Anyone else hurtin inside real bad? Wanna talk about it or sumthing

Anyone else hurtin inside real bad? Wanna talk about it or sumthing

yes i hurt inside. for a long time now

but talkng abut it is pointless. no one really cares. They just want to talk about themselves.

you seem cool op. dont change for nobody.
ascdf

I'm not, and I feel bad for anyone who is because I've been there but I gotta know, got a name on her? I love that face

I'd post may mays but this is a new phone so I don't got much except porns. Pre sure I'm being monitored for sum reason but not sure if it's a person or other. Anyways I'm thinking bout converting to catholicism because I like how they do their shit

Aw why user? If u not in legal trouble and ur in good health u got so much to look forward too. For reaal let's talk dude

Ye. Push too deep. Inside hurt. Hurt poop. So hurt. Next time not use such long.

Sorry user I don't maybe try reverse image?. I'm too lazy n lit rn tbh trying not to die kek. But for real I've really abused my heart due to past drug use. Really regretting the 40mg of Adderall I ate today

This isnt tumblr you faggot. Feelings have no place here

Found her, Anya Olsen, damn if she can't help the hurt I don't know what can OP

Ya ill probs just stick with a finger up bum while she blows me strap on probs wouldn't be my jam. The fact that she brought it up is weird tho. Kinda like submitting to her. Don't show that side to other girls it weird

Yeah. Hurting inside is literally my only feeling all the time. It's always around and if I let it take over, it becomes my life. I start to drop hope of even being alive. I was supposed to create but I can't get into because I might as well just get the hell out of here. But I can't because that's too much. But I really just should. So I'm caught in limbo. This that the other thing. Job sucks. Life is dumb. Hate it all. I can do whatever I want but I actually can't because my heart won't let me. It's not cool to tell someone they can be whatever they want if they can't do it. They try, the want to, they NEED to, but they just can't. They need to step in line. I don't know why we do but certains need to. It sucks but it's not cool, it's not something to get mad at us about. We just want to make you happy. If I can make you happy I've done my job, but seriously FUCK YOU. How dare you try and make me do these things, but I have to make you happy. I know you'd hate me wanting to do this thing. That will ruin my life, that will break me. I won't be as rich as you want, I won't be as married as you want, I won't be okay, but at least I tried. Your way is the quickest way to make me slit the throat you are trying so hard to protect.

So what the hell am I supposed to do?

dam

KYS

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Too much Adderall to stimmed this shot is like garbage speed without the sexual part almost no point. U don't eat it strains ur heart. Hard to sleep. Doesn't do anything but give u intense focus and now I just lose track of time while on my phone and do nothing else

Im a little drunk so bear with me a little.

I have hated life and wanted to kill myself since i was 6. yes 6. Parents sent me through counseling when i was young because they thought i was gonna be a school shooter of something lol. Actually forgot about that until about 3 months ago haha.
Nothing makes me happy. I have a house full of guitars drums basses banjos. I have to guilt myself into picking them up because i lack even the slightest amount of motivation to do literally anything.
I just work. Work. Work. I hate/love my job. I realize i work 40% more than the average male in the US just because i hate being home. If im at work at least im not at home killing time. and im getting paid, know what i mean lol kidding.
Ended up falling in love with a girl i met off craigslist casual encounters for fucks sake. She hasnt talked to me in 6 months and it still hurts like it was yesterday.
Im too pussy to kill myself, so i just pray i die in a car accident soon.
currently drinking alone in a cold house making lamb stew that i already fucked up.

Woah I can relate to a couple things here. Sounds like overall you got a good life; you just are lonely user. Add suggested friends on fb that are women and start convos with them but keep it brief and I think you'll find that is 100x better than CL

i dont do facebook. and trust me. i learned my lesson about craigslist.

it full of broken people looking for other broken people

yeah getting pretty close. Appreciate the encouragement from that side. Now something I get often outside of my mind, but it helps make the decision y'know?

Seems to me like you could use counseling or some form of motivation. You have so much potential. Like shut dude hire a trainer go workout get jacked. It's not hard to find something that makes you happy you just need to search a bit. Try harder.

Pic is me flirting on fb. She posted it on her wall I got 43 likes or sumthing.

Not hurting but figured what life was all about along time ago. It's repitive and when you try to change it, it doesn't work out. People want you to fail to make them feel better about themselves. I work in a fast food job. I finally got the balls to ask this girl out. She said she'll pass. That was my chance to change something but I'm back to where I started. People work jobs that they hate so they can pay the bills. We all die in the end and we'll all be forgotten. I'm not suicidal. Just waiting for death. Whatever happens, happens. I'm just riding the ride until it ends no matter how bland it may be.

Find a new job? Kek anything is upgrade from fast food. If u r older than 18 u got no excuse unless ur in school.

Can't. No one but fast food is hiring. I looked. I need to get back into school so I can better life but even if I do that, it'll still be bland.

I'm just lonely but I hate being around people. I have a hard time finding what most people talk about interesting or funny. The only time I'm happy is when I'm high but my dealer quit selling and I don't talk to anyone. Been drinking a lot but that just makes me more depressed. Can't hold a job because I get massively irritated and anxious just being around people, let alone waking up early and doing a shit job. I'm 24 and have no idea if I'm ever going to be able to cope with life.

I'm just gonna keep posting till this dies. Lately I've been getting kinda sick with the usual porn. Don't really feel like anything in particular. Cuck, interracial, bi etc is getting old and not getting me off as fast. Im not sure if I just need sex or a new disgusting kink to wank to. Something I shouldn't fap to but that isn't scat or cartoon bs. Not sure wat to do

Nothing changes. This is how I always feel like. Temporarily enjoyment then just a wall further blocking that happiness.

Try out storage locker facilities or indeed cause u obvs aren't looking and work on ur self to increase odds of being hired ie appearance

U are giving up to easy. I used to do that and it's literally destroyed my life in ways you can't imagine. Put in a bit more effort user and you'll get back what u put in

Well, let's see. Thanks.

I've tried. No matter how much effort, life is going to fuck you over. College is a scam. People come out of college without being able to find a job and thousands of dollars in debt.

Then spend learning from other people mistakes and do things ya own way dude

Kinda tired of people telling me to do things like fall in love and travel. None of it seems appealing but the pressure to do them hurts. Complaining about nothing I guess.

What’s on your mind op believe it or not we are here for you and it’s the weirdest group of people but some how we band together. Many anons got me through my toughest darkest days I’m here many others are if you really need us.

Yea
I really wanna be dead
But i got a baby hes my lifeline just cant do it to him I love him so much

That's what I'm currently doing.

Your doing this too

Don’t ever quite love the fuck out of that beautiful baby raise him right raise him strong don’t ever take a day for granted I lost a little one to miscarriage this year and it still hurts. So remember how lucky you are. The other problems can all be solved

:)

ravioli

my girlfriend of over a year broke up with me yesterday at new years because I didn't want to got to a party that was like 30+ kilometers away

she swore at me and left saying that all the female friends i was with were whores etc


i don't know what the fuck to do because she isn't usually psycho like that but now we've broken up

Nah ik what he means. No one wants to truely listen to what hes saying. That's how u feel. Every one else's problems are always more important or they undermine my own. I just want someone to truly listen

I already have an estranged kid and one miscarriage so this kid is everything to me. When im feeling suicidal he is such a larakin he cheers me up, brings me back.

She cares u just need to make more of an effort like meet her halfway. If you can't do that you should part ways

Is this op? Look I went through the lose of a job situation look at it as a forced realignment. It’s not reason to kill yourself. It’s a chance to reinvent youeself. You can move change jobs get new clothes work on sled confidence. It isn’t all easy but it is good. It suxks at first but it sometimes is for the best.

My woman left me a month ago, apparently her family let into her today because "she didn't have a kiss at midnight and it's her fault" finding that out was kinda bitter sweet

i envy this. I dont mean this in a negative way at all.

You are truly blessed. never forget that dude. Things will work out. Think about when you get to see him graduate highschool.

This is true
Cold hard truth
No one cares. A therapist will pretend if you pay him. Thats the best there is

$40 for half an hour at the nearest rub & tug.

If she doesn't mind you groping her arse as she's jerking you off, she might drop her knickers for another 20.

Thanks man I hope you find something good in your life too *hug* no homo im just drunk

Stay strong user you have what I want and I miss mine so much. Life sucks but isn’t the sight of and raising of that child so beautiful isn’t it everything. It’s literally apart of you. You passed your very specific genome onto another to create human life. It’s as close to( if you believe in a god) god as you can get to create life to be a creator to be loving and selfless and kind. It’s amazing and I’m happy for you. It’s 2018 a new year make it about that beautiful child of yours and what you can do to make life for him and you so amazing

impossible to give you actually good advice since none of us actually know you or your ex-gf. I will say this though, people tend to get mad and lash out at events when that event was simply the last straw and there was something more deep seated bothering them. Perhaps she left you over a party or perhaps there was an older issue never resolved.

duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuude i wish i have a house full of guitar drums and basses, god dammit all i have is a stupid mexican strat and a tambourine

Wrong. We are listening. I genuinely care. And not all therapists are bad. So don’t buy into that crap. People care. We do don’t forget that someone out there does care

I would but I hear that the people who own them put cameras in there sometimes to blackmail people. Maybe I'm being irrational. Thanks for the idea user. What's the best way to locate one?

God hates me

dont talk shit about a mexican strat, they are great!

i just prefer peavey

God helps those who help themselves user. Literally live by that bc it's saved my ass before

Correction: very few care. Vast majority like %99.9 don't give a shit and wouldn't piss on you if you were on fire. This is the world we live in, deal with it.

Is what it is doggie. All you can do is focus on urself don't worry what other people are doing

Wrong so very wrong. Idk what your beliefs are but god doesn’t hate you. It’s so hard and long to explain but the more stubborn and strong willed you are the bigger wake up call you need. The more you fight it the more pain you bring your self. It’s like digging your own hole. Rely on yourself and you realize your own body weight is sinking you you need a life saver or life vest. Something that floats. Hard to explain but god doesn’t hate you remember that he is waiting you just have to answer the call or open your eyes fully and commit. Fully sacrificing the old you for a better new you. Just depends how bad you want it user. Not here to preach just my understanding

Yeah for some. Not me, i have a curse or something you wouldn't believe the amount of incredible bad luck i get.

>kissless virgin
>cute girl
>liked her for a while
>never liked me
>never will
>play vidya together
>tells me about her boy problems
>wonder in my head why tf i do this to myself
>listen and give best advice I can every time
>repeat
>cant get her out of my head
>make time for no other girl but her
>i don't think she even realises how much I care for her
>i feel like a creep
Get out of my head Get out of my head Get out of my head Get out of my head Get out of my head Get out of my head

>People work jobs that they hate so they can pay the bills. We all die in the end and we'll all be forgotten.

dude thats not even the full picture. like you are just touching the surface of suffering on a normal human life, life is way more cruel than that, but good start

See following post re curse

Came to Sup Forums just for this thread. I'm glad someone made it, and I didn't end up disappointed. I'm sick of how the world works. Every passing year I'm rapidly losing faith in it. It makes me feel that it was a mistake being me, and that there are people out there such as myself who just shouldn't be themselves, based on the way society has/is formed. But no, people will just tell you to fix yourselves because they already have the things they have, and they will never see things the way you do. Through your eyes. They will never know what you feel, how much it angers you, and how much you want to just erase everything becoming of you.

So thank you, OP. From the bottom of my heart and soul, thank you, for making this thread, to allow me to express all of me .

Great story. Guess what I’ll be the .01% and you know what those odds are enough to inspire hope and caring and save someone’s life then I’ll fucking take it because it’s worth it. Anons worth it. And I don’t care about what others would do bc it’s selfish. I care about user because he needs me like I needed y’all at one point. Never been let down. Won’t let him be let down tonight either. Be syndical if you want or just be part of the solution. Be the change you want to see. There is never a right time for the wrong thing. And never a wrong time to do the right thing.

i know it hurts.

and i know you know exactly what you have to do.

but dude, you got to distance yourself from that situation. You know it too.

Ex from 4 years ago becomes friend again. We hang out quite a lot, ice skating, dinners, shopping and shit. she's fun to be around.
2 months in I catch feels, tell her. She says it's not a good idea.
Ok no problem was just seeing where it could go. She fucks strangers almost everytime we go get drunk. New year's comes along and she's making out with my friend at midnight (bitch what're you doing?).
Find a really hot girl and make out with her. Ex gets mad and ignored me.

Women are a fucking mystery.

I can’t make you answer the call blame god if you want but you Have the free will to accept god and to live your life however you want so by all means do what you want. Just don’t blame god for your decision you used your free will for if you are gonna ignore him

Maybe u be putting some bad out into the world somehow or have a flaw u haven't worked to fix

Ur being beta. What do u have to lose from trying to kiss that slut user? Just do it it's that easy. If she don't want it you'll know and a kiss hardly means anything

Well yeah you're the tiny minority. Great job. Doesn't help me in any way tho... but thanks anyway.

not a single (you) :-(

Fuck god
I wanted him in my life he sent me tragedy after tragedy and brought me financialy and emotionaly to my knees. Sick fuck played with me like a child playing with a bug. Fuck him and his sick ways.

Don’t do it for recognition just do it out of human kindness. Maybe it doesn’t help you but maybe seeing it will inspire you weather you realize it or not. I don’t do it for any reason other than why I was put here which is to be real, genuine, and to love. Hope you feel better if you need to talk let me know.

Have a (you) user *hug* no homo

OK then why don't you motivate urself and go find a real person to talk to? You're just being a bitch. I'd gladly trade lives with you cause I'd know exactly what to do to make my shit better if I had a chance which I don't bc I'm about to go to the pen in less than 2 months.

Ive confessed my feelings before. Went about as awkward as you'd expect. Her and all my friends go to the same campus, so trying anything would spread drama like wildfire.

The sadness is all I can grasp, I've lost sight of all other emotions. Nothing feels real and my eyes are shattered by these tears. I am the pain.

I keep telling myself that and always end up gravitating back. I hate this part of me.

That’s fair. Be angry be mad yell all you want curse all you want. But find anyone else who will take you and love you after you talk like that. He will he will still accept and love and forgive you. You think life should be easy. It shouldn’t. It would be so boring if it was. Imagine how dull it would be if you rode a roller coaster that just went up that slow climb and never dropped. Shit it sucks it hurts. It’s hard. You will grow you will be stronger you will find better if you choose to fight and build on what you still have

Why not just do what makes you happy, first, and whatever it coincides with is what you stick to for religion or spiritualism?

It sounds a lot more selfish than it is. If you're not in the best place you can be, you're not doing anyone any favors by associating with certain titles and ideologies, or belief systems, just to have other people think better of you.

>inb4 you don't care what other people think, you're posting on Sup Forums

I need help and need to talk, obviously
But not a single person gives a shit unless I pay them so I keep it to myself.
Even the suicide lines are just bullshit dickheads who probably just do it to put it on their resume.
My kid makes me happy and I drink every night to pass the days, thats it. One day i will jump off the gap and end it.

Ur literally a kissless virgin for a reason. Make a move. If it fails drop her and look for another girl to spend time with. Either she'll comeback and be down to give u sexy time or she won't. Why does she chill with you? Ppl are friends for a reason user figure out what she's getting g out of being friends with u and you'll have the key

Thanks. Good luck in pen

thanks Sup Forumsro

dude it isnt the most elegant situation to end it.
but either go in 100% tell her its either you guys are together or you guys are no longer friends.

i mean are you really friends? honestly? think about it.
you are just hoping for a relationship, thats not what being a friend is.

Ive been there dude.

there is no middle ground

do it right now

right the fuck now.

you will thank me in 3 months, maybe hate me for a few days.

but you will be far better off.

good luck

Im scared he will do something worse if i prayed again for forgiveness
He doesn't want me man, there is a doctrine of predestination i know my place

I don't care what people think of me kek I'm not 12. I just appreciate what I'm reading about the religion and wishing I was brought up that way. I would like to be baptised before I die. I enjoy religion and catholicism sounds like a good fit

Remember this if you can. If you remember nothing else in this lifetime. When you claimed that no one cared an user named Adam. A man who lost everything this last year to include his dream of a beautiful baby who was in what he believed was his bride to be’s stomach reached out and was there genuinely there. If you need me more then this give me a kik or something to reach you and I’ll be here. Who gives a fuck about everyone who wasn’t. Someone was. You weren’t alone I was there. I still am. I will continue to be. So user. Despite the pin depression and the disbelief in good humans. You aren’t alone you aren’t gonna end it bc someone here. Your son needs you. And I need you there for your son.

Probs gonna get rekt webm style cause the amount of people who don't like me who r in there. Although I've finally realized that I've been treating people around me like shit and I've brought a lot of shit on myself. It took me awhile to get to this point.

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Thanks bro. I don't open up easily im just drunk tonight

Maybe learn some self defense and get fit

Wrong. Predestination is the invention of the scared and unknowning. That limits god to time and space. Which makes no sense for someone we believe created time and space. You have free will. I promise you that. If you pray to god he will hear you. You may not hear him right away but you will hear him. My method of praying is I pray to him about him I praise him. Then I pray about others then I pray about me. And I mean all genuinely. I don’t make it all about me but I don’t pretend I don’t have needs and I’m not human. But I remain realistic. Not boo wooo I explain the thanks and the complaints. And my worries. So if you want pray just speak to him doesn’t have to be all official and crazy. Just explain your pain. And know I’ll be praying for you too user so god will hear about you twice tonight if you join me

I have kik If you need to stay In touch. Screen shot my last message if you need to as a reminder out there someone cares. Someone will pray for you and there is hope faith and love out there in this world.

I'm literaly facked I've pissed off too many people being a retard. if they don't put me in pc I'm fucked. I deserve a lot of bad but Im hoping to avoid being paralyzed or ded. Anything else is on the table I fully accept

I don't have kik

Are you adam or am I speaking to 2 people?

Make one u lazy faggot an talk to user maybe youll gain something from it. Put in effort. I had this girl I met on omegle as a friend for 2+ years

Well doesn't sound good user still a good idea to learn a self defense style with a quick learning time like krav maga. Can be the difference between an ass kicking and ending up in a wheelchair

Yes that is me