I'm agitated all the time I get incredibly angry over the smallest things I keep destroying my self-confidence I am incredibly restless I can never solely concentrate on one task I hit myself hard constantly I get depressed constantly I keep thinking about suicide I will feel like crying, then happy almost instantly I feel it is not fair experiencing happiness like those around me I feel trapped inside a torture chamber I'm scared of losing control I am extremely paranoid I take things way too serious Most of the time I feel emotionally confused I always feel that my responses to everyday things in life are wrong I do things excessively that are bad for me I have a screaming replica of myself within my mind almost permanently
What is wrong with me?
Jason Hughes
Oh and I work myself up, get angry nervous and shaky over bullshit I get panic attacks regularly
Austin Collins
You need to get laid faggot
Jayden Williams
I get laid often
Ian Lopez
Pick one thing at a time and try to improve it in order to feel a sense of accomplishment. Don't try to tackle everything at once; you will fail and feel bad which fuels the depression even further.
Joshua Diaz
But I can't help but feel that this may be a serious psychological (Brain malfunction) problem that could be fixed by thinking positively.
Colton Russell
These problems I posted are only the beginning of what is wrong. I have so much more
For instance, the thought of killing people and not having control over my actions are one of my biggest fears. Especially when I've taken some form of medication, like a painkiller. My mind tells me that the painkiller is potent enough to send me into a murderous rage
I always choke on my food, struggling to swallow because my mind tricks my reflexes (Or whatever).
Landon Walker
Go see a specialist if you think it's some kind of brain malfunction. I am not a big fan of serious medication in order to treat psychological problems though. They should be the last resort which is probably the case for you since you're already thinking about suicide. Go ahead and call up a specialist
Eli Gomez
Obviously not often enough
Tyler Morris
I AM seeing a psychiatrist. I am on medication. But these problems persist. As if the core of the problem is stronger than the antidote.
Michael Thomas
You should probably see your psychiatrist more often or see a different one if the treatments are not working. Also a positive attitude is crucial for medication to work.
Matthew Peterson
sounds like you need to change your diet. I recommend going keto. it did amazing things to help me. i used to be a lot like you. now i am happy and calm and sure all the time.
Angel Barnes
You're in touch with reality, that's what wrong.
Brayden Reed
inb4 the keto-flue sends him on a killing-spree
Jeremiah Hughes
meds.
Charles Lopez
OP do you wanna be friends?
John Adams
I don't think so. If it was true, I would have adapted and developed a much stronger ability to survive instead of trying to destroy myself.
Isaac Rivera
Sure why not
Adam Thomas
Nothing, you are fine. Get used to it, it just gets worst.
Camden Cook
You are depressed.
Get out and start exercising, you’ll feel better in no time
Angel Cox
It's been getting worse for 16 years. I'm nearly 30.
Michael Morgan
I found it funny when you observed your own confusion and listed your faults in such a lucid way.
fyi i'd probably hate you in real life, but that's not unique to you - people annoy me, they're like crinkling tin foil.
do you smoke cigarettes?
Jackson Morris
I smoke a pack of 20 a day man
James Martinez
some kind of cortisol receptor mutation
assuming you are male the genes to look at are called HTR2C and BDNF, the BDNF single polymorphism for men is Val/Val also known as rs6265. HTR2C has too many polymorphisms to really go into but they seem a lot less severe than the male-only rs6265 poly
Adam Williams
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Alexander Hernandez
See am I a wonder. You probably simply hate yourself smoking.
Dylan Young
You need to embrace your faggotry.
Bentley Allen
I don't hate myself. I just wish I had the courage to quit so I can get more fit because I'll lift one object then it'll feel like I ran the marathon.
Okay I'm not THAT unfit but you get what I mean.
At least I'm not a fat fuck although I wish I was because those fat fucks seem to be happier than me.
Jaxson Roberts
Kill yourself and live stream it
Kayden Cruz
I don't have the balls to an hero
Dylan Ward
Where are you from OP?
Lucas Russell
>I'm agitated all the time >I get incredibly angry over the smallest things >I keep destroying my self-confidence >I am incredibly restless >I can never solely concentrate on one task depression
>I hit myself hard constantly OCD or self-harm as an outlet
>I will feel like crying, then happy almost instantly bipolar
>I feel it is not fair experiencing happiness like those around me part of clinical depression
>I'm scared of losing control >I am extremely paranoid >I take things way too serious >Most of the time I feel emotionally confused >I always feel that my responses to everyday things in life are wrong >I do things excessively that are bad for me poor or low self-esteem and cofidence
>I have a screaming replica of myself within my mind almost permanently >paranoid not too severe, simply part of the whole deal. many people have that.
Go outside more, long walks with deep breaths, meet friends regularly, push yourself to really meet your friends, change your life in those areas that cause the most trouble for you. try to actively resolve strong problems you have with family and people near you. talk to your friends about it.
Eli Ross
Good ol shitty South-Africa
Adrian James
I don't know what the rules on guns are in Africa, but just get a gun and an hero. It doesn't require balls, it's an instant lights out
Logan Wright
>having these thoughts to even fear
You were me up till that point
Nathaniel Foster
Get into meditation user seriously. Not the over the top shit. Just 5 minutes a day breathing exercises for a start. Read up on Biofeedback. It helped me with anxiety a lot. Feel better
Cooper Johnson
Thank you so much. But I do not have any deep family or social problems. Except for not being as social as I want to be.
I already take deep breaths from popping several Ritalin tabs causing major angst as a side effect.
Nathan Rivera
Honestly I have a very similar problem. I went to therapy and I'm still in therapy and it helps me practice mindfulness. It gives me inside just like you possess because you understand your problem. I don't actually know how to get over any of this but I've been told that if you find a hobby or a passion or literally anything you care about and you actually finish it and do it to the fullest extent most of the shit goes away.
Or just say screw it and take whatever pills they gave you and being brain dead mindless idiot. who cares we all die anyways
Jack Garcia
That's like the easy way out. Instead of trying to figure it out yourself you want someone to tell you that you're fucked up. Challenge yourself maybe you'll find the reward was worth the effort
Carter Hall
should probably leave south africa if you're white, like lol no wonder you're nervous
Evan Baker
I also have these thoughts plus most of the symptoms you mentioned. I feel like most people have these thoughts, but it's your actions that will always speak louder than your words. If you start doing sick s*** like that then you really have a problem
Carson Hill
Get an MRI of your brain. No joke. It can't hurt, and you'll be able to rule out physical brain issues before traveling down the road of possible psychological fucked up ness.
Caleb Smith
go to a fckn psychotherapist. i have the same fucking problem and im goin to one. while reading, i feel like im already failing and when i actually fail i feel triggered and ready to hit myself or kill someone. our parents raised us so badly and we are fucked up we need therapy. if you dont believe so or you dont have the money FUCK YOU, im recovering
Owen Clark
He's right. I was super depressed after my parents died. I just drank for a solid 2 years hard liquor. But a friend pulled me out of it and now I work out 6 times a week and Run 3 times a week at first it sucks ass but then all the sudden you see results and you feel a lot better
Isaiah Gutierrez
I'm too poor to fucking leave
Sebastian Jenkins
Op you should screenshot this. And try to recite to yourself every morning
Dominic Hall
Are you me?28 years old, fucked up my marriage so she left me, broke, got backstabbed by my parents. No matter what I do or try I'm always self destructing.
Mason Fisher
It's not courage man its like a wrestling match with yourself it takes not strength but a certain technique. You can't beat yourself in an arm wrestling contest. Read the book "allen carrs easyway", and don't make excuses for yourself because when I smoked I would exercise every day. The first time I quit smoking, exercise would stop cravings.
Stopping is really just about saying no to the feeling of wanting a cigarette. Feeling comes as a wave and then goes. After two weeks the urge goes but the conditioning remains. Self-conditioning is the biggest harm of smoking imo. The book will help.
David Garcia
Kinda sounds like you need to take that stick out of your ass, you've got it shoved so far up there it's putting pressure on your brain.
Parker Allen
I'm also 28.
Only difference is
You have reason to feel that way I do not. I feel this way without anything triggering it.
Cameron Hughes
Thanks for the recommendation but I seriously hate reading. I have never read a book. Honestly.
I can handle myself when I try quit smoking, but the big problem is the monster within me people don't like when I quit smoking. I seriously would kick the Incredible Hulk's ass the first day without one.
Ryan Hall
Sounds like bipolar narcissistic disorder.
It's amazing how someone can delve so inward on themselves and only be worried about their own minds and anxiety that they completely lose interest or hold on the outside world around them.
My dad is this way, he is always worried about himself and his problems.
He calls me all day sometimes just talking about stupid trivial shit and irrational fears like he's some sort of nutcase.
Meanwhile I have a baby to take care of, and family to tend to and other things I do from day to day.
These people literally cannot get over themselves.
And it so fucked up because there is so much more to life but they have blinded themselves to it.
They do the same things over and over again expecting different results. It's insanity.
Brandon Cook
Yet here you are
Ayden Powell
Oh btw I never speak about my 'condition' to anyone except my mom because I don't want people bothered with my bullshit, except for crying about it here because Sup Forumstards are all useless cunts anyway.
Xavier Lee
Seems like you're not in a position to stop smoking yet, but I think stopping would improve your condition ten-fold only because the addiction is frustrating you.
Ayden Martinez
lol
Brandon Kelly
Not at all man. This kind of habit is meant to die with, for most.
Blake Cox
Sociopath is op maybe.
Jace Powell
If you're white, then just literally step outside and walk around. Don't have the balls to an hero? No problem, some nignog will do you the favor
Nathaniel Torres
I've considered myself a Sociopath but I cannot say I fully understand the definition and I have not been diagnosed being one. So no I'm not. Yet...
Carson Bailey
I'm white. Enough said fml
Cooper Rogers
Try nofap. Helps with the anxiety and stress. Also sobriety.
Aaron Gutierrez
about the breathing. it is a very strong, temporary solution to fits of anxiety. even when you don't feel agitated you can still get a lot of weight off your mind through breathing. it is completely rid of esotericism, bc it causes a circle of calming yourself down through autosuggestion.
when you are agitated, for whatever reason, your breathe is shallow and short. you can easily counter this by being conscious about it. you may not notice, when you walk or move a lot, but your breathe may be shallow and short bc of anxiety.
BREATHING EXERCISE --- simply close your eyes and take a deep breathe (cia nose or mouth) into your stomache area, not lifting the shoulders at all. imagine exploring every corner of your lungs with air, filling it thoroughly and getting the "bad air" (just a metaphor) out entirely.
take one deep, slow breathe for about 1 to 2 sec. hold for two seconds and exhale slowly, maybe lean forward a little bit as you do this. remember NOT to lift your shoulders, you want to breathe into the stomache area (you'll notice by pushing your stomache outwards a bit). then breathe out forming an "O" with your mouth. ----
repeat this for five to ten times, as much as you like. you will notice becoming calmer and your hearth rate getting more regular too.
this is adviseable for everyone as a simple and powerful remedy to acute stress
Nathaniel Sanchez
>narcissistic not at all vaid here, sorry for a true narcissist, he completely lacks self-confidence
Isaiah Bell
You don't actually want help or you'd take the advice of those around you. Pull finger out backside and start doing the hard work to improve yourself. Otherwise make explosives, blow self up, live stream
Jordan Evans
you are not eating healthy (too much sugars & salts) you are not sleeping at consistent hours
all the rest is an inner deamon you must confront and slay
Grayson James
>cia >cia >cia >cia >cia
Isaac Taylor
>What is wrong with me? you're on Sup Forums and not exercising regularly and eating well.
Levi Phillips
>cia
wtf does that mean?
Austin Hall
sounds like a job for drugs you should go get some drugs and do them until you feel better. also be kind to yourself you cant trust anyone else to take care of you
Gabriel Gomez
You just feel like it's easier to be a fuck up than actually fix your shit. Being successful is hard work
Easton Scott
I'm experiencing almost the exact same issues dude I've seen two different psychiatrist I've been on 4 different types of medication and none of it has helped. I feel so depressed but feel guilty about it because I have it pretty good. Me and my wife together make over 100k a year I have a new Ford escape a 2015 Camaro SS for summer and getting a 2016 explorer In a few weeks. Only owe 100k left on my house that would easily sell for around 420-440k if I listed it. Have an awesome easy union job with as much overtime as I want (I could be making 100k by myself) yet I'm stilll stressed still sad get angry over absolutely nothing. Wish there was an answer I could give you just try to hang in there dude