Have a good paying job that I enjoy

>Have a good paying job that I enjoy
>Living in a nice appartment
>Have a loving family
>Have a loving gf
>Have good friends

>Still depressed as fuck

What am I still missing?

Don't know probably drugs

Depression is a disease, man. You're not necessarily missing anything. If you're feeling down because of shitty things in your life that's just being sad. If things are good and you feel down no matter what, that's likely a mood disorder. You should see a doctor, famalam.

Better leave family, GF and friends, else you will drag them down.

lmao, you're missing hobbies, you don't have recreational shit. You've never done anything. You've never lived.

I say all of this on the assumption that your good paying job requires you to work a lot.

This. Sounds like a chemical imbalance to me dude

I got dubs so it must be true

> tfw a quarry to settle

Ha!

Perhaps you are beginning to realize that "the correct way to live," i.e. going through the motions of every other dipshit with a banal existence, isn't enough. Bonus points if you've realized already that there's a 98% probability that your own children will end up going down the same dead-end path as well.

Hi Mr. Joyful!

Bet you're fun at partys!

Impressive!

do you travel and take vacations OP? I have the same emptiness inside me but i found that if I take time off and use my vacations days it really brings new perspective to life, I just took last Friday off randomly felt the need too, went to the beach just randomly grabbed a bear and food at this amazing restaurant i never been, took the train some where i never been and just went for a walk it was nice bro, even if its a small local get away try it

Purpose.

Trying to find time to see one someday.
Not really, currently I am at a place that requiers me to work 12 hours a day 7 days straight, but I get 1 week off. But I still get full pay.
I have tons of hobbies aswell, I play drums, play tons of games both online and with friends.
This is a main reason I keep for not getting any kids.
I'd mostly be a shit parent.
All others I meet keep saying otherwise that I'd be a great parent. But I do not feel that way.
I think about that every day.
as said earlier I work 1 week and then free 1 week.This weekend I was in our capital cuty with gf and had a great time. We went to comic-con and some resturants, some arcades and had a great time.

>just randomly grabbed a bear

??

I think you need to stop complaining so fucking much, I'd give my left nut and a kidney for even one of those things. but seriously try a doctor, therapy helped me deal with some of my more serious issues

honestly op, you need conflict in your life. Humans need adversity to grow. You sound like you've already accomplished all the things you thought you needed from life. Find a goal that seams almost impossible, and reach for it.

>Trying to find time to see one someday
Do you have insurance and a primary care physician? If so, s/he may very well feel comfortable prescribing an antidepressant without needing to refer you to someone else. GP's prescribe basic mental health stuff like that all the time. If he tried a couple things that didn't help, then at that point he'd probably pass you to a specialist but my point here was just that if you have a doctor that you see at all, it should be easy to ask about.

You are missing pain faggot.
Happyness is relative. Relative to other experiences in your life.
If your life has been pretty fucking good all the time and you are use to things going this way then your happiness rating is probably a solid 4 or even maybe 3 depending on how easy your past was and how stable it has been.
In order to appreciate what you have you must live life at 1 or 2 for a fucking while and never. Ever. Want. to go back..
Aka you'll never know happiness without FIRST knowing pain.

lowkey this

where's the part where you're having fun? our enjoying life?

This man knows.

The thing about happiness is... you never realized you had it until it's gone.

Thing about happiness is. You mever had it untill after you realized what you had was great. You didn't appreciate it enough in the moment to be happy. You will only be happy after suffering and then appreciating the things you have been without

This. Context provides perspective.

This post is kinda stealthily edgy.

lol sorry a beer wtf i am busting right now

Read, "acres of diamonds"

negative habitual thinking?

You're trying to hard to be happy. Happiness is a shit rope. The more you try and make sense of it the worse it will be. Just relax and be present.

I've been bullied since second grade all the way up to second year in college. Most of the reason I got bullied was becasue I hit back when they hit me.
Wich almost nobody else they bullied did.
And so a rumor spread that I had anger issues so all wanted to test me. And people started to stay away from me aswell. A main reason I didn't go full out ruining my life by killing/assult the people who bullied me was a loving family.
My grades has also been shitty most of my life due to the bullying making me unable to attend school because I was scared.
I am enjoying life, 40% of the time. I have hobbies, and friends and I enjoy being with them. But I still have problems keeping my depression away so it does'nt seem like I "act" depressed for attention or whatever some people may think.
I think negative on most things. And I almost never belive in myself. Even when it comes to my line of work where it requiers my own desicion I still hesitate if I am right. Even when I know to 100% I am right.

Again, context: the things you have now (job, nice apartment, loving family, etc) aren't the things that you've *truly* sought after all this time.

You say you were miserable back in those days... how much do you still identify with that younger version of yourself?

I ask because what you still need is context: things that will make you happy *IN LIGHT OF* the hardships you've endured.

And you are stealthly a faggot

Rude.

Could be 1 of 2 things, or both.

A- you need some drama in your life. Super weird, but back when I was struggling financially, life was more interesting. Now I'm kinda bored and I have time to acknowledge my depression creeping on.

B- you sound like your life is more "being" than "doing". And did get me wrong, you sound like you aced the "being" part. But day after day, week after week, is it the same old story? Like if every Saturday I tuned into your diary, would I keep coming back to find something cool and new that maybe I wanna try, or is it gonna be you saying "yeah, life is great. Still have a great job and gf" that I'd quickly get bored with?
Just go out exploring your city. Go on vacation somewhere weird and new. Go to sporting events. Learn to play keyboard. Try new foods.
Challenge your mind is what I'm saying. Do shit other people would be jealous of. Do shit that makes you feel proud. Grow as a person.

I thank you all for the (you).
You helped me think through some things.
And I need to try harder to find a doctor to talk to.
Again, thanks.