Feels thread

feels thread

what's wrong tonight user?

Getting drunk with a cheap alcohol to stop thinking about her, I don't even enjoy it...

What's wrong is I didnt have liqour, now I do

I'll bump my story, hoping that the thread doesn't goes down.

I dunno, man. summer is almost over, and i still feel unsatisfied. ive done nothing and im probably gonna do nothing for the rest of my sad sad life

For the past 2 weeks ever time i jerk off i get a head crushing migraine (and ive never had a problem with headaches/migraines in my life) that pretty much incapacitates me for 2 hours, not sure what the fuck to do guys

wish I had some right now, feel like killing myself to end all this fucking mess

start nofap, you'll feel great.

Lamenting the fact that all 3 my younger brothers have wifes and families of their own. While I have no gf, are past 40 and have a dead end job. Contemplating these things over a bottle of burbon.

i got suspended from my job for two weeks.

so im just worried asbout bills..

About 3 weeks ago my GF said that she couldn't be with me anymore, just one day before our first anniversary.

I am not a really nice guy... I have schizophrenia and anxiety, I dont like to be with anyone and all the time I'm thinking about suicide or horrible things, hear voices and create troubles... When man, when I saw her for the first time, all of that just disappeared, her smile and her voice was enough to kill the bad toughs that I have..

She loved me, I knew it, and I made my best effort to be with her, I try to be better and ever my therapist saw that she was really helping me to get through all this stuff.

One day she just became more distant, until the day that she said that (when we broke up)

Yesterday I talk with her I tell her that I was going to change anything, that I will be even better.... I ask her: "Do you love me" and she said: "No... Not anymore"
Man that broke my soul... She was all I had and now it's gone.

And now I still waiting for her to appear in front of my door to say "Here I am, and I will never leave you". I just stare at the door waiting for her, but she is not coming....

I lost the love of my life and I'm trying to get drunk because I want to fall asleep without thinking about her....

Same situation here, accept I don't have any brothers, I still live with my mom and I don't touch anything stronger than beer.

I long for the sweet embrace of death

The hole is all I know anymore, so I just wallow in it

man im honestly so fucking stressed to do that, like im a chronic jerkinator, ive done it 3 times a day at the least for like the past 19 years, i dont know if ill last 2 days, any tips you can offer me?

We are all wait for our death...

I haven't been able to really feel for weeks. I get bursts of emotion that quickly fade, and I really just want to be able to cry again.

My girlfriend is distant because I won't have sex due to a pregnancy fear, and I don't have many people to go to. My friends are off to college while I'm at community, and the only internet group I ever really considered a true community has long since disbanded.

I just wanna cry, guys. It's not even an urge, I just genuinely wanna work through this but I don't feel enough to work up the tears. I keep living but every day feels more routine and less like a true experience.

Any solutions from anyone? I'll take advice on any problem, even the two state solution.

Maybe it is not an advice or it doesn't like you but, listen:
Johnny Cash-The man who couldn't cry.

Stop forcing yourself, and my experience speaking, if you really feel that you doesn't want to be with your GF and you don't have any friends, don't put yourself away .

Went alone to the movie theater. Enjoyed the movies that I watched but, its fucking sad to see other ppl with hot girlfriends. Tried my best to be "handsome", maybe I'm just too akward. Time to fap

hey dude it's hard, but if you start small you'll see that it feels fucking good, even after 3 or 4 days. Tomorrow is my 10th day, and I don't feel any urge. And I was also pretty much addicted to jerking off.

Look, the first thing is: be real. You don't want to jerk off? Don't go on porn sites. Don't click on porn threads. It fucks up your brain.

If the urge is strong, watch or read something motivational. Watch the "your brain on porn" video, or What I've Learned last video on nofap, it's all on youtube.

Also, see jerking off as draining yourself. When you jerk off you're not releasing tension, you're getting yourself rid of the most powerful force that can drive you, i.e. your sexual force. The thing is, try to transform this sexual tension into something that will make you feel good. Art, work, studying. Try drawing for instance (I'm a complete beginner but I've been drawing everyday for the past week and I'm already seeing some progress.)

Just imagine the possibilities if you concentrate that energy into something elso, something that doesn't make you feel like a piece of shit everytime you climax.

Your testosterone levels will increase each day: that means better confidence, deeper voice, less anxiety...

its not just a girl man, everything in life is getting weird and strange. While i was the guy that made everyone happy, i ran out of fuel. I was slowly depersonalizing, once that was done. I have had psychosis day in day out for past 2 years. I found the girl of my dreams, literally. There was a girl i was dreaming about for 6 months or so (i pretend that i have something or someone to hug so i feel loved). After 6 months i learned that she had a crush on me. I couldnt do it man, i couldnt take her for myself, she deserves better man
Now im here, im that guy that goes into fucking chatrooms and whatnot to ask for some love. I dont even remember my life anymore, when is the end of the ride?

I'm sorry user
I know nothing I say can fix this
But we'll always be here for you, you got this bro

Sorry to hear about that. I'm also schizophrenic, so I know how it's like. Keep your head up, though. You will find someone that really loves you for good. It's a very large world. Where do you live?

i think one of my "friends" is banging a girl i banged once along time ago.

The problem is that i only got one round and it was my first time and havent had much of anything after. This girl totally knows all my friends and probably has done each of them numerous times.

The other problem is that i asked them straight up and they are either denying it or playing me. Everyone i know is in on it.

I got you, b!

yeah I feel like shit. I feel like a fuck up. I have a decent job, I just broke up with a girl that was totally into me...

I feel like I purposely punish myself for shit.

and I'm not entirely sure why.

fuck negativity bro, remove anything and anyone that brings bad into our lifes

hey man this is me. let's drink.

All I can say is that they're pretty shitty human beings. Embrace superior ideas. Try to be a better version of yourself. You'll find things much more valuable than just a used up old ass pussy, user. Not even joking.

sometimes i purposely do shit to upset myself, as if I want and hunger for sadness, it's stupid

I do not talk englash :'(

what happened?

Need a job for getting finish my education still no job, got debs, and no girl to love me.

Thank you man... In fact Sup Forums is all I got to share how I feel...
I don't really know if I can find someone, I just can't go out and try to be with someone else because I'm always thinking about her.
I'm from Mexico, drinking tequila feeding the cliche.

I fear I may fail one of my Wall St Licensing exams. it's by far the easiest ones I have to take, but it over-studied for the other

I can't get enough sleep at night. Because, well, this girl I had a crush on ages ago fell in love with someone and he broke her heart. And we've been decent friends for a good while now but recently we got into a no strings attached relationship because we don't think we can be good friends. And after this relationship ends, we're probably never going to contact each other again. I guess that's what's been keeping me up.
But I don't know what to do to get back my sleep. I need it. 3 hours a day for a week is horrible for my body and mind

We are all drinking together

another problem is that im 29 and this has happened twice before.

my 40 year old brother cucked me and called me crazy when i staight up asked him about it meanwhile i catch wind of him bragging to his friends and then calls me gay. this happened 5 years ago. alot more shit has happened after that too.

things just dont taste as good as they used to and i cant even enjoy Christmas. i cant even enjoy being around my nephew without feeling like shit that im not getting any pussy everwhile he sneaks off and gets some 19 year olds then taunts me.

i stopped drinking alone. pills help tho.

Sorry she left. I'm afraid I don't have any advice that would directly help you. But as the other user said, Sup Forums sometimes listens.

word. same here.

chicks don't get it. which is why they end up getting mad and then I get mad that they get mad because they don't get it so I just break it off.

The common song and dance of many men throughout the ages.

Been alone for a couple years, the one female I finally trusted went on a trip to New York and met someone.

pretty sure I'm going to die alone.

looks like you're going to fucking firebomb a business haha

It's ok man.... Really, I appreciate all the words, makes me feel less lonely.

I just hope that someday she realize how much I love her and how much I need her.

bros before hoes they say, i love you guys

My school maybe, someday hahaha, that's the dream.
And I share the bottle because my glass is fucking shame.

>my GF said that she couldn't be with me anymore
> I have schizophrenia and anxiety,
>I dont like to be with anyone
>all the time I'm thinking about suicide or horrible things, hear voices and create troubles.
>I am not a really nice guy

>> GF said that she couldn't be with me anymore

gee i wonder if those things are correlated somehow

Someone please help. It would mean a lot to me.
I think I want the sex and the friendship but that's not what she's ready to give and I chose the sex. I just want to be able to sleep again

Lamenting the fact that I might have just lost the chance on a gf this girl I've known for some time was crying really bad because her bf broke up with her.she and I never really got along to well so I felt conflicted on wanting to comfort her but I also felt that she would express her anger on me and such so I did nothing and now I sit here lonely constantly playing that moment in my head thinking How badly I fucked up and what might have been

no feels tonight. weird.

In fact, it isn't glass

She left me for one of my oldest friends.. at least i thought he was my friend.

Well, you think you need her now. Look back on things with me, alright? You've been with her for a year, and she said that she didn't love you anymore. That's infatuation from her part. Infatuation can take up to a year to die off. It means that she didn't love you, alright? But you loved her. And the fact that you loved and cherished someone and have been in a relationship signifies that you're an empathetic and compassionate person.

Of course, it'll take time to get over it, but you need to keep in mind your own worth, your own value in this world. You're a person with ambitions and a whole life of your own WITHOUT another person in your life.

I was asking you where you lived because if you live in a big city, you tend to have a lot of opportunities to meet new people.

Ask yourself; is there any specific thing that you've done that made her realize she was infatuated? Try to reflect back on things with a sober head, alright? Take it easy, buddy.

Just realizing once again why I shouldn't be alive

sometimes, its better to give up than digging deeper. Maybe you have to accept and let her go, maybe you have to striaght up tell her about your crush. We dont know, you do know, your mind and heart knows what you should do. Whatever you do is the right choice bro, because you made that choice.

Don't fall into a downward spiral. Remove anything affecting you negatively from your life. A lifetime advice is: never compare yourself to others. You'll always see the best in them and the worst in you. Do you own stuff, have role models that lift you up. Try the nofap, read what I've posted, it can free you from the burden of sexual competition and positively influence your life. You're 29, that's hella young, don't worry about that.

Sisters gone
All I do I smoke and watch porn to pass time
Also everyone's a fucking liar

That was before.... Then she came and I really tried to be the best version of myself. My parents said that she makes me better, my therapist, my roomie....

these hands have been trained to kill. they have not caused death, but have tasted it several times. the only way i can sleep at night it by drinking myself into numbness

Wow. You have a beautiful way of expressing things user. Thank you for your words.
So how do I know which choice to make user?

you fucked up because you put your feelings first ahead of hers. she is sad and upset over a break up and your first thought is "how can i comfort her to win her over" and then when you do nothing you feel shitty because you missed your chance to win her over.

you suck user and don't deserve her

dear compassive regretful user, you would have fucked up and gotten darkened in the inside instead. so don't regret.

very stupid anyway, u coulda fucked her

Melatonin user, 2 tabs each night, will get you into a good cycle. Also, the secret is waking up early, it's what makes you fall asleep sooner. Last thing, be consistent with your schedule, wake up and sleep everyday at the same time.

I feel like I don't have a proper place in this world. It really bugs me, like I'm stuck so to speak. Like I don't fit in no matter where I go, I'm always out of place. I know I'm different but it's something else. Leads me to feeling depressed. Don't know if it's just severe anxiety or something different. Also, pretty sure I legitimately creep out women. Don't know if it's true or if it's also just anxiety. Shits fucked up, it makes it really hard to talk to people and get through a normal day sometimes

Hey, at least you found out about it. Consider yourself lucky. It took me 4 years to find out my ex girlfriend was cheating on me with what was once my best friend. The entire time we were together, she was fucking other dudes. Once I found about it, I beat the absolute shit out of both my ex and my best friend. I spent some prison time for it too.

It hurts, man. But let me tell you, it's much better to find these things out and deal with the pain than it is to live in the dark thinking that everything is fine when it isn't. It's why hearing some dick head say shit like "Your boyfriend doesn't have to know" or some bitch saying "Dont tell my boyfriend" hurt me the most.

and then she left anyway and where are you now?

make yourself a man for yourself so when the next girl comes along, and she will eventually, you're better prepared for both of you. stop blaming your shortcomings on some chick that doesnt want to be with you.

if more of you people would take responsibility for your own shitty lives you could stop complaining so much and do something about it and come out on top.

start today

I'll look into the melatonin user. But, I wasn't like this before the physical relations started which makes me think that my lack of sleep and this are related. It's the cognitive dissonance that's killing me I think

u can always cry while while you fap.. it helps

I will think about it user, maybe sober, and yes, I have ambitions beyond any other person....
Sometimes I think so much about her that I forget of myself.
It's hard because of my mental illness but I will get better from this and I'm gonna try to be better, now without her.

However.... I have a lot of sad pictures... I will bump them.

Good to hear, man. You need to hold on to your ambitions and live positively. I know that it's hard with schizophrenia, but hey, we manage. You need to be careful in the future, you're worth a lot on your own and you're not defined by other people. Keep your head up buddy, things will get better, and as I said, it's a huge world. You never know what sort of people you're going to meet and how your life can go from shit to great in a few days.

...

jesus christ man

just pick something you give a shit about and go fucking hard

I've been struggling with idea that I may be a sociopath. Multiple people who take psych courses have told me that I have characteristics of one. Normally id brush this off as a diagnosed narcissist and not worry about it. But its made me realize I may actually be missing emotions, and I'd never know. People with subtle mental disorders usually are unaware, because how do you realize you are missing something if you never had it. I've been trying to think of a time I've felt every emotion, but I'd never know which emotion I was missing, because I have never experienced it before. It just keeps getting more meta and I've become super anxious about it.

Right. I would consider detaching yourself from the relationship. No strings attached is basically cowardice (no offense), the basic sexual reward without the inconvenient of everything else. I'm afraid that if you want good things to happen to you, you'll have to go through all the tough shit and succeed. You can't sleep because you're hurting yourself physically (fucking up your dopamin reward system) and mentally (this chick will bang you but not go out with you? she's fucking retarded, and she will leave you to get banged by other dudes) Sorry for the harsh words, but that's my 2 cents on your issue.

oh wow.. that must have sucked so fucking much i cannot even comprehend how much that must have hurt, really puts my little shitshow in perspective, thinking about how much worse it could have been does in a way help, thanks user. i hope you feel better now man.

My girlfriend dumped me right before she went to the US which coincides with the start of summer. I have been almost all of the summer with my family, so not really going on. I am kinda thinking about her from time to time. The warm hug while we are watching movies, the scent of her hair. The smile on her face. But it's not like it's torturing me, it's just bothering me that I fucked up. Not that I lost her.

Thank you user, in fact I was diagnosed recently so it's hard to live with it but yeah, we are gonna manage it.

And yeah it's anonymous and all that shit but the fact that someone with the same condition can understand me and even give me some advices really means to me.

Thank you, and yes, we are gonna to be better.

Depends on how you live your life bro. I try to live with my heart, i want to do what my heart tells me. But mostly in life i use my mind. I dont like using my mind, it causes trouble, but trouble to get the long run right.
Im a scared person, if i were in your situation i would lie in bed and cry every day until i forget those months all together.
Do what you got to do bruv, you know it the best

Cousin died today, grew up with the guy closest thing I had to a brother growing up.

Anyone got some good old feels greentext screenshots?

my best friend had the same thing happen to him. GF he absolutely loved to death cheated on him with a stupid fuckboy. He was devastated. He beat up the guy and almost took time because of that. He was crushed, a failure: no job, no gf, no studies, no qualification whatsoever. But he didn't give up. Started exercising and dieting, lost a lot of weight. He now has a stable job and he found another girl, loves her even more than the first on (I never thought that would happen). So it's definitely possible, you just gotta do it.

Went through that a few years ago actually. It gets better. I've used it to empower myself. Let him continue to live through you.

some kid told me to pull my pants up, and i went the whole day without noticing so i called him a communist and cried when i got home

I'm just sick of the constant ups and downs of my emotions. Used to be on antidepressants and they made me stable for the first time in a long time, but side effects also sucked.
Anytime I leave the house for anything, going to work, social crap, errands, etc, it feels like I'm holding my breath the entire time, putting on an acceptable enough face.
Couple months ago I was preparing to kill myself, but since then I sort of "talked" myself out of it in a way. Still, I occasionally think of suicide for days on end if my head starts getting weird again.

Not really bad but I always feel guilty when I rub one out, like not tired like you normally do, but actually pretty guilty and I don't know why

Medfag here try deep breaths you coulf be exerting so much tension blood gets diverted from your brain and causes this

GF of 4 years left me and moved 15 hours away. I'll never see her again to even try to be able to fix things. I don't even know where she lives anymore. She was my best friend.

sorry for you loss user, I fucking feel for you. Keep your cousin by your side, always. Let him drive you forward. He'll know the way.

hey medfag i have a question, i have low bloodpressure and whenever i start taking deep breaths i can feel my heart warming up. Do i have low bloodpressure because i dont breath enough?

My uncle had schizophrenia and he killed himself because nobody could understand how he suffered about everything. It was the member of my family i love the most and really miss him.
I'm really sorry because of that happened to you man, for real. Just try to keep going without her, and you'll find someone as good as her someday. Sup Forums is here for you.

I've gone 5 weeks and not spoken to a human. I'm alone. I will always be alone. It doesn't even make me sad anymore.

thanks user, i know it gets better it just sucks to try again after so many years

Ughh I just don't know

I started a job in texas as a mechanic. I don't think I'm any good at it. My boss is bringing in a second and I think he's a replacement.
I'm eating junk food and soda again. It's fucking me up I need to get back on a good diet and actually fallow through with going to a gym.

I just came across country to get help from my dad out here, him and I missed out on my entire youth basically and I'm 23 and a hard headed man now so now him and I fight at least once a day.
I basically moved all the way from one shipwreck to this new one. He wants to move on and sell the property he told me I'd inherent and I got a truck I'm putting together to plan my next move.

I gotta date with a fine girl on Saturday I met when I fell off the wagon and got drunk and well I managed to get her number and she texted me till 5 in the morning and continues to talk with me and calls me sweetheart and shit. That's all good.

But my self destructive sides fallowing me again and I think she just might be too good for some ex punk dirty kid scumbag. And I think her and I won't have enough in common.

She's too pure. She's a choir lead at her church. And she goes to school to learn to be a voice teacher.

She just texted me a picture "I have the wierdest friends in the world"

And it was just a screen of their group text of them telling puns to eachother.


Goddamnit I have done such vile things and had a laugh. I've been in such terrible and violent perdicaments.

I was hung up on drugs and alcohol for a long time.

I've had all kinds of sex and broke all kinds of valuables, and hearts

I just can't drag another chick through the storm like this when and if they fall for me.

Feels bad man. I need an acoustic guitar son can write some music that doesn't suck and isn't just fuzz rock.

Most the time im thinking about how i want to get a shovelhead chopper and get rid of all my stuff and ride that bike till I'm dead.
Maybe head to st. Louis.

it doesn't have to be like that, user.

Trust me. For me. It does.

definitely does suck. But your best challenge is yourself. Be better, more confident. The rest will follow.

Honestly thats rather vague but as breathing is pretty essential it never hurts to breath more (srry for the autistic sound of that) however your blood pressure issues could be part of many other things do you smoke?

would you like to join a discord server?

What's wrong? Why you don't talk with anybody? Please, explain your situation more.

I trust you. But the moment you start accepting it... it just makes you complacent I'm afraid.

bored out of my mind stressed over classes, lonely, my buddy wont even play pubg with me so im just drinking