hey guys, i just felt this weird thing.
I was browsing through Sup Forums and got scared when i saw my hands. I looked at my body and for like 20 seconds i was feeling like i just discovered that i was living in my body. I felt like i always thought i was just my vision and the rest of my senses. i started to touch things with my hands and moving them around and be sort of amazed and scared at the same time that i'm in control of a human being.
what the fuck was that dear anons
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english not first language btw.
A stroke
Its a normal occurence. Theres a word for it but i dont know it. I think its just like momentary awareness of what is actually happening. I think the word is Depersonalisation maybe? People with ptsd get it often.
My explanation for it was because theres 0 emotion running in your system so you shift all your mental resources to the prefrontal cortex which processes all your experiences
I could be heaps off though so dont just take my word for it
crippling mental illness brother
>what the fuck was that dear anons
It's called retardation.
nigger how did you guess i was diagnosed with bipolar shit
where are you from?
Quebec City Canada
alway got that when i quit smoking week
what city?
Op here
unrelated to the post,
The call of the void.
what do you guys picture in your head when you think about doing horrible things spontaniously (how do you write that lol)
quebec city
i smoked a fuckton of old resin these last days though
there's a mental health disorder related to it called body dysmorphic disorder
I walk from my machine.
somebody spiked your drink with LSD and you're tripping nuts. have fun.
Intrusive thoughts ?
like a black shadow thing or smth?
Ewwww like oil resin or, bong resin?
i wish honestly, i want to experience ego death before killing myself (prolly on stream)
huge weed addict here (yes that exists)
I've gotten something similar when looking in the mirror for a long period of time
you know when you're in a car on your phone and feel like throwing it out the window just to see.
Sometimes i get these intrusive thoughts about killing my friends or killing myself in front of them out of no where when we hang out
Mines always, what if I don't turn on the next corner, like what would happen if I just kept driving, it's kinda fun/scary knowing you could do it, but never really will.
also had that
mostly in the car actually
stopped when i was clean for a while - not kidding
When I'm crossed at like 3am this on really freaks me out
you mean my drug habits affect my mental health and disorders
HOW COULD THIS BE ;)
Oh, in canada?
... yes, in Canada.
Stop the drugs and go back to Loli porn dude. It's far healthier.
Cool, what part of Canada?
yeah, the french part of it
Quebec City
ITT
people guess things about my life
Well which city in Quebec?
I also guess your obese, your computer cost more than your car payment and you often fantasize about one of your family members. Most likely a cousin.
this guy is messing around with us right ?
the not kidding-part was mostly there to tell you i'm not a random troll
actually had it
actually went away
now my mind is pretty much detached from the real world. feel kind of comfy with it. cant take any drugs anymore though bc it would fuck me up too much
He's not wrong...within Quebec there is usually Quebec then the muslim owned parts....so which city
I'm pretty slim, my computer is shit and my cousin ive seen like twice is pretty cute
No no, the city is named "Quebec City"
So I'm correct on all accounts. Nice.
quebec city
user I get that it's a Quebec city, but WHICH ONE?
hahahahahaha
This. The Muslim or Canadian I mean both the same city but we know there are parts Canadians can't go unless they are muslim.
This is a troll right?
Am I being trolled?
Body dysmorphia is an improper perception of your physical self. Like believing you're fatter or thinner than you actually are.
Sometimes i get the sensation that i am not moving my body. I would do movements like opening and closing my hand or moving my arm in a rhythm that could only be done through someone concious, but it still feels like it's not me and it's just happening. Feels like i am just watching.
Do i need meds?
that is not true lmao
I live here. Well there. It's very true.
we are
No you need to put the weed and Xbox remote down.
Live where? Quebec City?
quel arrondissement ? pas de ghettos de tête de guenille à quebec
I have something like this from time to time. A moment of heightened self awareness and self consciousness. Kind of like Deja Vu. One of those weird things that happens from time to time. Also staring at yourself in the mirror for too long is weird like the other poster said.
Depersonalization disorder is correct. It's a common symptom of dissociative disorders.
You mean like in canada?
Practice your concentration\attention. It develops your frontal lobe and makes you more aware.
But i don't do any drugs or play any games.
Sounds like the opposite of depersonalisation. That's a disconnect between yourself as a conscious being and your own physical existence. Sounds like OP just became more functionally aware of his own physicality in space.
That’s how I feel when I’m on acid
>tfw
well there is one in relation to the way OP described it, living life as if you're looking through a screen or as an outside source. I'll see if I can find it
If anything, ego death will make yoy want to live
How would you know? Weed fucks up memory and playing Xbox makes you gone out often.
found it (I think), Depersonalization/derealization disorder
Your Google translate sucks brah.
good point
thanks medfag
op here
i tried shrooms when i was 15, didnt know that it was a common saying but i came back with the certitude that existence is suffering because we are too conscious for this world of atoms
>holy shit that was edgy
It def the LSD
pas de traduction ''brah'' quebecois pur et dur
meme foken fruiter
>How would you know?
Because i have not played games in 3 years now, and i could not even if i wanted to because the fan is fucked in the console. It's a shitty 360 anyways.
Then as for drugs, i am pretty sure i never took them ever. I would never take weed.
Must be French right
> living life as if you're looking through a screen or as an outside source.
told this psychiatrist
> we cant help if you have eye problems
dafuc? worst ppl ever . got thrown out of clinic bc they said they cant find anything
Nah consciousness is a beautiful thing intrinsic to the nature of observational existence. We exist simply to exist as we are just another part of an experiment of creation much larger than anything we could possibly comprehend. You are a free sentient consciousness plopped into the middle of a great big universe, possessing the ability to interact and by association, shape the very nature of reality man. The universe is your sandbox.
Denial is the first sign of drug addiction user.
Ooga booga nigger.
But i despise drugs! W-what? I mean i KNOW i never did drugs and never will.
but are we the only things conscious in this universe ?
>this is what this thread has come to
>aliens dude
You suffered an Ego Death. Depersonalization. You woke up from the fantasy that was your self.
YOU ARE ADDICTED WAKE UP AND SMELL THE COKE
Dun dun duuuuuuuun.
its not the first that happened though
it was b8
Man who knows. If you buy into universal consciousness theory, then pretty much anything of any relevant complexity in the universe can field some form of conscious experience. The wave function of quantum particles in superposition collapses based on observation and interaction, which can come from an immeasurable number of sources. Every "living" being in the universe could disappear overnight and the effect on the cosmos would be negligible to the point of nullification.
De realization or depersonalization. Both are trippy af
trips of truth
existence is bait
im about to fap one last time and go to bed
It was fun talking about that with you all.
Basically, the "you" or for a better word the "I" is a delusion. You exist alright, but not as you think. You need to go beyond the mind to realise who you really are, because right now you think you are the ego (the mere idea of yourself and not your real self).
The best i can explain it.
P.S
Not the same guy
right on the money! And realization that you are this "nothingness" is called enlightenment. Here's a video about it if you want to know more: youtube.com
There's also another word for Nothingness (not the english word either. It doesn't mean the same thing as nothingness") God. Or Godhead. Or Reality. Or the True Self.
basically. if you erase the identification you have between yourself and the world, you realize that your personality "Ego" is an illusion, and that you're actually ONE thing. Which is everything in reality. YOu can actually realize this by meditating everyday to raise your awareness levels. You need several years of this though, and of self inquiry (questioning what you are, not to get an answer, though, but to see what comes.)
existential crisis is imminent
depersonalization
You're just becoming self-aware user, it's not really a problem. This happened to me since I was like 6 (I barely remember), I noticed how small I was in the universe, how small everybody around me was. I noticed how much of the stuff we do doesn't make much sense, I noticed how it can be changed but we're just too attached to it to ever change the formula. Nothing really matters in this universe, everything is going to go to shit or die at the end, but that doesn't mean you shouldn't do whatever you're planning to do. You shouldn't become a "negative" person (in simple, human terms), you shouldn't become a "pessimist" just because everything you do doesn't matter, sometimes you just gotta say "fuck it". You're free OP, do what you must and do what you want.
time to turn off the computer and go outside.
wow user you're awesome :)
Are you being sarcastic, user?