Be me

>be me
>2010
>13 at the time
>finally got to choose where to live between parents
>decide to live with my dad since the court didn't allow you to choose where to live with divorce until you were 13
>I visited him every weekend before hand
>mom was a drugged up cunt who never cared about anything in life
>love my dad, even tho I haven't lived here for years
>help out the best i can everyday and decide to give a shit about people
>dad taught me how to care
>dad cared for me
>dad moves jobs to help grandma at her shop
>i decide help too
>dad would always make time for me, come to our school lunch and even won father and mother of the Year award
>fuckyes.jpg
>greatest dad
>goes on for about 3 years before grandpa sells the shop
>dad looks for different job
>at this time I was 16, job and had a car
>went out with friends at 6pm
>came back at 8pm
>overhear my sister talking about mom's DWI
>goes to prison for 2 years
>dad is still an amazing dad, mom's still a drunk/drugged up cunt
>went through a lot of shit when she came back
>promises she changed
>she drinks daily
>sister tells me
>wtf.png

>doesn't say anything to mom
>by this time she's been calling me, texting me, wondering why I haven't come over or visited
>her new husband is even getting mad at her for drinking, and doing drugs again
>last straw.exe
>tell her to grow the fuck up or she loses us
>she... doesn't
>2017
>became a shut in game developer in dad's basement, lost all social life from certain events
>mom is sent back to prison for 35 years
>finding dad's doctor bills in the mail
>overhearing dad's financial problems
>fuck.jpg
>what can I do for the man who gave my sister and I everything
>start studying, start doing anything I possibly can on the computer to make as much money as possible
>pissed at my mother, pissed at myself, so fucking pissed that I can't do anything for the man who gave everything to me and my sister
>fucking staying up late just to get things done online
>stressed, so stressed that I go without sleep for days
>got a job
>willing to give every thing to my dad to help with the house and other bills
>to take over
>to care for him as he did for me
>stop stressing dad
>everything will be fine
>still working...

continue user

bitch keep going

We are watching you eagerly user

Sorry user's was busy doing shit
>Working day to day
>He never stops
>Keep getting calls from mom and not answering
>Get a raise after 90 days as their "contract" states
>Slowly see that dad feels alone
>that his current gf is sucking money out of him
>i want to help, i need to help
>gf gets off her lazy ass and actually starts to work
>dad isnt losing money as much
>i continue to work
>get hit up to hang out with some friends after 2 years of not talking
>go hang out
>dad seems depreseed
>that everything that i've done, trying to get money for him trying to help pay off his mortgage
>doesnt seem to work at all

>finally answer moms call
>"user! how are you? Im so sorry for breaking down and drinking"
>mother fucker trys to apologies once again for the same old shit
>i have none of it
>tell her that her side of her family doesnt want to see her, that everyone is sick of her shit
>she cries
>i literally cant feel anything, not one fuck
>i cant really say i love her after everything she's done to us
>I hang up
>the reason she called was for us to sell her fucking wedding ring for her while she's in prison.
>shes only been married for 6 months
>i just stop talking to her, get a new number
>decided to give the money to my dad that i've been saving up
>he smiles, just speechless
>he's happy
>everything is going great

and?

Good job and all but when does the sex start

Please tell me this is it. Tell me this is a happy ending. Also include me in the screencap because we know some faggot's gonna be putting this on leddit for upboats

N I C E P O S T

>sis is doing great
>gets a nice job and moves out and gets a boyfriend
>my friends are happy, going to college
>get one of my friends to do better and care about streaming
>promote his stream, promote everything about him and help grow him
>he starts to grow and beginning to care
>blows up after 3 months of twitch
>doesnt talk anymore
>stops talking for months
>3 months later messages me on discord
>catch up
>he moved, got a gf, gets paid nicely
>and then messages me another 4 months later
>starts messaging less and less then stops
>pushed my sister to do better and get a better place
>she does and saves money
>she started talking to mom
>mom has been stressing her out
>makes her do some shit that i dont even know about
>sister OD's on heroine
>fuck...
>doesnt die but gets a bad rep from the family
>dont want her to end up like my mom
>do everything to help.
>seems like its working
>it doesnt.
>ends up in the hospital for a second time
>this time, not fucking moving
>dad feels powerless
>i feel powerless
>dad doesnt sleep
>i dont sleep anymore
>sister dies.
>mom comes out to see the funeral
>get. the. fuck out of here
>nobody lets her in
>mom gets back in the police van and leaves
>mom writes to me, asking me to forgive her
>after all she's done
>after everything she did
>friends come and give their grief

>friends move away and live their lifes and barely talk anymore
>dad stays happy
Meanwhile
>im sitting in the same room, same spot, same fucking thing everyday
>nothing barely fucking changed, only thing that changed was a new motherboard and a fucking gpu
>and me? nothing. still a single basement dweller who is barely hanging on
>all my friends and family that i helped blossom,, helped with their problems
I just dont know what the fuck to do anymore
what do i do with everything that happened
i cant i fucking help myself when i can help people when their at the worlds end
I fucking hate myself

to my sis, we all loved you. To Katelyn and Andy, i wish that you both live great lives.

have a fap.

that always cheers me up

go join the air force reserves noob. you'd only have to work one weekend a month a two weeks in the summer and get retirement money when you're 40

you could possibly try getting into coding or somethin find a hobby you like with computers, start there and build up or do a blue collar or white collar job.

SHIT

I have lol, its actually what got me into game design, start level design. I enjoy it, started to make chillstep too in my free time.

Ice cream on the left, promotion on the right

fap is gud user

You need to put your heart out into the world for a good woman to sense. Trust me, you haven't tried to be social enough. Just go out to the bar some. Pick up darts or pool if you don't drink, fuck even bowling. Put yourself out there. Try dating sites. Link your music if that was you saying you make chillstep. Or get a little part time job putting yourself out into the world on the weekends, being in contact with people. Anything to increase your odds. Idk if a relationship is something you really really want, but it truly does help to fall back on someone who truly loves you at the end of the day for you and your great gold heart.

Dubs confirm. OP enlist if you're not a retard. AF reserves is ez mode

What a game

OP if you arent a fag and this is a true story then I recommend you build up a couple of months worth of money and take a vacation. You need to get out of your current space and cut some slack for yourself. You know you’ve earnt it. Go to some relaxed countries, be open to new ideas (no traps) and maybe if you are lucky find some new purpose. Maybe make some good friends on your travels too. I wish you good luck

Also you better fucking post the success story here and not on Plebbit when you are back

im not someone who usually links stuff on here man. I dont know if you guys would like to hear it lol and yeah man i've been trying to get out lately

possibly looking to do that, thinking of going to like germany, japan or some shit.

you bet man.

Germany is actually good. Depending on your income you can go from SE Asia (poorfag) to Western Europe (richfag). Pick someplace with friendly locals. Personally recommend South Africa, France, Japan, Switzerland

the issue is simple, you try to fix everyones lives even if it means disregarding any care about your own
>staying days without sleep
>go out of you way to help friends, sister, etc

You are probably to late to fix it tho, better to just an hero ,sorry

Hmm thinking of ireland too. Rather not get fucked by poorfag's

nigger focus on work wtf is this take a vacation shit. listen to the other anons and join the military. either navy or air force just don't go active duty and enlist as a reservist. you don't get deployed to the middle east or some shit. you stay in your own country in your own home state. you'd only work the first weekend a month.

you could get a job as a med tech or aircraft maintainer and learn that shit for free and then get a job doing it as a civilian

i was in a similar situation OP. whatever you decide to do after this post do not sell yourself short with a woman. that was the biggest mistake i made. ended up with a divorcee. what a nightmare. divorced women are paranoid. they think that they cant get another guy so they latch on tight. worst part is that the one i ended up with cheats on me but does not want to let me go. good luck OP. dont do what i did... get desperate.

Already in man, fuck USAR. Can't even fucking go active or anything. Closest thing to it is a deployment to Afghan, but even then you have to go through AGR, and most likely deny you because our fucking company is fucked up

After my last crazy ex im waiting for the right one, ill let her come to me. Sorry to hear that user.

>Army

why

france and anywhere in europe = bring your own toilet paper.

japan = forget speaking to the locals.

SE Asia = ladyboy heaven.

Just keep working OP. Save money. Buy a house. Help more people if that is what keeps you going.

OP is in no condition for enlisting, not saying he wouldnt make it but for his mental health he should try to be independent for a while , not some military slave

gotta love recruiters.

or left hand. Every woman would want ya dick im guessing lol. And i will man thanks.

Any ways user, good night. Getting off.

>military slave
kek do you know how easy AF is nibba

nothing will happen if you wait. go out there OP. but dont become desperate.

Military is funding my college, user. I am trying to save others

Im currently going through something similar

>mom od's twice on alcohol
>dad breaks my leg while he was drunk
>both of them divorce
>live with my grandparents
>they only feed me once a week
>discover essential tremor
>get fired from work
>become skelington
>depend on eating leftovers from my "house"
>get beaten up whenever they catch me
>cant find a job
>brother gets to eat all week
>get depressed
>essential tremors gets worse
>eyes start to get crossed
>develop hunchback (idk how but i dont have a pc or a laptop)

But hey, atleast i have a gf :)

Shit user. Sorry to hear about the shit you're going through.

Whatever you do, don't just sit around and think about it while doing nothing. That shit will eat away at you and either kill you or drive you insane. You gotta look at every aspect of your life and see how you can better it in some way.

Are you currently working at all? If not, focus on what you're good at. You did some game development right? Get back into that. I know it's something I'd like to do. May as well do something you're good at and hopefully get paid for it too. Failing that, look at what else you could do. Nobody wants to be a wage slave I know, but you gotta take what you can get nowadays.