feels thread
>be me, just turned 18
>struggled with depression for the past two years
>try to hang myself in the bathroom after my theater
>pussy out at the last second, no one finds out
>finally decide to seek help
>start seeing the university counseler
>helpsabit.jpg
>still feel depressed but it’s nice to have someone to talk to
>depression randomly escalates a few weeks later, I confess to counseler that I have started to research ways to effectively kill myself
>she files an emergency detention order, i am escorted to a mental hospital by campus police
>spend thanksgiving week there
>first visitation my mother hugs me and cries
>feel like shit until the hospital prescribes antidepressants
>feel better than I have in a while, still feel distant from people
>after I’m released I still continue to struggle with suicidal thoughts, don’t know why
>going to see a psychiatrist tomorrow
Feels thread
is it more like social anxiety depression, that you have pressure not to make your parents ashamed, or is it more like existential crisis like no matter what you do, anything will be pointless?
also, are you trying to kill yourself to escape life or punish yourself?
good on you for trying to get help
I have been ignoring my feelings and just getting on with it for the past 10 years and was sick of wanting to hurt myself/suicide, started talking to therapist in october, really careful about what I say in terms of harm, don't want to get zipped off to the cuckoo nest
I just smoke huge amounts of dank weed to cope, started to lay off a bit as therapist recommended and I remember why, I'm an angry miserable piece of shit
Thinking about talking to a doctor and seeing if they would recommend meds, therapist doesn't think so because of weed but obviously she benefits for me going to her longer than just getting pills so my paranoia says she just wants more money
>depression
>teenager
Yeah mate fuck off, until you’ve been fighting for your life in a jungle don’t fucking tell me about depression, when I was 18 I was in nam fighting japs.
also, when you tried to hang yourself, how far did you go? did you have the noose around your neck?
did you realize that it would be a bummer for someone to clean you up from there?
Shut the fuck up you moron.
>nam
>fighting Japs
Yeah okay 15 year old cuck
>waaahhh wahhhhh i had it worse so no one else can be depressed
You are the problem with America, your why sjw and feminist are a reality now, I miss 1969 what a good fucking year it was.
This happened to me yesterday. I made a post about it.
See and and then cry to someone who cares.
That's part of the proble, life these days is so damn easy that even the smallest things can cripple person.
it’s a mix of the former and the latter, pretty much a constant feeling that I was born I complete waste and that nothing I will ever do can fix that
>you can't be depressed unless you've seen combat
I fucking hate ex-military retards that think the world revolves around them because they were stupid enough to sign their lives away for a "cause" that doesn't exist.
SeeYou “depressed” fags need to fucking grow a pair, if you got depression in nam you would be fucking laughed at.
Stop pretending like you've ever seen combat you teenage dipshit.
and when’s I attempted to hang myself, I got to the point where I could feel the noose (my belt) seriously tightening around my neck. I dropped to the floor before I could do any real damage for some reason
He's a CoD 4 Veteran
Trips of truth check'd
>”stop pretending you’ve ever seen combat”
I watched my 2 friends get blown up by a mine, I’m not saying depression isn’t real but fucking hell you guys make it out like if you stub your toe your whole life is ruined.
See
>but fucking hell you guys make it out like if you stub your toe your whole life is ruined.
There's nothing like that in this thread. Stop acting like you're above anyone else who feels like shit because you've had it worse. There are people who have had it worse than you, by your logic that means you should just shut the fuck up and stop whining. Grow up you piece of shit.
get the fuck over it. life now, especially in the West, is extremely fucking easy
>can't even greentext
Yeah sure you have, underage faglord.
Live with crippling depression and tell me how easy life is, faggot.
'k, so you got a will to live, but there's something fucked in your brains.
im on your side, 100%. OP is a whiny bitch
>btw sorry that happened
Quit samefagging.
no you didnt you fucking loser
Join the club buddy.
pretty much. either that or I’m secretly afraid of death
>I watched my 2 friends get blown up by a mine
Yeah, and then all three of you bitched about hackers and claimed you fucked everyone's mother.
I get people have had it worse but I doubt people have had it as bad as us vets, like I said my 2 buddies got blown up by a land mine, I can’t hear in my right ear because of that incident yet even though I am reminded of it everyday I don’t let it bother me, you fags on the other hand cry when someone calls you a bad name or when a girl tells you to fuck off, as I said before.
>grow a fucking pair.
>you fags on the other hand cry when someone calls you a bad name or when a girl tells you to fuck off
Again, nothing like that in this thread. Nice strawman though. If you actually did lose friends in Nam, which I doubt, I'm sure they're glad to be shot of you.
>nobody can possibly have it as bad as vets
Fucking jarheads think the world revolves around them. I wish you'd eaten a mine too you fucking disgrace
Totally same fagging.
>"yeah fuck you old man for doing something I never had the balls to"
Unironically fucking neck yourself you piece of chickenshit
kys
Aww, did I touch a nerve, slave-drone jarhead? Go get yourself killed in America's next pointless war, no one will miss you.
Nice rebuttal there, faggot.
>nothing like that in this thread
Yet op is literally complaing about nothing.
OP is complaining about struggling with depression you fucking idiot.
This, you should honestly kys.
youre so disrespectful, and catering to OP, who is sad about literally nothing
>doesn't even know how to respond to someone properly
Underage b&
>wah wah disrespectful wah
Nobody gives a shit.
SAM-e helped me out a lot
There doesn't have to be a cause for clinical depression you fucking dipshit
OP is complaining about something worse than you've ever experienced u selfish cunt
youre the fucking idiot because he has nothing to be depressed about
Nah m8, he saw some buddies die in CoD. That shit changes a man.
>I don't understand depression: the post
kek
There are people who are filthy rich and struggle with depression. You're fucking retarded.
>struggling with depression
Grow up mate, op is a teen and what do teenagers do? They complain and whine, and it’s just that in this day and age people are become a lot more softer, seriously if I had said I had “depression” in Vietnam I would have been mocked and laughed at, get the fuck over it.
ITT underage faggots bait retards
>teenagers can't have depression
Like I said: jarheads think the world revolves around them.
>something worse than we've ever experienced
being sad about nothing?
no loss of family/friend, no addiction, no PTSD?
sad about nothing and we should pity him?
>I had said I had “depression” in Vietnam I would have been mocked and laughed at
>mental illness was poorly understood and mocked back in my day, AND IT WAS BETTER THAT WAY
I unironically hope you die soon.
>fell for the happy pills jew
SSRI's do more harm than good in most situations, get your ass off them sooner for the better. Try CBD oil or something, much better for you.
>I still don't understand depression: the post
Update ?
>worse than you’ve ever experienced
I saw people dead and burned alive, I saw 2 of my buddies legs get blown off and then flung into a river, I saw a woman throw her baby in a river when we told her that she couldn’t fit her pig on the boat.
Don’t come to me with that bullshit depression.
>I’m a pussy:the post
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That's hilarious and I feel no pity for you. You should probably just kill yourself and get over it because someone somewhere has it worse and that means your issues are totally invalidated.
ITT: whiny betas suck each other off
Lmao your funny.
Thank you for underlining how poorly you understand depression. You might want to consider suicide.
Lmao you have no argument.
you can hear fine and that didnt happen. nobody here believes you you autist
>edgy
You can stop roleplaying anytime. Everyone is just laughing at you.
>I'm too retarded to understand when my argument is being sarcastically adopted in order to underline how goddamn stupid and flimsy it is
hypocritical retard
Nah I have no reason to commit suicide because I’m a logical guy who realised that when a girl doesn’t like you it doesn’t mean the world is gonna end, the sooner teens learn that shit the quicker we can advance as one.
Get the fuck over it OP, you're not in some hugbox where we're just gonna throw pity at you if you ask for it, go back to bumblr.
Nobody gives a shit about you, acknowledge that, cry me a river and build a bridge to get the fuck over it.
Don't use words you don't understand, Timmy. Christmas break is almost over, isn't it past your bedtime?
i can hear their laughter... i think im depressed now
>who realised that when a girl doesn’t like you it doesn’t mean the world is gonna end
What's with this strawman you keep throwing around?
whining about disrespect is a million times more pathetic than having a mental illness for a long time and opening up to strangers about it
Yeah? Then escape by killing yourself.
>please stop mocking me I’m soooo depressed.
Just head of to hell with your bullshit teammates in cod4
Are you genuinely autistic? Does it come naturally or do you have to try?
>darn he said I have no argument I’m depressed now :(
you were advocating for depression awareness and therefore trying to prevent suicide, yet you told that user that he should kill himself
think a bit, hypocritical retard
You're a broken record. Go back to playing CoD so you can have more material to spew online about being a vet.
>I was in Nam killing Japs
Lmao
kek
>pls stop mocking me I’m soooooo sooo depressed :(((
...
Timmy, I've already told you that you should refrain from using words until you understand their meaning.
>darn you said something that could remotely hurt my feelings I’m depressed now :(
Like I said: Broken record. I can almost hear your choked giggles at your own "cleverness".
If someone accusing you of a strawman hurts your feelings I don't even know what to say to you.
>I can’t go and play any games cuz I’m depressed give me simpathy pls.
(You)
youre holding one philosophy while acting on another. are you that dense?
Timmy you're still trying to use words of which you have no knowledge. You're going to give yourself a headache again.