Be me, age 21

>be me, age 21
>still living with mentally ill pill addict mom and autistic little brother
>mom physically, and emotionally abused me, she also did some weird sexual stuff until my early teens
>mom has NPD and BPD
>multiple hard drug addictions like heroin, coke, and pills
>be completely mindfucked by weird cruel punishments and emotional abuse
>fucked me up, but got over most of it
>my grandparents who help me and understand most of the abuse going on throughout childhood
>unable to escape my mom's custody
>too afraid to testify to social workers
>grandparents now letting me stay with them
>secretly moved my over my stuff and collected my legal docs
>I ready to move out at any moment now and she doesn't know
>wut do now?
>how do communicate that I am leaving?
>If I leave without saying anything she will report me missing
>I also expect her based on past experiences to threaten suicide and harass me
>do I write a letter and leave or wtf?
>there's too many weird abuse stories for me to green text, but I will try if people ask
>thanks anons

Nobody cares

Get blow jobs.

>age 21
Niggah you realize you can just walk out and she cant do shit yeah?

Give your mom a hug, thats all she really needed op. Why havent you hugged your mom?

get her drunk and fuck her, and get two part time minimum wage jobs and move out

Leave a note and don't answer calls. In the letter make sure she knows that it's completely her fault and she could have stopped this, and there's absolutely nothing she can do about it now

he should do it with her at least, get her consent and tie her up. its time you put the dildo in her butt

Just never speak to her again. Grind your heel into the worthless soul of a worthless woman. Never let her make it better ever, never acknowledge she's improved even if it seems like she has. Just complete lockout forever and ever. Never forgive no matter what anyone says, in fact, anyone who tries rub it in that they're a bitch and they'll end up in a new cycle of about with another liar because they're a little bitch. Forgiveness is for bitches period.

>threaten suicide
>NPD
Get out now and don't look back. Shit situation but you have to distance yourself from her, threatening suicide is a shameless lie to appeal to your humanity. Narcissists are utterly reckless with their manipulations.

are you fucking retarded? if you're 21 your mom can't do anything to you. Just leave if you're leaving, tell her off or just leave, but either way stop being a pussy.

>>there's too many weird abuse stories for me to green text, but I will try if people ask
do it faggot

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Listen to these OP, best advice in thread.

Just ghost her
if you leave a note just notify her
treat it like a business deal
do the bare minimum
keep your stories for when the psychiatrist asks
therapy helps if you can find a good hospital with good doctors
Get into bitcoin and become fin indie
kickass bro life is for living

>>there's too many weird abuse stories for me to green text, but I will try if people ask
Go on...

She won't actually kill herself. BPD people just act like kids and do things for attention. And if she does, it will most likely not be successful as they do have low success rates in suicide. Besides, what do you care? From the sounds of it, it's surprising that you still let her keep a hook in you like that

what does sexual stuff mean?

get back for what your mom did and start raping her
tell her if she tells anyone or refuses then you will press charges for sexual assault of a minor

This.
My mom was an addict as well and i pretty much had to take care of myself during my early teens. When i was 18 i just left and starting sleeping at friends for a while until i got my own place. That was 8 years ago and i've spoken to her once since that.

One thing I remember that she was very interested in my development during puberty.
She wanted to know if I could ejaculate yet and she would ask me occasionally under the guise of being educational.
She had me masturbate in front of her in the shower and made comments about how she would be excited when I had grandchildren.

If this is true, sort out somewhere to take your little,brother first, then just tell her you need to leave. Ignore her if she threatens suicide. Give in now and she'll do it every time she wants you to do something

kinda regret asking now

My little brother has special needs because he is developmentaly delayed. Primairly he has a speech delay, and he still requires a lot of supervision. My mother just got approved for disability, and will also soon be getting paid through IHSS to care for him. My mother is not so disabled that she is unable to care for him, and even if she was, she could hire an IHSS worker to help out.

As of now I am caring for him all the time while I am home, I prepare meals, get him on and off the school bus, supervise him during the day, etc... While I am at school, my mother had been relying on one of the same relatives I'm staying with to baby sit him a couple times a week. My mother rarely leaves the house and stays in bed all day on the computer while I serve her. She is fully capable of moving around and taking care for him. Soon, beginning next month, she will have a stable income from IHSS and disability.

I'm prepared that my mother may try to make it hard for me to have anything to do with my little brother. I also feel bad leaving him knowing that he'll be being raised alone with my mother, but I have to move out.

keep going....

Dude, if you love your little brother you need to get him out while you can. He's going to be completely fucked up if he ends up facing the same mind games you did.

JUST RAPE PEOPLE TILL THE GOVERNMENT GIVES YOU MONEY OP.

>she also did some weird fntil my early teens

tell me more.

Well until my early teens my mother had me shower with her, but mostly from 5-13 as far as I can remember. Since very early on she has talked to me about sex, even now she confides to me about her past experiences in a lot of detail. She walks around naked in the house frequently, and doesn't think it should be taboo. Whenever I would begin to get uncomfortable she would again harp on the educational and social taboo stuff. Anyway when we would shower she would hog all the hot water. I did get boners starting around 10. She would wash me too. She has a fear of germs too. I could go on...

>in bed all day on the computer while I serve her
Exactly why she'll explode in a fit of narcissistic rage if you tell her you're leaving, she's living the NEET dream by exploiting you.

go on

my dick's in my hand and i'm about to cum, don't stop now

Punch her in da fuckin mouff

Tell me how she would make you practice pleasing a woman on her...

please do

My mom used to have this game called hamses hamses, where she would massage my thighs and it would be very tickelish. So ticklish to the point where it would be torturous, when I would get a boner sometimes she would blow on my tummy which really tickled. This was when I was 6-10, and I do t remember much. I don't specifically rememeber any vaginal sex, but I recall a couple times on different occasions she would kneel on my leg with her pussy touching my leg like she was grinding. I could feel the prickliness of her bush stubble. That is another thing she has a thing about keeping her genital shaved and she has shaved mine before.

welcome to Sup Forums, where all males here have been abused by females and becoming a faggot or staying a virgin forever is the answer and first step, but seriously move out and take your brother with you. go to a psych and get all the evidence you need first, they have to report shit like this, do you think she could start doing the same to him? and if she threatens to stop that tell her you'll report her for child molestation!

Just leave. Who cares. If she’s that bad, let her die.

D...d...did she wash your penis?

>she has a thing about keeping her genital shaved
Perfectly normal and quite respectable
>and she has shaved mine before.
Somewhat less normal

So did you have to practice oral on her or did she show you her pussy?

has she ever spoken about having you circumcised?
has she ever punished you involving your genitals?

walk out and take your brother, npd's rarely follow through, its a manipulation tactic as they care little for anyone else but themselves, but if you're worried call the white coats on her.

you should write a note. NPD and BPD people are hell to deal with - my ex is one, and her kids have both gotten to where they refused to deal with her.

I'd leave her a letter saying that you have decided to move out on your own, and want to do your own thing. Say you will be in touch once you get settled, that you are safe, and that you love her.

Once you get settled, you can decide whether or not you want to get in touch with her. Personally, I recommend having at least a "christmas card" relationship with your parents. You send a card once a year so they know you are a live basically, and fill them in on some basics of what you are up to.

With BPD/NPD people you are going to have to enforce your boundaries, so be prepared to do that.

Your mom sounds like a batshit ex-girlfriend I had, right down to the NPD, BPD, and germophobia. She would threaten suicide all the time, stalked me for months even after we broke up and tried to get back into my life by befriending my sister. If your mom is anything like that, and she sounds like she is, get the fuck out of there and regret nothing. You can tell her where you are after you move out but don't say anything until you go so she doesn't try to pull some shit.

d...d...do you have autism

so since she was a germaphobe did she wash your dick really good for you :^)

Thankfully, no. I am uncircumised and she is totally irreligious. One of the things she harps on is how she against circumcision. I had phimosis until I was 14 and she would help me pull back the foreskin revealing what she called "the purple thing". During showers she would do this and it took a couple months to get the skin to come back without pain.

I want another story

Medfag here, currently doing psychiatry. Fuck PD patients. No cure for being a cunt

>ticklish to the point where it would be torturous
Because it is. Gargalesthesia is the word for that uncontrolled laughter/pain and is used as an 'enhanced interrogation technique'

Toxic femininity.

Thankfully. Yet interesting that the germaphobe angle hadn't overrode the irreligious angle.

Wank off on her pillow and leave

Brilliant retort, nice to know you are nothing more than a parrot who resorts to calling everything autistic

Maybe spend less time on the chans

at least she helped with the phimosis.

should have fucked that bitch a few times though

should he also make sure that they're way across town from one another for better time management?

kek I just saw that one on everlasting ylyl

I feel bad for them. many of them have young trauma that causes them to start disassociating in the first place. their black/white thinking fucks with them to no end. they can't maintain relationships for shit.

The self centeredness is admittedly REALLY offputting, and it is easy to write them off as cunts, but mostly they are just fucked up children inside.

with that said - you don't really want one in your life. My mom was one, so of course I dated them. fucking worst relationships. my sister is BPD, and the black white thinking is insane. every year is the same - she meets some new person who is just totally amazing, the best XYZ professor / boyfirned / teacher / mentor / whatever... then 6 months later that person is a demon / rapist / predator / etv.

Same shit. every year for like the last 10 years. I can barely deal with being around her anymore.

Totally man

Did she ever do anything sexually dominant, like try to control your masturbation or deny you orgasms?

someone has their dick out and is ready to go

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While she addicted to heroin from 8-12 she had a problem with always accidentally killing any new kitten we would get. She would get really mad when the peed or pooped under the bed and would have me torture them for her by doing things like putting them in cat carriers and jabbing them with a broom, or force feeding them pills for example. When the cats were dead I'd have to put them in the freezer then burry them in the back yard 6" deep. She would say she felt guilty everytime a
she accidentally slammed one on the toilet seat or something and she would adopt a new one that she would kill somehow again. Surprisingly she still admits to it but she tries to minimize it and she blames it all on the heroin.

thats fucked up OP

be grateful you are still alive lol. sorry your mom is so fucked up.

you should ask her if she was molested as a kid. of course most bpds lie too, so.. good luck with getting the truth.

I wish I had just fucked my mom a lot when I was in my teens. I had the chance and never did.

More sexual stuff please

Hey OP,

This.

Both of my "parents" were addicts, narcissists to the max. They stole from me, lied to me, beat me with baseball bats, fucked my brain inside out. The only difference was I believed that they were sorry, and forgave them many times. When I was 33 it just clicked, nothing is going to change, ever. So I pushed them out of my life.

Oddly enough, once I did so, THEY blocked ME and my bf on facebook, changed phone numbers, the lot, and I haven't heard from them since. They are spinning some bullshit story, because mutual friends we had glare at me like i'm the biggest piece of shit ever.

I'll give you some advice that my psychologist gave me, OP. You aren't responsible for your upbringing, it doesn't define you. You have the right to a stress free life, you have the right to be happy.

Good luck, get out and never look back. Even if she seems like she's changed. Junkies are manipulative fucks, don't let her walk all over you for most of your life like I did.

Also, get your brother out when you can. I'm autistic also, she will latch onto that and fuck him up more than he needs to be.

She wasn't controlling over my masturbation in the orgasm denial way, but when I was 12-15 she was really curious if I was masturbating and she still asks me about it occasionally. She has told me about when she discovered masturbation as a kid and how no one told her about orgasm and she thought she broke something when her pelvic floor muscles spasmed. I found out I watched porn around 13 but I started at 10. She was really curious if I was gay or not and she was trying to test me by having me look up certain kinds of porn. She would have me lay in bed with her all day with the computer setup so that she could lean on her side and type. She would browse porn sites and try to joke about what the people were doing or how ridiculous they looked. I would get boners and she would tell me that I could masturbate and she wouldn't look. I had to wear a condom everytime though so it wouldn't get on the bed but most of the time I couldn't cum because I felt weird and would lose my erection.

>and my bf
tits or gtfo

She has actually been very open with me and has made me listen to all of the stories about the handful of times she was raped and how her parents, mostly her dad, abused her.

Yeah look at my sexy tits

Just let her an hero. If you wanna be all about morals tell someone about the threats first.

>putting them in cat carriers and jabbing them with a broom, or force feeding them pills
>force feeding them pills
god, I hope you're not just memeing all this shit
is it like a thing amongst millennials in murica to fuck their moms?
I'm genuinely asking because I keep hearing about it

yeah, not surprised by this. Kids often stop developing properly in those situation. I mean the best you can do is get out, take care of yourself, and try not to carry too much resentment for her.

She only has a handful of emotional tools, and few if any of them are healthy for you. good luck. get into therapy down the road if you can.

again, I know this is probably not fair to you, but if you can, I'd send her a card every Christmas just saying "hi", letting her know you are alive and doing well. I think parents deserve that, no matter how fucked up they are. just my 2c.

>is it like a thing amongst millennials in murica to fuck their moms?
>implying I'm a milennial

I dunno. I just assumed it was Sup Forums degeneracy

You're 21.

Tell her your leaving as you walk out.

I remember now, she tells me that when I was 6-8 I would occasionally ask her what breastfeeding was like. And I recall she let me suck on her boobs laying on top of her chest while she layed on the bed. She didn't jerk me off or anything but I did get erect during it. This only happened 3 times as far as I can remember, and now she is also fixaed on continueing breast feeding now with my little brother that is 5. A worker at WIC gave her a link to a website when she could buy domperidone, a hormone that induces lactation. She used to pump a lot of milk after her pregnancy with my little brother and have me watch. She misses lactating now and is trying to get it back.

Seriously OP, call the Cops and social services, the stuff you descriped so far is definitly more than enough to get her certified nuts and perhaps even send off to live with the friendly men in white coats, but you are definitly going to get at least your brother taken away from her.

Well, shit's hard to prove.

>get her certified nuts and perhaps even send off to live with the friendly men in white coats

That doesn't happen. Who is going to pay for all that expensive hospitalization?

About the best you can hope for is his brother to get taken by CPS and then moved to some other foster family where older foster kids will rape his asshole.

Exactly

Get some counseling yourself as well. Stuff like you gone through always leave scars and you could be fucked up more then you realize.

Report to cps plox. Also if that fails try and leave a letter for your little brother. If not then try and get a family member to agree and give the guy correspondence if you think he's a little young (or retarded, as in literally developmentally delayed, no offence).

post her tits, I'll bet she'd let you take some photos right now

Just these stories alone are probably enough to get an investigation launched cause serious accusation of sexual abuse and caring for a mentally challenged minor isn't some minor issue which the cops are just going to let slip.