retarded forever thread
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>be me 3 months ago
>22 still living with parents
>huge obsession with distension, gaping, anal, bdsm, all that, but perma virgin
>have this tradition since i was 16
>make sure no one home, lock door to my room
>put on headphones with fav pornstar joi
>straddle a chair backwards, left hand on chair back, one hand on cock, kneeling on chair
>jack violently until i cum at least 2 times, its torture but the only thing that keeps depression away anymore
>be me, 3 months ago
>everyone gone, forget to lock the door
>eyes closed, really into it, headphones hi volume
>sister gets a ride home from friend, enters home
>freakout.jpg
>all naked, trying to hide evidence, put shorts on really fast
>she comes up the stairs, asks me what the hell im doing
>sweaty, looking panicked, breathing like crazy
>wants to say "its nothing" can only say 'its not" very loudly.
>feel like a fucking retard, say nothing, walk straight to bathroom, lock myself in, say nothing
>sister is 28, and has had a boyfriend die of fentanyl OD
>wait in bathroom, start shower, maybe this will make everything normal
>meanwhile, sis is super freaked, thinks im on drugs, starts searching my room
>discovers my cum tribute to smaller sister (17) in the closet under some old rugs, literally just pics of her with cum all over them, badly photoshopped nudes.
>get out of shower, already thought of excuse, will tell her I was trying to exercise in my room, and wanted to freak her out or something
>nope, she points to my cum tribute and asks me what the fuck is wrong with me
>world collapses around me, ears ringing, cant hear myself
>say nothing, push her out of the room, gather some small clothes, backpack, evidence, open window, climb down, leave wearing flipflops because shoes downstairs.
>run to railway near my house (rural Tennessee)
>guy tells me to fuck off from the trainyard, walk through woods behind for 20 mins, find the road