Today I started the process which might or might not lead to my suicide.
Life has been shit for a while. Almost everything I try to do to improve things fails, often making things worse.
So. I made a spreadsheet to count points for the pros and cons of my life. The magic number to die is -100. If I reach -100 I will interpret it as a final sign that the world really does not want me to stay here, and I shall then give into this and leave this place.
I have filled in current events and given em points, and have listed possible events that might occur and how many points they are worth. I am currently at -15.
Every noticable good or bad thing that happens from this point on will make a difference.
Also, anyone rolling dubs can decide if I add or retract 10 points. 20 points plus or minus if trips. (if anyone even reads this post and wanna roll)
do you have something i could contact you privately on? im actually studying health and social care as one of my A levels so maybe i could help
Xavier Jones
Will watch video.
I actively look for good stuff also. Got +30 on the plus side. -45 for die. So, -15.
Gavin Allen
Thank you for your offer, the thing is that there are a few evens ahead which will make a major difference for me. Things have been shit so far, and I've dealt with that shit. But if all the possible near events fails, then I am out.
I believe there is very little help I can get from just talking. Just talking will most likely not affect the events that are ahead and the outcomes of these.
Only the people involved in these events can affect it.
But. Talking does not hurt either I guess. Which communication platform do you prefer? I can make an user account for it.
Jose Clark
snapchat ?? if you can
Ryan Rogers
Got one made, just had to find an available username.
rolling_life
Nicholas Taylor
Also, me coming here bitching about my shit is mainly get this off my chest.
Cameron Turner
added you, name bgins with M and ends in 01
Nicholas Sullivan
Added back!
Christopher Mitchell
god just rub one out youll be fine
Evan Sanders
Wubba lubba rub rub
Thomas Flores
Hey man, the thing with antidepressants is that they are so hit and miss that it's kind of a toss up which will work. One may completely change one person's life while another can make that same person 10x worse. I know I'm just another user but give it another shot. If I do get trips or dubs, add some points.
Ayden Garcia
+10
Michael Watson
roll
Ayden Martin
add that shit mayn
Carson Wilson
Katy says she'll make you cookies it you don't. Also plus 10
Camden Collins
>He will never get said cookies from qt katy minus 10
Michael Reyes
let's get this fucker to like +1000 so he has to suffer longer like the rest of us
Justin Flores
If you were serious you wouldn't be wasting your time. In fact, you've now wasted my time. Add that to your list.
Ian Clark
OP you made a semi-interesting thread. Add that to your faggot little +1 column.
Roll for +10
Jordan Martinez
Subtract
Andrew Price
You are welcome.
Rolling +10 for myself.
Daniel Sanders
Make it +20! Thanks user.
Liam Smith
roll just add 50
Jack Parker
and other +10, nice get.
Christopher Stewart
roll +10
Matthew Flores
-10 or trips -20
Hunter Wilson
+10 let's do this shit
Chase Watson
reroll
Juan Diaz
+10
Sebastian Adams
can we all try and share some positivity for this guy, some wholesome memes or a positive message please
Anthony Gray
rohl
Isaiah Watson
guess that's a +10
Lincoln Harris
rerollllllllllll
Camden Young
agreed
Thomas Powell
let's make this guy live forever
Dominic Davis
Don't let it get you down, op. +10
Aaron Fisher
OP I hope you're keeping separate columns for what Sup Forums rolls you on your spreadsheet.
+10
Tyler Bennett
Also, can we get a summary of your events and what they cost you
+10
Ayden Hughes
-20
Eli Anderson
As I mentioned in this post only the first roll applied. However, I'll add up the rest of the rolls as well as this thread actually got some attention.
Angel Baker
+10 if previous dubs didn't count
Leo Thompson
I added em dubs. So this thread is +40 so far if I counted correctly.
Christopher Murphy
You are looking at it the wrong way. If you are considering suicide its because you think you have nothing to lose. Why end it instead of doing something wild like moving far away or sell drugs or fuck prostitutes
Adam Thompson
I pretty much got this on my list if it comes to that point.
Sebastian Johnson
Those wasted trips. No roll, no game.
Sebastian Rodriguez
Followed up by wasted dubs.
Connor Thomas
rolling for +10
Colton Murphy
post pic of spread sheet
Adam Gonzalez
...
Jordan Reed
And then there is this. For the outcomes of upcoming events.