Hello Sup Forums. Many people will come to this board and say they are going to kill themselves and look for sympathy. Im here to tell you why i am going to. The song, Clams Casino - I'm God, i have been listening to since i was in middle school (i am now in highschool). I have been depressed and suicidal for a long while now over this one girl. Last night i was told who David Higgs was. He browsed Sup Forums, he browsed this board, listened to this fucking song while he was suicidal. Now that isnt the true coincidence, the song has 22 million views. Our stories are almost completely similar. Although Marina has not done anything to my knowledge i know she thinks it and wants to act out. Emotionally cheating is almost as bad, any person in a relationship knows that. I love her more than anything in this world. She ma not feel the same, and may say that she does to keep me here, but i cannot take it anymore. My pills have been confiscated by parents, so i cannot do anything tonight as those parents are in another house, but one night, the night i bring up the courage, i will end my life, and it will be wit you guys. my true bestfriends who will never cease to entertain me. I love you guys. thank you. I love you Sup Forums, and i love Marina.
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Hello Sup Forums. Many people will come to this board and say they are going to kill themselves and look for sympathy...
You won't be missed.
Trust me i know this
Only one question, how old are you OP?
If you answer that, I will give you one bit of advice that will change your world view.
i have to say 18.
Please write out your story before killing yourself
>at a party one night close friends
>playing pong, some new girl shows up
>have a lot of classes with her, she just moved here from a nigger town
>shes cuts, but im in front of all of my friends, smash her ass in ping pong
>she gives me the slightest attitude, and idk why but from there i was hooked
>she went out with my group of friends a lot after that, to festivals, and all my friends hit on her
> i was in a stable relationship and she came to me for protection
>lmao fuck off
>my girlfriend starts to hate her
>A new "group" is made
cont?
Okay, that means you are under the age of 18. I grew up with depression, from the age of 10 years old until today.
I have a scar on my stomache from when I was 11, I stabbed myself because i wanted to die. It didn’t work, they put me on medication, that didn’t work either. I hated everything, my emotions always ran high and it got to the point where I hated everything to the point that I wanted to watch the world burn. I wanted to kill people, die after etc. Then, I started looking at how to make money so I could do it in the craziest way possible. I was super fucking crazy, I really wanted as many people to die as possible, this is how emotionally unhinged I was.
I started learning different skills through highschool, ignoring people and only having a few people close to me who understood me. This formed into me studying because i enjoyed the subjects I studied, It didn’t make me happy, I still had goals, but I kept getting better. This reaulted in my getting a job out of highschool making a good deal of money. The money didn’t help the depression, but I had noticed over time, even before I had this job, my insanity was starting to wear. Even during my Junior year, I still had a shit life, i was depressed every day but i didn’t think about killing people nearly as much. Around the time I turned 20, I didn’t think of that at all. I thought about how to make the best of what i had. I found somebody who understood that my depression made me a different person, and she works to make it a little bit easier every time it gets bad.
It’s horomones OP. Also, you’re just a naturally depressed person. You need to give it a few years. Don’t focus on a relationship, focus on being a better you and just fake it. It will get better. If you are a genuinely good person, your life will be amazing if you work at it. Hood luck.
I've been schizophrenic all of my life but because of my stupid, backwards blue collar family i've never been on medication.
In a couple of days I'm going to actually pursue treatment.
Turned 30 last money, and have multiple occasions tried to kill myself.
month not money.
This shit is your whole life now, sure.
Give yourself a chance to experience anything else life has to offer. Just seens like a shite trade to off yourself without doubling down at least once at the casino. Double your age (18 x 2 = 26) then if your still down on chips I guess throw the hail mary
Do shrooms before death
>18 x 2 = 26
That’s a real special way of doing math there.
Typo... 36*
Find a creative passion lackey, if you feel like you are doing nothing with your life only YOU can make the change.
Draw,Write,Go stand on the corner on heckle people who walk by. Learn to play an instrument. Learn some jokes. Make your own. You only have one life so why waste it.
>tickle fights insue???
>in highschool dont have time for stupid shit
>long story short she dates my close friend
>friend breaks her heart and we kick friend out of the larger group for being a cunt
>I talk to her bc i feel bad
>Shes severely depressed, has been since she was 5
> O fuck im in this for the long run
>gf really hates her now
>shes taking me over
>fall in love with her
>dump gf for her
>ex gets a shit ton of people to rail on me
>lmao okay she sucks my dick you dont
>ex is super pised and depressed
>lmao ok you didnt care about me in the relationship anyways
>PISSED
>new gf tells me to drop her
>I do
>ex tells people how we sent nudes for a night while i was with the new girl
>o shit
>eventually we solve that shit
>my birthday comes
>my girl wrote me letters, for any siutation
>she knew i was depressed and they were focused around depression
>i know shes the one
>we fuck like rabbits all day (her mom was gone)
>next day
>i throw a party
>she locks herself in a room with her ex (my friend)
>i get pissed
>big shit fit from her
>we go to my friends house (the ex)
>get high and life is good
>now its time for her birthday
>on the day of her birthday (I love your friend)
>break up with her later
>dont break up with her? i forgot honeslty how we got back together
>coupe days later
>big fight she breaks up with me
>next day cries for me back
>ofc i say yes i love her
>that goes well
>i break up with her bc my friends pressured me to
>ask for her back
>"uh no"
>lmao ok ill go with my friends
>they all drop me
>now the depression is bad
>first real panic attack
>tell everyone im ending my life
>no one really cares they all act the part
>fast foward a bit
>ive started to drink
>i go to girls house fucking drunk
>tell her mom everything
>"okay just go back home"
> i do but the next day im back
>girl is awake this time and we all talk things out
>cops get called to my house whem i get dropped off and dont answer my phone
>now my parents know oh shit
Or shrooms to cure depression.
>it gets real bad
>start not going to school
>really going to end it
>dont remember much from then...
>get reallly really drunk one night, i looked up how much i would take to kill a 180 pound adult, i weigh 120
>no im really on house arrest
>gets more depressed from there
>Winter break!
>goes by well, my "freinds" took me back
>i go back to school
>mexico for a week bc why not?
>get really really drunk again off tequila
>"im going to killmyself in a drunken rage"
>oh god
>2 day bender before we leave
that sounds sick
>now my friends have left me after ive come back to school from mexico, i honestly dont talk to anyone
>they tell someone, who doesnt feel like they are good enough to even live that im fucking toxic
>my girl is still here, but i can tell shes lying, im a burden to her, and im worse than she was when i helped her but she doesnt care enough to help me
>life isnt worth it
no one can be trusted, even the people who "love" you. everything is temporary, including this life. thank you Sup Forums for helping me out so fucking much throught these years. i love you. i love her.
~Bobo