How do you guys deal with having dark secrets?

How do you guys deal with having dark secrets?
I've done some really fucked up, really despicable things in the past and it tears me apart. It drives me crazy knowing that if I told anybody, even my parents, they would think I'm terrible and disgusting. I feel bad for having done these things, and the weight up the guilt, and the burden of secrecy is so heavy. I can never tell anyone, and I have such a hard time dealing with that. It makes me feel sick at my stomach sometimes. I want to be a good person, but it weighs me down. How do you do it?

Go see a therapist, they're paid to listen and to keep secrets

smoke weed

Forgive yourself for it. If you truly regret it at least. You'll live with the memory, but you don't need to beat yourself up over it.

Tell us OP

Yah bruh, I'am schizophrenic and I am haunted by my past like a nightmares, i go to Highschool and some second grade bitches makes fun of me, they're smiling everyday, even they are not in the bus i hear their laughing, one day I will kill this bitches and rip them apart like a fucking chiken nugget

Did you fuck a rainbow dash plushie

nice shitpost

Masturbate over the memories while laughing like a spastic

Just let life move on.
Used to have pedophiliac imaginations.
Decided to quit that shit, got in contact with lotsa kids, the pedophilia got replaced with an innocent love for kids.
I'm not getting any thoughts around em or when hugging or petting kids, and I ain't gonna let my former Tor collections I deleted years ago stigmatize me as an actual pedo.
Tried fucking a sheep once. Never tried again, never talked about it, never looked back. I simply led it fade into the past and didn't let those things become a part of me.
Had lotsa dudes getting homoerotic at me. Never let them get me.

You forget what you refuse.

what happened?

Drugs

Moore bad stuff

You're welcome bruh, I'm here only to spread autism

Get over yourself. WaaWaaWaa...I'm so bad. Everyone has done more bad shit than you have, you just are being a pussy about it

i can imagine how fucked up that could be for some people

>be me, 17
>a few weeks before my birthday
>15 year old guy friend introduces me to a girl he knows
>he didn't tell me her age
>she's attractive
>we hit it off and start texting
>she tells me that she's actually 12
>holyshit.jpg
>we continue texting for a while
>I tell her that I won't have sex with her because of her age
>we never hang out again
>run into her a couple months later at a concert
>I'm 18 now
>we kiss
>never talk again
How the fuck do I tell somebody that I knowingly kissed a 12 year old when I was 18? I feel so gross and guilty. This was years ago. I'm in my 20s now.

Also, after this experience but around this same time period, I would knowingly engage in dirty chat with 12-16 year olds on Omegle. I never exchanged nudes or had sex with them. It was just chatting, but I feel disgusting. I don't do it anymore, but the fact that I did at one point makes me feel sick at my stomach. If anybody knew that I was doing that in my free time, when I was alone, they would never look at me the same way again. I feel like a monster.

I've never committed a crime, or hurt anybody in real life, and I try to be a good person, but it makes me wonder. If you're not a good person im your head, when you're alone with your thoughts, are you really good?

Come to the realization that you don't have to tell people fuck all about your past. Worked for me.

What went wrong with the sheep dude?

Let go and accept it.
Being good or bad doesn't fucking matter. Live the way you want to and stop caring about the past. It's important to remember so you don't fuck up and feel like that again but that's about it.

Oooh you worry too much OP we're all kind of fucked up in the head at least you're aware of it so just don't do anything illegal or stupid

If that's the worst you've done, and you've quit now, you're in the clear. You never actually touched a kid. Just forgive yourself, forget about it, and move on.

realize that your thoughts are yours alone, and no one unless you tell them will know. No one knows anything about you unless you tell them. So stop being a little pussy beta fag and man up. People rape, kill, eat humans, fuck minors, eat shit, and the most despicable things you can imagine. its just your western beta upbringing that's the problem. fag.

I don't want to be fucked up in the head. How do I explain the fact that from 18-22, I was chatting with younger girls online like that? I'm a sick fuck for being into that, and it makes me feel so heavy and guilty. I've stopped now, but still. The fact it ever happened is enough to bother me.

This may sound weird but it kinda worked/works for me. Try joking about it by yourself to yourself. Deflate the tension by ridiculing shit.

Yes but you are, that not something to be afraid about. When you can't control yourself it's bad but clearly here you choose to stop and done it, be proud. Mistakes have been made but nobody (except ur pride) got hurt accept the fact that you fucked up once and move one

user youre a fag.
my 16 year old cousin wants to ride me, I'm 22. I'm seriously considering it. Shes one of those teens pump with fucking slut juice and is way over develop for her age. Stop being beta.

That's why it's called "the past". That's where it should stay. I'd wager more guys fucked a girl under 18 when they younger. They're just too ashamed to admit it.

You were still pretty young when it happened. Yeah, 22 and chatting with a 12 year old is really fucked up, but at least you weren't 40. At least you weren't chatting with prepubescent kids, like a real freak. In the old days, when people didn't live as long, 12-16 used to be the prime age for breeding. 16 was considered old. Just move on, especially if you don't do it anymore.

If this isn't a honeypot to lure real dark secrets out of people, then you're fine OP.
I'm sure some of us actually have real dark secrets. What you did is nothing. It doesn't even begin to register on the scale of dark secrets. Stop being such a faggot and love your shitty life already.

Tell me more, please.

Fantasizing about fucking a 12 year old when I was 18-22 isn't "nothing."
It's disgusting. If anybody found out, they would be disgusted. Even my parents would probably hate me.

You'll regret that.

I feel great about the fucked up shit I did. Never lost a night's sleep because of it.

edgy

Bro honestly it's not even THAT bad. Like you didn't fuck her or anything, a kiss is a kiss.
Trust me there is far worse shit and this is not nearly as bad as other things.
Also go fuck some hookers/escorts, it will make you feel better.

That's it? What a faggot.
I actually fucked an underaged girl when I was in my 20's and had no problems.
Depends on the girl.. It's not like you raped her. She was into it, and you probably could've done more than kisding and been fine.

The sheep said no and fought back. He told everyone the black eye was from his dad.

I once tomatoe'd a cream puff while cheesing a french fry.

Didn't bother me one bit. I wouldn't do it again, , though. Well, maybe... I probably will.

I'm more troubled by the fact that I was attracted to a fucking 12 year old all the way up into my early 20s. It's sickening to me.

If you cant handle it join some stupid church and ask for its god forgiveness, since you are to big of a faggot to forgive yourself

/thread

Get over it. At least you grew out of it. Besides, some people develop faster than others. You can't help being attracted to a developed body. You can help your actions.

Was it a 12yo that looked 8, or a 12yo that looked 16?
Judging by your testimony.. The latter.
That's biology, stop worrying.

>tfw saw cp on Sup Forums

This is the biggest trauma I have and I can't forgive myself I let myself see it. I don't know why I still come here.

If is a really fucked up thing some therapists call the police
Fuck you OP
Ffs i thought you raped and/or killed someone
OP is a faggot

biology man. boobs and curves are going to be alluring no matter what age.

This. Just don't act on it, and obviously don't tell people. If you see a hot younger girl, just tell yourself "No. She's too young." in your head.

You didn't take advantage of anyone, and you didn't follow through with anything that would have mentally damaged them.

In both cases (the kiss and the girls on Omegle), they were people interested in exploring their sexuality in a (relatively) safe environment. You facilitated that.

Yes, you did something illegal, and yes it was morally dubious, but you had self control where others might not have. Be proud of yourself that you've grown up and stopped doing these things, but also accept the fact that you were young and stupid and horny (as were they) and that that's part of life.

There's no going back from the choices we make.

I fucked my best friends girlfriend in his bed. I deal with it by being an alcoholic

Here's my secret:

No one knows this about me, not even the people closest to me, but if any man, anywhere, pulls his cock out I will blow him. I don't care who it is, or where it is.

Ironically, the morally dubious part is what bothers me the most. I'm older now, and I'm less edgy than I used to be, and now I'm concerned with righting my wrongs and being a good person. I don't want to be fucked up in the head, and the fact that I still find younger girls attractive from time to time bothers me. I want to be a good, well-adjusted person, who doesn't have awful thoughts like that.

> OP is going to live to regret never tapping that tight 12yo pussy.
Slut Bump

Just ask Jesus for forgiveness and font do it again, Op (repent).

We all have bad thoughts. Instead of asking yourself "What's wrong with me? Am I a freak?" you should be glad that you recognize these thoughts as bad. The fact that you're repulsed by them means that you probably are a good person. We ALL have vices.

> I still find younger girls attractive from time to time

As long as they're not prepubescent and as long as you don't act on it you're fine. We're pretty hardwired to find certain things attractive including youthfulness, health, certain body shapes / aspects, etc.

This is why laws exist, so people don't go 'round fucking 13 year olds who happen to have done the whole puberty thing early and developed the features men are attracted to.

Be kind to yourself for your impulses—you can't control your biological urges—but recognise when they are bad and have self control. That's most of what being a good person is about.

Thank you for this. It really bothers me sometimes that I think these things. I'm very much attracted to women my age, and even older. It's not like I exclusively like young girls or anything. It's just something that scares me.

Why would OP feel guilty about that?

No wonder you're attracted to kids.. You've got the weak mind of a child.

pretty much this

You own your thoughts you liberal cuckblocker. Whatever you think and fantasize is your right. I also fantasize about things that would make no one proud. The key is keeping them thoughts. Let me guess, you're American? I actually live in a god tier country where we can bang 15 year olds legally, and that young pussy rocks dude.

>I would knowingly engage in dirty chat with 12-16 year olds on Omegle
Ironically, I used to do this too, but it wasn't young girls that I was getting off too. I was getting off to the taboo element of it. The fact that it was so wrong turned me on. I can't imagine having sex with a girl that age in real life. I would feel like a disgusting creep. It would feel really awkward and forced, because there's a mental gap there. I can't even talk to most under 20 without thinking they're just a dumb immature kid. I can't imagine having sex with one. I just like jerking off to things that are taboo. That includes cougars, lesbian porn, incest porn, etc.

If you ask a man if they have ever been attracted to some one underage they would probably say no but if they answered honestly there is no doubt they have. I'm 28, the fact that i was attracted to girls at the age of 13 when I was the same age doesn't change as you get older. You build up a moral tolerance because you know its not right to screw around with someone who is technically not legal. The fact is, even young girls are attracted to older men for what ever reason. You didn't act on it apart from a kiss and judging by how you feel you knew it wasn't right but it's also not worth dwelling over. I live in a sea side town, during the summer we have girls walking around in bikinis and all sorts. You can't always tell how old someone is just by looking at them especially the way some girls dress and act now days. Its just biological, men are attracted to women in their prime and sometimes girls who maybe underage may have more desirable qualities at that age than when they get older. I'm not attracted to kids, but when a girl walks past with an absolute stunning body and nice tits, you just can't help but notice. When they turn out to be about 15 without you realising it its not because you like underage girls bit because you noticed them on a purely physical level. I honestly wouldnt worry. You're not a rapist or anything, you've never done anything wrong.

This. Stop worrying, OP. You're not a pedophile. I wouldn't even call you a hebephile, unless you're PRIMARILY attracted to younger girls.

I would actively seek them out on Omegle, though. I feel like a predator. I don't do it anymore, but the fact that I did all the way up until 22 bothers me. I can't let go of my past actions because they're so heinous. To me, at least. I realize that heinous is relative.

You don't do it anymore and you're not proud of it, so forgive yourself and let it go.

Here are your options:

Forgiveness from your victims: Feels good, man, but when you really think about it, all that's happened was that you were a shitty person to a good person, and that good person just became gooder by showing forgiveness and compassion ... but you're still a piece of shit.

Forgiveness from God: Some people feel better if they convince themselves that some omnipotent creator of the universe says "you're cool". If I were the victim of your shit I'd say "fuck you and your stupid god, there's no such thing as a free pass"

Forgiveness from yourself: LOL. This one is hard, but you can do it via self-brainwashing. And when you do, you're going to be that annoying fuck who goes around saying how spiritual you are and how you " learned how to forgive yourself" to other shits with guilty consciences.

Nope. No free lunches. Best you can do is own it and be as good as you can in the present.

It was a phase, get over it. Sometimes the taboo is just much more interesting than the norm. You're going to drive your self into madness if you carry on thinking about it. Accept what you did and don't do it again. You actually sound like a decent human being with a conscience. No one is perfect and we all have our demons, it's a part of life and a learning curve.

Forgive yourself and move on. Don't obsess over the past.

You can't change the past. It happened. You need to forget about it.

Do you honestly think your parents would hate you? They would be shocked and disappointed, but (assuming you have a normal relationship with them) they would still love you. They love you unconditionally. They would love you even if you killed somebody. Disappointment doesn't mean they hate you.

... and now imagine that he is black and the girl white.

Well that changes everything,