Feels thread. What's on your mind user?

Feels thread. What's on your mind user?

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i want to marry a little girl
i want to die because i never will

Married 15 years, sexless for the last 8. Really just want a girlfriend but scared about what could happen.

I'm 36. Want to fuck the 21 y/o at work. I probably could but the inner struggle not to potentially fuck over my career vs fucking a fine assed young girl with young skin that doesn't have a 100 cock stare or feelleathery has me torn atm. Plus I'm not making any money atm.

I have no personality. I have no stories, experiences, nothing to say or talk about. If it comes to computers, movies, tv shows, games - I could discuss it for weeks. When it comes to any real life topic or anything to say outside the realm of digital entertainment and media I can't keep up a conversation for 5 minutes. Speaking about meaningless things like weather and how is someones cat doing seems to come so easily to most people. I can hardly find anything important or interesting enough to say. Social anxiety doesn't help. I have no friends, no job at the moment, no girlfriend, nothing to look forward to. I've had no success in anything I've ever wanted to do, tried to accomplish. The only reason I haven't committed suicide is my mom and she is already old, weak, has a dozen health issues and is working a physically challenging job to support my existence. If anything happens to her I have a rope and a last message ready.

It's not that I'm not trying. I'm doing my best. Sending job applications, looking for people willing to chat, trying to get somewhere with things I genuinely enjoy and have an interest in. Nothing is working out. I can't remember the last time I felt happy. Feels like I was born to be a failure.

I walk through these streets with no direction
Seen it all come and go leaves die and again they grow
Sun goes up sun goes down as I lose affection
Heart grows cold the winters sun blinds
Nighttime comes and and the bitter wind stings while it binds….
my wounds
I'll be gone soon

In listening to foreplay by jalen santoy. I'm sipping on vodka. Alone of course

please everyone in need of help try a past life regression before you give up. They really do work, they did wonders for me and many people i know. It truly is magic.

Schizophrenia.

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it all ends

i play a game and forget
but i never forget

Whenever i think of her i get sad, i know we're both happier this way, and i know we've both moved on but just thinking back on what it was like being together makes me wonder what could have been. I wonder if she feels the same

I'm honestly just lost in life. Not depressed or anything. Just no significant relationships or work of any value to help guide me to what most people would call meaning.

Probably not. Women are heartless. Men are more sentimental.

been trying to lose weight so i can date women. its fucking hard but i still try. start to lose hope when i realize it is a long road ahead.

I'm starting to develop a crush on my female friend, but her ex is my mate and hell would unleash if i were to try anything with her

Grass is always greener. Dating women is horrible. I've sworn off it. Losing weight is ok but do it for yourself.

Sometimes i feel dead inside and i have a lot of rage because i can't do anything but stay in my bed, wasting my time.
I also hate how everyone in this world is so gullible and ignorant, it just makes me sick.

Loved the wrong girl for two years now. Can't get over her. Life has turned to ash in my mouth because I can't ever hold her the way I want to.

The self-awareness of how pathetic this is doubles my depression, and in general, my life has lost the meaning I had perceived. I'm going to kill myself on my birthday.

I want to kill myself because the afterlife can be more fun and exciting than this mediocre life

Yup, that's also me

bump

I feel weak

>afterlife
are you a pathetic religious fuck now?

i'm a level 31 wizard and i barely know any spells
totally not worth the wait

COPPER COPPER COPPER
CUNT CUNT CUNT

Got a good life and working on my degree. Married with plenty of money.

Can't stop thinking about Afghanistan and drink way too much.

why the fuck do you care about afghanistan?

Fought there. Iraq too. Killed people. Not always people who deserved it.

Currently dealing with one of my 3 recurring nightmares very similar to "Why didnt you say this to me when I was alive?"

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get a cat

oh, makes sense then
at least we have a bit more oil because of your service

>just started university
>physics major
>russian minor
>my only options in four years are to either fuck off with the BA in physics and do something else with it, plus about 20k+ of debt, or go to grad school, gruel through however many more years, get a PhD, then either become either a government slave or a university slave
>tfw i'll never work for a dope, privately funded, purely theoretical work, out-in-the-middle-of-buttfuck-nowhere-complex-owning company like black mesa

honestly i don't know why i'm even doing this. at least i'm in a field that isn't total useless shit. and i'm taking a useful and interesting language.
i know i would probably be happier, not to mention more financially stable, if i just drop this shit and go into a trade. that is a definite fact that is ingrained in my head. i haven't fallen for the meme, i know fully well that this is a stupid thing to do.
but for whatever retarded-ass reason, i don't like the idea of not going to college. this is how they fucking reel you in, they make it so prevalent in society that it's "just the thing that everyone does" and you feel incomplete if you don't shell out ungodly amounts of money just to sit around bored, lonely, and piled up with work, all the while getting more unhealthy than ever due to the shit food they force you to eat.

fuck this gay life dude.

This

I got drunk and I accidentally revealed to my long term fwb that I want more with her. More than just sex.
She replies that she's scared of me now.
What should I do next Sup Forums?

if they were arabs, they deserved it.

Thanks lads.

We all deserved better to be honest. Nobody should have gone over for that fucking shit.

this is a minor one but
>tfw elfgirls with huge, sensitive ears aren't real
>ywn rub an elfgirl's ears and within minutes turn her mind hazy with pleasure
suicide is imminent.

The fact that you and your wife clearly don't communicate honestly proves that you shouldn't even be married.
If you're unhappy in your marriage and you can't even be honest with your wife about what's making you unhappy, you need to fucking end it. I guarantee she is either just as unhappy as you are, or she's been fucking somebody on the side. Nobody can go 8 years without sex and be happy. I mean seriously how the fuck does that even happen? After a few months I'd be like alright this isn't cool, this is ridiculous, we need to figure out why we aren't connected anymore and either work to fix our relationship or end it and move on

You're wasting your life away with something you have the power to change. Fucking do something about it.

Good news... human girls dig that too.

I agree with this. Men have always been the voice of action while women are notorious for being the voice of thought. Action will lead you somewhere OP.
I hope you've seen the movie American Beauty. Follow his ideals

>makes me wonder what could have been
I was with you up until here. I sometimes think about what it was like to be with my ex, the only girl I've ever really loved, and how insanely happy she made me, how fucking amazing I felt being with her. And I miss the hell out of that feeling.

But wondering "what could have been" is nonsense. What is, is what is. What happened is what happened, and it couldn't have happened any other way. Looking back on the past with fondness is fine, it's human, but wishing that something were different than it is...that's completely foolish.
Accept the reality. Accept what is. It's the only way you can find happiness.

>Nobody can go 8 years without sex and be happy.
Tell that to an 8-year old that's been raped.

i've heard this but i somehow doubt its effectiveness.
care to elaborate?

Shameful bump. Could use some advice

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>she's scared of me now.
What? Did she elaborate on what she meant by this?

>put these up everywhere
>teach horses to read
>cars are phased out because hay is way cheaper than gas

it gets better even when it doesnt seem like it i promise!!!!! hold on and keep pushing.

Awesome song from an awesome album

She was like she's scared that I want more from her. Like she's scared of that possibility

Gf stopped talking to me, learned she was talking to this dude who smokes weed and has a gf and playing a bitch on the side, was telling her shit I didn't say and telling me shit she didn't say to sabatoge us, then told side bitch I liked her which I dont,.

I hate stoners.

That doesn't make sense, though. Unless she means she's scared to take things further. If that's the case, then it would be a good sign because it would mean she has feelings for you too and is afraid to lose what you guys have now.
But this is all assuming that's what she meant. Sounds like you just need to discuss it with her again, get on the same page and see whether or not she has feelings for you, too.

I want to learn to hack any good places to learn from?

My Mom died back in June... Her and I were always really close.. never had my Dad growing up.. was always just her.. I miss her terribly.. I feel like I have been gutted... I miss her every day. :(

I posted a greentext and someone screencapped it and now I cant go into a feels thread without wanting to kms because its posted quite often.

That is exactly where I am. The only significant relationship I have with anybody is a 15 year old online girl. I'm 23 years old. I don't talk to her about anything sexually of course. We seem like very good friends who talk about being with each other from time to time. She seems very confident we will someday. Other than her, I really don't have anyone else. Not in real life.

I have almost no work experience. I have no car. I still live with my parents obviously. Ever since I've gotten out of high school I've only had one focus in my life, and that was to lose weight. That's all I ever cared about. I lost a lot, but I still have much more to go. The girl I mentioned earlier gives me a lot of motivation to do better for myself, because maybe someday, we will be together. I'm a lonely virgin though, yet that wouldn't matter to me if she genuinely and exclusively wanted to be with me.

But I am severely lost, with everything. I'm not so depressed about it, I just have no sense of direction. Nobody to help me. Just nothing. I don't know what to do but to find a job. I was just filling out an application and got to the last part where 3 references are required and gave up. My future seems pretty dim.

I think at the start of this we discussed there would be no feelings involved. And now she thinks I'm not in that boat anymore. Like I want more than just sex. I want feelings involved. But the truth is I'm not sure what I want with this girl. I was drunk and I just uttered something.

Lake Mungo.

Feeling kinda down. Dead end job that i hate, life going nowhere, etc.

What was it about user? Why do you want to kill yourself just because someone screencapped your thoughts? Nobody knows it is you

That's rough, man. I wish you the best. I would feel the same if my mom passed.

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>i can feel the whole universe
>ever star, planet, and nebula
>i can feel the energies of the past
>i can feel the energies of ever single creature and object
>i can feel the higher planes and hidden fields all around us that science hasn't discovered
>i can feel my own energy shifting farther and farther from normal
>i can feel eternity
>i can feel indescribable emotions that cause me genuine sickness in my gut
>i can feel that i am entirely alone, and always will be
>no matter how well i connect with people, nobody will ever understand this
i can't fucking take it anymore.

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The only dream I haven't forgotten is when I dreamt of my dead mother somehow coming back, and I thought it was real. When I woke up I had to lose her all over again

you're right that is really fucking shitty

Damn

Then get an engineering degree. Plenty of physics plus decent money. A friend of mine is 27 and making close to 100k doing mechanical engineering.

I'm really sorry, man. I lose my brother a few years ago, he and I were really close too, he was literally the person I was closest to in the world, and losing him felt like losing a gigantic part of myself and my entire life. It was a worse hell than anything I could have imagined before it happened. But I can tell you that your life will go on and you will feel better and be happy again eventually.
You just need to remember that she is a huge part of who you are, you are the person you are because of her, not only because she was your mother, but because she was such an important part of your life. And because of all this, she will always be with you because she is part of you.
Nothing in life last forever. Nothing. Every relationship we have is going to end, some last longer than others, but they all end eventually. Having somebody so special to you ripped away so suddenly is insanely hard, but the healthy thing to do is to appreciate the time you had with her, appreciate everything about her and how she impacted you as a person and your life. Appreciate all the happiness and memories she gave you. Because that's all we can ever do.
It's really cheesy, but these are words to live by:

Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.

Your life could have been very different, and you could have never known her, or had a shitty relationship with her, but you didn't. You had an amazing time with your mom, so be happy and thankful that it was so great, and honor her memory by continuing your life in a positive way and finding happiness again. It's what she would want for you.

Thanks man... I appreciate it. I'm telling you.. losing your Mom is fucking terrible.. I wasn't ready...

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>work in a factory
>design one tiny component of a car for weeks or months at a time
>do this for years in order to eventually get the opportunity to design one slightly bigger tiny component of a dogfood line machine
i was on the engineering track for a while and frankly the actual job it results in sounds like hell.

Sounds just like me. I feel like all my existence does is make everyone else's life worse.

Do you have adult add by chance?

Death is calling me, I think I'll take it's hand soon.

I know how that feels
It gets better but it never goes away and that's not what you want to hear but it's the truth. try to do what would make her happy. All you can do is move on and deal with this. Some days I feel like absolute shit and I just want to lay in bed and sleep and other days I feel like an idiot for thinking that.

Idk where youre from but I bet there is agency for shittyjobs near where you live

In France we have intérim angencies and pôle emploi which are for Small jobs shitty I know but its something at least

Look up job announces online I've heard nowadays it's more and more liké that you get recruited or job meeting

Dude get over it. There are people here with real fucking problems. Grow up.

yeah, like this guy

Whatever man. Most jobs suck and are repetitive as shit. At least they make decent money.

I dont sleep anymore, I lie awake at night alone with terrifying thoughts only to watch sunlight come in through my window. Im living the same day over again and the monotony is like a nail in my head getting hammered in further each day. Loneliness is also eating me, I rarely talk to anyone outside of work and spend time watching TV on my computer or trying to sleep. Im scared, disconnected and alone in this world my family are all gone and don't have drive to pursue a partner and never have. Help

kek
touche
I like you

I've been to one of those and got a very very shitty job with a friend where I had to put shit quickly in boxes on a belt for hours. I hated it so much I just quit, but, I probably should have stayed for as long as I could.

What is a completely useless asocial loser like me supposed to do besides kill himself?

elfgirl ear sensitivity = god tier fetish
it's a shame smut (not exactly porn) with it is so ungodly rare

I no longer have any feeling in my chest. Normally you can feel like something is there, but several years ago, the girl that i loved and i went our separate ways. Ever since that day, i think about her all the time. I still love her, even while i was in a relationship, she was always on my mind. We were so close, we did everything together, nothing concerning sex, but we wanted to, just never had the right moment or opportunity. Well, fast forward a couple years and we finally get in contact again. She is taken with kids, and we still have the same feelings as we did back then, like nothing happened to us. She says that she wishes thing happened differently, and obviously, so do I. I would love nothing more in this world for me and her to be together, but until then, I will continue to live with this emptiness in my chest. Why do we hurt each other by being so close while being so far away? I hate myself for how things happened back then.

Imo your best shot would be to find the less shitty job among shits jobs

Money is power then apply for some school to get qualifications ? Idk
i just starter life recently got my degree but now I need to find a compagny for m'y school to begin it
My social skills sucks and I'm in business
Not thé best for some social retard liké me

Your words literally made me tear up.. I have been so insanely OVERLY emotional since she died. My Mom and I were so very close. She was more than just my Mom, she was my best friend and I say that proudly. The best memories I have in life are with her. I trusted her with my life and she trusted me with hers. We had one hell of a bond.. and I seriously feel like all the best parts of me died right along with her. I've been having an incredibly difficult time moving forward with my life.. I feel gutted and empty with her being gone.. I never got to say goodbye either.. which makes it worse.. I live 5 hours away from her... and I had been gone for about 2 years because of my bad financial situation.. so we only ever talked on Facebook or on the phone. Missing her these last 2 years i've been away was hard enough on me.. then my Uncle called me and told me she died... it crippled me.....

But I see what you're saying... every relationship ends.. EVERYTHING ends for that matter... that's the part of life I hate the most. Death is fucking cruel.. to have something so wonderful with someone.. be it a parent, sibling, significant other, or just a friend... to have that taken away? It's cruel... and btw.. I'm sorry for YOUR loss... you losing your Brother... I can only relate because of losing my Mom.. it's devastating. You said in time i'll be happy again? I certainly don't feel that way right now.. but you could be right. I do need to remember I am who I am because of my Mom.. I credit her 100%... she taught me everything I know.. she made me the good person I am today.. without her? I'd have gone down a very dark road. I know shes still very much a part of me.. hell even when she was still alive she told me when the day comes that shes gone she'll always be with him... I fully believe that.. I just miss her so much.. :(

Anyway... I wanted to say I didn't think ANYTHING you said was corny, I appreciate your words.

I want some good Magic: the Gatherinf rule 34 but there isn't enough in the world

Then what do I do after I work a shitty job? I don't want to do that my whole life. I've done nothing with myself the last 5 years since I graduated high school. I don't know what to do..

I'm afraid of school, and afraid of the things people say about it that I've heard of. Like debt, having too much work to do and all the stress that comes with it. Everybody else I knew from high school in the past is already on the path of success. I feel like I am the only person that is fucked.

i wake up in the morning sinking halfway to the bottom, there's a soft unfeeling static in my soul.
everything is dark and empty and i don't know how to fix it, so i curl up in a ball and cry in the comfort of my home.
i don't know why i feel like shit, please say i'm fine but i'm not fine. i'm dying inside, and all i see are demons. i try to hide all my deepest feelings.
i thing there's something wrong with me because i can't catch a breath. every time i go outside i look like i've been doing meth. i only sleep for half an hour when i have to go out soon, every now and then i cough up blood and i don't know what to do.
i don't know why i feel like shit, i will not see a therapist. i'm dying inside, and all i see are demons. i try to hide all my deepest feelings.
help. help. help. help. help. help. help. help. help. help. help. help. help.

i'm in a similar boat user. don't kill yourself.

Its life I Guess
If I was you id try to do the shits job for a year or so, then apply to school (public if it exists)
Then I would have money, something to put on my CV

Oh hey a Filthy Frank fan

Love that song

Thank you. People like us, who have lost somebody we were really close to, are the only ones who truly understand each other and what it's like and how seriously devastating it is. So when you tell me you're sorry for my loss, it means a lot more because I know you know what it's like, and vice versa.
As far as being overly emotional, just let it happen. Embrace it. Let yourself feel however you need to feel, whenever you need to feel it. I can't tell you how many times I fucking bawled so hard it hurt. But it's good for you because it lets some of the pain out from inside you.
When you say you feel gutted and empty with her gone, like the best parts of you died with her, I literally felt the exact same way after losing my brother. But over time I realized that even though this changed both my life and my self as a person, I am still me at the core, and he is still just as much a part of me as he always was.
I know you don't feel like you could ever possibly be happy again, I sure didn't for a very long time, but I promise you will. This will never go away though, this experience, it's part of who you are now, and all you can do is own it and accept it and make the most of it that you can. But for now, just focus on yourself and letting yourself feel whatever you need to feel. You don't need to worry about being happy right now. Be sad as hell, be fucking angry, feel like absolute shit if that's how you feel. Cry as hard and as often as you want, scream your fucking lungs out if you feel the need to. I did. You just need to let yourself go through all this in order to start healing.
I hope what I've said helps but we all need to deal with these things on our own, in our way and in our own time.
Just try to look at things positively instead of negatively, even the hard and painful stuff. It may sound weird, but try to enjoy feeling your intense pain, because in reality, it's a reminder of something wonderful.

i feel yah user. It feels terrible. im trying to drown the feels with alcohol and i dont know if it will ever get better. but everyone tells me it will. hang in there. i still will. if you need a Sup Forumsro just ask and ill give you my email. ill try to help

I take it you lost your Mom too? It's gut wrenching... it really is. I kinda figured the pain will never go away, but just kind of get easier to deal with over time.

i actually did change some of the words to better suit my situation.
some stuff just didn't fit me or it was too edgy for my taste, so i improvised.