I cheated on my girlfriend of 4 year(soon to be engaged) with an average looking single lactating mum of two...

I cheated on my girlfriend of 4 year(soon to be engaged) with an average looking single lactating mum of two. Went back two more times fucked her in the ass on the last one, came hard. Now I've put the memory away and feel zero guilt literally snuggled and made love to my girl on the same night without a second thought. (PS the milk was sweet). Basiclly can everyone else just move memories to avoid any guilt and what are some things you've done guilt free.

The guilt is there, you’re just a sociopath.

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Thought that but I can still love people and animals

Just not your fiancé

Left my girlfriends appartment after a fight over nothing and went to a chick thats in love with me for years. Got my dick sucked and went back to my GF afterwards.
Felt guilt for a few hours but that only lasted till the next day.
Still fucking this chick on the side sometimes.

>Anonymous
I have done something similar. No regrets and should feel bad. I thought I was a sociopath but I feel emotions and can empathize; GF makes fun of me for crying during movies. What's wrong with us? Just selfish assholes?

Nope love her very much the sex was purely physical didn't effect my love for her at all

Maybe either that or we just have more control over the things that go through our head I guess

When my wife lost interest in sex I decided to get it elsewhere. To me it's just sex. If she decided not to cook anymore, I'd eat at a restaurant. If she decided not to do laundry, I'd get mine done at a laundromat. No guilt about it.

Yeah similar situation but my sex drives fucked so I don't really blame her masterbate 3 times a day but I still want sex daily.

i don't blame you. i cheated for the first time in my early 20s, and honestly have become almost addicted to it.

it's such a rush knowing you are doing something wrong, seeing your girls text messages about mundane things while your are lying in bed next to someone else, fucking the side chick and your gf in the same day.

don't worry about i honestly. plus she's probably cheated on you too, most bitches do

She's not really all that into sex cos her stepdad used to ass rape her from as young as she can remember till 14.

That's why she ont cheat

Yeah man...Sex addicition fucked me up too. I cheat almost weekly. Cant help it.

no worries mate, im in exact same boat, only im married now and cheated several times.

i dont want to hurt my wife, but i feel no guilt about cheating. quite the opposite actually.

imo its completely normal, and natural.

would you say the same thing if she cheated on you ?

You are a degenerate psychopath and must die.

If he's a good husband she won't. Most of the time men cheat cos they need more sex women cheat cos they need more emotional attention

nope. thats why i chose someone who WONT cheat. and also i still dont trust her i check her out occasionally.

and also mate lets not kid ourselfes here, woman cheating on man is worse than man cheating on woman. its not that I think that, but its what society decided over the years (the shit about master key and shitty lock)

That’s just an illusion you couldn’t imagine the way love makes you feel

oh just fuck off with this bullshit. homegrown psychiatrist.

you are watching too many movies about sexy serial killers and sociopaths.

Maybe but if that's true then it's not an illusion it's just all I'm capable off therefor I still love her with all my heart.

Id do it again for that readhead

Nah, I see more relationship intact after the girl cheated then the other way around.

If a woman cheats it's a heated discussion and the man forgives her. But if the man cheats the whole world goes apeshit and he loses everything.

i think you may have just saw beta males, bro. and i dont mean it in a "meme-meaning". just guys with zero confidence and such.

That might be, but hey, the world is not really getting man-friendlier ....so...more bet males in the future = more cheating women who get away with it

yep. i dont care tbh. i mean, i chose my wife specifically because she would make a good wife.

i sleep around with sluts, cheating wifes and so on. if you marry someone like this you cant really expect them to be honest, right ?

Mind giving me your wifes info real quick? Or a picture?

Yeah not gonna happen

Most of them are blinded enough to not realize that there wifes are sluts. No offense but our wifes/GFs don't know what we're doing behind their backs either.

Why not, move that memory real quick

Your punishment

Girls are only gonna cheat if you're not giving her what she needs love excitement a bigger dick it's always about something they're not getting

I would
Men are more likely to cheat because they're risk takers. But I still believe monogamy is not natural for both sexes

if i rape you but the sex was only physical and does not affect my human respect for you at all is that ok?i wouldnt feel too guilty but just asking on ur end

im gonna need some more of this milf

I don't think you understand what that means, unless you're confident that if your girl discovered that you've been fucking mediocre side chicks she wouldn't be hurt. Otherwise, you're either willfully ignoring the guilt (which will catch up to you eventually), or you're a sociopath.

I'd like to see you try I'm a 6ft 4 Gracie purple belt in jujitsu

Because ALL women want bigger dick, right Mr. Trump? (Asshole)

you think this is a threat nah bro it's a promise. now open wide honey

That was one option... fuck someone's a tad insecure

your gracie bullshit is powerless against trichloromethane sorry

Fuck, I would like to be able to just erase some things from memory. Guilt and regret is killing me, every day.

Let's see more of those saggies dangling

Man up. Tell us about it.

She's a single mum completely different situation agrobro

I think it's mostly about opportunity and satisfaction.. which is, to say, it's mostly opportunity because everyone becomes dissatisfied in a relationship at some point. If you have opportunities to cheat, eventually you will. If you think about the fact that almost all women are considered fuckable (dudes are just more desperate, let's face it), that means women are gonna have a fairly easy time cheating. Add to that the fact that, at least in 'merica, the justice system favors women, they're less likely to worry about the consequences.

Maybe I am, personality is just a spectrum isn't it

Actual psychologist here
They're not far off the truth

not just in america my dude.

But yeah: 100X this

psychologist or psychiatrist ? i dunno how it works in wherever you are from , but here anybody can be a psychologist, and psychiatrists are actual MD.

and also i was "tested" on three different occasions and im neither sociopath nor psychopath, just a little depressed bastard who likes to fuck around.

seems fair, she have The Black Bull and you have a milf

Why the fuck are there psychologists on Sup Forums don't you deal with enough fuckedupiness in your day to day life. Maybe you're more fucked then OP

I used to do a lot of heroin few years back, and my girlfriend always asked me to give her some, she was not hooked, but tried it a few times. I kept saying no because I didnt want her messing around with that, and she understood that, but kept asking me anyway. So one time we took some MDMA and she kept pestering me all night to give her some heroin to be able to sleep. I was feeling emotional from MDMA and i was not thinking straight, so I gave it to her. Tomorrow morning she was dead...OD. I cant get over it, and I think I never will. I really want to die and feel like I deserve it. I didnt want that to happen but its no excuse, I should have known better.

Just don't think about it anymore? OP here.

Seems reasonable.

glad you killed her, fucking junkie - good riddance

Well shit. Didn't expact that . But dude, it was the drugs man. And you stayed strong till this one moment...You loved her so it was only a matter of time before you'f give her some. Look at it as a last act of love. You made her happy.

One degenerate less in this world, good job.

Did you at least get one more fuck out of her before she went cold?

>killed girlfriend
>act of love

If only you gave her half as much... you two might have sorted your lives out have a little kid running around a place to call home. Now your stuck with the memories of her cold limp body lying in that bed. Sparkle of drool in the corner of her mouth framed by her everstill lifeless face longing for one more minute by your side.

hope it makes him more guilty and he'll an hero

I try to, but I can only accomplish that if Im on Xanax or some similar drug that will completely numb me. I get through the day because there are a lot of things that take my mind off that, but at night I cannot sleep, I cant shut off that mind loop that just goes over and over again about the same things.

That was my intention really, I just wanted to make her happy, but it was extremely stupid on my part, really retarded thing to do. I made a lot of people miserable, myself most of all, because of that one moment of stupidity.

He's right OP we're just sociopaths. .in complete control of all the things people are afraid of.
Had multiple affairs, guilt? What's that?

And what a world we live in to be sociopaths sin and degeneration can be delivered to your door just by the tips of your fingers

who cares, she asked for it user, she could have done it with anyone anywhere... you're not the one to blame, when you decide to take drug it's your problem

Yes, she asked, but she was only 18. Too young, too inexperienced, I always felt responsible for her, always wanted to protect her, because Im older. Also I had a pretty fucked up life, had a lot of bad things happen to me, I had enough experience to know better. She was from a rich family, pretty sheltered growing up, I feel it was my duty to look after her, and I failed.

He decided it was his problem when he supplied a first time user and didn't administer the right dose duty of care for fuck sakes!

If I ask to try a panadole and you shove 20 down my throat and say that should do it's your fucking fault I'm dead

Perhaps you should come clean about it... I have cheated once, and tried to put the guilt away, but it slowly ate me... Turns out that being honest is very often the best path you can trill, independent of the actual outcome. I know this is b, and people will probably shit on this post, but this is my actual advice for you. If you're getting married and want to live a honest life and all, that's the way to start.
obs.: My gf and i are still together and we're doing pretty good :)

...wouldn't you be in jail for murder..?
Or have a felony charge for possession and distribution of heroin..?

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I really gave her about 5-6 times less than I was taking at the time, and told her not to do it all at once, to try a little then see what happens...she didnt listen. But I agree with you, its not an excuse, I made it my problem.

We're doing amazing and there is literally no guilt it's just something I don't think about... I only posted cos I'm bored as fuck and procrastinating doing more house moving. Moving into the house we just brought together

I have cheated on my boyfriend once (gay), and have dabbled with the concept numerous times. He is completely monogamous, and has stressed it since day one (that triggered me to think it was a lie, but he has shown he doesn't cheat). He had the only other man he ever loved cheat on him day in and day out, and he kept going back to him.

I dunno... I would love to tell him that I just wanna fuck around with "strange," but we would break up and that would kill me.

Ironically, there is a 14 year age gap: he used to do a ton of drugs and have rampant sex when he was my age. Should I not be allowed that as well? I always go home to him at the end of the day, and the only thing I do is drink and smoke weed.

Seems unfair.

you're going to get drunk one night and either blab this to some other cunts who aren't as tight-lipped as you are, or your partner will break it out from you

Nice blog post.
Cope harder, sociopath.

Very unfair! Especially cos his had the chance and done all the stuff that you crave! If I was gay id kinda want try one of those fuck trains! Go do a fucktrain!

I cheated on my gf in my dreams one night, with a really cute skinny curly haired virgin having sex with me for the first time. It was really raw and intimate and I can't stop thinking about it.

Now i'm starting to feel bad for my gf because i'm thinking these thoughts.

That's the most beta fucking thing I've ever heard in my life!

Well, I was not with her when it happened. We stayed out till about 5 AM and then she went home. She went to sleep and didnt wake up. So really nobody is sure where she got it, I mean they probably suspect it was me, but she had many friends that take drugs, and we have been to 2 parties that night. Her parents could tell the police they suspect me, but they didnt for some reason.

He's told me if he found out I cheated it would be over instantly. It got to the point where-- back when I was bartending at a gay bar-- if I worked shirtless he would get pissy. But then he goes out and does numbers in charity shows where they take off his shirt and some faggot ends up feeling him up a little.
"Oh, it's for charity." Even though that faggot has hit on him openly and broke up with their boyfriend to try and fuck with him when my boyfriend was single.

I dunno. He is amazingly insecure for his age.
(guess I am just venting now, because this post hit home).


That all being said, I randomly feel remorse for what I did. I have tried to do it again, but I can't get hard. I feel more sexually excited talking to strangers than with my boyfriend sometimes, though. I have even chatted with someone before my man comes home to get aroused, heh. It's fucked.

Also Cheated on my "GF" ( 10 months ), I cheated because I was bored, wanted a good BJ and because she was a slut.
It turned out that she was much bigger than in photos: cummed hard and fast than escaped xD , i did not even kissed her because she was gross...
I was feeling guilty for like 30 minutes, the day after was everything ok...

I'm not sure if sociopath or because I don't love her so much as my ex, or because my actual gf doesn't like oral sex...

Don't spill secrets especially when I drink. My mind protects what I need it two no matter how under the influence acid black out drunk word spinning on md nothing I don't want people to know comes out

Hey dude, glad you read my reply!
It's a good thing for you that you don't feel guilt directly (because that's one of the hardest feelings to deal with, trust me) but i'd be careful with that... This "guilt" you were "supposed" to be feeling might get to you in other ways... I could name a few, but i'd never cover all possibilities. Cheating is a thing that hurts both parties nearly equally. The thing is that the cheater often does not realizes is fast enough.
Don't know if it matters to you, but i am not creating my points out of nowhere, i'm a psychology student, and, as i said, have also cheated

If you want to fuck around then what's the point of being in a monogamous relationship? I can imagine your pain, but if you're not being honest with yourself, then that's a problem. Even bigger than not being honest with your boyfriend. If you allow me to say this, i'd suggest you have a conversation with him. Go lightly about it, no need to expose everything you think/feel/have done in one shot, but it would be the right thing to do. Growing up emotionally is a hard path, and it often hurts, but long-term, it's almost surely the thing you want to aim for. Goodluck with your boyfriend, user :)

We've traipsed around the concept of being open: almost everyone in the gay community is, sadly. Monogamy is a dead art because a lot of these people grew up in times where they would go to the bar multiple times a week and fuck around because they couldn't have that in their home lives (lack of gay rights). He refuses to open it up. Won't even consider bringing in a third. His response: "If you knew I was going out to just have sex with someone else, how would you feel?"
I would feel like shit. I would be pissed, and I would resent him.

And I go through waves: completely monogamy and only eyes for him, to wanting to just fuck around once. It's like... a monthly thing."
My favorite thing is when he gets upset sometimes when I jack off 2-3 times a day without him. I want to return with "I need my alone time, and it's substantially better than cheating ain't it??"

if it never 'gets to me' I've had hookers once or twice when I work away years ago and that never got to me.

It seems to me you feel somewhat bad in some level for having cheated on him, considering you would be fucking mad if he did it to you, and that you said you want to tell him. I can tell you that's a huge sign of mental health, if my assumotions are correct. Turns out that people make mistakes sometimes, specially when they're confused, and that's a normal thing. IMO the double mistake would be hiding it, as it's something that has an immense potential of destruction. Also, alone time is needed. You are right.

Then what's the point of lying to someone you theorically love and have a relationship with? I dont know, man, it seems a bit fucked for me. And i'm glad i have that perception of the situation. I'd be worried if i were you tbh lmao

Two facets to my response:
First, we are both primarily tops. And it was something he asked at the beginning, if I would be able to handle bottoming more than topping. I enjoy it a lot, but I want to fulfill my other need and, frankly, he sucks and taking it up the ass. That's why I pursue other options (and yet can never get aroused in the moment because I feel bad)
Second, if I told him I even made out with someone else right now he would leave. Immediately. He is very militant in that aspect. It's one of those things I kind of just want to get past in my mind and let things go. I haven't done anything else, and even made it a point to block and delete any number in my phone or person on Facebook I have either done something with or had an inkling towards. I am still on hook-up sites, but I never follow through.
It's fucking weird.

I am about to move in with him, and I feel like that (coupled with me finally starting my career next week) will keep me busy enough to not care. I love him to death and want it to work.
I am only 24. I honestly feel like I am mainly transitioning lifestyles to never having a successful relationship to finding someone who loves me unconditionally for God knows what reason and starting to become an official adult.

I don't see cheating being long-term. I feel like I am more afraid than anything. I almost broke it off within the first month simply because I didn't know how to change my life around.

Rambling.

Yeah was worried to start with but kinda just got over it. Same old story childhood shit gives us fucked up little personality quirks. Also I never lie to her about normal shit she's only asked once if I'd ever cheat and I did say no. I woundbt think of it if our sex drives weren't so opposite I grew up without a mum do I'm over sexed and she was raped all childhood so she only really wants it very occasionally

Rip

A little odd considering most girls who grow up daddies butt slut end up being absolute whores.

>4 year(soon to be engaged)

'Murica.

In non-mentally-ill countries, a few dates are enough to decide "dump or engage".

Also, except when slutty whores, dating do not include kissing, even less any sex action, because it would mean the man is a porn addict and the woman is a hoe.

Good stuff, friend. You seem to be an ok guy, and this shit just happens. If you're not doing it again, then well, not telling is an option i guess. However if you do, i'd suggest telling, as it would be the right thing to do. You seem to have thought about it a lot, and it's an awesome thing that you can get it touch with your feelings by yourself. I'd try figuring out why you have such wishes, and what needs are you exactly trying to fulfill.

I see, user. Well, it sounds like you have it all sorted out. But if you tell her that you don't cheat, i'd suggest you stop.. double-lifes are fucked in many ways. I wish you all the best, dude. I hope you get along fine.

Hahahaha what magical country is this where you can't kiss a girl after a few dates! I'd bet it's one with a falling fertility rate or a religious hellhole

Dunno if you'll read this, but I just remembered some fucked shit. All this came back full circle because I went to my new job and looked out the window: there is an apartment complex where I used to fuck a guy literally across the street. And I know he still lives there.
We haven't spoken in a minute, but it was just a huge slap in the face and it kind of ruined this new job.

Nice sidemanhoe proximity! But seriously the temptation will always be there be it just curiosity or not.

Yup. And I want to tell my boyfriend: I was so close to doing it on the phone. But it was before me and him, and the guy was just random sex. I didn't want him to overreact. One of those things I don't think I necessarily need to share.
I could literally walk over on a lunch break and fuck, lol....