still has the emotions. I recommend it.

On Zoloft 150mg I was on every damn medication you can imagine I'm a walking pharmacy. Zoloft is the only one that helps. Therapy + medication is the best thing you can do. I still have all my emotions, even when I was on the highest Zoloft I wasn't stale of emotion. That's a rare side effect... any side effect on Zoloft is worth it imho because I've had depression 10 years. Not fun. Therapy and medication. Do it, don't give up. Tell the fucking truth in therapy, you lie = you die. I have anxiety too so klonopin for panic attacks as needed.

used to be on 150mg daily of sirtraline, made me feel tired and emotionless to everything after a while so is stopped, but then again nothing phased me on them so it wasn't all bad

Yea same. But I have emotions. It's different for everyone. Sounds like a mis dosage to me in your case though.

seeing a psychiatrist once a week, used to see him twice but now short on money. he has suggested getting me on antidepressants.

yeah I got it lowered to 100mg then eventually 50mg over time, actually felt things afterwards too aha so not all bad, only bad thing was it took ages to work and take effect

I never went to therapy but I feel very depressed for the last 10 years or so. Thinking about suicide daily for timeframes over a year included. I am currently looking for therapists in the city to give it a shot.

Yea that's what sucks about anti depressants. They take weeks to start actually doing anything positive to your serotonin levels. Still glad you got help man/girl. Depression isn't fun.

How long will you take it?

People that actually suffered from depression will usually not talk about it. All these self-pitying spoiled first world individualists should be fucking ashamed of themselves.

>Have psychiatrist proven depression
>Go to psychiatrist for prescription
>He wants 100€
>Tell him to fuck off
>feel fine (this was 2 years ago)
Y'all just pussies

Do you have any experience with the topic at all or are you 16?

you can beat it bro

Im on citroplam
Its mainly supposed to help me sleep and stop anxiety
it does help me sleep better but it also makes me extremely tired all day long

it doesnt feel worth it, im thinking of getting something else.
Id really like to just have peace in my head. I find myself attempting to do 3 things at the same time just to be distracted and not having to think

Ive been depressed since I was a young child, and Its only gotten worse as I got into my teens and twenties

Wellbutrin, y'all. It's a dopamine reuptake inhibitor, which means everything is fucking awesome. Porn, food (though not hungry most of the time), driving, video games, even work can be enjoyable.

Fuck SSRIs.

If you wanna know, yes I actually have but I am not going to bother anyone with it. It's a burden that you and only you alone should carry.

Who the fuck do you think you are? You think I enjoy talking about all the fucking meds I'm on? I'm fucking ashamed you ignorant asshole. I want to fucking help someone with my experience of depression. I was in the hospital 3 times then shoved in a facility for 3 months. I still self pitying? Gtfo of here prick

3-6 weeks

Fuck is with you assholes? I'm 16 I've been on meds since I was 6. Jesus you all are so ignorant.

On Zoloft. It helps give me energy mostly. Realistically the anti-depressant won't do a damn thing if you don't personally find a good reason not to be depressed anymore/learn to manage it. It will help you only if you're already doing that, otherwise they'll just give you more till you get to what you are describing.

Get some fucking adderall dip shit. I was on that shit it didn't work at all. Zoloft is where it's at homie

I'm on 20mg citalopram, weed and going to the gym for an hour and a half daily. Honestly going to the gym has done more for my depression then anything else.

OPioids
They're all fun and games until you wake up at 8am and start puking up bile
They make me happy though :^)

diagnosed with severe depression 5 years ago, tried taking antidepressants but they had 0 effect. so I've been self-medicating with alcohol and weed which have made me feel really schizophrenic over time. not sure if I am insane but after telling someone about my cultism experiences the person told me to go get treatment and cut off communications. I did rituals with my friend frequently but it went too crazy for me, I started doing the shit alone a lot and fucked up my mind. still not sure if I am in delirium or not.

Oh I'm such a prick. My apologies I should have read who you are replying to. Sorry dude

I'm on the same stuff man. I don't really find that it works on its own. I started self medicating with weed with works sometimes, working out helps a lot too.

You can't give up that's why you never got better. There are hundreds of anti depressants out there. You couldn't have tried all...

I've been under antidepressants for like 3-4 years with two different medications.

The first pills I took made me gain 10 fucking kg of weight, which took me a year to burn.

The second pills did not made me gain weight but it wasn't phisically possible to cum for me, also every night I had very long and absurd dreams.

Did they help? No, because while I may have not been depressed when taking pills, I surely was sad for being overweight because of the side effects, so...it's a vicious circle.

ATM I'm still depressed but I'm not taking pills, I've been diagnosed with dysthymia.

It never ends.

Yes you are but that doesn't matter. I am just a random number telling you that you know nothing about suffering. Your experiences won't help others because they will not even bother to listen. And even if they will, what does it actually change?

I feel you 100 bro... it sucks. Zoloft helped me. Don't give up though

Forgot to say that the first pills were duloxetine and the second ones were escitalopram

Jesus. You are part of the reason people get depressed. I hope you yourself get depressed and see how it really feels. Asshat

You guys are a bunch of fucling pussies

Beta males. Man the fuck up

the problem is I dont want to be happy actually, I have self-destructive behaviour I can not control. zero motivation to fix stuff. and when I start feeling a bit better, I realize that at some point it will disappear and I'm going to be in worse shape than before. being absolutely dull and depressed is nice because I have nothing to lose. I dont want to kill myself for my family.

Your prob a drugged up fuck boy. Leave please no one wants u here

>Be me, 25
>On high dosage antidepressants
>Tried to commit suicide 3rd year University by overdose and polishing off some cheap ass 26er of vodka
>Failed
>Felt like I was having a heart attack
Went to hospital and they said it was an anxiety attack (lol)
>Same day went to work fml
>Graduated
>Now about to start my Master's
>Suicide crosses my mind daily and occupies most if my thoughts
>Still fucking with medication and alcohol
>Only a matter of time Sup Forums

Yes bro! I felt the same! This is what depression does to you! Don't fucking give up show it what you got bro

You see? You didn't even bother to read my posts properly.

Kill yourself, you know you want to you piece of shit

>Don't give up

Thanks, but after 10 years of this situation I've became accustomed to it.

27, unemployed, virgin, I can't study for the university (I'm enrolled since I was 18) because I can't attend classes with other people (can't focus on the lesson and I'm disturbed from other people), also lately I've also became kind of paranoid.

I'll tell you what will happen.

Someday my parents will die and I'll be alone, somehow I'll manage to stay alive until the money lasts, then eventually I'll take a bullet in my head while hoping for a second chance.

LOL yea ok bro lemme do that. Dumbass

Bro I've been like this 10 years too. Last year I finally got help. Proper doctors and meds. This isn't you talking it's the depression. I tried to kill myself many times. 10 years pass and I'm feeling amazing.

Going back to school on Monday after 2 years of complete isolation. I'm so fucking scared and depressed.

2 years... jesus bro. But seeing people will help. Were you hospitalized?

well for me it is quite hopeless. I have zero help, absolutely no motivation to get some stupid pills, and psych therapy is just idiotic because if I dont even trust my family I will not trust a random person who is making money with talking and being annoying for me.
basically only my pet cat is keeping me alive.

Fucking Cringeworthy thread. I hope you all kill yourselves. Fuck this site

hope you enjoyed your summer, faggot

We'll get more pets bro. I love my dog too. But for real I'm in your shoes, I was. I felt exactly how you feel bro. Obviously I'm not you but trust me, get some help. I know you got trust issues I do too. I hate therapists but look at me now? It's a success story

I've been under therapy from 2 different doctors and I felt like they were only there to collect 50€ from me every time I was there.

They didn't give me any help, they just told me what to do because "you have to try" and when I told them that I couldn't do shit, because depression, they gave up.

>go to university and talk with as many people as possible
>tried 1 time and sperg'd
>that hurt me so much I was scared to try again

People like I will die a slow lonely painful death. Later fuck stick

do amphetamine on your first week, it will make you really social and will make people like you. best advice I can give.

Yes thanks, someone's on my fucking side

Not sure about you guys but I have a lazy eye. This fucks up all my interactions with people. Many people immediately treat me like a freak

300mg Oxcarbazapine (Trileptal), 37.5mg Effexor. I'm pretty depressed, guys.

Trying but it's hard, ya know? Not interested in numbing myself with anti-depressants, the real bitch is group therapy.

lol, it's fucking terrifying.

U*

you had it right the first time.

We are all treated like freaks. We have mental illness. People think we are like contagious

Can't they fix that?

I feel u I been there look at my posts

I'm taking atm Insidon and amber and 5htp. Insidon from doc, because of anxieties I didn't tell him that i'm also depressed. anxieties got a little bit lower. but dunno
I read so much shit about SSRIs, i read that there are studies for sports that they on long term better then SSRI, start cycling 2 months ago did 450km, but now my cycle is broken, and didn't cycle for 1 week and it come back. I think iwas little depressed since beeing 16 y old, but it manifested later cause of toxic family. Its a combination of burnout and depression. Dunno im afraid of getting SSRIs , because on longterm i didnt read so much got things, dunno perhaps you read only the bad opinions in internet and the most are positive.
But atm i'm trying the natural way. I'm preatty sure that durance sport works, but you need a daily rythm and don't top. Dunno perhaps your brain absorb then more the seratonine. I think the receptors in my brain just blocks the seratonine, it feels like that.
But i heard so much negative about SSRI that they fuck up your brain and sideeffects like postet, libido loss, kg gains.
I even gained with Insidon, im normally skinny but its like water or dunno at my belly since im taking it. But dunno if this works more then valerian. I thinking about perhaps trying this. If there would be a wonder bill, to take this shit away from me, i would give all my money for it.
I also have so much up and downs. Especially at the night i think ye okay it will perhaps getting better, fuck it. And next day when i perhaps want to stand up at 10am, then i think fuck it and sleep till 1pm , chill at bed all day at notebook and just standup for eating im so unmotivitaved. It is so hard to stand up. Are here guys who totally beat depression or anexities or can totally live without negative aspects?

Opiods and Benzos are fun until you stop them.

I had one operation but it cannot be fixed completely. When I am well rested, people notice less. However, it closes a lot of doors for me

Hey Trileptal/Effexor guy here. Don't get me wrong. Group therapy is sort of scary but it's by far the most rewarding experience.

I would totally recommend it.

I still have no idea how it is possible to get a nice life. I literally trust nobody, I have a lot of "friends" but nobody to talk to. so friends arent an option.
a fucking therapist? No. been to many of them, all they do is figure out my problems and try to explain the logic behind them. I fully understand my own shit, I just completely lack emotional support which no therapist can provide.
I had a gf for a year some time ago, she was a huge support but my selfdestructive behaviour ruined everything.
at least I sometimes aknowledge that I am in a huge delirium that everyone is acting against me, but I cant make the actual paranoid feeling vanish, it controls my life.

I used to have that as well. I thought everyone was out to get me for some random ass reason. Another symptom of depression... you need to find a good therapist that WILL provide the support you need. They are out there

Never liked talking to doctors either. Didn't like talking to someone who was paid to listen and give advice I could give myself.

dropped out because i couldn't take it anymore
i tried mdma ... drugs aren't helping in the long run

>meeting new people
>normies everywehere
>that awkwardness when talking to people
>being the outsider all over again

i can't handle the feels

I have no desire to look for one. endless supply of alcohol and drugs keep me motivated enough to keep my job.
basically I am a degenerate lonely junkie and I enjoy that, I prefer that lifestyle to attending in therapy all the time and trying to fix it. theres nothing to fix .

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I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and anxiety disorder... They want me to take pills but if there is something that I'm proud of is that I'm smarter than many people so...

Give me and advice.
Should I take those pills? They are gonna make me stupid?

reading the thread has made me even more depressed. I realized there are tons of people with same or even worse problems and they will die as lonely and insane. there is no hope

You're not as smart as you think you are. Taking advice from Sup Forums instead of a doctor is borderline retarded behavior.

Borderline personality disorder and generalized anxiety disorder.

It's ruined my almost 5 year relationship with my now ex, which has only made the problems I suffer amplify. Doing therapy, but that has only helped so much.

People don't understand that I feel things differently than others, and some things are more intense for me than they are other people.

Tried lots of meds, none seemed to work.

I have about 10 days worth of mirtazapine from a year ago I'm thinking about taking again, cos it seemed to kind of help at the time, but it made me lazy as fuck and I had weed tier munchies.

Also, any of you ever think about getting your hormones checked? I got mine checked, and my thyroid function is fucking low, but I guess not low enough to warrant treatment, but explains how sluggish and low energy I am...along with my metabolism being quite slow.

the pills are going to make you numb and stop you from thinking anything. basically turn you into a zombie. it helps with paranoia sometimes but make you feel very tired but also restless.
yes, it does make you stupid.
I was on 15mg aripiprazole daily for few months, wasnt pleasant.

Life isn't fair

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>there is no hope
Bull fucking shit. Hope is the only fucking reason I didn't pull the trigger years ago.

I moved back home. My parents seriously have some sort of mental illness thing going on. Both mid50s dad appears to be in some sort of aspie like state of mind mixed with early dementia symptoms. mom has deep depression to the point where she doesnt bathe i dont know how the fuck to bring this up or deal with it. shes on prozac.

take all you have, you will have an acid-like trip

You were on the wrong pills then.

I'm glad you had something to live for and not pull the trigger. wow gratz

both. take zoloft. barely any side effects and it helped me get myself together.

Bi-Polar here,
I take Risperidone and it helps dealing with my mood swings, just wish I didn't feel so lonely.

No thanks. I was thinking about just taking them as normal again, then requesting more from my Dr on Monday. I just don't like feeling dependant on pills, and I worry about side effects, like they all seem to give me heart palpitations which freaks me the fuck out.

>when people think depression is sadness

More the logical conclusion that I have no concrete proof that my life will stay this way or get worse.

go for it. if you have hope, then it will work. coming off the pills is what makes me not want to even start taking them.

Normies don't understand anything that isn't feeling good all the damn time, or when they don't feel good its for really short stints.

>mfw someone who was blue for a week one time tries to relate to what I deal with

the word you're looking for is cowardice. Not hope.

>they feel shit for a week and try to relate

God this shit makes me so fucking mad. I'm a complete shut-in now. Not dealing with stupid people is a small improvement.

slowly killing yourself with drugs is awesome though

drugs seem fun at first but they make everything even worse

Got really low at one point and my dad told me to stop being sad and force myself to be happy. Fucker, wanted to kms right then and there.

Nah, drugs only suppress deeper problems and turn you into a zombie. Better to embrace depression as part of who you are.

It mostly numbs you so you dont really fell anything, it did for me an friends of mine
Have also spoken to a neurologist and acording to him the dont work as intended

I am and will continue to be under the belief that every anti-depressant is just different sugar pills.
Treatment bases off placebo. If it doesn't work, change the label and wait for placebo to kick in.
Some depressed ones will fall for it, rest wont and the medical industry will cash in good. Nothing too unreasonable really.

In a lot of cases its worse then that
if you dont get sugerpills you get a drug that will slowly kill you