Green text story, all true and fucked up

Green text story, all true and fucked up.

>meet girl online
>don't know her face or anything
>only get to know her through writing
>we're 15-16
>talk for years online
>really in love
>says she wants to cam
>oh shit nigger
>i tell her i lied, it's not me in the pics
>she says she wants to cam, is hurt i lied.
>i go on cam
>am fat. not very handsome.
>she goes on cam, most beautiful girl i've ever seen, I know there's no 10/10's lads but fuck she was easily a 11/10.
>says she's hurt i lied but still loves me
>i feel like the worst scum in the world but relieved
>says she wants to meet me
>i say okay, in 6 months
>6 months later
>cant something came up, in another 6 months
>etc etc
>stall for years
>she still loves me and cares for me
>gives me 6 months or we wont be together
>i promise her i will come and meet her
>my insecurities, my fucking pathetic fatness and depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts etc ruin it for me
>i don't come
>she says ok user, last time i give you, another 6 months
>we're 25 years old
>she's literally the most beautiful girl in the world
>i am fat, 5/10 at best
>she loves me still, always will love me
>i dont show up after 6 more months, my life gotten worse
>she gives up on me
>she's a victoria secret model now
and i'm still a fat fuck that will forever wonder what it would be like.

100% true story

don't fucking waste your life
don't fucking let your depression eat at you
it will ruin it, the amount of regret i feel is unbearable

pic is not her, but she looks like this
and has curly hair, fuck she's beautiful and nice and perfect

i fucked my whole life, because i'm a coward

fucking loser

dumbass

She's better off without you. You would have only dragged her down. Congrats

i know, i tell myself that too

You might as well post her

Can you still contact her? It's never too late OP, express your feelings like you did now, you were a fucking tard, not gonna sugar coat it, but I'm sure she'll understand. Are you a good writer? Girls love that shit.

nah, I love her I'd never go around posting pics of her or share our private stories when people know who she is

You're implying any Sup Forumstard has access to a Victoria's secret model

yeah I can still contact her, she has her old number like she always did but it is too late man, I honestly am not supposed to have anyone in my life

man i dont care what it looks like, I just don't want to share who she is, it's not really important

i share my story so people don't do the dumb shit i did

You shouldpost a pic. You said she is a model.Just post one of those so we can see this 11/10

Calling it now. You're full of shit.

show us your pathetic fat self so we can berate you and tell you how big of a fag you are.

Are you kidding me? I really hope this is bait. You know what, this is bait. Not even good bait at that. Youre 2/10 obese lady friend that committed suicide won't be missed, cry some more though

I second this!

Then fucking talk to her, if it's like you said then she apparently still loves you. Man the fuck up and take your own advice. You wasted over a decade of your life, get the hell out there and win her back. Worst case scenario you're back to status quo of before. If you're telling the truth here OP you better take my god damn advice.

>no proof
>no proof that even this girl even exist
>much less that she's a 11/10 or Victoria's Secret model
Is this what you do? Come on Sup Forums and make up stories that never happened so you can feel better about your shit life? Look buddy, no matter the saying "tell a lie enough and it'll become the truth" that doesn't work in a lot ways. Get out of the house, and actually go do something, because doing this stuff is just pathetic

You were prob getting cat fished

No, if you saw her randomly online whatever, but if you see her tied to this story, it's different. no.

i wish

i cant, nothing will be different, I am a loser man, you don't think I sit and think about it all the time? she's the love of my life, if there's something as a fucking soulmate, she's it but it's not happening for me

"no proof" ok? don't believe it then? wtf you think will happen in my life if you don't believe me? my life will get worse? lol

we've been camming for literally years

Again, see

i know what Sup Forums is capable of, i'm not retarded
you find her email or phone number, send screen of this story, she'll know instantly, i'm not sending you her pic no matter how hard you try

You say nothing will be different but you obviously want more. You say she's your "soul mate" but you won't do anything about it. I don't know your situation, I ain't you, but there isn't a situation in the world that should prevent you from go for it. Stop wallowing in self pity,and go for it. You literally got nothing to lose at this point. When you're fucking her in 6 months make another thread and hit me the fuck up. I expect thank yous.

of course i want more, i hate myself, you don't understand the amount of hatred I have for myself, I hate this self pity, i hate this inactivity, this pussy bitch behavior all my life, i hate not being able to do what you suggest, i don't know what's wrong with me i have periods where i think about it all for hours on end and i always end up in the same spot, i always feel the same depression, the same unwillingness to do anything even though I really want to

I ask myself, if i truly loved her i would have been there for her... but I do love her, i'd die for her instantly without hestiation, all these years we've been through thick and thin, tears and happiness, all over the fucking internet

i know it's my fucking fault, all of this, look at what i've done to her

i wish i never met her that's how much i fucking regret this

If she has any kind of halfway decent management they'll talk her out of seeing this schlub. If she won't listen to reason that user will die in a car accident. If you think that's ridiculous try to see how her management would weigh all the money she makes for them vs the life of this pathetic neet that could seriously harm her career. user needs to just let it go and masturbate. Using his tears over how pathetic his life is as lube.

Jesus Christ OP if you fucking think negatively 24/7 then nothing is gonna fuckin get better, I can already tell you do this all the time and where exactly do you think being a whiny bitch is gonna get you? No fuckingg where. No one is gonna feel bad for you, yea you can blame it on depression all you want but you put yourself in this situation by being so god damn negative all the fucking time instead of trying to better yourself or the situation, you got into your own head and you let it fucking destroy you, you can still lose weight you can either be the person you want to be who gets the girl he wants and lives a happy normal life if you actually put your fucking mind to it or you can sit and rot in whatever room you're in right now for the rest of your life living in regret because you're in your own head and you keep telling yourself you're no good. Only you can make yourself a better person cause you're the only one that has YOUR back at the end of the day. Don't waste your life in regret OP it's never too late. No matter how much you want to say it's too late no matter how much you want to say you're nothing, you're not. You're just like any other human being with a heart and a brain but you just have to figure out how to use it to your advantage instead of constantly botching and moaning, use it for good.

For real

Damn op

>been on a dryspell
>Fuck it, remember theres a girl on steam from cali
>fuck it, we chat enough, try my luck
>literally jst message her "Hey, want to suck my dick?"
>She says yes
>Holy fuck... alright
>Drive down to the town shes in
>Go where she tells me to meet her.
>Fat mexican girl with a big jew nose, kinda ugly, sitting there sipping a milkshake.
>We eat together, chat
>Shes an artist, draws mostly porn, shows me her stuff.
>talks about how she posts on the Sup Forums drawthread... pretty chill just like talking to her onling
>We go into the parking lot, between our cars.
>She opens the door to her neon, I sit down on the seat.
>She drops to her knees
>Undoes my pants, my dick is already diamonds.
>she leans down and opens her lips, licking the head a bit.
>OhFuckNo
>Suddenly erupt into her open mouth before she gets the whole cockhead in.
>she swallows my cum, holding her lips on my dick tip.
>She giggles while blushing "Gee I didn't think I was that good."
>She strokes my cock, its a little chubbed.
>Pulls her tits from her top.
>keeps stroking me until I'm hardened up.
>leans into my dick again, this time getting her lips passed the head.
>suddenly nut in her mouth, quick again, it dribbled down her lips and hand.
>She licks my dick a little while I go completely soft.
>Licks cum off her hand, assuring me it was fun.
>Asks me to come over but I"m too embarrassed
>Tell her I have work so I decline.

She still messages me... got told I should go for it.

thank you for your words, i am crying right now like a bitch does, i dont know how to get ouf of my head, you seem to understand the way i am in side my own head all the time it never ends its so tiring, what do i need to do about it?

jesus fuck

YOU IDIOT... YOU POP OFF QUICK AND SHE STILL OBVIOUSLY WANTED THE FUCKING D

WHAT THE FUCK

Actually I'd be surprised as fuck if this hasn't ever happened before

Words of wisdom thread from personal experience thread

Age and advice

I'll start

34m

Commiting to one women is pointless, there is always more hotter that come along daily

Just stop being negative. Stop telling yourself you're a no one. Stop telling yourself that you're fat and ugly and no one will love you. You literally had someone that was willing to love you even after they say you for your flaws and you still got into your head. It's all on YOU to start being positive and keeping a positive mindset cause like I said, you are the only one at the end of the day that will have your back. Take a step in the right direction already before it is too late cause as much as you wanna think it already is too late it's not. Instead of spending the next decade whining, and rotting away in your thoughts and depression, spend the next decade appreciating life. Go on a diet, go to the fucking gym, go on walks just do ANYTHING that's not sitting in a room wondering what could've been cause that's only gonna lead you down one road and that road is not a fucking road you want to go down.

I don't know who you are user but thank you. I will do my best, I am not sure how but I will make a plan.

I want to give you a gift, I know how this will sound to you and the rest in this thread but I would be amiss if I did not say it. Do not think about it the way you will think about it, think about it logically and investigate without bias, you will find what I recently found.

Jesus Christ is God, He died for all your sins on the cross, was buried and rose the third day. Trust this and you will forever be in heaven. God bless you and thank you.

whats her steam name, I need it for science

so
hahahah
you had 10 fucking years to get over your insecurities or move your slob ass to get in shape with a clear goal in mind (god tier pussy for LIFE)
and you couldn't?
HAHAHAHAHAHA KILL YOURSELF
you're worth less than the air you breathe and the fuckton of food you eat

Go to do some sport
Stop eating too much
Talk to her
Try it again
Don't give up user

you're a premature ejaculator BUT it looks like it's her fetish, go for it.