Use to browse porn out of curiosity

>use to browse porn out of curiosity
>then it was to make up for a lack of gf
>finally realize after decades of watching porn
>porn is better than having a gf or casual hook ups

you're going to die alone

yeah well you tend to shit yourself when you die so that might not be such a bad thing. you really want someone standing there watching you dump a load into your pants?

i don't care about that i'd be dead already
i don't want to die lonely

being lonely is like the one thing you haven't got a choice in the matter of. that's entirely up to other people 100%. you can be lonely and get nothing but negative attention from people. can you be lonely if you get a lot of attention? i went through that before. being lonely is better than being disrespected.

yeah i meant it in the good way not the bad way

i would feel lonely if the attention i got was negative or even if it was just people bugging me for stuff

i only feel not lonely with someone who i like and genuinely likes me back and wants to spend time with me

>i only feel not lonely with someone who i like and genuinely likes me back and wants to spend time with me
i still feel lonely in those situations. its more tiring too having to pretend like im not malcontent.

just be malcontent, you will see if they really like you or not

This thread is pretty miserable with only you two bozos talking to each other the past 40 minutes. I'll reply to make this thread a little more engaging.

nobody "likes" me likes me. I just mean people that like me.
like this. obviously it's somewhat miserable. it's like when you've been awake for hours and all you want to do is lay down , close your eyes, cranky. hiding it is tiresome.

hey welcome to the thread
i don't really like to hang out with anyone that doesn't like me like me it just seems pointless and i get bored easy

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I'd think casual hookups could be the minimal that one person should aim when regarding your future mental health. Human's need sexual contact between each other. There's something oddly maddening about true celibacy.

3dpd they're much better in 2d don't even pretend like you'd want to fuck even 1/3rd of the porn sluts you jerk off to

no there isn't. im celibate because people = shit. why would i want some slut to get enjoyment after i had to go through years of rejection and loneliness while they were probably face down getting a train run on them by whatever fucking group of guys they could find off okcupid that week, or tinder whatever it is they use now

why don't you want a cute virgin though?

That's only because of the state of society today and the way women are "Equal" now.
they don't need us like they used to, in the old days when men basically owned women.

Now days women are assholes like men, might as well be gay or single

i fucked a trollop once said she was a virgin. lying skank turned into an abusive psychobitch i dont like dating.

I never said casual encounters aren't the way to go. I'm starting to lean towards a no-family life too. My point is. Being totally recluse from everyone usually ends in bad results. I agree that having to live up to a certain standard for someone else you're responsible for supporting is too much, and putting all of your trust into someone. Hoping that they won't ever cheat , or weather or not your kids come out fine if you go the family route. I get it. The point is, no matter what path you're going. I'd really considering staying away from total seclusion. Because it's just performing the slowest act of suicide a person can do.

are you me?
did she happen to be asian

>. Being totally recluse from everyone usually ends in bad results.
yeah well so does being with people that dont like you. if you got a choice in being a normy you might as well be. if it doesn't work you can go be alone anyway. i dont have that option and i learned im better off that way.

it doesn't matter. i probably just lost my cool for a second there i don't like to talk like that about people. chances are it could have been the same girl. she likes to pump guys online to get free shit and i've seen her nudes on here before. (years later)

Just walk around, dead inside

I'm not dead inside. What would give you that impression?

So you are assuming that there's not a single group of people to hang out with? That's a lie and you know it. You no confidence to socialize with anyone. You are even lying to yourself that there's no solution to your problem. Which, could explain why you are so low. Did you ever have a stuffed animal or imaginary friend as a kid? Remember how you'd think of them as the best friend you could find? That was you exercising your ability to interact. It's supposed to be a knee-jerk reaction to be able to communicate with your fellow human. You've taken too much time on the sidelines by the sound of it.

It has nothing to do with confidence. Yeah there really was a few years there where nobody wanted to socialize with me. Not a single person. Not at all. Even going to family functions was fucking weird where I'd get this passive aggressive thing like they were mad about the times when I wasn't there but clearly they're not very happy to have me there anyway. After years of rejection and changing myself, I started looking at the relationships I use to have in a whole different light and I realized I wouldn't even want to hang out with them anymore. Then I do hear or see from them and they haven't changed a bit personality wise so I look down on them quite a lot. My entire goal in life is to move to a new place and meet new people and just start a new life away from these condescending pricks that looked down their noses and ostracized me till I realized it should have been the other way around. It's not cheap just uprooting and moving temporarily or permanently. I've gone all over the country in the mean time and it's a soul sapping experience to have to come back.

People are shit. Once you go deep into isolation and experience things differently you cannot recover miraculously and even if you do "make it" the world will never look the same.

there's nothing to recover from. the world looks great. i just want to experience it somewhere else.

I feel you OP. I had a falling out with the other half of my family, and going back up there was a disaster, and the dread I felt living in a town that I utterly despised. You should take a vacation, and see where the grass is greener.

underrated

none of us do user
none of us do

Well I like my family. If it weren't for them I don't know what I would of done. Just showing up it's like I'm just a place holder at the table or some shit. I really think the world of them all. Just was getting some conflicting messages from them like they want me there but for what? just to suck up oxygen clearly they weren't too happy about my presence. Just awkward. My loathing is mostly reserved for people I've had personal interactions with and falling outs.

I've always been the one to force an awkward situation, and it's because my family is usually very poised, and it can get a little too stagnant. Unless there's violence or the law getting involved between you and your family I have no experience with that sort of stuff, but I do know that no matter how many times I've acted a fool. Weather it was that one night, or that string of years leading up to High School. My family was always forgiving of my off-the-rails behavior, and I'm sure that I am speaking for a lot of others.

Well like I said not a soul wanted to be around me. It's kind of awkward for them.
>Hey hows it going, get a new job?
>facial expression
like every time. yeah i get it you think i should stop being broke. shouldn't everyone? it's not like my life here is going to change one iota with more money or not. i'm not going to meet anyone new i use to talk to new people all the time i got rejected like hundreds of times. i dont know how anyone ever expects that conversation to go differently

Got any hobbies? I'm sure whatever it is they have a welcoming community. As long as you treat people with decency and not spit in their face or ignore them then you should be more than fine. Strange or not the weird kid always had friends when I was growing up. Because there was a number of them around the neighborhood, and they all met up to form a group and interact among each other. There's always a community for your interests.

Of all the reasons I've ever heard to be celibate, this is the most illogical and fucked up.

OP sounds like a pussy ass bitch