I am a cociopath/psycopath I was diagnosed when i was 9, so I'm not just here talking out my ass. (WIll post story/background if someone requests it) Now don't get me wrong, I know what is morally right and wrong, and what is good and bad, I just don't "feel it", for the lack of a better term. I can have empathy in the form of "that must be terrible to experience, and therefore should not be inflicted on them", but I wouldn't really feel it, it would not "bother me". Sorry, it's kinda hard explaining this when I've never had much experience with emotions. Now to get to my question. Over my teenage, and early adult years, I've been enganging non stop in watching, and collecting porn, and playing violent videogames just for the violence in them. Over I'd say the last four years (I'm 22 now) I've been fantasizing about kidnapping a young girl, to keep locked somewhere, to use and eventually kill. A harmless fantasy in itself, but over the past year, where i have been drinking everyday and been left alone with this fantasy constantly in my head; I've actually started to contemplate going ahead and doing it, on a small level. I still do not really want to do this, Thats why I'm creating this thread. I KNOW It's wrong, but I don't know if I'll be able to contain this for five, ten, twenty more years.
Any posts and suggestions are appriciated. Please discuss.
Don't have any nude of the first girl I posted, but I have more of her photos.
Landon Foster
How about you go someplace where they give a shit?
Colton Allen
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Jackson Flores
Only had these.
Easton Rogers
Def not worth it, you are going to be in jail for a long time, and the ones criminals like to rape the most are rapists, maybe because they think it makes it less worse or something. Watch some prison documentaries
Nathan Hughes
do you think porn played a big part in getting you to this point?
Sebastian Price
So those people might be your victims?
Landon Moore
Stopped reading at "cociopath".
Fucking idiot.
Lincoln Davis
Also, you wont get rid of the urge by doing it, it would only get worse, since the pleasure of achieving that goal will make you want more and more. Get a terapist, she will help you get over it somehow.
Julian Allen
you lost me at PLEASE READ
Mason Fisher
Tbh you need to find a hobby you can share with a group of people. It would keep your mind off these idea. Also try to get therapy to help you control your thoughts and make sure they don't turn into actions. Just don't mention the girl you fantasize about kidnapping might be under 18 in which case they have to report.
Also more of this girl bruh please.
Julian Roberts
Dont stop watching porn, but try less violent ones, so the urge dont keep getting worse
Levi Lewis
I don't live in America I would get maximum 21 years in my country. Also, the prison rape thing is very much an american phenomanon.
Very much so. Porn fuels up everything bad in me. I was introduced to porn when I was 7, watched it regularely since I was 10. It's bad.
Gabriel Young
>the prison rape thing is very much an american phenomanon the urge to show how stupid you are must be killing you too
Jeremiah Brooks
Fuck, one year in jail seems bad enough, 21 years is a huge part of your life
Brayden Barnes
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Wyatt Bennett
well some sociopaths do think they are better than everyone else which means they think they're smart too
David Nelson
> the prison rape thing is very much an american phenomanon
Dont think so dude, the reason for the rapes is that there is no other means of having sex
Eli Russell
OP, tell me about you. Like, your height, weight, and how would you rate your face on a scale of 1-10.
Christian Rodriguez
Who? The girls in the pictures? No, this are just random pictures. I haven't really gotten to the point where I'm planning it out, I don't want to do it. But I don't trust myself that it won't get worse.
English is not my first language, and I made a typing error.
No terapists, and no psych wards for me. There is literally nothing they can say that I don't already know.
Got your attention though.
That to me is like having "only one drink". I can't do it.
Isaiah Gomez
Right? Fuck man, you come on like a whiney edgy fuck who just stumbled dick first into torture porn.
>autistic works of fan fiction
Dominic Cox
If you wont go to see a therapist then why the fuck are you asking Sup Forums. No one on here will know more than a professional.
Caleb Thomas
Pussy.
Nolan Murphy
I'm not saying it doesn't happen in other countries, mostly underdeveloped countries, but it just doesn't happen in Europe. For some reason people here aren't interested in gay rape. Go figure.
Good one friend.
Cooper Clark
Medfag here.
Sociopathy is not a diagnosis.
Also for 'not being in America' you follow a lot of our funky American only grammatical rules and your punctuation is on fucking point.
>Abandon thread
Aaron Cooper
There is a huge difference in sitting down one on one with a person who are getting paid to do what they do, in a certain way, and having multiple, anonymous people engaging in an open disgussion about the subject.
Aaron Wood
Look bro no ones gunna give you anything besides these two options. Do it, or get help. We'll either see you in the news or not. There isn't some other option. Your desires will eventually come to fruition unless you learn to control them.
Brody Robinson
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Caleb Harris
Thats because I've been learning english in school from i was 6 to 15. Also I am not ilitterate and can manage to properly put a sentence together. I don't know what I diagnosis is in your book, but when the doctors told my parents thats what I was when I was 9, and they've tried to shove pills down my throat ever since, that's a diagnosis.
Tyler Flores
Teen bread now?
Brandon Mitchell
do you have more of that?
Nathan Smith
>no terapists, and no psych wards for me. There is literally nothing they can say that I don't already know
Thats a common mistake, thats not how terapy works
Asher Davis
Dont do it op, you wont get away with it. And if you get caught by her family before the police youre really fucked
Jacob Robinson
What exactly would be the point? You'll get some gratification out of it I assume but what exactly is the goal in doing so? Aside from emotion there are many reasons not to do that to a person. For example that person has an end goal to life. This goal could be if great benefit to society as a whole. I do not fully understand the attitude of a psychopath towards society as a whole but I assume that you do have a drive to benefit it as it is beneficial to the human race of which you are a part. Another reason is simply risk. Since the emotional aspect of regret is not present in you that is not a sufficient consequence to prevent you undertaking such an action but the consequence of being caught and sentenced to prison or death (depending on where you live) should be a good enough motivator to avoid engaging in criminal behaviour such as this. You could engage a therapist when the urge starts to become a little less manageable. This would help as well. Simply put the gain is to small to justify the very possible consequences of doing such things. On a side note I don't hate you. As little as that means. If you had empathy and emotion the same as a normal human being then I would bit in you position there is less of a sinister side to the behaviours you undertake as they are clinical.
Michael Foster
sounds like you have a concience fagot reall psycopaths fucking go for it and arent"scared" which is not a psycopathic emotion
Wyatt Diaz
this is precisely how murders of women like ted bundy and similar end up acting on their sick fantasies. they don't tell anyone and get help.
Tyler Rivera
just here for the photos
Tyler Jackson
NIGGER I ACTUALLY KNOW THIS GIRL
Angel Ward
Really? I got her from a random porn site. Thats all the pictures that was there.
Bentley Sanchez
The urges will get worse. Your subconscious will continue to poke and subtly nudge you in the direction of darkness. It does not get better, but it can be alleviated by secondary activities. You can choose to take the poor path, selecting activities that relate to easing of your urges...which will eventually prove fruitless and banal. Or you could try the torment of finding some positive or socially acceptable distraction.
The choice is yours, and it is a difficult one. You need to do some serious introspection to find which side you're pulled to, and if you're alright with the revelation.
Good luck.
Christopher Wilson
YES! im being serious and what site was it?
Luis Reyes
To be fair, OP might just recognize that there's consequences and he's more concerned with trying to save his ass.
Carter Taylor
The website serves you random pictures of girls, you would have to propably dig through tens of thousands of pictures to find them again. They're uploaded anonymously.
I got banned for posting the link once before, so not gonna do it again.
Tyler Myers
Lol well i didnt really care about that site's link. Just curious how "random" site was
Jonathan Jones
But i dont have to dig through thousands of pic , i have her fb and insta (think she doenst use it anynore)
Jack King
I know her too. First time this ever happened to me. Guess 12 yeaes of this it was bound to happen
Connor Robinson
If you REALLY know her its hard to imagine how that fat mexican was able to fuck her and downgrade from there
Jordan Gonzalez
I just never would have expected to find someone i knew im person on 4c lmaoooo
Parker Diaz
I was with you until this picture, in which she looks like a bossy little theatre whore.
Leo Gomez
HOLY SHIT lmaooo . Im a friend of his as well . Yeah the downgrade was retarded
Matthew Price
Then post her instagram.
Joshua Perry
Ehh i dont wanna it just yet
I can prove that i know her and him. Just ask question
Parker Lewis
>I can have empathy in the form of "that must be terrible to experience, and therefore should not be inflicted on them", but I wouldn't really feel it, it would not "bother me" You most likely aren't a sociopath,just naturally jaded/apathetic. I have the same story, minus the fantasies, and that could just be a desire to go against the grain or a power fantasy. That being said, I think a sociopathic rights movement needs to happen. They should be given opportunities to integrate into society like the disabled rather than being destined to ultimately be cast aside as villains from birth. It's fucked up.
Juan Sullivan
This is so fucking hilarious. Well guess we know but don't know each other. Better that way. But since were all here, any of you got her nudes?
Jaxon Howard
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Adam Thompson
You're fucked
Asher Bailey
Hey homie, real talk here. It seems to me that the worst symptom you have is that you're drinking alone conspiring in your own thought stew. Strangers can often be the best company. If nothing else, the first best step you can do is to get out. Go drink at a local pub, meet the locals, recognize the bar tender, and tip well! A) it will take time to be come familiar, which will buy you time on your thoughts, B) conversation will come, C) one should not destroy the world without having first experienced it. Good luck amigo user, I have faith in you
Jeremiah Russell
I have talked to her and what not, but never really cared for her nudes idk . But now im curious about her body. The only person i can think that would have her nudes is the mexican
Justin Jenkins
You are clearly a danger to society, and you know it. Have you ever thought of kys? You won't "feel it".
Dylan Kelly
Nah im kind of curious of who you are
Josiah Cruz
Right. So you don’t “feel”. Ok. But you do feel whatever comes from porn and violence. I don’t get it. So you need intense stimuli to help you to feel?
Brody Gonzalez
Maybe you can find someone to roleplay with just to get it out of your system or something, might cost a bit but better than the slammer, and I don't only mean jail, I mean BBC
Alexander Russell
Like that new girl has nothing on her. I have been tempted to find a way to message him to get them but doubt it would work. Her body porportion is a thing heaven is made from.
Regardless Sup Forumsro to Sup Forumsro awesome coincidence
Michael Wilson
Have you ever taken hallucinogenic mushrooms?
Gavin Lopez
I can definitely get the needs from him , idk how close you are too him, but i know him pretty well were he can give them to me. He literally showed me nudes of fugly and they were not bad ( i didnt even ask ). She at least has so form of ass
Jacob White
Nudes from him*
Luis Gomez
One of the DSM requirements for diagnosing anti social personality disorder is that the subject is over 18. You would have been diagnosed with conduct disorder or oppositional defiance or some shit at 9 if you are not just making shit up.
Liam Bennett
You should surround yourself with good people who can teach you about living a good lifestyle. I've learned in my life, with my difficulties, that the best way to deal with any percieved mental problem is to find people who can teach you how to be the right person in society and latch onto them. OP, if you really want to turn things around before it's too late, get into the practice of having friends, socializing, and taking care of others. Even if you don't do it because it feels good, you'll be doing something good and you won't be worried about shit like this.
Nicholas Jones
>cociopath
You can keep them in your basement but only drink them once
Owen Nelson
>So you were "diagnosed" at 9 and told your diagnosis. >Then it's not even paired with anything in dsm5. >Have no meds, shrink, or psychiatrics.
Continue....
Landon Carter
Norway?
Parker Butler
Yeah shes passably cute but even Id ask for ghe better looking one. And probably not as close as you and him
Carson Cooper
Do a bunch of shrooms and learn some emotions. Also, stop watching porn, especially fucked up shit
Jackson Butler
>cociopath >terapists
Jesus fuck, go back to school
Aaron Powell
You are not cast out as villains as long as you dont do anything a villain would do. That happens to normal people too. Or does the diagnosis affect self-control?
Juan Campbell
Well it was dope coincidently bumping into Sup Forumsro who i may or may not in person. Idk i feel like have clues on who you could be
I'm not even going to read the whole thing, it's too fucking autistic. And that's coming from an user with autism. Fuck you, you can't even spell sociopath or psychopath correctly. Sociopath is an outdated term even in the circles that still use psychopath. No doctor is going to diagnose that at the age of 9 anyway, you retard. Kys
David White
Underrated post
Logan Sanchez
So If you go thru with it and find a girl to successfully keep captive to torture rape and eventually kill with no issues everything going according to plans and how you expected, how would that make you feel?
Wyatt Young
She got a fat pussy
Blake Barnes
Maybe join the military so you can violently dominate others for money in a socially acceptable manner.