Im so depressed, I dont have the willpower and energy to fix my life. Im flunking community college...

Im so depressed, I dont have the willpower and energy to fix my life. Im flunking community college.Ive abandoned my friends. I spend all my days playing video games, masturbating, and eating fast food. Im 25, and dont know what to do. How is everyone doing? Where do i get the strength to fix my life?

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seriously though, it sucks. find something to make your life worthwhile, or go out with a bang

Its like I am sick of existence itself, I fear pain and the possibility of living in pain too much to commit suicide. Its not like life isnt worth it tho, i jist dont know how to stop being a lazy worthless fuck

Keep doing what you're doing pal. Clearly you're just being a self pitying bitch. sad

Enter a trade instead of college, it is much more satisfying.

Electrical, air conditioning repair, get your CDL and be a truck driver.

Do something about it.

Get a job. Volunteer. Lessen your school load until you can handle it. Find people with similar interests as you. Video games is a great community for that, assuming your personality isn't so completely grating that even 11 year olds hate you. Start exercising. Good for your physical and mental health. It's something that shows progress very quickly so it potentially gives you a morale boost. Or learn a new skill? Coding, a language, cooking, drawing, dance, photography. Whatever you can find amusement in and give you a release from your day to day life.

You don't get cured overnight, but if you put in just a little work it gets better. And when it doesn't/seems like it stalls that what your 11 year old video game bros come in. Get really close to them by sharing your workout progress pictures. Until you're both comfortable enough to see eachother wearing less and less clothes. Find some who live close to you. Maybe you drive over one day to kill some zombies. It gets late one night while you're gaming and he falls alseep in your lap. His tiny boy head on your crotch. You stroke his hair and feel your cock getting hard. He wakes up to the bulge in your pants and starts rubbing it through your jeans. Neither of you say a word, give eachother a quick glance of we're going to do this, and he pulls your rock hard weiner and starts sucking on it. He doesn't know what he's doing and, frankly, neither do you. But it feels sooo good. You cum in his mouth. You don't see eachother for a week then one day you see him online and you party up It's like nothing ever happened. He invites you over later that night, you smoke some weed to relax, and go over. You two joke around and then start rough housing. You pin him to the ground laughing and then something takes over you and you start kissing him. You whip out his pubeless little boy penis and start sucking it until he gets hard. You tell him you want him in your ass and he starts fucking you.

good grief, what a 180.

It started out as solid advice, but then went degen.

Jesus Christ, sounded like good advice until the middle

Without going into too much detail, school is the best place for me to move forward with a career, i dont know what trades Id be willing to learn

He lasts 10 seconds before he fills your tight little asshole. This starts to become a regular activity between you two. Days past. Weeks past. A month. One day you're over his house and he's riding you. His stamina is much better now. He knows what you like and you love it. But his parents come home early and find him grinding you face down, legs together, pushing your head against the hard wood floors. His father freaks out and starts chasing you into the front yard. You apologize, throwing up all over the place, but too much damage his been done. He's ready to fight you with a kitchen knife in his hand. You realize you're cornered so you wait until he charges after you, evade the strike, trip him, and he falls on the knife himself. Bleeding to death you tell him it's his fault for overrating. The mother has called the cops. You run into the house and knock her down. Insist she suck your dick. But you're an idiot who can't get through college and it doesn't cross your mind that she now has the decided advantage once she puts your dick in her mouth. She chews it off and you bleed to death to. 5 years later the now 16 year old boy commits suicide because of the mental damage you did to him. You're a fuck up who ruined 4 lives and 2 families all because you couldn't figure out what to do with your life as a 25 year old.

holy fuck are you me

look at yourself naked in the mirror and ask yourself if you're satisfied with who you are. If not slap yourself a cople of times. Like real hard. And then go study you useless fuck

Drop out of college. The fuck are you in there for anyways? Get a job, start making some money. Spend that money, or save it. Start doing drugs. Ruin your life, or build a career. Just get out of school and work. If you quit school and don't work, you'll completely lose self worth and probably end up killing yourself.

All you need is the will to work it out, where there is a will there is a will. I don't know what you personally want to do. Just be open minded. Magic mushrooms helped mw find my way, just one suggestion.

good lord dude, this some fucked up shit. Where u getting this from?

This is the great thing about being sociopath it is impossible to get depressed

You're probably thinking there's more to life than masturbating, playing video games, and eating fast food. Well I've got a secret for you pal, there isn't.

What's up with the repost, OP?

Because depression doesn't get fixed in a day

Nigga depression ain't even a real thing, it's just an excuse for faggots to get normies to feel bad for them
Stop being a faggot, OP.

I'm in the same boat OP except I'm not in college, dropped out of HS and I'm 26. You're not alone.

Only a few other people posted last night, i just wanted to see more responses

How do you know?

Ive tried magic mushrooms,and had a really bad intense trip, that was 3 years ago, probably shouldnt have done it alone. But once i sobered up, everything i saw seemed like my mind was just going crazy

i want to kill myself guys. its the only stress relief i can think of anymore

>How do you know?
Because practically everyone I've ever met "has depression". All the "symptoms" of depression are just normal human feelings. I thought I was depressed for a while, until I realized that I was just being retarded. Of course I wasn't big enough of a faggot to gloat a fake mental illness around, but I had myself convinced that it was real. Honestly, I'm pretty sure nearly no one enjoys life that much. Boredom and suicidal thoughts seem to just be a consequence of having a consciousness.
So yeah, depression is a meme

>I spend all my days playing video games, masturbating, and eating fast food.

OK, whoa, is there actually a problem here? Because that sounds like paradise to me.

I don't think you understand how brain chemistry works

A LOT of people (all of whom are infinitely smarter and more educated than you and have literally centuries of clinical experience to draw on) would disagree.

Ok even if it is real, using the word "suffer", for such an insignificant change in a person's brain is ridiculous. Let's not pretend that everyone loves life, and that these "depressed" kiddos have it much harder than anyone else.

Make a friend that will obligate you to go to the gym. Don't hesitate or think about it - do this blindly. It will make you energized and ready to do shit

I got diagnosed with ADD and started taking concerta. It's helped my motivation quite a bit. I find myself running errands and taking care of chores far more frequently than before, as well as taking steps to improve my quality of life.

It might be worth looking into.

I think you're conflating depression with the far more common circumstantial sadness. A common mistake.

join the millitary you get to visit some shitty country for free and make money

I doubt it

I was you. I was at the end. But i got into masonry work and felt tangable pride. Think of answering a landscaping, masony, or any general trades ad.

I doubt that your doubt is sufficiently justified.

A lot of bad advice here. I was in a similar situation. Two semesters of academic probation and I dropped out to work for a year. Made some money and worked on myself. It doesn't happen quick. Most of the time I wished I was dead so that I wouldn't have to keep trying because I really would rather live life doing fuck all, it's easier. Had severe anxiety, psychotic depression, and ADHD. Not sure if I really agree with the diagnosis cause it seems a little excessive/redundant. Now I'm back in university getting A's. Anyways, start hitting the gym, it'll make you feel better once you get into it. Even when you feel like absolute shit and don't want to even get up from your chair, do it. ITS NOT ABOUT MOTIVATION. ITS ABOUT DISCIPLINE. I just accepted that I might live the rest of my life without ever actually being motivated to do anything except jerk off/sleep/drugs and useless shit. Doesn't fucking matter because you can still do things even if you don't want to do them. Think you don't have enough willpower to do them? Tell yourself too bad and do it anyways. Yes, I know that doesn't really make sense because it takes willpower to force yourself to do something but its how I thought of it. If you're depressed you're probably not really going to enjoy doing things like video games / masturbating / fast food as much as if you weren't depressed. If you're not enjoying yourself then at least do something useful while you suffer so that someday you can maybe look back and thank yourself. Uninstall your video games, they're great for some people to relax or enjoy themselves but you seem addicted. Uninstall them now. Also cut down on the fast food. It takes more time to earn the money to buy it and then actually buy it than it does to buy and make food at home. Nutrition can affect you in weird ways. You spend so much time inside you're probably quite deficient on Vitamin D so start taking 2000UI per day for a few weeks, maybe Omega-3s too, also in high doses.

also cut out drugs, they won't help with depression long term. Get outside more, even if its just to walk around your block and come home. Talk to your doctor about how you feel and get meds if you need them and can afford them. Start with a low dose antidepressant like cipralex/lexapro and give it time.

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depression is the term used for when a humans brain does not produce the proper amount of dopamine or serotonin, for whatever reason (genetics, past drug use, etc.) I just came into this thread but u are definitely mistaking depression for general sad emotions

How so? "Circumstantial sadness"? Lmfao. Why is it that for thousands of years, religion had to make suicide forbidden, and had to promise a bearable afterlife, just in order to keep people going? Nearly no one actually enjoys life. Hence my reasoning that depression is a meme, and is irrelevant.

I don't get it, is depression supposed to be a "sad" feeling? I always thought that the idea of depression revolved around emptiness, and hatred of life, rather than sadness.

Depression id the medical term used when a human's brain does not produce the proper amount of the chemical that makes happiness even possible. Depression is the LACK of joy and happiness because the brain stops producing the chemicals dedicated to those feelings. U experience greater pain physically and emotionally then the average person, and the ability to experience fun, happiness, etc, is almost non existent. I was diagnosed with severe depression 2 years ago.

How does this make you feel more physical pain? Explain?

This world is not my home
I'm just passing through.
My treasures and my hopes
Are all beyond the blue.
Where many friends and kindred
Have gone on before
And I can't feel at home in this world anymore.

Over in Glory Land
There is no dying there.
The saints are shouting "Victory!"
And singing everywhere.
I hear the voice of them
That I have heard before
And I can't feel at home in this world anymore.

Dopamine and serotonin influence every single feeling u experience emotionally and physically, without proper production of these in the brain, some people cant even shower, brush their teeth, eat, sleep, etc, because they literally do not have the energy in their body for their brain to carry out even basic functions. Someone with diagnosed depression will feel more pain associated with their nerve endings and nerve signals to and from the brain because that's what happens when u lack chemicals that make u feel good.

Neat. Does depression also make people attention-whoring faggots, or are they like that by default?

Vanity of vanities.
Vanity of vanities.
All is vanity.

What does man gain by all the toil at which he toils under the sun? A generation goes and a generation comes but the earth remains forever.

The sun rises, and the sun goes down, and hastens to the place where it arose.

The wind blows to the south and goes around to the north; around and around goes the wind, and on its circuits the wind returns.

All streams run to the sea, but the sea is not full; to the place where the streams flow, there they flow again.

All things are full of weariness; a man cannot utter it; the eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear filled with hearing.

What has been is what will be, and what has been done is what will be done, and there is nothing new under the sun.

Is there a thing of which it is said, “See, this is new”? It has been already in the ages before us.

There is no remembrance of former things, nor will there be any remembrance of later things yet to be among those who come after.

get on adderall.

attention whores are attention whores, with or without depression. Some people like to SAY they have depression, in that case you're just being lied to.

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but seriously, if you're thinking of taking your life, don't. it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. you will be missed. keep fighting. if you haven't started fighting, fight.

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Stfu lmao

Wonderful things of folks are said
When they have passed away.
Roses adorn their narrow bed
Over the sleeping clay.

Give me the roses while I live,
Trying to cheer me on.
Useless are flowers that you give
After the soul is gone.

Kind words are useless when folks lie
Cold in a narrow bed.
Don't wait till death to speak kind words.
Now should the words be said.

Give me the roses while I live,
Trying to cheer me on.
Useless are flowers that you give
After the soul is gone.

Give me the roses while I live.
Don't wait until I die
To spread the roses over my grave,
To see as you pass it by.

Give me the roses while I live,
Trying to cheer me on.
Useless are flowers that you give
After the soul is gone.

Disregarding religion: your life is not your own. Your life is part of your family's. Your friends'. Everyone who knows you.

If someone can not even own their own life, which is the lowest level of possession available, then what CAN a person own in your opinion?

Im in a similar boat. All my friends either betrayed me or abandoned me, I basically have no friends now. Im 35 though. Ive mostly turned to drugs. I find kratom makes me happy, but i really need quite a bit of it. It gets me through my days though, but now its basically another addiction, so probably not the best long term solution, but its how I get by anyway

>how to stop being a lazy worthless fuck
cocaine, adderall, ritalin...

In this sense of ownership, as opposed to the multiple empty water bottles I own: What does a person need to own?

way to answer a question with another question, fucking faggot asshole.

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Wahala

Same user, we should committ suicide together, i won't fuck u up the ass or anything what?

Man unless you've got rockin' insurance and no addictive tendencies, just 2 or 3 visits to a therapist would help out way more.

damn, your story sounds all too real. I'm in a very similar situation, in my mid-20s except I managed to graduate from community college after fixing some initial bad grades and now looking for a job. but I still spend my days mostly playing games and eating ramen and shit. My biggest recommendation above all else would be doing noFap. It might sound silly if you're not familiar with it, but semen retention actually works. When I don't fap for a week my energy, motivation and overall vitality go through the roof and it's way easier to accomplish things.

Fapping and porn mess with your dopamine and make you not want to do anything. I'd also recommend working out, I recently got back into lifting 6 days a week after letting myself go for years and I'm feeling a lot better