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Feels Thread
How are you feeling, user?
Good? Bad? Talk to me.

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My toxic love story:

Three weeks ago my GF ended the relationship, she tell me that I wasn't there for her, that I wasn't being the one which she fell in love. She ended the relationship just one day before our first anniversary.

I have anxiety and schizophrenia disorder and she really helps me to get through, her smile could fly away all my troubles and even when I am so fucked up and I have done so many bad things, I really tough that she was my salvation.

Even when we ended all, everyday after class we use to go to my home and eat together, even sleep or fuck, we are nothing, but I still loving her and I know that maybe she doesn't love me anymore but she needs me too (she have a lot of problems with her family, I think she have bipolar disorder)

I literally cry when she is in my arms laying in my bed by my side because she is all I want to be happy, not the meds, not the drugs or therapy, she....

Yesterday she texted me saying that she doesn't want to talk with me anymore, I call her and she says with a fucking cinism and sarcastic voice that she doesn't want me anymore, and that I should leave her alone.

Today I went to University and try to talk with her and make all this shit clear... She just runs out of me but I reach her and ask her what is happening.

She tells me that she is alone and that she wants to be alone, that she hates me and hates everyone around her, even that she hates herself...

She says that she is gonna be a hooker (Scort) ir a pornstar or that she is gonna kill herself.

I try to stay with her but she just tell me to fuck off...

Now I'm just trying to contact every of her friends because I don't want her to be alone....


I want her to be happy, even if I'm not with her.

How long were you together? almost the year?

Jesus, I feel, feel feel

Yeah, almost a year, in fact, the day when she ended it all was the day that we were going to celebrate our anniversary...
I buy her a gift and write her a song....

Stay with her keep pushing on trying to help her.
Try to make her avoid the whole escort thing.
She isn't the kind of person for this.
She's hurting, and you're the person to help heal

sounds like BPD (borderline personality disorder). push and be gentle, show your continual love and she might come to her senses.

I'm gonna try but in this moments I'm sure that she doesn't wants me around...

I call some of her friends just to tell them that she is gonna need them a lot.
She thinks that she doesn't have anyone who cares about her, and I am going to show her the opposite.

...

I tough that it may be BPD too, however, she is mostly depressed all the time, I tried to be there for her all the time.

...

i've never even received love from another human being. not even family,or the poor excuse of a family that i have.

What kind of love do you want?

We love you user

beggars cant be choosers user. once its healthy.

I want to have loud angry sex with that fish

The original version of that is such shite, learn to enjoy being alone because at some point everyone is alone in life if you can learn to thrive on being alone you're already better than most people.

Yup. Too bad there's nowhere else I can go to be me. Sometime in the last 10 years, the Internet became a buncha fuckin' prudes. Ain't got time for that shit.

So even the post pointing out how useless posts are on Sup Forums is, itself, useless.

I just want to write and hang out with my best friend, but I'm so caught up in a plan to make six figures a year that I don't know what I really want out of life. I start college in a week, I'm getting some shit job, and he and I are probably going to drift. There's an entire life I want, and I don't know how to get it

What about platonic love?

I feel that. I validate it

Not wrong

Not great, my entire family treats me like shit and I'm not invited to my own sister's wedding.

> Be me
> 16 years old, white European living in Dubai
> Best friend Sandnigger tells me Indian-chan is in love with me
> Shit way to tell me, but whatever, QT3.14
> Use her for sex for a while, start getting attached, she's not that bad
> Few months of relationship, randomly stopped talking to me
> Ask her wtf happened, apparently Sandnigger told everyone that I fucked some other girl while Indian-chan was on holiday (I didn't)
> He's my best friend, so no one thinks he would do it just to fuck me up. Indian-chan breaks up with me
> 2 weeks later, Sandnigger and Indian-chan are together
> She constantly sends me snapchats with his dick/cum in her mouth, captioned "Do the world a favour and kill yourself user :)"
> Tfw two shitskins orchestrated the construction of my suicidal thoughts

3 years ago, still not fucking over it.

if you enjoy being alone, you're a borderline sociopath. its human nature as animals to find comfort, love and security in others, that's why loneliness hurts. i dont feel like i should like being alone and i dont feel as though i should want to.

I grew up in a broken home. Constant fighting between mother and step father. At a young age my step uncle had my step sister and I "have sex" so of course this continued. I touched 5 of my female cousins and even had anal sex with a boy cousin of mine up until about 12 of course by then my step sister and I were having full on Intercourse. At 18 my mother and step father finally divorced and we all went our separate ways. Ive been with my wife for over 10 years now and have had multiple affairs. Within the last two years I've had 2 affairs. One women is pregnant now and we're not sure if it's mine or her husbands. Over the last 2 months my wife and I have been having threesomes with an ex Co worker of mine which has resulted in some unbalance. The girl is in love with the two of us but my wife doesn't feel the same towards her. She's pushed an pushed to get me alone and finally today I met her. I didn't have sex with her but I might as well have. user I'm feeling suicidal. .if this girl exposes what we did to my wife I'll be thrown out, if the other women's baby is mine I'm up shit creek. .Im constantly fighting the guilt of having molested so many of my cousin's and striggle with thefact that I'm partly gay. I think about my step sister constantly as well. .my mind is a ses pool of demons chipping away at the integrity of my being destroying my self control and leaving emotionally numb. I feel my only choice to atone for my wrongs is to take my own life. . .am I wrong. . .should I keep going and trying should. Keep faking my sanity or just let go?

this is far beyond fucked. i'd have a million and one meaningless flings to make me feel better. poor coping mechanism,but it works.

also,fucking block them please.

I met my girlfriends friend tonight.... At first it was fine, light hearted banter and what not. But then, like with every other social gathering I've ever had, I clammed up and just stayed silent. I spoke only when spoken to. I tried to keep upbeat but I don't think that facade kept up. I think I messed up the night and brought everyone down. My girlfriend ensures me I was fine but I know it's gonna go down from here. Last night we were so close to saying I love you but now I think its gonna die fast.

> be me
> just ran out of Mnt. Dew
why must life be so difficult

Fine bored can't sleep thinking about life and all the things we could do or have than I remember life sucks and the world is just a craphole but there's some good things things to guess its ok

I'm in denial about my Borderline PD. I know I have it, I fit the symptoms and all. But I don't want to see a shrink, or talk to anyone about it since that'll show people around me I' """crazy""" and """unstabe""" and I don't need that stigma right now.

I also hate support groups because all of them sound tumblr-ish and pathetic. I had depression, had anxiety attacks, but I've kept them all to myself since talking bout it makes me feel vulnerable.

hey fish lady. you filling in for Alice and Jill and people taking the day off?
either way, nice to see another kind person.

I'm good, thank you.
How are you OP?

I've got some mixed feelings currently,
I think I've got a crush on a girl that I've been talking with for some weeks.
But it's weird I've only met her online and I'm usually the first to cry 'Yeah that's bullshit you can't fall in love through a screen'
But yeah here I am, trying to fix myself a date

I kind of feel like this right now. Antidepressants aren't really helping at all. I started programming python and it's helping more than I would expect. Still, suicide is an option if I fail.

>be best friends with someone
>fall in love and start dating
>do everything for this person and become inseparable
>They replace you arbitrarily at the drop of a hat after years of being inseparable
Hell is on earth friends.

I feel terrible, I'm very drunk so bare with me.

I ruined a thing with two girls.
I fell for a girl called A and she was taken so like a normal person I just became friends with her.
I then met B her friend and I fell hard for her. Long story short me and B got intimate and close for months but kept it lowkey. B never wanted to truly date me every time I brought it up with her she would redirect and make me feel bad by saying some shit like she wasn't even sure if she was attracted to guys,
Soon A started getting intimate with me even though she was dating a girl, and I just fell back into her and wanted her because she made me feel special unlike B. (A and B were best friends forgot to mention) I told A I was seeing someone but she just continued after. EEventually they both realized I was talking to the other (B still didn't want to make it official after months of me being with her) and they just both insulted me and hurt me and I want to die because I truly feel like I did something wrong and I realize I'm anothe r"hurr durr" looking for attention faggot but I just need a hug and I just feel sonshuty and I miss them so much

You're not alone. im constantly called a dissapointment, and im constantly rejected by everyone i meet. met a few people online a few weeks ago, and they're some of the nicest people ive ever met. their the only people i dont have to put up a fucking facade for. so keep pushing and one day youll find your friends, who will treat you like a person, not a degenerate

I love you user I'm the faggot who just posted about chicks, I care about everyone in this thread and life is a pain I know that.
I hope you all find happiness someday you all deserve it. You kinda hearts
I'm sorry your family is shit I truly do care for you you mean a lot to me

As of righht now, I'd repeat. The bad was crushing in a lot of places, even right now, but there were a few moments I'd die to live for again. I would live again a million times just to be able to make her smile as much as I had when we were in school. Even though she doesn't love me, I feel as though I'd be content if I could be the cause of her smile again.