I have a masturbation addiction that has ruined my life. Not that that alone explains why my life is fucked - a whole host of other problems are there. I use orgasms to numb the pains and ward off the depression that comes with being an unproductive wastrel. Throughout all of 2017 I have been handed on a platter multiple chances to pull myself out of the shit I'm in, but fucked up every single one. I haven't done an iota of productive work or earned a cent at all throughout the entire year. I spend no less than 14 hours a day asleep. My friends are all moving on with their lives, going to college and making something of themselves, and that has prompted me to cut contact with them "until I sort my shit out", which I keep putting off on doing - so I basically have 0 social contact right now.
Tomorrow is my 19th birthday, on which I will do one of two things:
>Stop fapping for a good three months until addiction clears, then limit it to maybe once or twice a week >Ditch a number of bad habits, most egregiously: ill-discipline regarding personal hygiene, talking too much, drinking too much, scrolling through social media fifty times a day for no good reason, procrastinating like a motherfucker >stop visiting Sup Forums's porn boards and porn sites, and very likely Sup Forums in general for some time >start reading the books on my reading list I compiled months ago but procrastinated on >start studying and preparing for college applications >make my gym schedule more regular, get decently fit and hopefully become a solid 7 in a few months >do my damnedest to get over my oneitis high school crush and be open to the possibility of a proper, serious new relationship
Or
>I'll hang myself, maybe on stream
Trips decide how my 19th birthday goes tomorrow. But tonight I'll have one last fap. Post whatever degeneracy on the knife-edge of Sup Forums legality that you'd have me get off to. I can fap to anything.
Does your masturbation addiction cause you to keep a cumrag handy at all times like mine.
Christopher Jones
If I don't last, its straight to Option B, that's the deal.
Nah, tissue box.
Carter Collins
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Austin Torres
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Joshua Thompson
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Easton Martinez
If you can't tolerate shadbase you're not a real ass man.
Oliver Allen
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Asher Lee
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Easton Garcia
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Noah Price
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Aaron Young
Take a rag for a spin, you'll thank me later
Gabriel Myers
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Xavier James
Its my last fap mate. Not sure what difference it makes.
Grayson Lopez
You're still a teenager and you're stressing about this shit? I'd say grow the fuck up and realise you have everything ahead of you, but you sound like a fuckwitt so suicide.
Gabriel Rivera
>you're young worry about it later lmao
Literally what I did all my life.
>you're a fuckwit this is true >so suicide reroll for trips
Justin Martin
Oh, so close.
Wyatt Fisher
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Jaxon Mitchell
Assholes are my biggest fetish. Funny, that.
Chase Cruz
Read between the Lines mate. Your a pervert masturbater like me. Now grab an old shirt and start yourself a nice little cum rag. There's no going back
Alexander Lee
will either stop or kms. I'd suggest the same to you but you seem happy, whereas I decidedly am not.
I'll miss sabrina dacos, whatever happens tomorrow.
Brayden Sanchez
congratulations, you're one of the few persons that made me flinch in a long time in here.
OP you can do it, suicide is boring as fuck
Jonathan Butler
thanks for the encouragement and the 10/10 loli arse. Both made my day.
Gabriel Harris
Hi OP, you have ADD. Get medicated with stimulants and/or get cognitnve behavioural therapy from a psychologist with experience in dealing with adult ADD. You're trapped in a cycle but you can get out and every day can get better.
Christian White
You need professional help.
Levi Adams
Elaborate?
Brody Flores
Fuck off with your cum t-shirt, faggot
Daniel Bailey
^^ he's right, you know. I am the same way with ADHD. I am 28 and I struggle with this as well.
Justin Harris
Your life is almost exactly my old life. Compulsive masturbation, procrastination, cutting communication are all avoidant behaviours. Your ADD starts a vicious cycle of not getting things done, anxiety and depression. It's very hard to get out cold turkey. Force yourself to see a doctor, that's where the change starts. Dex/aderal/ritalin may conpletely change your life in a matter of months and you'll look back at the person you were and wish you had known sooner. You're still young and have nothing to lose. Just do it.
Michael Moore
Let's say it may not be immediately possible for me to get a psych eval and medication. What can I do here and now?
Zachary Nguyen
Start small, workout or gain a hobby that pushes you to do something productive and gain a routine, once you have something that encourages you to get out of the house then try and add parts of your life that are missing back into it. I don't think trying to quit cold turkey and necking yourself if you can't do it is wise, you need something to live for basically. Take it day by day.
Good luck user.
Ryan Ward
Because you're stuck in a cycle and every aspect of your life is affected, you need to start addressing every aspect of your life in some way. Your sleep won't improve without your diet, exercise, health and mood being somewhat improved and vice versa, it's all interdependent. Don't let that thought overwhelm you. You have to start somewhere and every step you take, no matter how small will build an accumulative benefit. The trouble with our condition is that it can be easy to fall back down again before you've really gotten out of the hole. This causes you to reinforce the same bad habbits even though they're clearly painful and self-destructive. The truth is you already know all the common sense stuff that will actually make you a happy, healthy, productive human being, such as exercise, going to bed early and waking up at the same time every day, forcing yourself to maintain meaningful relationships, complete task, eat healthy etc. Stimulants will give your brain the chemical balance, focus and energyto do what you already know you should but you can get there without drugs - they're just like viagra, quick and potent.
I suggest you start doing a little more research on cognitive behavioural therapy and ADD as well as look at forums where people discuss these issues. You can start using these techniques without the aid of a psychologist for free and all you need is your computer and a little time and motivation.
That's how I started before seeing the doctor and it still made a big difference.
Luke Cooper
Also like said, start small, commit to small actions like exercise and healthy routine. You need to build momentum in terms of task achievement, confidence, self-esteem, energy etc.
Ryan Bell
Have started looking into the stuff. Odd that I never before suspected myself of ADD at all, because reading through the symptoms it all seems a bit too obvious now.
Carson Murphy
Haha, that's how I and many people felt too. Good luck, user, although it's a struggle, you may very well be on your way up and out.
Jonathan Gomez
Follow this chart.
Anthony Peterson
ADD is stigmatised like most mental illnesses and very poorly understood. Which country do you live in OP?
Noah Sanders
Here is the deal, and also why you will fail and in the end become an hero. You are at rock bottom and you give yourself 24 hours to get out of it? Get real man, fuck. If you were that kind of a wonderboy you wouldn't be here, so what makes you think you're going to be one tomorrow?
You are going to fail multiple times, you are going to relapse. You are going to masturbate before 3 months are up. Those are facts. But you have that priviledged fucktard millenial way of thinking that even this will be handled to you on a fucking silver platter, or else you're going to take revenge on the world by killing yourself for showing the world that it is too hard.
Do you seriously think this will be done without any effort? That at the first sight of actual work ahead you're just going to chose to die? Then just do it you moron, it just shows you are not prepared to do anything with your life, but still think that imagining it it will become real.
God damnet you make me angry.
Jacob Walker
>Stop fapping for a good three months until addiction clears, then limit it to maybe once or twice a week Its not a bad idea. I did this when I was 20, 6 years ago. Ever since then I've usually masturbated about once a week. I really do think it was a good call because when ever I masturbate in many consecutive days, I feel like everything else starts losing its meaning and value - then when I stay out of it longer, I feel (and actually get) much more productive.
Good luck.
Bentley Walker
Sounds like you also need some help, friend. Tell us more. :)
Austin Campbell
I mean, it feels like people are willing to give it one chance, and at the sligthest inconvience its better to just give up.
I am telling OP that he will fail until he gets to where he needs to be. It's a process and he should be prepared to fail some times, and then pull himself together.
Like he stated in a post that he will kill himself if he fails to not masturbate for 90 days. What kind of way of thinking is that?
Aiden Williams
>usimg a cumrag
>not using toilet paper rolls so when your 3ft tall trash can is overflowing with nothing but cum tissue at the end of the month you can stick your head in and jack off to the smell...
