Oh hai Sup Forums. i'm going to kill myself on december 9th. 34 years old and i've had enough...

oh hai Sup Forums. i'm going to kill myself on december 9th. 34 years old and i've had enough. done everything i want to do and life has nothing to offer me apart from stress, monotiny and depression. don't wanna face the struggle no more so i'm just gonna off myself. anyone have any tips to get my affairs in order before i go? don't want to leave a load of shit for my family to clear up so I'm going to make a list of all my accounts and passwords etc to make things a little easier for them.

obvs deleting my porn stash and internet history etc.

any other tips greatly appreciated.

thanks for your time.

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Perhaps change your life first. Join a nonprofit for example.

Or don't..?

Do it on cam, you'll go out in style

if you're already gonna kill yourself, why not just sell everything you own and go somewhere fun?

i can't do it any more. worked a job i hate for the last 8 years, got my mortgage down to £22k. was hoping to pay it off and travel the world, but i can't carry on.

not gonna do it on cam, it'll be boring. i'm allergic to nuts and i really wanna try chicken satay, it smells so good. i'm in work next week then i have a week off. on the saturday night i plan to get pretty fucked up on whiskey and order chicken satay, kung po pork etc from my local chinese and have a feast to die for.

it did cross my mind, and i have dreamt for years about making a fresh start somewhere. i don't know where. i'm on the autism spectrum, so i feel out of place everywhere. i just want the internal struggle to go away. i want some peace finally.

Would say don't but seems to me that your dead set on this.
Honestly what I want to know is why December 9th?
I hope you don't kill yourself, because you got people who care about you

For a lot of people, giving back to the community brings a lot of meaning. Plus it's a great way to score chicks

Killing yourself is stupid, user.
Sell your house, move to australia, buy a van and just drive around. Maybe work on some farms if you need money, easy as shit to get jobs out in the bush.
You don't even have to fit in, you can just do it alone. Or just bring a dog along with you, dogs are the best.

Sometimes I've wished I didn't give a fuck about life so I could do stupid shit like that and not worrry about the consequences.

hi OP
whats the point of killing yourself?

You could sell your shit and give me your moneys..would have good use for it

i have a week off work from dec 4th - dec 8th. may as well enjoy a week of getting fucked up before i go out.

maybe it would, but i don't think i can truly be happy. i'm too scared to just start over. how would i keep a roof over my head and eat?

i like dogs. i did read that post about selling all your shit, going on tour, wrestle a shark, fuck a hooker. maybe i could do that instead? but hat do i do when i run out of money and don't have a job?

see above. stuck in a rut. no friends. just no point in going on suffering anymore. i want out. we all die in the end anyway, so why prolong the misery and put off the inevitable?

i already have all my shit earmarked. my house is going to my brother to sell/rent out to go towards my neices future (she's 3 years old) my computer/audio equipment/instruments are going to my friends. everything else can be binned or sold to pay for my funeral so i don't land my family with a big bill.

forgot tits on last post, sorry.

9th is good a day as any. Im in! Suicide pact.

DUBS AND I KILL MYSELF
CHECK EM

You need a legit will man, if you're truly going to do this. Nothing will get to the right people if you just have notes on things.

really? i was just going to type it all up on a notepad doc and leave it on a usb stick. surely that would stand up?

Don't go kill yourself.. As others have said, sell everything; move away, start fresh.

Or, if you're intent of doing it, go out having fun. e.g: get a motorbike & go as fast as you can for as long as you can until you crash.

Also; source?

already have a motorbike :) one of the only things left in life i enjoy.

i don't have source unfortunately, only have the one pic

>but hat do i do when i run out of money and don't have a job?
Don't you have a house you can sell?
Plus, as I said, getting a job in the australian outback is insanely easy. And they pay you loads under the table. Like $30 an hour.

As long as you can buy a plane ticket and a backpacker van you'll be golden.

yeah, my house is worth ~90k and i have ~22k left on the mortgage. so could probably set off with around £65k in my pocket if i sold up.

that wouldn't last long though i'm sure.

also, it's not just as easy as buying a plane ticket is it? you need skills/qualifications to get citizenship. i think i would be at home in canada in a nice little log cabin in the hills to be honest.

Have you considered not ruining your family's lives?

Don't like your job? Quit.
Wanna move? Sell your house.
Sick of day-in day-out drudgery? Learn a skill, do charity work, get ripped in the gym.
Depressed? Get to the doctor to see if antidepressants will help.

You could literally do anything. Use the money from selling your house to go to Oz and surf, sit on the beach, drink beer, bang chicks/hookers/traps/whatever, get a job working outside to get a sick tan.

So much you could do rather than scarring your family and going out gasping for air from (overrated) chicken satay.

Bro dont fucking do it. Get fucking crazy instead!! do whatever the fuck you want. sell your shit and buy a sweet ass van. drive around and life your life as YOU want it!

When you are around ppl that are not making a posetive impact on your life, you stop to feel success in your life. Your life is not moving forward, instead it fells like you are slowly sinking down in the ground while looking back at your "happy life".

Now you are at that point that you want to kill yourself. And thats fucked up bro! We all love you and want you to live!
The 1 thing that helped me get my life around. (tried to kill myself 4 yr ago) was to never look back again. ALWAYS LOOK FORWARD! Question yourself everyday, get rid off friends that are draging you down. And start being YOU!

I really hope you will read this OP, this is the first time i have written or even told anyone about my suicide attempt. Love you bro

Tom?

Don't be lazy. See an actual legal expert and figure out what you ought to do to get your affairs in order. You're going to get to kill yourself soon. Just pull through and straighten everything out first so you can have a stress-free comfy suicide. Maybe sign a do not resuscitate form for good measure.

65k is plenty of money dude.
1k for a plane ticket, a few grand for a decent camper van.
You'll need maybe a little over a grand a month or something like that for food and gas.

If you're from the UK it's fairly easy.
You can get a working holiday visa for a year basically autimatically. If you work out in the bush for 12 weeks you're eligible for another year.

I mean I'd say it's worth giving it a shot, wouldn't you? You might love it. And even then if you still feel like you need to off yourself you still can, and you'll still have plenty of money to give to your relatives. And you would at least go out knowing you tried to enjoy life.

i wouldn't know what other job to do. and starting in a new field i would have to drop a few grand on my wages.

i could sell my house but i don't know where i wanna move to.

too old for an apprencticeship.

i could try anti-depressants. i've not gone to a doctor though as they would view my casual drug use as the cause of the problem. and to be honest, my casual drug use is the only reason i have made it to 34. would probably have killed myself a long time ago if it wasn't for weed.

fair point. i'll consider it over the next couple of weeks.

i just feel like my autism would hold me back. like i'm terrible at job interviews, and being around me is kinda awkward. i've gotten more anti social the older i have got. i quite enjoy my own company these days.

Don't do it OP!
If you're really serious about offing yourself, quit your job and go travel. Get a van and have an epic road trip. Or buy a boat and live in the tropics. Just get away from your current situation since it's bringing you down so much.
Plus, your family will be super devastated if you pass away :( They'll be heartbroken.

I hope you read this OP, please don't do it.

write a manifesto and slay your enemies, and a few strangers for good measure

It's just a suggestion though, user. There are plenty of other places you could go and live on your own or explore other ways of life you might actually like.

Hell, maybe buy a little house in the middle of nowhere in wales or something and start a little farm. You'd never have to see anyone except when you deliver food. Plenty of people are hermits, there's no reason why you can't be one too.

I'm 34 and am about to learn welding. I've only ever been a roofer. If you're going to say fuck it all and kill yourself, you might as well say fuck it all and change things up. I've heard of guys getting apprenticeships in their 40's, someone I knew went to med school at 55. Start working out, go talk to strangers and wait-out your pain . . . or off yourself.

come to Sup Forums

You need to have them beneficiaries of your accounts otherwise it will be hell trying to get any of your assets. Just giving them the password, them logging in will make it theft technically

$30/hr
>loads

Lol

you know, honestly, i think you guys ITT have made me seriously consider drastically changing my siuation rather than just killing myself. my family would be hurt. and i do normally enjoy life, at least i used to before i was around 24 years old. worst case scenario i guess i don't find happiness, run out of money and can still kill myself if i want to.

seriously though, if there's anyone still here, i think the biggest wall to me doing this has been not knowing what i want to do, where i want to go, or what will make me happy. how do i find that? i guess i just want a quiet, peaceful life around nice, genuine people. i find people here in the rat race toxic and that is a lot of what has made me anti-social.

Who is this girl and how can I convince my wife to let me bring her home

>34
>too old for an apprenticeship

Definitely not.
My mom finished her nursing degree at 55, my dad became a carpenter at 57. You're not too old for anything my friend.

1> Autistic people have a tendency to become great artists,

2> Many geniuses were extremely lonely and unhappy,

3> You are loved

You'd rather drop a few grand on your wages than carry on living?

Well you don't have to buy a house somewhere else, just rent for a bit, then move on if you don't like it.

Didn't necessarily mean an apprenticeship. Just start learning something. Guitar. Coding. Some kind of sport.

If you go to a have decent doctor they wouldn't turn away a suicidal patient because he/she smoke weed occasionally.

Have a little listen to Jordan Peterson bro. Might be able to help sort yourself out.
/watch?v=6c9Uu5eILZ8

For shitty farmwork it is loads.
How much do you think mexicans in the US get paid for picking fruits and shit?

You need vacation. Spend money traveling to at minimum 4 different countries.

Might as well spend some of that money you've made before looking yourself. That's the way I think about my own money. I have $70k usd cash and I think about dying every day. Before I do at least i think I want to leave everything of what I'm doing and take a one way ticket back over to Europe and just go where life takes me

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Op is not a skill less spic though

STOP SMOKING WEED MAN
It's finally caught up with you.
t. ex pothead

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[spoiler]love you bro, see you in the afterlife; there's work to do an so little time; we'll sleep when we're dead and I promise you I'll share a mug of ale with you in Valhal, but only if you die a hero with me[/spoiler]

I'm glad, user. You might as well give it a shot just in case you end up liking life I'd say.
>how do i find that?
No idea, I'd say travel a bit and see what places you like? Maybe just rent some houses in super rural towns and move around too see what it's like.
Also yes, definitely watch Jordan Peterson's videos, that man is a genius.

op here, i was just sat thinking i wouldn't know where to go after selling everything i own, so i imagined it. first thing i thought is that i have a friend who moved to grand caymen from the uk a few years ago. a good friend. i could buy a one way ticket there and would be able to crash at his until i get myself a job and a house etc. if i don't like it there (and i don't think i will, too hot and too social for me) i could just move on from there and try somewhere else. i have another friend in finland too.

do some drugs, I suggest ecstasy

after doing that you should go to a national park and trip on mushrooms or led

and if you still wanna kill yourself get into some heroin

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Absolutely, just get out there and see what the world has to offer.

I also agree with stop smoking weed user. I was depressed as fuck when I was smoking, and I kept smoking because I was depressed. Weed is not good for you if you have issues.

Use helium

done a fair bit of ecstacy in my youth. had shrooms 4 times and acid 3 times. my favourite effects of any drug i have ever tried.

i always said i would try heroin if i had some terminal disease. though i hear a lot about people who don't get so addicted to it. like hold down a job and shit while maintaining a heroin habit. i've never been one to get addicted, not to coke or anything. i think i could hold down a heroin habit.

mate, yes. op here, do you have any more of her?

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LOTS...we used to fuck

I work at the same place for 2,5years and hate it to shit. Collegues are ok but the company ceo is a dumb spoiled noskill bitch and is slowly destroying the entire company her dad worked so hard for. Ive been doing interviews for the last 12months and still didnt get hired. Allthough i keep trying and hope for the best.. one day it'll work and its gonna make my life all better. Im 30 btw

Drugs are not the answer, m8. Drugs are meant to be recreational, not a substitute for actual happiness. That never ends up well.

>i'm going to kill myself on december 9th
>i have a week off work from dec 4th - dec 8th. may as well enjoy a week of getting fucked up before i go out

that's not how suicidal ideation works.

OP is a pathetic loser, true, but also a liar.

Wanna send me 50$ on paypal? Think of it as a good deed in a wicked world.

Then your next challenge is finding that, u only have one life dude so do the best u can, itl be over soon enuff anyway. Also chicken satay is not worth it

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same bish?

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what's her name?

Can we get this set somewhere?

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B8 i have this same picture in my fap folder

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Shes from Georgia bud. I honestly banged her a few times. Believe me or not...heres the pics

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Finland is a p. cool country. Sweden and Norway are super cool too. You should travel around the rural parts a bit, people aren't super social there and housing is cheap.

op here and i believe you. gonna call the folder 'georgia', thanks.

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>people aren't super social there and housing is cheap.
see this sounds perfect for me

the only downside would be learning a new language. i believe finnish can be difficult.

I think the biggest thing is that you have the power to decide. If things go sour you can just off yourself, but you would have tried.

Honestly, it sounds egocentrical, but in this situation stop caring about your relatives. I recon they might know (to a certain extend) in what situation youre in right now. You do not owe them anything. Talk to them about how you feel and more importantly tell them what you think you need to fix your situation. They will not understand, because they dont know how you feel, but letting your relatives/loved ones grieve because you took the "easy way out" is honestly much worse than letting them grieve because youre abroad/(temporaraly) out of their lives. Idealy you can use them for support but don't give yourself the feeling that you owe them something or that they owe you their support/loyalty. This is something that you have to do.

Honestly, just take your time to really think over what you want. Visit some places where you can relax, places like the rocky mountains, grand mesa, i dont know where you live. I mean, who gives a fuck right, you don't own anyone anything and you need some space and time to think.

Give yourself a month to think shit over. Talk with specialists if that works for you. Give yourself some options and think them over.

Then act upon your decisions. Do something adventurous, volunteer at the great barrier reef, i dont know, something that sounds wholesome to you. Do now worry about money or stability yet. that shit will come.

You WILL meet some great people there, maybe people who are in the same boat, maybe people who are more open to your autism, maybe people who just like your presence for shits and giggles, you will grow as a person.

When youre past that phase you can either just kill yourself anyways, but probably you will have had positive and negative experiences that made you a much more complete person and maybe give you opportunities make your live better in the long run.

Can I get you preggo first?

Are you the 34 yo kissless virgin? You can't be 34 anymore you been saying it for years

Emmy

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nope. plenty of notches on my bedpost

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thanks for the bewbs bro

I've heard finnish is pretty difficult, but english speaking people don't have too hard of a time learning swedish/norwegian. Plus everyone in scandinavia speaks fluent english anyway and tend to be really helpful when brits/aussies/americans want to learn swedish. I know a couple and none of them have regretted moving to sweden.

But that's getting ahead of ourselves, maybe just add scandinavia to the list of places to travel.

what if afterlife are worse than current reality, how do we know exactly?

well that would be easy. i have a friend who moved to finland an married a finnish girl he met online. they're back over in the uk now with a 1 year old kid while he earns some big money working before they move back to finland so their kid can go to a finnish school. if i time it right i could start my travels in grand caymen, call in a couple of other possible places like canada/oz, and end up in finland for when my mate gets back there. then i could make my mind up where i want to call home. bonus points - my friends' wife tells me the finnish girls love english guys.

>afterlife

Fucking love cutters. Looks like she brands too maybe by that titty. Got any with fresh wounds OP? Hnng...

it's not me (OP) posting the pics unfortnately, i only had the first one. it's some other based Sup Forumsro in the thread

country?

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well guys, OP here. i'm going to sleep on it but i think i'm going to get through this year, hand my notice in at work in january. put my house up for sale and travel round to see if anywhere feels like home. gotta be better than offing myself huh?

thanks Sup Forums, you actually stopped me from being an hero.

if i make it i will post an update thread to let you guys know. hell, i'll post a thread even if i fail and go back to plan a of ending it all.

thanks Sup Forumsros!

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So do swedish girls. I'm sure norwegian girls do too. Just like english girls really like scandinavian guys. There's some kind of mutual attraction there.

But yeah, that sounds like a good plan, user. 65k pounds is plenty to travel around for a while.

Finnish is hard as fuck, but on the west coast they speak Swedish which (like Norwegian) is incredibly easy for an English speaker. Pretty much everyone speaks English anyway though.

Norway and Finland are top tier countries. Sweden is a feminist/sjw hellhole these days unless you live somewhere rural.

Nordic women wet it for Brits too.