Good evening, user. How's things? Feeling down? Need a hug?

Good evening, user. How's things? Feeling down? Need a hug?

Let's talk.

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I think I've gotten sick, my lungs hurt terribly

Why not? I do it because I want to.

Hey. That's not good to hear. But I bet that link will be...

Where could you have gotten the sickness from?

Share face?

If I am to think what it is, it is something that always happens when the season changes. I get a sore throat, terrible headache, my lungs start hurting real badly and my head gets stuffy. If it lasts more than 5 days I'm going to the doctors.

But well, I guess it's quite common for many people here to get this sickness. The only annoying thing is that I can't smoke properly.

How have you been ? I haven't seen your threads in a while

Oh hai again, cool to see you back

Many problems. I should probably get some help instead of just coming back to you all the time.

I still haven't admitted I'm bipolar or seeked treatment, mostly because I thought I was fine (coming down from manic phase). Come today and depression has hit me like a bus, for no reason at all. I asked my dream girl out the other day and she said yes, but I still feel like shit. I don't know why but I can't seem to shake the feeling that she's faking everything, but it might be anxiety. I don't know, I feel like a mess right now. For real, my life has never been better than it is right now and I feel like total garb. I don't know if I want help, I don't know if I just want support, I just want all this to settle down and let me be happy that life is finally going in my direction.

My girlfriend wont send nudes even though we've been together for over 18 months.

No. I'm a guy anyway, you don't want to see my face.

That's just terrible. I had something similar yesterday, but not nearly that bad. It passed very quickly. You take care of yourself, user.

I skipped a couple of nights to watch a movie and catch up on sleep. Back to doing them now.

Good to see you too, user. How are you doing tonight?

Coming here to talk might help a little bit, but it is a very small thing. For real problems you need real help, you're right.

She said yes. Force yourself to accept that and to not think she has ulterior motives or secretly hates you. That's all bullshit, spawned by the paranoid and anxious part of your mind. Don't let it affect you.

You aren't a garbage person, but if you're bipolar and hitting your down phase, you can definitely feel like one. Support will help with that. So will help. Even if you're not sure you want help, you should seek some out. If you're not strong enough now, wait for the next mania and get help right away. Make appointments for later on, so you'll have to go to one while you're depressed too.

Does she not trust you, user? Does she feel you're not close enough?

Holy shit are you me? I'm literally sat here with the same symptoms trying to smoke a bowl to relieve the headache.

I hope it gets better user, being ill is the fucking worst.

I think we've pretty much worked ourselves through the whole trust issue alot of couples have to deal with (even with my own previous experiences). She tells me she has little sex drive.

I take that to mean that she just doesn't find me sexually attractive. Which would explain a lot, but she always denies it. She says nudes are 'weird'

Sounds like you should take care of yourself too, but sounds like you've also been doing just that. I hope it was a good movie :)

But yeah, giving you advice is like talking to a wall, I tend to forget hehe.

I can definitely tell that I'm not you, because I'm sitting here drinking a good and warm rum to try and get the worst of the throat and numb the pain a little.

To be honest I wouldn't recommend smoking weed, maybe rather you should take a light pain killer and drink some tea to relieve the pressure

user why do you make these threads? Not shitting on it, I think its really cool. Just curious is all.

Do you think she could be too self-conscious?

If she says she has low sex drive, she's probably telling the truth. It doesn't have anything to do with you. She just doesn't have a very high libido.

Do I act like too much of a wall? I had never thought of it that way before, but I guess you're right. I've been drinking water and all that. I'll be fine.

It was Back to the Future. Lot of fun.

I don't know, user. Sometimes I enjoy it. Maybe it's just a habit that I can't kick. I don't have a good reason. Glad you like it though.

Damn you right, I'll go make some tea in a minute.

And I know, you're right about the weed. I haven't smoked in a while and I kinda promised myself a little smoke for the weekend but I should probably wait a while till I'm better.

I'm too perfect all I do is perfect
What do

Stub toe

Feel imperfect

???

Profit

Commit sedoku.

I think it just depends on times where you are met with all these anonymous voices trying to tell you things that you end up encapsulating yourself a little unless there is a distinct mark that it isn't someone trying to hurt you.

Back to the future is REAL good !

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Just do some green tea, it works wonders, and don't forget vitamin D ! Just a little bit to boost the immune system. If you really want to treat yourself, go and get a decent rum so you can put a little in the tea

That's entirely possible. She goes to the gym (I encourage her, but she started on her own), so maybe that's a sign. However, I dont really know if she's too self conscious to send ME something, as I've always told her she's beautiful.

I honestly hope its self consciousness, because that we could at least work through. Low sex drive, i'm afraid, would be a deal breaker for me.

Fair enough user, its not a negative habit, it can be nice to help people feel better. I know its cliche, but this place really is a community at times and its good to know there are still people out there helping others, completely anonymously.

Just don't go burning yourself with it - and I'll be fine isn't the same as being fine. You don't have to stay strong for us, I think everyone here of all threads understands its okay to unload once in a while - I hope you at least have someone around who can do that for you.

Have a nice evening user.

I've opened up a lot of myself to her and she knows all about my insecurities and problems with relationships, I can't get the thought out of my head that she just feels bad for me, but I don't know. I feel like she tries to dodge around stuff a lot, like when I ask if she wants to hang out. I really hope it's just my anxiety and not my gut telling me that I'm lost.

As for my disorder, I'll try and get help tomorrow. I'll sit someone down and just tell them what's going on and that I want help.

Thanks for offering support.

How do I get a trap gf? I'm not socially retarded, if that helps.

Maybe next time you see her you could ask to do a tasteful photo shoot of/with her. Maybe seeing herself in pictures with you or taken by you, and seeing how carefully you look after them (maybe in a locked app or something) will open her mind to it a little more?

Chilling on my balcony while my roomies are having sex.
Feel like i should meet some girls eventually.

About that, whenever a girl hints me that she want to go on a date ( or whenever i feel like asking them) i have some kind of mind block and say no for this reason

- affraid of the boner outage
- affraid to not be good enough for her in sex

Sex is a big part of a relationship as much as says it doesnt, thoughts op?

I just saw the add they played while I was in a coma for a teen movie that supports sexism. I live near the person that defends that type of assault and may support the movie that it made. I'm upset that they took two years to plan it and one year to make the actual movie and actually released preview commercials while I was unable to object on it and it's values.

Sometimes the walls aren't thick enough, and I let too much of it get to me. People like you make it easier to keep going.

Thank you.

It could be a combination of both, user. The only way for it to get better is for you to talk to her about it, though. Ask her directly why she doesn't want to.

You're right. I've talked to others about this before, and they've all managed to convince me that it's a good thing to do.

I've started to learn when I need to take a break. That's good.

I will have a nice evening, thank you. You do that too.

It's the anxiety, user. You won't feel this when you're happy again.

Do that. Real life help is a thousand times better than this. You can make this better, user. I know you can. You are strong enough.

I don't know, user. Do they frequent gay bars? I'm afraid I know nothing about traps and how to get them.

You're cock-blocking yourself user, and it pains me. This mind block is pretty bad, it seems to be along the lines of a lack of self-worth. If you can't overcome it on your own, you'll need more help than I can give you. Next time, can you force yourself to think about the good things that will come of such a relationship, and say yes? You might even plan in your head to skip the sex entirely and just try out the dating part, if that would make it easier to go along with.

Huh.

Shit happens, user. You can't really control anything. There's not much you could have done even if you were awake. I'm sorry.

Got any lewd Nausicaa?

Sex can be a big part of relationships, but for some people its nowhere near as important as the other aspects. (Communication, emotional support, intimacy, romance etc)

Besides, women can be a lot more understanding than you think. You obviously don't want to drop your insecurities on the first date, but maybe after 4-5 times of seeing her you can open up and share your concerns about the sexual side of things - maybe she'll teach you a few things and that could give you more confidence in the bedroom.

Not OP, just a random user, for the record.

how dare you

Well, I suppose gay bars would be the place, althougb that's something I've never tried doing by myself. They are fun though.

Well, my problems are also miniscule. And I really like sharing these different chants with you, because I don't know anyone that would ever listen to them with me other than if they wanted to sample it for black metal. I hope you listen to them at least :)

I hope you have a therapist or someone that you share a really strong bond with that you can discuss these things that get to you with. I wish I could do it, but I don't know you, so that's impossible. I'm just happy you told me you took a break to do something fun at least, for your own sake

Life a fuck, everything hurts :(

Hey Fenn, how are you

You're right. I know what I used to be like and what I can be with confidence. I'll get the help I need and I'll love the hell out of my girl.

Thank you so much for these threads. You don't even begin to know how much they help people (or me, at the very least.)

>maybe she can teach

No women ever in the history of ever wants to teach a man how fuck. Some older women like teaching young boys, but that's it.

I'm gonna have to wait until she gets back from College, lol. Shes across the country until Christmas

I don't, but Danbooru does. Check there.

Give one a shot this weekend. Good luck.

Your problems aren't miniscule, user. They mean just as much as everybody else's. I've been listening to the one you posted at the beginning. It's beautiful.

Nah, I've never talked to a therapist in a professional setting. I am invincible.

What makes it that way, user? Do you know? How could things be improved?

I'm doing pretty okay tonight. Lot better than yesterday.

You got this, user. I know you do.

And you're right, I really don't know how much these threads really help anybody.

I feel everyday the same.
Depressed, tired and with no motivation to live.
How are you faggot?

Do you want something to change? Are you willing to make something change?

I'm doing pretty well.

Hey Fenn. It's been rough for me lately. Hope you're doing well.

I used to believe I was a rock too, then it turned out I was considerably more of flesh and bone than I desired to be. But as long as you take your breaks at least, that is a good starter.

And yeah I guess my problems just seem miniscule now after I've tripped some more mushrooms. This time I luckily didn't have a bad trip.

I think the best chant I've found so far though was adoremus in aeternum, nothing has really beaten that one

You know and have slept with all 3.5 billion women on this planet personally and know exactly what all of them do and don't want?

Some women like to share the sexual experience and get to know each others turn on's and turn offs. Others prefer their to take the lead completely, and others still would rather take control themselves. Everyone is different and what really works for some people doesn't work at all for others - which is why communicating these things makes for much better sex.

I've changed my life, I've move out from my family house, I've find work that satisfised me but... I'm still waking up with no purpose except to make my money for new PC.

And nothing, I don't even know why I'm fucking depressed.

Good too know that at least someone is doing well for a change. But you are still a fucking faggot.

That's not so good, user. Do you want to talk about it?

I have some friends I can talk to if it gets too rough. Adoremus in Aeternum has risen to become one of my favorites. I listen to it every other day or so.

Hm. You're doing good things. Have you talked to a therapist or a friend about this? Could it be that you're just lonely?

I've always been a faggot, and I always will be.

Eh. Basically just social anxiety getting to me again. It's one of those things where there's not much to be done, just hope for the best you know?

Something can be done though, user. If the anxiety is too strong, you can ask for help. Sometimes hope isn't enough.

Good to hear, I was kind of afraid you were one of these go-out-at-night-alone-to-scream-at-some-walls type

I listen to it every day since I found it, that and this chant

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I also find this one very soothing and meditative

Thanks for the thoughts anons, i never considered looking for help with a specialist, im currently getting fit as fk to get more confidence but the cock block is strong especially when my last two one night stand were finished under 5 mins with a boner outage.

Thanks anons!

It's pretty ironic, I have a lot of "friends" but still I feel lonely. And yes I was. He said that I can have fucked up hormones and that's why I can feel a little bit down for a long time for no reason. Engogenic depression or something. But even when I taken a different pils I feel the same or I feeld nothing.

It's so strong I have trouble asking for help though, and don't really have anyone to ask it of.

I missed the post number here, there we go

Things are actually going well for me for the first time in 3 years. I have the career I always wanted. I make good money with good benefits. I'm in a loving relationship with a woman who isn't insane or a leech.

By all accounts my life has taken a massive upturn. But I'd trade it all back to talk to my Dad again. It's been almost two years now since he died.

No matter where I am in the world he'd always call me for my birthday. I have his last birthday voicemail saved. I still listen to every now and then for various reasons whether it's to hear his voice or remember he loves me.

I miss my Dad user and there's nothing I can do to get him back. I just want my father back.

Missed the post numbers again, there we go

Hello!

I know that feeling. I lost my father some small 10 years ago. It gets easier with time as long as you stay on a path that is rewarding towards your life, because that'll keep reminding you you weren't a waste of time on his behalf and that he would've been proud of you. What I'm trying to say is, if you live a life that fullfills you, it won't feel as hard after a while, but the first 2 years are the roughest, for some the third year too

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Thanks user. It hasn't been easy. I was and still am just so angry and bitter when I'm alone. Between the time after he died and the time my life got better I was living with my mother, depressed and closed off. I refused to take a job for the longest time and when I finally did it was bartending. That whole time I didn't drink alone because I knew all that pain would come out. I just didn't want to push away my friends with my pain so I never talk with anyone about it. Ever.

Is it time for free blowjobs?

I'm pretty sensible sometimes. Pretty dense, too. I don't think too hard about most stuff.

That one is very soothing. I might listen to that all night.

Good luck, user. Talk to a real therapist, they can help you more than you think they can.

Good night!

Are they not real friends? A hormone imbalance makes things pretty hard. And even more difficult to handle on your own.

You came here, user. That was one step. You've got to make another in calling a therapist to schedule an appointment for this weekend or next week. Can you do that?

Don't let yourself slip away and get worse.

Can you do something to honor him every year on your or his birthday? You can't have him back, but you can do things for him, to let him live on through you in a way.

When people die they're gone from this world forever. It's hard to take that. I feel you, user. And I'm sorry. I wish I had more to say.

Hey Mantis. Thanks for coming.

Not tonight.

No.

I don't think I can really afford a therapist sadly. That's part of what I meant when I said I couldn't get help. I'm sure it'll work out though.

You should definitely talk to your friends about it. I talked to my friends about it all the time and learned who were my true friends. Two of them told me I had gotten to be a better person after I'd come to terms and wasn't whining all the time, and those two I just cut off entirely. I don't need friends like that. If your friends can't handle you at your truest sorrow, they should just be comrades, nothing more nothing less.

I guess that is the constitution of most people, what you just summed up there. It's good not to overthink, and instead let people talk, because that makes things less complicated

I do. His birthday is near Thanksgiving. When I'm home I open a bottle of Stoli Vodka and leave him a drink in a Martini glass like he use to drink and I work on the rest of it.

They're real, what I was mean it was that, that I have a lot of friends, but the ones who care about me live 500km away from me, or they're are recalling me when I'm need for them. I don't really mind that but still.

And I'm not entirely lonely I have Sup Forums for 9 years and only this site didn't driven me fucking insane or an hero.

Your insurance might cover it. Have you checked?

Yeah. I agree.

That's good. That's a wonderful thing to do, user. Does it make you feel any better?

Sometimes better is not how you should feel. Being sad is okay. As long as you don't let it crush you.

I can't help but think that Sup Forums is part of the problem, but I don't know enough about you to say for sure. What else can you do, user?

It's not covered, no. It's just a thing I'll have to get over myself.

Do you think talking about it in more detail here would help you?

I can find a girlfriend, go to the psychiatric facility or take pills again but pills destroying liver fast.

And you helped user, every depressed fag just need to tell someone about it and they feel better, 'cuz most of them don't want to talk about.

Thanks user. I think that's my issue. I go long stretches of time with doing my best to hide my feelings. Then when I'm alone I allow my feelings to catch up with me and for awhile I get alittle consumed by it. Rinse and repeat.

Hm. Maybe. I'm worried it'll just come out as so much whining though
Basically my social anxiety has isolated me to a point where I feel like I'm going crazy. Outside of work I never speak to anyone. Feeling really isolated, as you might imagine. I want to get out of it bit it's like I've locked myself in a cell.

hello hello mister Fenn! how are you tonight?

Car crash victim here again. Just made it out the hospital. I got home yesterday, and man life feels different now. Is this normal?

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You have to save this one too, it's really good.

I think I'll head off to bed and try and cure my disease, you have a good one

You can make things better, user. You will.

A girlfriend would help a lot. A therapist would probably help even more, perhaps more than a psychiatrist would.

Is that a bad thing? Are the sudden spurts of emotion too strong? You may need to open up more to the people around you, and get used to being more honest about how you feel.

You don't sound like you're whining to me.

It's controlling you. Your doubt and fear are preventing you from doing good things, things that you want to do. That's pretty bad.

Can you force yourself into situations where you'll have to talk to people? Could you get into the habit of holding brief and polite conversations?

Hello hello, user. I'm doing better than yesterday. How have you been?

I'm super glad to hear that! I... am good! I haven't done a lot other than spread love and run errands today

Mostly a traumatic experience of varying degrees make your life change, so I'd guess it's quite normal if you suddenly have a different perspective on life

I could try and force myself I guess. Polite and brief conversations, maybe. I don't know. Even basic stuff is hard for me.

Theraphy it is.
But for know goodnight faggot. (For me it's night)
Don't choke on that dick you suck.
Thanks alot

How does it feel?

It is totally normal for everything to feel different now, user. Don't worry about it.

But is it different in a good way?

I will. Thank you.

Sleep well, and get well soon. I'll see you again sometime soon, user.

Well that's great to hear, user. It sounds like a wonderful day. This is going to be a good weekend.

Start small. Don't intimidate yourself too much. Make a point of saying a word or two to everyone you meet. Force yourself to stop shunning people.

It will be hard at first, and you may try to worm your way out of it. But if you keep trying, and trying hard, you will get better.

Goodnight to you too. Sleep well.

I won't choke. I've had lots of practice.

Well I'll give it a shot. Who knows, maybe it'll improve. Thanks Fenn.

>This is going to be a good weekend.
good I'm so glad

If you try, you've at least got a chance of improvement. If you give up, the chance disappears.

Good luck.

Yeah, I do. Thank you. Do you have anything planned for the weekend?

I am going to spend time with a good friend! I hope I can still see you and others around though!

It feels like everything is more careful and calculated for me now, so I guess it's a good thing. My head hurts a bit but I think I'm gonna be okay.

Just here to say hello.

That'll be nice. If all goes well I'll be doing the same thing. May or may not be here tomorrow night. Depends on how tired I am.

That can be a good thing, yes. If it starts to hurt too much, call the doctor and go back in. It could be serious.

You are going to be okay. You're fine now. It's all good.

Just take it easy for now. We are glad you're home!
Hello! How are you?

hi op

I've held a man as he bled out in my arms. He asked me "How does it look?" I lied through my teeth and told him he'll be fine. His last moments still haunt me the feeling of helplessness as he grew colder the life drained out of his body. The stickiness of the blood on my hands as I tried to stop the bleeding. I have nightmares sometimes and I'm 80% sure I have a deathwish now because I'm not as careful in the line of fire anymore. I've stopped caring if I live or die. I just feel empty.

hello! I hope you're well

damm

small headache and arm strain, other then that alright. Had to take a break from my project to figure some things out like diriction but I am almost done that as well.

Doing alright

You mean Mayu?

that's good I'm glad

Hello. Thanks for stopping by. If you want to talk about your project, hit me up in this thread or the next, or email me. [email protected]

Hi. What's up?

Does life not mean anything to you anymore, now that you've seen it be sucked away? It's a very sad thing to hear, user. What could bring the life back into you?

I will. It'll be good.

No, that's somebody else. I wasn't sure who you were talking about.
Schizop is fine tho.