Hi Sup Forums

Hi Sup Forums

So I quit drinking from May until October 20th. almost five months, the longest I've ever done it. I found some meaning in life, I enjoyed time with my family and buying model kits.

Randomly in October I just had a huge urge to buy alcohol. I got wine first because I figured that was easy. Then I got liquor, then beer and I've drank and done a ton of stupid shit lately.

I can't control myself once I start. I work in insurance and I started drinking after I got my licence and now I'm shitting blood again and taking a ton of time off work.

I just want to fucking end all of this pain and bad feelings. All this regret and sorrow, it's terrible. I have nightmares every night. There's no cure to this, not unless every liquor distributor in a 50 km radius had my face on there wall as someone not to sell to.

I gamble, drink, smoke weed now, fuck escorts, etc.

Please can someone give me some kind of advice? I've been just crying and drinking and mopey the last few days.

C'mon you assholes.

Oh user, I feel for you. Congrats on the stint. Have you gone to meetings? Sometimes when I feel like shit I find a meeting. It calms me. When Im at my worst.

Its a depressant. It will make you sad. Go to AA it actually helps a bunch

I can't do that. I have people I can talk to but I'm too shy and I'd likely end up at the hospital if I went to a meeting.

Been to the suicide ward three times, not doing that shit again. The nurses don't care about you and it's not safe.

Communication user. Tell people and get other people to understand what's happening. Social anxiety is nothing compared to the horrors of alcohol addiction. Even with this post, you're reaching out for help. Just keep pushing and putting effort into getting someone to hear you.

You can go to an AA meeting and not say a single word user, just listen.

Why the hospital? The first meeting is about listening. You have people to talk to... people h who have gone through similiar shit? What do you have to lose user?

I will never go to a meeting. I am selfish and I just don't listen to people when they speak most of the time, or will come up with something in my mind and think what they're saying is nonsense.

Meetings won't work for me. I need someone I can play games with, talk to and share things with. I don't have many since most of my friends have kids now or are busy with work.

Every time somebody stops drinking, an angel loses it's wings

And because I say dumb shit and then they call the hospital. Everyone knows if u mention suicide at a meeting or anything you end up in the hospital the doctors and police don't care.

hey man...22 y/o alcohol here w/ bad liver nao........stilll drinking

idk what to do weither

if u wanna add me on steam

steam id: kill me

im not on very much cause i try and go to work to distract, but i just drink at work anyways.fuck idk. if im on there soon ill add u.

fuck this p lace, this existence, it's weird. i dont like it2
>implying im supposed to like it
>imlying

kill me pls

Quitting is for quitters.
I manage my alcoholism quite well.
Get a job that is physically demanding.

>shitting blood
that should be motivation enough to stop. you're liver is dying and liver failure is about as bad a death as dying of cancer. just stick to the weed.

This shits rough man. If I do kill myself, i'll do it on a live stream so at least some people will be able to hear the kind of music I like

Currently listening to "O"Children" by Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds.

How tall are you and how much do you weigh?

go somewhere beautiful and take LSD or mushrooms and enjoy nature for a day, you learn a lot

I've been beautiful places, I've seen a lot and done so much. There's no point to any of this.

Kys fag

Been just like that before. Hospital, suicide ward, DT's, multiple 48 day rehabs, >AA. The best thing I finally did was cognitive therapy. You got to deal with you demons and the reasons you drink. I'm sitting here sober tonight but I still drink sometimes but because I'm bored not because I hate myself or my life anymore. Haven't been to the ER in years. Good luck!

Oh wow, a twelve year old. Go to bed, mommy doesn't wanna hear you in the other room while she's sucking your step dad's little dick

Yo! nice i quite fjenjoy nc&bs, gonna have a a listen to that song just because

Srs tho, shit is rough

if i kill myself....hmm id probs just walk in to the woods and never retursb
return
props 2 you doing it live lmao, id def watch and pass it to as many fuckers as i could, so they know u existed, lovae ya

im out, i gotta pass out, god speed to oyou
and dont ferget steam!!!

Fucking bitches is not bad to be honest, but smoking and drinking is going to make you stupid, and alcohol will give you cirrhosis, go to AA or get medical attention

Here's what helped me: Go to horrible places.

I've fucked 4 girls this month, 1 I paid. Surprisingly the others didn't want cash. I got a big dick though so I guess that's probably why and I'm skinny

Can people please keep replying. This is helping a bit.

>O"Children" by Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds.
i'd never listen ed to this song.....shit made me tear up

as before, godspeed. love ya man, whomever you may be..

cognitive therapy
plus I'm typing in the dark, I ment 28 day rehabs lol

It's a beautiful song. Nick is incredible. His last album, Skeleton Tree, and the film made about it is so heartbreaking to me.

He's so good.

I feel for you, user. I really do. My drinking never got as bad as yours but I can at least empathize with what it does to you mentally. I would recommend attending an AA meeting if only to talk to other people. Even if you have to go to a meeting every day. Just being able to talk to another human being, face-to-face, is a huge boon.

Take care, user. I love you.

i'll have to gtake a looksee at it, thanks man.

been a long whiel since ive beeen moved to tears

The problem is I'm too nervous and shy. Plus everyone around here does opiates and I don't want my car getting fucked with.

Two people have been stabbed in the last week over Fentnyll or however it's spelled.

I have a sex addiction, it's bad. Go ahead and laugh I don't give a shit anymore but I started going to sex addict meetings and I got a lot out of it except I've now resorted to alcohol instead of sex. I didn't fix my addiction I just found a different "fix" I hate myself I hate alcohol but it's keeping me from doing other self destructive things I don't know how to fix it either bud. I've started occupying my time with hobbies and not allowing there to be any idle moments, on weekends I fill up my schedule I started fishing and kayaking and trying to hang out with friends and take my dogs to the park just to occupy myself so I don't fall back into bad behaviors. It's tough man I struggle every single day but I like to tell myself that I'm managing and I'm going to get through this, I just wish I had a better support network I don't have anyone I can talk to about my problems.

How bad do you feel when you need alcohol? Where did this pain and regret come from?

He wrote it before his son passed away but was recording the album during the time period and all of the performances after. His son did mushrooms and fell off a cliff.

It's fucking so sad. Something that could have been so easily avoided.

That's the opposite of me. It's fucking terrible. My liver is fucked even when I quite drinking my bowel movements weren't good, even when I ate well.

I have ticks now too like clapping my hands or snapping my fingers when I get excited to drink. It's so bad. I have issues with my vision now too.

I'm a smart fucking guy too, this bothers me so much.

seek help, within your family or a psychologist or something
if that don't help try to cut it off with the help of friends
and as last plan, you can always take the fast, but not sure way of LSD which is said to help with addiction of any kind

I'm not taking LSD. I am very skinny, it would really fuck me up.

Anyone else?

Tell more about your sex addiction. Do you fucked a whore each weekend? What's considered to be a sex addict?

Holy fuck youre pathetic get some fucking willpower you fucking pathetic excuse for a human

Can you please explain this incredible pain and regret you guys feel that leads you to this degeneracy?

I have one as well. I will do at least two a week. I'm just lucky cause they don't charge me full price since I'm young.

Guess I'm lucky that i'm not an old dude and girl like tall guys. Like I'd ask for a BJ for $80 and once she's here she's like I'd fuck you for $100 and I'm like I don't have it and she's like okay.

Then when I get hard she just pulls out a condom and puts it on my dick, with her mouth too pretty impressed, and I fuck her for 7 mins.

Still only paid $80

u kidding right?, LSD is harmless, and is not weight dependant, however, im not gonna try to obligate you
however tho, if user is already fucking himself up with alcohol, could LSD be worse?

>750752877
Who's Will Powers and why have I not met him?

A lot of this is genetics and I had a rough upbringing and a hard life. Maybe you don't understand that though because you've been on the xbox too long.

Can you please answer these questions?

I'm having a hard time with this shit as well man my lover is ok at the moment at least I think it is but I am just trying to sideline my addictions and do something constructive like woodworking or some other bullshit just to take my mind off of sex and alcohol even if it is just for 5 or 10 minutes in those few moments I feel good about myself I feel like I've accomplished something and when I feel the urge to drink I try to think about that dresser that I built or the coffee table I sanded and stained and try to get that sense of accomplishment back even if it is just for a few moments. I don't if it'll work for you but I'm trying to make it work for me just try to pick up some time consuming hobbies and instead of putting your money into alcohol put it towards the hobbies I don't have the money for alcohol anymore I'm at the point where I force myself to spend money on hobbies that way I can't buy alcohol cause I don't want to lose my house over a liquid that helps ease my pain for a few hours. I hope this helps man I'm not exactly the person to take advice from when it comes to money I wouldn't recommend my method to anyone but I've made it work for me, well for now anyway

I start sweating and feeling very uncomfortable. I get a dry mouth and red skin. I get angry and confused about certain things. I hurt myself, I punch my legs and arms.

There's a lot I do when I need a drink.

That's what happened to me. I started making model kits of movies and shit I enjoyed when I was younger and buying action figures. But then the urges come on and they come strong. I tried to substitute it with weed but weed just makes me tired.

Alcohol makes me feel alive and numb and strong. I fucking hate it.

did you go on a culd turkey? or it was just gradual comedown?

>Meetings won't work for me. I need someone I can play games with, talk to and share things with.

You find people like that at meetings, you dumb fuck. It's not about god or the 12 steps or any of that shit - it's about connecting with sober people who know what being an alcoholic is like. Find the ones that are happy and hang out with them. Or drink and die alone, whatever.

I can't, I've tried.

I dont know if this advice is dog shit but I can suggest one thing. I wont mention what my vice was but I just instigated a single rule, to call a nominated person before I indulged. That person wasn't allowed to judge me for it or be an asshole, they just asked me how I was etc... It was a simple rule that made me think about indulging in my vice beforehand and then I found myself just avoiding it because the phone call was enough to put me off, just a tiny bit of accountability.

I did go cold turkey. I gave my bank and credit card to my father for two months and then I was studying for my insurance exams so I was busy.

Well my sex addiction started off with porn, I didn't realize I had an addiction at first it was all just porn and masturbation 5-10 times a day I would watch porn without masturbating a lot also. But that slowly got me accustomed to cruising and looking for hookers and then I discovered a few massage parlors and it wasn't until my fiance dumped me, cause of the constant need to watch porn, that I even noticed I had a problem in my mind my behavior was justified I found a way to convince myself that it was normal and everybody did it even if they didn't admit it. My ex had no idea about the escorts and massages only there porn but it was all the time and she couldn't take it anymore. So now I'm single and trying to fix myself one piece at a time.

You clearly weren't ready. Try again. Took me several tries over 10 years - don't be a fucking idiot.

Have a doctor prescribe you antabuse

>Anonymous 11/12/17(Sun)02:33:51 No.750
Okay Don Jon haha

that kind of means you need to keep your mind busy, far from them haunting thoughts, maybe you just need deep social company or a tiring job or somerhing like that

Been on it and tried Citalopram and another drug I can't remember the name. None of it works

I can't even remember most of my childhood. I think something really bad happened to me but I can't remember.

Just gotta keep pushing dude it's not an easy road, there's people in my meetings who are 30+ years sober and if these inbred looking dumb fucks can manage sobriety then why can't we, I'm a pretty smart guy as well I don't like to toot my own horn or brag but I realized am pretty smart and if some guy who looks and sounds like he had the IQ of a starfish can do 30 years sober I should be able to do it as well.

I've had a bunch of crazy shit happen to me, I know that's not the point of this post though.

Have you tried not drinking?

If you cant even get over being shy in favor of stopping being an addict then you're a weakwilled faggot deserving of the place youve PUT YOURSELF into. youre running away from every problem you have, and using another problem on your laundry list of mental inadequacies to justify the first problem. You're a fucking mess, go get help and stop being a useless faggot circlejerking about how sad you are by yourself because this thread is a pity party not a cry for help.

In my original post I said I didn't drink for almost six months...

I'm no don Jon by any means I couldn't get laid without paying someone if I fucking tried. Sex addiction is a thing dude you can mock it all you want but it's an addiction I'm trying to fix.

You havent tried. You go to meetings and say suicidal shit to get put in a ward, youve said that in this thread. So go there and stop mentioning suicide, go though it, and stop self sabotaging like a useless fuck.

Been drinking nearly everyday for about 5 years or so. Also horribly addicted to weed and nicotine.

I think most of it stemmed from social anxiety and in general just hating myself. Seeing a lot of friends and family grow right past you is a shitty feeling, so I turned to drugs I suppose.

My off days are probably the worst. I start drinking and just can't stop until I'm really toasted. Hangovers are so bad sometimes I can't get out of bed the next day. Also, I've just recently started puking blood. Probably got an ulcer or some shit.

Really considering going to a meeting after all these years, but I think I need some kind of mental therapy as well. Cheers anons

No but I mean instead of starting to drink again, you just don't do that part

Yeah okay, I doubt you've had any of the troubles I've dealt with. You are likely from a middle class family who supported you all the way. I've had my mother's boyfriend try to kill my and my mother, a man that was going to be my step father pass away and his kids rob and try to kill my cousins in my house, my sister made me smoke and start drinking at nine and she was in a girls home and drove my parents apart, my uncle stabbed and went to jail, so much shit.

You have no idea.

>Really considering going to a meeting after all these years, but I think I need some kind of mental therapy as well.

Studies show they work well in conjunction - better than one or the other. Give it a shot.

I'll have 5 years on December 30th and I can honestly say my life has improved immeasurably.

You have no idea of the urges, the regret, the constant headaches and sadness and loneliness.

The fucking meetings don't work, a lot of people know that and a lot of people have called bullshit on them.

Recovering addict turned clinical therapist here.

As serious of a topic as this is, that actually made me laugh pretty hard.

Have you tried taking acid?

I hope you drink yourself to an early grave, because not only are you a weak willed idiot emotionally- but your logical response to the demonstration of your faggot self pity is EVEN MORE reasons to be a self pitying faggot shows you're also a shallow moron as well. So fuck it, you dont deserve my advice. Circlejerk over the other equally pathetic faggots who can waste time "helping" you until you break & die in your own shit & piss.

The meetings DON'T work. Not when the urges kick in, I don't do drugs, alcohol is the hardest to quit. Most people don't have the hurt and regret I have.

I still love you my son... look deep for your answers, why can't you forgive and love yourself?

Again, it's not the meetings, you nimrod. It's the people at the eetings who you forge relationships with. They are the ones who help pull you through the tough times until you can stand on your own.

Make relationships with people AT the meetings - go out for coffee or see a movie. Don't just go there and bitch about your problems and leave.

At least I understand sentence structure. I will likely pass away in my 50's, but I will do so knowing I'm not a fucking imbecile like you.

seventh post here ive seen you reply "YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAAAAARD IT IS. THE PAAAIN. THE REGRETTTT. " youre an egoic shallow pussy so weak you'd rather get dopamine hits from attention seeking on Sup Forums than muster up the strength to put a glass of liquid down. I'm lmaoing at ur life.

I never bitched about my problems you idiot. I talked about what was going on and most of them were addicts. Drug addicts.

You have no idea how bad pills and drugs are here. They go there because they HAVE to not because they want to.

Mate, youre an addict at rock bottom begging for help on Sup Forums- sentence structure should be the LEAST of your worries. I get it though, gotta grasp at any straw you can when your shallow rabbit hole gets prodded into. Run away.

Seriously take some acid

See
And this:
>Most people don't have the hurt and regret I have.
Is bullshit. It's called "terminal uniqueness" and it kills more alcoholics than anything. You are NOT that special. Innumerable people have had it much harder than you and they've got sober. Find people who understand you - recovering people. You can't do it alone. You can try SMART recovery meetings if your city has them - it's a cognitive behavioral approach rather than a 12 step thing. But FIND PEOPLE. That's the key.

>terminal uniqueness
The most apt summation of this faggot OP thats been posted. thread over.

Learn to carry your cross, or let me help you with it.
Be honest with yourself.

aaaaaaaaaaand ops gone, the moment posters stopped catering to his pity party he ghosts. Consider op another dead drunk.

oy vey

I'm here you tart.

yes, but only replying to things that challenge you fragile ego & avoiding anything of substance. Literally every post you demonstrate how much of a pussy you are, its getting kinda hilarious.

It's so easy to talk shit when you have no fucking clue what people have been through. I'll agree It's not any third world issues but being intelligent and having to deal with this shit really hurts.

Funny how you say this as an anonymous person. Likely a teen with a nice house and a good family. I would fucking destroy you physically.

Nigger I keep telling you, take some acid. God damn.

not only are you still on your "my problems are too much to bare" train but now because youre soo smart and soo self aware that its harder on you? No faggot, if you were remotely intelligent you'd have solved your problem.

Not him, but listen OP, I've been tough on you only because I love you. I mean that. I know the hurt and the pain and the urges and the obsession. But it gets better than you could ever imagine if you get clean and do it right.

No.

...

you big mad or lil mad faggot? You wouldn't do shit, you can't even beat a glass of whiskey. You can't even talk about your own issues. Youre solely capable of just being a mad worthless faggot.

I did for 5 months. it was too much to bare, kinda why it's called a fucking addiction.