Why are you not happy, b?

Why are you not happy, b?

left my fiancee and I'm afraid I will never find somebody else who loves me

Same here, except divorced.

Nobody is happy. Liars are always easy to spot. They are the ones who smile the most.

24, can't afford to move out, too lazy to get a proper education. Too fat to get a gf, too depressed about all of this to get friends.

Happiness is an inside job.

Same but i might have a degree soon

Cuz I'm fat

Drugs and alcohol

i feel okay today, i wish i was playing attila total war with the age of charlemagne DLC tho

same, but i fuck my cuzin

Who said I'm not happy? I believe that the physics that drives are biological functions would not allow for free will, thus there is nothing in my life that I had any control over meaning that I am just a bystander watching my life unfold in the first person. This stance makes it incredibly difficult to be sad about anything

I remember being in an AP class in 10th grade and we had to read this poem for some damn test. It was about happiness. It examined all the things that make people happy from love to knowledge and said all of them were temporary and sadness was the default state of all of man. I was like wtf I just got pubes this is some heavy shit. But as I get older and older it just is proved more and more true.

Ignorance is bliss

I'm fat, ugly, have little social skills, and have random mood swings. Also, I am incredibly lonely and no girl like me, i am afraid to live alone the rest of my life for some reason

If I knew that I would be happy.

>21 years fucking old
>should be out with friends right now, living it up, fucking bitches, etc
>sitting in my fucking room, still live at home, just got fired literally three days before my workplace closed, so i did not even get my fucking severance pay
>I was a salesman, pretty good at convincing people to buy shit; however, I'm a social autist
>girls find me attractive, but i've been dealing with some next-level psychosis/anxiety shit for awhile now
>makes it difficult to get an erection around said women
>that feeling further amplifies the anxiety/social autism
>have pretty much became a recluse; I love watching documentaries and learning new things, i'm pretty good at drawing , if i do say so myself

It just sucks because everytime I try to convince myself to go out, I pretty much talk myself out of it. I don't really interact with those my age very much, and being around the majority of people my age makes me feel very uncomfortable. I combated this by simply withdrawing from it all, but i've been withdrawn for so long, i'm not sure if I can ever integrate back into having a somewhat normal life

>tl;dr I am a pussy faggot who needs to get out more .

Included is a drawing I made this weekend; no tablets or computers, Bic pen and colored pencil.

Ignorance is only bliss until youre forced to care for yourself

>31
>two degrees
>war vet
>nobody will hire me

its been almost a year now. nobody will hire me. i'm not about to be homeless or anything, I own my house and car and I still have some dosh saved up, but it really crushes my spirit when I cant even get a job stocking groceries. I just want one call back.

>bedroom next to niggers neighbour dumpster
>found rat shit over sheets and
>rats started nestin outside bedroom again
>fucking scumbags that don't clean their shit

I ask myself this every day. I have yet to find the answer...

Probably because you bring up being a war vet every 30 seconds. No one wants to hire someone like that. What are your degrees?

Getting friend zoned by a physco bitch that cuts her self, she pretty hot and nice and not the type of person you would expect to have mental issues. But I thought it would be easy because I know I can treat her right and im not awkward around her but she always goes for the faggots at our school that end up hurting her.

I'm fairly attractive, not too socially retarded to hold a conversation once it's rolling, and have a steady job, but there's something missing and I'm having a hard time finding any satisfaction in my life. College has taken its toll on me. My self esteem is gone, and I don't have much confidence left.

Right now I'm thinking about joining the army as either a combat engineer or military police so I can fill sandbags or sit by a gate for four years instead of doing what I thought I was joining to do. If the military knows how to give you anything that's not tinnitus or bad knees, they know how to give you confidence and direction. Even if that direction is mostly just forward, it's better than what I'm working with now.

>pic related, breaching specialist in action

I am more than happy actually. People's opinions don't bother me. Im simply nice. There is not much to it.

Great drawing user!
Sorry about your job and pay. I know what that's like. Something similar happened to me.
>be 20 yrs old
>working 2 part time jobs
>trying to get my life together
>night job is pumping gas
>small town so customer service bullshit
>closing up shop counting money etc
>call in co worker that i turned over with earlier
>couldnt find half the money
>asshole stole it knowing i wouldnt check it at turnover cuz I'm trusting and chill
>calls boss and blames me
>get fired and told to pay back tomorrow or cops will be called
>call the cops myself and report the theft
>cops take camera from inside the shop
>see the other dude literally pocket the money
>they couldnt pay me cuz they haf no money
>the dude spent it all
>i still got fired
>left two months later for basic training so i didnt give a shit

Im not that great talking to people socially either. And atleast women find you attractive. Im a solid 5/10 but when Im not a fatass and put work in at the gym Im easily a 7 or an 8 even. But depression, social and general anxiety, and working 12 hrs a day keep me at home most of the time.

Shit sucks man but that's how life goes. You've got an amazing talent though. Work towards that gift of yours and the world can become brighter for you

I never bring it up. I got to a point where I started omitting it on my resume for some places because I actually thought it was hurting me. The guys I play cards with don't even know I am a vet. But it is part of the hiring process user. They created a special status for me that is supposed to help me get hired.

My degrees are both in professional accounting. I had the grades, but no internship because there were only 6 during my cycle. I'm still applying to jobs in that field, but I am willing to do anything right now. The only way I can make money is if I go to LaborReady and do slave labor for $43.

thank you, friend. i wish you the best, as well. Personally, I would never want to join the military, partially because im lazy as fuck, and partially because I am strongly against harming others. it would be pretty interesting, though

A girl who I knew well died of cancer recently, she was pretty young. I don't see many positive things about life like I used to before.

That piece of shit! At least you had something else lined up.

What was your MOS, if you don't mind me asking?

All my dreams have evaporated, and I'm running out of time. I want to believe I can change, but the evidence is piled up high against that hope. And even if things could change, I genuinely cannot imagine a future I would find meaningful... Also it is quite likely that my brain does a poor job regulating seratonin levels since this kind of thing runs in the family

>Why are you not happy, b?
Absolute shit diet
aside from having stupid fantasy about being happy equalling being healthy like some idiot ... the cake is a lie

This makes me happy

I mean it's not that bad. I have the laziest job in the navy. I stand at gates and check IDs or drive around in a car all night.
My experience was 5 years ago. In my 5 years of service never hurt anyone haha

My job has the highest portability of hurting someone though. But it's a common misconception that everyone in the armed forces actively hurt people. We are just a self sustaining working force. We need paper pushers too. We need medically trained people, preachers, and so on.
You can join the military and help people too.

I'm not happy because...
>10:30 PM Sunday, November 5, 2017
>Sunday
>my face when

Navy Master at arms
>basically military police
>inb4pig

>we also handle anti-terrorism for the navy state side and overseas
>im at a more anti-terrorism side base atm
>but we still do LE stuff

Stuck in the past

It doesn't work for me. Really it just seems like a convenient way to excuse yourself of any responsibility for your life. The way I see it, whether there is free will or not, whether it is meaningful to speak of "myself" as a central identity or not, and whether consciousness is an illusion or not--these really don't make much difference. Our experience is the realest thing we can ever really know, and we get this one tiny slice of time to contend with the infinitely unknowable universe. I could not excuse myself to drift along by such an ultimately empty argument. But that's just me I guess

hmmm

she's gone. the only reason she doesn't have a child about to pop out is because, in one of the few acts of mercy I've ever witness in my life, she miscarried. That 4 months after she ended 7 years. Now I just got laid off, and the company is not forthcoming with the money the owe me. I'm probably going to lose the apartment, and have to move back in with my parents.
jfc

Yeah, in the same boat. Only recently I've been having good days where I'm happy, and it's because I started taking care of myself physically. Sounds weird and basic, but just having the thought that I should do or not do something so that I'll be better off in 10 hours, has made a world of a difference in a few months

i'm about to be terminated from my job and I got 3 write ups for shit that wasn't even my fault

drinking whiskey and awaiting the call that i've been axed. i can't deal with any of this anymore and i've legitimately found comfort in being homeless and dying in the winter

Ik that feel
I cant get over a girl who was my best friend growing up.
I was a stupid shit back then and didnt know how to tell her but i knew she liked me.
Everytime i tried to talk to her about it i would stutter and mumble my words.
Now she's got a kid, and a fiance im canada or some shit. Shes happy so Im happy i guess.

>mfw still cant have a relationship with a girl because of it though
>and yes ive tried

Pick up a second job immediately man. If losing every hour to work is what it takes to keep your head above water, do it. Don't let yourself drown, it kills you

How was it? I'm wanting to go into the army as an MP. I like the idea that I'd be making sure our people had someplace safe to come home to. Are there still Afghanistan and Iraq deployments to be had, or are those all dried up?

Buy some 5-HTP and ECGC at a supplement store buddy

I needed this motivation annon. thanks

>>breaching specialist in action
top fucking kek

Yeah that's a good point. Each day can be an opportunity to make one's self a little better. One of the things I've been wanting to do for a while is to make a daily schedule where I really make an effort to take better care pf myself and establish good daily habits. Somehow I lack the discipline even to begin to implement such a thing, and when I find myself torn between many good things I could do I get anxious and end up falling back on one or another really bad and destructive habit. This of course leaves me feeling even more hopeless

I wanna say that it's because
>tfw no gf
But I know for a fact it's a lot deeper than that. My life has been consumed by the void. That is why

Im just a dumb guy with very poor social skills and EQ. Which sucks because todays society is all about people and how you interact with them.

Navy side it's not that bad. We get to go to awesome places like japan and various places in the EU. Spain sucks ass though. Have buddies there and they hate it.
>they check outboind IDs and constantly bend over to the spanish rules lmao
>spanish guards are legit though ive visited a couple times

Bit hell ya there are still deployments to the middle east. I want 100 ISIS scalpes

I feel you. I was that way in my 20's.

21, currently failing uni and can't prioritize anything over vidya. Potential NEET and shit constantly keeps me depressed bc I'm worried I won't be able to fix it.

We belive in you user! Be like Shia before he went off the deep end and lost capture the flag!

my closest friend has something wrong with her. shes went to the doctor and they can't find out whats wrong, but they know something is wrong, they've ran so many tests and she hasn't came back positive for anything except strep B.

im so in love with my boyfriend, weve been friends since the start of the year, started dating in august. im sad because i feel like he will never fall in love with me, we have so much fun, have great sexual chemistry, great partner. but he just doesnt love me and i fear he never will.

People only like me for my memes and girls dont talk to me

they've decided that step b isn't whats causing the symptoms. (silent seizures, absolutely no sleep, random excessive OCD moments, uncontrollabl bladder) his has also been going on for a while (over a month)

I am happy.

What changed?

I just can't seem to fix myself i just... It's like on conveyor belt and my life is just moving past me. I'm not lonely i have friends and family who love me but there all moving out and going out and meeting people and taking trips together and I'm just here on my conveyor belt of monotony.

You are such a nihilistic little youngster. Or an older person who never grew up.

life

What about it?

drug addict detected.

I feel like i cant set a relationship with anyone, a new friend or a love interest, im so afraid of rejection (and has been this way for so long) that all the people i know are a friend of a friend and not an actual acchievement of meeting someone.

I need love, i need to love someone and remember how it felt but i cant being like this.

I think i really know how to carry a conversation and i look well and all but its all worthless if i cant say hello to the girl who just smiled to me on the bus :(

Because i am useless, i feel that i don't deserve anything that i got, and i ruined my oportunity to actualy love a person

Any interesting stories, user? Baton an interesting drunk? Stop a terrorist plot? Barracks/ship happenings?

I'm mostly interested in the middle east because MPs can be deployed as convoy security. It sounds really interesting, EFP traps aside. Fuck the towelheads improvising heap shells. I feel like if I don't get a chance to shoot that carbine at least once I'll feel like I didn't really earn veteran status.

I'm glad it helped, I'm in a similar situation right now. Trying to stay in college, here's to hoping

I feel it brother. Repeating the thought that I need to make 10 hours from now me happier than the me now is, is what has led me to feel like I'm improving

i have several diagnosed and un-diagnosed mental disorders which cause my view of everything to be very cracked and altered as opposed to reality causing me to maintain a constant state of deppression to the point that only drugs can help me escape my hell
pic related

i have ultra rapid cycling and it creeps everyone i know out