For years now I've not been feeling 100%

For years now I've not been feeling 100%.
I've tried to collect as many "symptoms" as I could, can anyone relate?

>disconnected from other people
>I understand most emotional things but I can't relate
>things happening around me feel like scenes from a movie I'm casually watching
>I start doing things, new hobbies etc but stop because I lose interest
>literally every time
>very little interest in communicating with others

For example the whole Hitler thing: Others think it was the worst thing ever happening to humanity, poor jews etc.
I find it rather interesting to see how someone made it that far with such "uncommon intentions". The emotional connection is missing completely. (this is just an example, no discussions about Hitler itt pls)

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Im not a professional, but to me it sounds like sociopathy mixed with depression.

Hitler was a socialist!

Schizoid

show pooper

you're not alone

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Autism.

this

welcome to the schizoid world mate..

Isn't schizophrenia about having multiple personalities and stuff?
It's not like I can't live outside a mental ward, my everyday life is okay, I act normal around other people.

schizoid != schizophrenia

>things happening around me feel like scenes from a movie I'm casually watching
If you mean this as in feeling as though you're sort of in a dream, you could be dealing with depersonalization. I'm not a doctor but went through it myself and it's a real life changer. Anxiety related, look it up

looked it up, literally me.
what do?

You've Gone further beyond your standard human emotions.
Everything is trivial and you can objectively think without being weighed down by weak feelings like sympathy.
Hobbies keep the dull and stupid in a state of sedation which no longer has it's hold of you.
This is your final form.

>what do
If you ever find an answer to this question please just tell me

but for now, you have to understand that you are the only actor of your life, try to learn new interresting things so you can enjoy even more your own company, and if you do it right some people might even like you. Then it's just a matter of balancing how alone you want to be and making your 'friends' understand that you care about them but in your own way and that you won't always want to do shits with them

>depersonalization
Ive had this for like 7 years.. it really is shit.

Worst thing in the world brother, I made it out you can too. Good luck on your adventure

I can relate to everything you said and was recently diagnosed with Asperger's. Fuck normies, become a wizard.

luckily I have a group of close friends, we are all social outcasts (mostly by choice). My best friend is kind of like me, introverted and not emotional so we get along quite fine.
What really disturbs me is that I can't seem to find a way to live my life under these conditions. I'm at uni but (once again) about to stop because I don't see myself anywhere on this path, I have no motivation.

I have been tested for that, only the empathy part "qualified" me for Asperger (16/100 points). Whatever the other test was, I didn't score low enough.

congrats, you're a modern human being. Your symptoms are the symptoms of a generation that has lost all sense of meaning. But who can blame you? just look around.

Every dam thing you just listed fits in on me as well OP. I've just learnt to live with it

Most retarded post. The dude is not hallucinating

look it up, it's not the same as schizophrenia. I fell for the same trap.

that is a good thing, try to stay socialized

this user is also right, our generation is especially sensitive to all this

probably because of the way the previous generation educated us + the fact that lots of shit are more and more fucked up in the world

Everyone's got an opinion, everyone wants us to care for their cause, I just can't seem to deal with any of them, I guess I'm in the same boat as OP, I just have a hard time caring about the world.. Too much shit is happening that people want me to deal with and have an opinion about, probably doesn't help that I keep coming here

Holy fuck.. I can relate to a bunch of the schizoid symptoms.. Shit, I should talk to a professional shouldn't I?

youtube.com/watch?v=GkNumV2ZyQ4

do you feel the need to ? Are you sure it is not because you somehow just want to feel "special" ?

if no just go for it dude, but be ready because it's expensive

Op here
If you do, tell her directly about your assumption. I've been to one and while it was kinda good to vent, it's expensive.
Plus solving a problem like that from the outside is hard.

No, I've been churning it in my head for a while now, I have tried to reason why I slowly loose interest in my personal relationships, but the fact is I just dont care.. It took some time to realize and it was hard to accept, but I just dont care one way or another, they get mad when I dont tell them I started studying after a few years sabbatical, but I just didn't feel like sharing it because it's not that big a deal.

I live in welfare europe, psychologist isn't 300$ an hour here

me too, for me it was 100€ an hour...

I live in denmark, it shouldn't be that expensive

in Germany it is...

45 euros per hour here mate, I feel lucky

Thank the refugees for destroying your social systems while only 3% of them have found work (according to your own government). Wake the fuck up, Claus.

And jewish

I really don't give a shit about the whole refugee thing. If it gets too bad there will be a second Hitler or civil war anyway. look at the votes. right parties get votes like it's 1932

Thats the way i see it. The worse it gets, the worse the backlash will be.

Weird. After searching this I sort of feel related to a bunch of it but kind of from time to time. Other times I feel emotionally engaged but not very often. I also lack much passion for anything and sometimes feel depressed but not related to the lack of passion. I do avoid close relationships or talking about my feelings but I don't really want to be like that but then again I don't know how to be more emotionally engaged. I was in a relationship for 7 years and I really don't remember feeling much emotional attachment to it but then again I sometimes cry when I'm alone or get moved by news of some stranger or animal suffering. I can go long times without having sex too even though I would like to have more and I like it but I'm sort of ok not having it. I sort of feel lowly about myself and sometimes towards others too but then again sometimes the opposite. I love being alone a lot but I also love to party and get drunk/drugged. I often get very awkward with people on social settings and I don't know how to act. What the hell do I have? I feel I have a fucked up mixture of psychological issues sometimes lol

I hope to see some kind of event like that in my lifetime. I think I might have been deeply involved in the Nazi-stuff had I lived at that time, just because I think I would have been really good at that.

That's schizoid personality disorder. The curse is that you are not completely fucked like when you have schizophrenia, but only far enough to still feel 1% human.

damn dude, how do you cure this? lol My life is a series of disposable relationships with friends, partners, family. It's pretty sad but then again I don't care so much so I know I will keep disposing them.

How does it feel knowing absolutely nothing about psychology so you have to make up garbage explanations for why people develop abnormal symptoms? This is one of those praying to the sun because you dont know anything about it answers. Life is more complex than how you feel things are, use google. Or better yet grab a copy of the DSM-V

I have absolutely no idea. The worst part for me is that simply behaving "normal" is not really a problem for me but feels so fake that I can't keep it up for long. I break down every few weeks where I spend days in my room, as isolated as possible.
I already thought about living on an island somewhere, but being all alone without even the theoretical possibility to talk to someone is scary.

DSM-V? You mean those psychological manuals that classify every behavior outside the norm as a mental disorder and 5 years from now half the terms are obsolete?

Nah, you want to understand humans? look at society not at the individual

well said, sir!

wow I feel the same way. I can be very social, even the life of the party sometimes but then I need isolation to sort of recharge my mind. I feel like I'm sort of working extra hard to keep the appearance and it's very demanding and tiresome. Sometimes I surprise myself at how well adjusted I seemed at some interactions and then I try to avoid further interactions with the same people because I know they'll eventually figure out it was all an act lol. It's so fucked up.

I know the typical feeling like you need to recharge your batteries after socializing.
It really helps me to show others that I really don't give a shit, more people than you think are okay with that.

yes, it doesn't help that I don't like talking about my feelings. Maybe that's why I like ecstasy and mdma so much, I sort of feel I can finally be open and talk to others without feeling like a weirdo (until the next day when the comedown comes lol)

kek, same here. though I am blessed with never experiencing a comedown, ever.

That's awesome. I actually rarely feel them too much but I recently had one for like 3 days straight which was pretty shitty. I guess I overdid it lol

I still haven't figured out how to cope with it.
I think I'm gonna ask my dad about it, he is the kind of guy to solve problems.

Godspeed user!

Dude, I'm late to the party but this is 100% dissociation and derealisation/depersonalization. I had that. Took half a year to wear off, shitty feeling.
Please OP, look this up.
There may be other aspects like depression and light psychosis too, but your main problem is dissociation and derealisation. Get meds, get therapy.
Good luck!

Forgot: you may have autism or dissocial traits too, sure, but I was referring to whatever changed in the last years.

I've looked it up and it doesn't really fit not at all compared to schizoid disorder. What medication did you get?

The only character trait of autism I have is the lack of empathy.

Dissociation

dissociation and depersonalization can have different degrees. Probably the most extreme one is cotard delusion where the person is so detached with himself and the world that he basically convinces himself that he is dead.

I think the late singer from Mayhem had that syndrome. He was so obsessed with death and he basically cared so little about life that he killed himself just so that his corpse would appear in the cover of their next album.

Didn't get meds for that. Got it in a phase of severe depression as a side effect of stress and (probably) regular cannabis use. The "glass dome feeling" started over maybe some weeks and stayed with me several months until it slowly, slowly went away. Took half a year until it was really gone. Understandably I was afraid to become psychotic but read up on it so was somehow reassured it was a more minor disorder. Anyhow, some time later I went to the doc and got SSRI medication against the depression, worked wonders.
Against dissociative disorders, they give small doses of antipsychotics.

How do SSRIs help? I've been thinking about getting them to help me jump over my spd-shadow..

They inhibit the reabsorption of serotonine as far as I remember...
Well it's antidepressives. How I usually describe the effect for people who never took recreational drugs or psychiatric meds but know at least alcohol: it isn't like tranquilizers, it won't change the mood of a healthy person into "more cheery", or make a depressed person cheerful or even more uncaring, it's the opposite of that, one will feel awake, alert and strong again. For example, a healthy but overworked person could avoid the bad mood and sense of exhaustion at the evening with it. It basically lets one go on and on. (Me, anyhow.) That and a lack of bad moods, or any for that matter, is really all a healthy person would notice. In that way, a depressed person can gather stamina again and not have breakdowns and lack of inner drive every five minutes, and because of that, shame and anxiety etc, a vicious circle... The brain will regenerate (half a year for severe depression), synapses will regenerate etc. In any case it's not addictive, particularly if you're an artsy person you WILL want to get rid of it eventually, lol... because it takes away all these little ups and downs it also sort of takes away the "mini ecstasy" that comes with making or experiencing art, music, movies, sex, etc. But it's great for monotone activities or work/art projects that require endurance and precision, lol.
I really can't explain it any better.
To the dissociative person: at best read up on the options so you can comment on and criticize the doc's decisions but ultimately let the doc decide after carefully explaining the situation. Btw. if he/she doesn't take the time to listen because "too overworked", it's the wrong doc, go to the next...

nice explanation, I think I understand it. I'm gonna ask my doctor about it...

Just out of curiosity then, are you the schizoid/dissociative OP or not and what was meant with "spd-shadow"? Thanks.

Wow youre retarded, i guess science isnt “real” enough for you. Youd rather understand the world through your feelings

Probably. I have another chart like this, will post that too. Can't be bad in this thread...

Damn forgot pic lol.

you use devices all day instead of doing shit

doesn't exist. shit made up by generation z because every single young person has to have a label.

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I have more like this btw.

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yes and sdp means schizoid personality disorder

An anarcho-transhumanist memeball is obligatory too if we're considering psych drugs here.

what are we supposed to do with those charts?

schizoid personality. If you can go on with it (not unnatural, because of the symptoms) you can carry on without a doctor.

Thanks. I'm not sure this is the correct medication for that diagnosis though (if taken without other meds).

memeballs = autism
now get the fuck out of my thread

most retarded post.
its a mark of his personality, not a symptom of psychosis. Idiot.

It fits the theme of the thread, also OP basically got his answers meanwhile.
Memeballs are just for humor, after all we got some depressed fags here.

even dead children are funnier than memeballs