How I did everything wrong and learned to love life. Just a bit of background, I'm 24, a college dropout, and diagnosed with depression. Here's the story of how someone unexpected saved my life.
>be me >20 years old, attending Florida State >studying computer sciences >grades slipping, social life falling apart >finally talked to my brother who graduated the year before >he talked me into seeing a psychiatrist >diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and severe depression after about a month of tests >given multiple bottles of pills, took them for 2 weeks >no change, feeling worse >semester ends, failed every class, I didn't have the energy to leave bed most days >lose my scholarship because of bad GPA and because I stopped going to practice (it was a full ride, I was a super nerd in high school and on an athletic scholarship for diving) >thought that there was no point to living >had about 10k in the bank from years of saving money in high school and working part time at college >decided I would kill myself, but it would be a shame to not spend that last bit of money to have a bit of fun first >totally leave college, smash cell phone, get in my shitty car and just start driving >after a while I stop somewhere in bumfuck Tennessee or something >find a shitty little bar, obviously fake ID gets me inside >buy everyone a round of drinks then get loaded myself >get back in my car, too young to even book a room in a motel so I just fall asleep >wake up the next morning, fill up at gas station and grab a couple Advil and a coffee for the hangover >keep driving >stop that night in Indiana
Maybe I did it on purpose, maybe it just sort of happened, but I stopped and spent another night in my car at the Wal-Mart parking lot in the town I grew up in.
...to be continued...
Jason Ward
Does this get more interesting?
Wyatt Edwards
pls continue. i'm at this stage and just trying to sell my house so i can take the money and drive somewhere. maybe i save myself and find happiness? if not i can still off myself after blowing all that cash.
Daniel Kelly
bump for interest
Andrew Watson
I would like to see where this goes
Lucas Turner
bump
Kevin Myers
...Continued... >I remember all the great times I spent back here, all the friends >I thought I never wanted to come back here when I left for college, now there's no place I could think of that I'd rather be >decide that I may as well give life a try, I could always kill myself another time >stop at the library and print off a couple copies of my resume >holy shit I'll never get hired with this >apply for IT jobs around town and a couple places close by >actually get called in for an interview at one place >little TruGreen office, mostly staffed by people in their mid 40s >boss is a bit younger, 35 or so >said they'd had the ad for an office IT manager out for about 3 months >interview goes as well as it could with me being in jeans and a t-shirt (I didn't think to take any decent clothes with me) >within an hour get a call from the boas directly >"user I'd like to extend a tentative job offer. You'll be hourly for 3 months, and if you perform well we can hire you full time" >fuck it, let's get a job >usual IT shit, nothing hard, just aging people who have trouble keeping up with computers >decide that I'll actually do something with my shitty life >still feeling shitty all the time, but at least the regular 9-5 schedule got me into a routine >still haven't talked to parents/girlfriend/friends or anyone >3 months pass, get offered full time job, 45k with pretty decent benefits >it's not much, but the shabby shitshack I was renting only cost 400/month >benefits of living in a farm town, 45k is enough to get by comfortably >still depressed, the only thing that's changed is that my life is put together >another month passes without incident, until one day...
Robert Smith
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Ayden Green
well I read the first part so now I'm dedicated to the next chapter waiting on you OP
Jaxon Powell
keep going
Tyler Moore
>and drive somewhere.
No matter where you go... there you are!
Charles Harris
bump also IP is a fag
Connor Allen
i'm invested
Oliver Morales
wut?
Jack Perez
bump
Ryder Nelson
Bumpareno
Levi Watson
>inb4 walking the dinosaur
Daniel Collins
...continued... >get pulled over by cop >parents reported me missing, and reported my car stolen >after a ride to the station and a talk with the sheriff, I walked out >they said they'd be required to notify my parents where the vehicle is and to ask if they'd press charges (I guess it was technically "their" car) >got terrified of facing them, I hadn't seen or spoken to them in months >realized that I had failed in life, I had a shot at the Olympics in diving, I was a perfect student, and here I was living in a tiny shitshack of a house making less than half of what I should be making >vehicle being held at the impound lot >call a cab and get back home >look around at all the shitty furniture, the tiny TV, and decide that my life wasn't worth shit >decided that night I'd end it all, no use putting off suicide any more >walk to local "bar" which was just a restaurant near the middle of town that served drinks after 9pm >had turned 21 in February, so I didn't need to use a fake to get in >there was a rifle in my house, just next to my bed (I lived in a crappy area secluded in the middle of the woods, I wanted protection. It was some old .305 hunting rifle) >decide to go out with a bang
Jose Bell
y u not pre type this shit, amateur
Daniel Barnes
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Isaac Lewis
Spur of the moment, maybe? From the way this story goes, he's a whim driven type of person.
Cameron Evans
...final... >some of the people from the bar walk up and thank me, and one of them is my boss >he explains that he has marital problems, and he's a partial owner so he comes here nearly every night >spend 4 hours drinking and talking to a man I'd never said more than 10 words at a time to >at this point we were pretty hammered, and he asked me what someone like me was doing up here >spill the same story I'm telling now, leaving out all the things about suicide >maybe I let it slip, maybe he just knew what I was thinking of doing, but my boss said to me something that I'll remember forever >wasn't even very profound, probably wasn't even said in this exact phrasing, but he said to me "I'm gonna need about three fiddy for my next drink" >I couldn't believe that I had never noticed that my boss was an 8 story tall dinosaur from the paleozoic era >that fucking loch Ness monster got me again
Daniel Morales
..........damn OP.
Hecking bamboozled all of us again.
Owen Campbell
This is now a Natsuki thread
James Clark
god dammit
Kayden Brown
bastard
Thomas Price
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Jaxson Price
>everybody walk the dinosaur
Juan Morris
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Brayden Baker
I fucking called this bullshit
Luis Carter
No you didnt.
You called walking the dinosaur,while the story ended with the loch ness monster. Thats 2 different things mate.
Oliver Collins
Not dino, but I called the bamboozle
Owen Myers
Fair enough,ill give ya credit for predicting this flim flam.
I would have thought hed kept it going longer though? Didnt it seem like a premature bamboozle?
Elijah Powell
Became an hero or no?
Gabriel Garcia
Nah, he kept people here for ~40 minutes typing it out. A half hour of thread monitoring is pretty good, it wasn't pre-typed, either