Feels thread , leave a piece of yourself
Today i had the biggest dissapointment of my life , im working at bakery via midleman . the peeps at the place earn 15 euroshekels + nightshift bonuses / holidays etc etc... while we get 9 shekels + partial part of nightshift bonus ... The situation is like this .
Till the end of the year , all staff from midlemans are to be fired , and people from midlemans can be employed into the MAIN companny before the end of the year .
I was talking to the boss today asking about being employed under the companny , since they took like 80% of the staff ... he told me that i am not eligable for the transfer , but if i want still work there , i can work throught another midleman [>NICE CUCK]. This hit me harder than a truck , i hid all emotion till i came home . Im young and i can find work pretty much fast , but teh initial thought hit me hard ... they took like guys that cant use the language properly / addicted to alcochol and coming to work semi - drunk / people that had an argument every step with boss , and i was not eligable to transfer ... i did nothing wrong ... was never late , i dont drink/smoke , work hard , stay overdue if needed , never complain ... meh , life is hard
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move to the US. you doing have to deal with that bullshit
My wife of 43 years died 2 weeks ago, and it's taking everything I have not to just kill myself right now.
She's everything I've ever lived for.
bump
I work a dead end job to support my family, and a close friend because she can't work right now, meanwhile I'm falling hard for her, I'm relatively young, wanting to have kids, it's the one thing I want in life, a family and kids of my own blood, meanwhile she's 10+ years older than me and can't have kids, her life is already over pretty much and mine is just starting, I'm in a hard place right now trying to decide the best move for me, either be with her and never have kids or just keep it at close friends and hope I find someone who makes me feel like she does who can give me kids.
Sorry bro.
Also I don't even make enough money to afford transportation to a better job because I make so little right now.
I have AIDS irl
Starving artist
You deserve better than a "sorry bro," so here you go: don't cut your life short now. Two lives lost is not better than one. Give death the biggest "fuck you" and become the best man you can with the time you still have. Bro, I can't possibly fathom your loss, but I know you still have the opportunity to give fate the middle finger.
I was in a relationship for 8 years, I gave her everything I had my heart, my money, and my soul. We got married and she started sleeping around with my best friend and his wife. I got very upset and said something I shouldn't have. She divorced me a year after that. The pain I feel for saying what I did to her and the crushing loneliness I feel day after day is a constant reminder of what I used to have. I know she doesn't get on this and nobody here knows her but if I could say one thing to her now it would be this. "Sarah I'm sorry, I'll go to my grave loving you. And while you will never forgive me for what I said know this I don't forgive myself either"
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Tough tits man
Hoes will be hoes
You're not a bad person, and you're not to blame.
The girl I love is in another country until November of next year. I've dealt with depression for years and she's one of the only people I've ever been happy around. I miss her so much and I don't have any real friends so I'm wallowing in my loneliness and I don't know how to escape. Everyone I've met at college so far I've either disliked or has hated me. I know I need to try harder to meet people and work harder to find other things worth living for but it's really difficult. If anyone has any advice to help me stop being a little bitch that would be greatly appreciated.
dude my whole life is my greatest disappointment.
>grew up in poverty and broken home
>decide to get really good grades my final year in high school
>go to university and study mathematics, get co-op jobs which got me out of crappy slave wage, soulless jobs
>fully believe i will graduate and get a decent job and work my way up through hardwork
>want a nice wife and family, the family i never had
>graduate with my degree and lots of experience doing analytics
>two years later, have been utterly rejected and ignored from jobs in my field
>bouncing around minimum wage jobs and employment insurance
>girlfriend, who takes the brunt of our finances, is clearly losing patience and hope in me
>reduced to smoking pot and playing vidya all day because i cannot bear to face reality any longer
>want to be dead
yep. almost 30 with a shitload of debt, no prospects and still doing minimum wage jobs where i get treated like shit. i really just wish i was dead but im too afraid to kill myself.
Thank you for your kind words
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something you wouldn't have done?
i dont know what you said, but dont act like you're guilty of not having her, she doesn't have you either and she's the hoe in here and no matter what you said after what she did it's useless, you're not guilty of anything and let the bitch drown, i've known cheaters and after they get caught up they normally fall into depression, even if they are playing the strong one
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Fuckin hell, man. Wish I had any sort of thing to tell you that might have an impact on you, but there has to be way out that pit other than death. And I hope it comes to you soon.
when you have to break up with someone its rough. id honestly rather be broken up with. just having to hear someone cry and beg and all that hurts my soul.
but you gotta do it.
>brother abused me sexually and violently growing up
>if I tried to tell my parents about it their solution was to force us to spend every waking moment side by side
>just lead to more abuse
>remember begging to be allowed to sleep on the floor during a family trip so i wouldnt have to share a bed with my brother
>parents tell me im being 'dramatic'.
>sexual stuff fades to him just spying on me in the shower through middle school and just to physical violence through highschool
>even as an adult he kept trying to assert physical dominance over me
>finally pulled a gun on him last time i visited cuz he was threatening to beat my face
>no longer see any of my family
just can't deal with the madness anymore. I wish i could say this was the jist of it, but that just barely covers what my brother did and how they enabled him. im so tired of thinking about it but it comes back to my mind every day.
when you love someone its amazing how much just a text that says 'ditto' can really light up your night.
one of my mates moms killed herself not too long ago. He told everyone she "fell" onto the road. I barely spoke to him tbh but this just fucked with me. Maybe it was more his emotionless face when he told me.
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Family situation is pretty bad too. Don't be afraid to cut people out of your life that's bad for you. It'll be hard but leave them behind and move on without them and all the crap attached to them
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I felt the same way once. Like a siren's call, I was mesmerized by the songbirds innocent Melody. But all faded when I turned behind me to see the mate she was calling to.
I've lost nearly 100lbs in the last year and somehow feel fatter than when I started. Mentally I almost prefer being in absolute denial about my weight.
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Holy shit son, take pride in that alone. That's fucking awesome.
nice quads. thats what im doing its just shitty. they left me with debt they promised to pay and its just making life difficult. but if i had stayed with them id be even more debt on top of all that abuse so its better than that I guess.
dude chill
because the slight relief and reassurance is worth it
My mom didn't buy my tenders i gonna kill her then kms.
Grow up.
Here's your (you)
Personally, I go here hoping to help someone with their problems. Give them a push to try to live better.
I know that feeling. Dad promised to help me with school, once I bought all the shit I realized I was completely on my own.
Better is better, for what it's worth. We all have to start somewhere, and christ buddy you deserve better than them.
you know typically when people are married that long and one dies the other follows not too long after, not counting suicide cases
>I HEAR THE SIRENS CALL BUT SHE WAS CALLING TO A DIFFERENT MATE
>grow up
the irony must be toxic, how are you alive?
That bitch doesn't deserve you. Just cut her out of your life now, you don't need her.
better is definitely better. Figured i cant be the only one with the problem. just a shitty thing to tell someone you'll pay for college and then yell at them to start paying back all of it as soon as they graduate.
never saw any of my college fund. just irks me.
etiher way, much easier with just the part in my name at least. thank god for small favors.
and thank you. im building up my own family and its nice.
Good job, man. It sucks they fucked you over one last time but it sounds like you've got it figured out without them. Fuck 'em. Be happy with what you have, love and cherish the people close to you.
inb4 lol gay whatever.
I still have 50lbs to go before I'm no longer overweight (10lbs before I'm not still obese by BMI). I know it's a crazy achievement, something that a lot of people may never do.
But goddamnit, I lost 100lbs and need to lose another 50 to be close to a healthy weight. I'm going to half my weight by time I'm "done". That disgusts me.
It's been interesting being able to see parts of my body I've never seen before. I have collar bones again. I can see the tendons in my hand. I can see individual muscles in my arms. It's fucking weird.
A related, unexpected but very welcomed change is I've gained nearly 1" of dick. Of all things, that pleases me.
Out of everything I wrote, you nit-picked a metaphor? Metaphors have been the go-to vehicle for describing life as long as poetry has been around. Anyways, your caps and caustic words don't amount to anything.
Currently, I'm 21 and I've always had an academic life, I've always been regular to school, even though I hated it most of the time, never had the best grades, but I've consistently gotten really good grades even throughout high school when I wasn't trying hard at all, unfortunately, I've always been terrible at math and sciences, so I couldn't further my education to become an engineer or an IT specialist, something that you get paid quite a lot these days and is safe. Instead, I decided to study languages at Uni, because that's what I was good at throughout my school years. Once I got in, with no troubles whatsoever, I got an excellent mark on my exam, I realized that I really hate what I am studying, but went along no matter what, because there's nothing else that I'm good at and there's absolutely nothing that I'm passionate about, the mindset of my parents and everyone in my country is that, if you want a decent life, you have to have at least a bachelor's degree in something, no matter what. So I didn't really have any troubles my first year and the first semester of my second year, I was passing my exams and everything was fine, even though I hated every minute I was at uni. The second semester of my second year is where things started going downhill, I decided that I'm done with this shit and stopped going to lectures and seminars whatsoever and in result, I fucked up my exams good and proper. Now I don't know what the future holds for me, I've never had a real job before, even though I landed one now and will be starting next month, but the thing is that I wanted to go to uni and work half-time, but now I'm not even sure whether I'll be able to start my 3rd year or not, if I don't, I'll lose all of my student's privileges and I'll have to work full-time and will be a disgrace in the eyes of everyone in my family. I feel pretty damn lost.
Yes but just because you still have a ways to go doesn't invalidate the effort that got you here. It reminds me I need to commit more to get into shape again.
You're fucking awesome boyo. Don't give up yet and be happy you made it this far. Wave that extra inch with pride.
Thats pretty shit, son. But life is what you make of it. Would you have really been happy doing something you didn't enjoy doing? This is a bad setback but you're still here. People have made do with less.
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> decide to check out creepypastas for the first time in a few years
> still get spooked
I remembered the most chilling pasta I ever read and now I can't sleep.
>out of the only thing I wrote, you picked on that
i love a good metaphor user but you used it in such a cringy way. don't dramatize such unimportant things.
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thanks man. i just wish i could forget it sometimes. people get really pissy when you dont want to talk about things and make a deal that you arent 'open' about shit, but then you tell them the full story, and its like two hours long and just hell for me to hear, let alone for someone else to hear, and then afterwards they treat you different and its just a shitty cycle. I Get tired of hearing my self talk about it but then when it weighs heavy in my mind i gotta let itout.
Posted on the feels thread last night. The guy who's gonna off himself on his birthday.
Wrote my general letter/note today. Going to write my personalised letters over the next few days and seal them up preparing to be sent out a few days prior to the event.
The closer it gets, the less scared I become.
Lost my gf of 5 years not long ago, working part and going to school part time. Between bills phone and internet i have no money left over for anything. Friend is upgrading his $1300 rig to about a $2200 rig, said he'll sell his old parts to me half price. Mfw i could finally have some entertainment, then i remembered im always broke. Life sucks man, i just wanna play pubg more often to take my mind off things.
You're not wrong, user. Thanks for the kind words. Gave me a giggle with "wave that extra inch with pride".
I supposed if nothing else, I'm well over halfway there. I've proven I can get this far, I can easily finish the journey. I'm for sure going to get below 200 this year and that'll be the first time since possibly late middle school. And I'd be in year 3 or 4 of college if I didn't fuck that up.
Getting actually fit (at least "lean") is my goal after I can start eating like a normal person. If you start working on that, I wish you the best in that. And in general. You've brightened a strangers night.
>Ever since 8th grade, I'd talk nearly everyday with this girl, and we were inseparable
>If we fought, less than a day later we resolved it
>If we were feeling down, we could always bring the other one up
>She was my first everything, kiss, sex, love and all that
>Around first semester of college, a lot of things changed between us when she got some new friends
>Basically forced to choose between her or the awesome friends I made in high school who stuck around with me through thick and thin
>I tried to keep it even, talking to her and doing things with them
>I guess it wasn't enough
>Not only did she cheat on me, but she cheated on me with a girl
>Friends were supportive for the first few months, then slowly one by one they all left from my life
>Eventually left with 4 people, three of which practically disappear during semester
>I've tried to make friends, even girlfriends
>Everytime I make one, they sooner than later get bored of me and cut me out of their life like everyone else
>Trust issues don't help of course
>The one friend who stuck with me to this day is probably the only reason I haven't killed myself
Reading this back I sound more like a whiny bitch than a victim, but I might as well post it since I took the time to write it.
what pasta dog you cant just leave it like that
dang ... at least u could study ...
>OP HERE
i ended my school without making the final exam ... so i got just medium incomplete ...
also it was just a sport high school , and i didnt make any proffesion either ... the first post i made was about the situation today , it was also mostly because i didnt got the "proffesion" and other had , it didnt matter that it wasnt for that job , they at least had one ...dun give up mane
>two years ago my family and friends did a surprise party for my birthday
>several hours of hanging, laughing, drinking, playing games, etc.
>around 2 am everyone starts leaving
>down to me, my gf, and my brother
>brother says "well that's it for me"
>i tell him it's too late, to just stay here for the night
>"im good, I'd rather sleep in my own bed"
>i tell him he can't drive because he's been drinking
>"I'll just walk, don't worry"
>offer him a ride
>"don't waste your gas, I'll pick up my car in the morning"
>offer to walk with him
>standing in the doorway
>"What's the worst thing that could happen?"
>he walks out into the darkness
That was the last time i saw my brother alive, he was shot and killed on his way home about a block from his house. It ripped me apart because i felt it was all my fault, that I've could've done a better job convincing him to stay. Every time i sleep i see his face, i just really miss him.
A good writer puts meaning into his sentences. I don't care if you can't relate, but at least bring something useful to the discussion. There's plenty of other threads for shit posting. Perhaps I'm asking too much for an anonymous "18+" board.
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You need to talk to people sometimes to really understand what's in your head. Thinking it and saying/typing it is different. We can never forget what happened to us, you can't change circumstance but you can change how you react to it. And despite it all you sound like a good person. You'll work something out. Good luck, Senpai.
Brokefag too. It's hard, especially when theres no real motivation to do anything sometimes. But it's what makes the small victories more rewarding. Keep at it man, you managed to upgrade your rig, you can keep going.
Also, do you have PubG?
I know. I need to cut back on the crap food and energy drinks. That alone would probably get me quite a ways.
You got this shit man, and I'm glad to help. Sometimes all you need is a push in the right direction to keep going. And good luck to you too, man.
>a good writer puts meaning into his sentences.
which is the opposite of what you did. you added style but lacked substance. any 8th grader taking creative writing can write a pretentious sentence. back it up with something other than 'tfw no gf'
Soda and sugary drinks was the first thing I cut out. I'm highly addicted to caffeine though, so I ended up switching to caffeine pills instead of just going without. It sounds stupid, but it's actually insanely cost effective by comparison.
>senpai
about to open up another can of feels with that one
Well he's a fucking idiot, and that sounds too fake to be his last words to you. Come up with a better sob story you cunt.
I don't even remember the name and I'm sure as fuck not looking it up again.
Something about an autistic kid who was obsessed with cutting up and rearranging film reels. At the end of the pasta a childhood acquaintance, years later, investigates the now-abandoned house that the autistic kid lived in and finds the now-grown kid dead and rotting, wires sticking out of his body and into a television playing an infinite loop of a happy cartoon man walking through an idyllic little world.
I remember even less of the sequel but somebody had a tape of this and taped over it, and the result was the television showing the corpse with wires on it, and the television it is connected to showing the same, infinitely nesting. The corpse looks out of the screen and waves at the person watching.
Fuck, it gave me nightmares when I read it. It's a well known one.
Sadly, with every hello is an inevitable goodbye. And a lot of the time it isn't pretty.
Fell in love with my best friend. Was a goddamn moron about it. Been pretty depressed throughout life, the idea of being happy was new and made me giddy and retarded.
She broke it off. It was my fault because I was really stupid in a lot of ways. With her gone a lot of my friends left too. But it does get better. Don't let one bad experience get in the way of believing in and trusting people. It's hard. Holy fuck I know its hard, but cherish what makes you happy and be open to try new things. In time you'll find something that'll make you happy.
I know you wont believe me but you can't blame yourself. It's not your fault. Sometimes bad things happen to good people, and neither you nor your brother knew this was going to happen. Frankly it could have been any of us.
But please, if you love your brother please try to not beat yourself up over him. he wouldn't want you to be so torn up over something you didn't even do. Live and love for both of you. You carry every memory, interaction, everything he was in everything you do. Make him proud user.
Yea i do but i cant run it on my laptop lol, i only play every now and then at a friends house. I probably cant afford to buy his old rig though unless he sells it to me part by part. And id still need a tower and a monitor.
On the contrary, it's a story of a mutual love but a singular loss. Did I imply "tfw no gf"? Glad to know you aren't an 8th grader, though. I'm not sure why you decided to act childish on my story out of all of the others here, but at least I'm sparing the others from you in the meantime.
Been going to group therapy for two weeks and i still havent shared my story or seen psych yet so im just there indulging in the sadness of others meanwhile my family has no idea so they think im at work and i tell them im wasting my money to hide that i havent gone in nearing three weeks. On the plus side, my perceptions of their perceptions of me being a failure are slightly false now.
My mother collapsed from pneumonia, I did CPR but failed to resuscitate her. I had no idea what I was doing and was basing it off a 10 minute course from highschool and what the emergency operator was saying.
When the ambulance arrived and the paramedics were doing defibrillation I could see on the monitor it was a lost cause.
Since then I've learned a bit far as medical response goes and saved/lost a few people. Surrounded by horrible incidents fucks you up over time, I'd understand if I chose the path but it's just literally stuff like cars crashing into trees in front of me and throwing the driver out of the car; everyone seems to run in circles, nobody takes charge. I took charge the night my mother died, taken charge many times since. Everybody hails me as this level headed hero and every single time it just dredges up that night and kills me inside.
It's hell.
I cut out drinking too after some scary chest pains. I managed to quit smoking, just gotta sack up and quit soda too. But thanks user. Both for the advice and some inspiration to be better.
Lol. Hey I'm sappy but I mean what I say. Just do what you can to be happy. You deserve it.
>throwing this big of a deal because someone told you to 'chill'
spare us from /you/ jesus christ.
senpai was a nickname i had for a friend who moved recently. i miss him.
Newegg and Craigslist bro. Sometimes you get lucky. Keep looking, and keep your chin up. I want you getting those fucking chicken dinners in the comfort of your own home.
Oh, I'm sorry bud. Didn't mean to dig up any bittersweet memories.
But if you have that pic because you play monster hunter, that makes you a rad motherfucker, if that helps.
Here's your (you), since you can't get enough.
its not your fault, im not upset, i was thinking about him a lot today anyways. he was a good friend and i wish he had stayed.
we would stay up really late playing silent hill. he sent me a picture today (pic related on the left) referencing one of the monsters from the game, so i spent my afternoon photoshopping him into said monster for the lols.
he was just a really fun guy and when he took an interest in my life he didn't do it with the aversion other people have to my more 'unique' parts. he treated me like I was normal, like the things I had built were things to aspire to. it felt nice to be appreciated that way.
>friends all abandoned, one by one
Shit man. Same exact thing happened to me. But you know what? Fuck them. Fuck those dumb assholes. They abandoned you? Their loss. Don’t need people like that in your life
How can i be more warm?
I've never had real friends or had a girl stay with for more than a one month because i can't show interest or emotions. I've never had love or fun in my entire life. I am not a kissless virgin but I've never kissed a girl with passion or made love with someone. I dated with two girls and both of them left me after short time because "you don't love me nor care about me"
I am not narcissistic even tho a lot call me.
How can i have emotions?
Suicide?
>wont stop responding
>gets mad when other people respond back
wew lad
checked
>Silent Hill
You two are still cool motherfuckers, pic got a sensible chuckle out of me. And hey, some contact beats nothing. It isn't the same as having people in convenient hang-out range, but as I've said in this thread before you gotta appreciate what you got, for what its worth.
Now now, please don't do that. You deserve better than that. In my low moments I get really cold to people in general. Just keep putting yourself out there, find people you can care about. If that was easy we'd all probably be doing something else right now. people worth caring about are a rare thing nowardays, but that doesnt mean you can't try. Also, acknowledging that you need to be more emotive is a good place to start. Also, try being a bit more open with how you feel/think of whatevers going on.
It's not like if the faculty decides that I can't continue into my third year then everything is over. I can take my exams this year and continue from there, but that would really slow me down. And yes, you're right, some people have made do with less, but I don't feel like this makes my shitty situation feel less shitty...
You can empty what is built in your chest here user
in theory sure, but saying 'at least its only fucking you in the ass and not in the mouth afterwards' isn't really helpful. between losing my family my dog and my friend this year I think im comfortable just wallowing in feels for awhile
>Quads of truth
You're right. Trolls will always get under my skin. Tell me, now. A feels thread is the perfect place to respond to this: why do you feel the need to derail conversations? Nobody's paying you to do this.
>Keep on fighting with my gf
>Feels like im pushing her away
>want to die but dont at same time
Hi lorenna if your reading this, im sorry.
Are you Eazy E?
I know, but there really isn't much to say except don't give up. Lifes a lot of work, lifes a lot of shit. But keep going. Even if you don't know where you're going, pushing and trying regardless is at least a productive step.
Fair enough, man. But take care, and I hope things get better for you bud.
its a mixed bag man. ive told the story twice this week to people who said they felt like i dont 'open up' enough, but afterwards they kinda stop talking to me. i dont want to hear the story my self again, the clifff notes version was meh enough, and last time i posted the full thing someone kept saying i was being 'dramatic' just because one of the lesser abuses was being forcefed til i puked (despite it being sandwiched inbetween the molestation and other shit).
im just tired of hearing the story coming out of my mouth and my head. i just wish i could forget it, and i keep having those enlightening moments where im like 'im good, im done, i can move on this year', but it keeps coming back.
a friend of mine gavem e a card saying 'its great living with someone who knows what the important things are in life and how to ignore the rest' but i cant ignore the rest. it just keeps bubbling back up every day.
I just wnat to forget my family, or become desensitized to all the shit they did so i can have a full day of not dwelling on it.
but whenever I dont want to talk about it i find a reason to talk about it anyways and then i hate my self afterwards.
Spent most of my life afraid of relationships and not really aware of how to have the right attitude when talking to women. Now in my mid 20s I've tried to date several times, all to end in disaster.
Was gonna dat a girl, pretty cute, had a night of hard fucking. Thought a relationship was gonna start but nah. She leaves me next week later to get back together with an ex.
Former best friend loses his long time on and off gf, Turns into a pathetic sack because he can't live without a relationship. I try to comfort him by hanging out, playing his and my favorite vidya series. Leaves a hangout early to hang out with an ex of his. Eventually he starts dating the girl that broke up with me, because he was already long time friends with her. Turns out he did want comforting, but not from dudes.
Go to small friend get together, he's high and drunk off his ass, and really lovey dovey w/ girl. I can't stand watching anymore and leave early. See him at another party and I can't stand to even look at his face. Haven't talked to my good friend of 8 years for months now, feel like I want a relationship but don't know if I even emotionally have it in me to have one anymore after nothing but failure for so long.
>spend three years crushing over a coworker
>try to get to know her but all i can manage is small talk
>she usually just smiles at me and try to small talk back
>one day we have an actual conversation
>we get into it
>somehow leads to us sharing childhood stories
>it ends with her essentially asking me out for lunch the next day
>her favorite resturant
>i say yes
>we both just spend the next minute smiling like goofs
>we go our separate way
>I can't sleep because I'm too excited
>got to lunch time
>went to the resturant she told me about
>she never showed up
>a little upset because i thought she stood me up
>decided with "something might have come up, and she has no way of contacting me to tell me"
>figured I'll see her at the office
>get to work
>she's no where to be seen
>"maybe she's sick"
>"maybe she's running late"
>"maybe she's trying to avoid me"
>its eating me up all day
>get home
>can't sleep because now I'm upset
>get to work tomorrow
>boss calls everyone into the conference room
>he tells us that she died in a car crash two nights ago
>my heart just snaps
>the first time i ever worked up the courage to talk to a girl i liked she dies
>fast forward five years
>im still working the same position
>getting paid the same amount
>same hours
>im still living the same life
>just i can't stop thinking about how it could've been if i had her