Geeyy noon edition

geeyy noon edition

How's life user?

“Always an even trade, Sorceress. Save our skins, we’ll save yours.”

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Viewer discretion is advised.

Please, please.

Call me Chen.

Consider me your new social hub and dictator. I'm the one around here who calls the shots and my opinions of other people matter.

I am the judge, jury, and executioner, but feel free to let me know what you think about my actions, I could pull a neck or two from the block if you really like that person.

rate my fursona

So when you rise in the mmr rating thing, you play with less shitty people right? will that increase or decrease your chance of getting muted again?

nah

Normally
I doubt they actually change who you play with if silenced but a team game without comms makes it more difficult

I just have to be a reformed guy :)

yeah, there's nothing more one can do in that save, it's done

yikes
is that like a sonic/bowser mix

Didn't mean you play with new guys because you were muted, but you're rating is higher now so that would mean new people, doesn't it?

Its just some meme from twitter feed
Anyway ima brb
I should play with 'better' people yeah
amy current mmr is a bit of a cesspool

Two friends of mine want me to play civ 5 again so I can steal all the wonders while they bicker about city state alliances.

ok

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dead

wut

what is dead may never die.

why can't I post files

It is down I believe.

I just finished that painting.

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i wana die lmao

Same.

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How do I stop loving someone? Crying my eyes out over something that will never be is so exhausting.

Give it time

Take up meth

2.5 years, and it's only gotten worse. I don't even know what to do anymore.

If I were to take up any hard drug then it would be heroin. I've wanted to do it for a while.

Just give it 50 years

Just be dead inside lke me lmao

Realize that crying over something out of your control is pointless because it won't change anything then walk away from it.
Or take up drinking as a profession.

I don't even want to live that long, or at all.

It only works for so long, then I break down into tears and slip back into crippling depression.

I try, but I'm just a melodramatic bitch who can't get over anything. It doesn't help that I see her and talk to her all the time. Pretending she doesn't exist and ignoring her certainly doesn't help.

If you don't like seeing her then you should stop looking at her. Or cut your eyes out.

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Nah I have a few years of it and im fine

It's not really something I can help unless I completely stop going to the sfur threads, and those are the only things I still care about. I've tried countless times, even at the first of the year, but I lose my mind and go right back to them. I feel like it's kinda stupid that I'm this in love with her without knowing her name or what she looks like, but she really is special.

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Fiddler and Kruppe are my favorite characters.

Well, cutting your eyes out will certainly help with that.

why is every furry thread ending with a conversation

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If I'm going to mutilate myself then I may as well go all the way and kill myself like I should have done a year ago when I still had access to a shotgun. But I'm too much of a pussy and could never go through with it.

Self mutilation and suicide serve different functions.

doin' great user!

if you think your life is bad and you want to kill yourself. JUST FUCKIN DO IT and don't get yo problems to other people

the world is better off with you suicidal people

Do we tell him

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maybe they want they're depression solved. Cunt

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Thank you, user. No one has said the world is better off with me.

You can't "solve" an emotion. Get educated

Well I'm no stranger to self mutilation, and it helps to an extent, but it still leaves scars and hurts the people that care about me. I'd slash my throat if I didn't have a family that loves me because it never even hurts anymore.

See, and pieces of shit like you are why I won't do it. Fuck you, I just want to be happy.

yeah. Don't be edgy and annoy other people bleach is cheap. You only have one life if you want to waste it like this you can do that

THEN BE HAPPY

Why don't you tell us the story?
Perhaps getting it of your chest may help.

And it makes it possible to recieve input on the situation.

Yes, it's just that easy. O frabjous day! Callooh! Callay! You've solved depression forever!

Yes, you're no stranger, and your eyes seem to be the root of your problem. It makes you see the thing that upsets you. Get rid of the eyes get rid of the problem. See?

Oop! Sorry. I mean, understand?

I would advise doing light exercise, distracting yourself from the problem with a hobby, taking a break from masturbation (that'll get you depressed right damn quick each time after you finish..) and talking with friends or family to take the stress off if you're bottling in your emotions.

Now, you've probably heard the above said a million times, but you gotta make the above a habit and not just try and then stop. You gotta want to get better, to get better. Meds and cuttin' just make it worse in the long run for you and are not viable options most of the time (especially the cutting part, don't do that ya nerd.)

Yeah it's not that easy. I've been severely depressed since I was 5, and suicidal since 10. I try to be happy and positive, but I can only keep it up for so long until I start thinking about how lonely, miserable, and unmotivated I am to do anything with my life.

Well I could on forever. I've had a shitty life and been fucked over by everyone, abused and neglected by insane parents who are so delusional they think they're perfect and the greatest parents ever (and that's barely the tip of the iceberg in their psychotic, schizophrenic delusions), and the only person I still have any real love for is a woman who will never love me back. I could keep going for hours, but I'll just leave it at that.

Logically speaking, yes, but that won't solve any actual problems.

I'm going to try to exercise when I'm well enough, I've been sick for days. None of my hobbies interest me anymore because I'm just about impossible to entertain. I rarely even masturbate anymore because my dick is pretty much broken and I hate it. I don't have any friends, and my family is all retarded and/or insane. I fucking hate everything about myself and my life, and I couldn't care less about doing anything with myself because nothing matters anyway. Oh, and that cut was the first time in over a year because my stepdad said he wouldn't feel bad if I kill myself, so I did it front of him to prove my point that I want to die.

I'm pretty sure they're about to get a divorce now too after some 15 years because they just had yet another fight while my mom said she was already one foot out the door. Of course neither of them are at fault, and it's always the other person. So there's that now.

Yaaaa... someone recognised one.
Kruppe and anomander here.
And that one simpleton mage art was his name.. blink? Or something.

Start a new life
in another place
Disconnect with everything from your previous life good or bad. also "severely depressed" did you check that by a doctor or self-test
Bitch.

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I can't do that. I have no license, no car, no job. Nothing. And you're a fucking idiot if you're really questioning my depression. Yes, I've been diagnosed with major depression. Retard.

I have no idea if this works for you...
But I haven't been the happiest guy in the past too.
What worked for to some degree me was to make a game plan to save money for my own place.

It gives you a purpose to work to something better.

While working towards my goal I even found my soulmate.

I don't have my own place yet, but I'm getting very close.

my manager called asking me if i could come in for a shift today because they're understaffed but i don't want to come in today

Does he have the right to force you?

If not, problem solved.

"really questioning my depression"
Yeah most people have "depression"or i want attention syndrome. i just hate that kind of people. if your really have major depression get medical treatment
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that's Mr.retard for you

no, they can't force me, but i can be terminated without reason for the next 2 months if they chose to

No idea mate. Last time I tried meeting with an ex I almost threw a rageful fit

Seems like a fun job there.

You might want to consider it.
It could mean overtime, and being reliable and willing to take extra shifts will give you a lot of leeway with people.

Not really. I don't give a shit about money or material items anymore. I'm such an existential nihilist that absolutely nothing matters to me, and I don't see any reason to do anything with my life. Nothing makes me happy, so I don't bother to do anything with myself.

I mean I figured it was pretty obvious given everything I've said. I've had a pretty fucked up life, and don't even know what happiness feels like. I honestly hate talking about myself and bringing attention to myself, but sometimes I just have to because I'm so miserable. My family are a bunch of retarded lunatics, and trying to talk to my mom is utterly useless because she just goes on about her psychotic, delusional, schizophrenic bullshit. The fur threads are the only place I feel at home and comfortable enough to talk. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to kill the thread, I just needed to talk to someone. I appreciate all the replies, thank you.

God damn it now I'm crying again.

it's fun, i try my best

i understand that, but i don't really need the overtime money and i've taken several extra shifts already as well
i just want to relax this weekend

just say you have previous plans

he said to contact him if i have availability today so i'll just not contact him

ez
also tell him you're gay so its a hate crime

Fur threads are nice to shit around, but once you dedicate your life and interests into them you will find yourself in a bad position. They are no substitute for real social interactions. You might consider seeking people in real life with common interests. Starting over can suck, but it's fundamentally human to be with other people physically. The threads are not a tangible thing. And tangibility can lead to better outlooks.

And taking to the notion of nihilism might be ok in some regards, you are actively letting it get in the way of enjoying yourself now. Things don't have to matter, and importance of existence is simply what you put into it as an individual. If you are not seeking professional counsel I would recommend it.

Though you should also take what we say with a grain of salt. Many of us are not well off either so my words might just be my own take on things with little grounds to stand on. I'm no expert. But I do understand a bit about your situation on some kind of level.

Well then, wait until you're well and then start a light exercise routine and correct your diet if you haven't already, try and eat well and be happy with yourself first. Focus on YOU and treat that depression anyway you can. When you feel happy with yourself, you can feel confident enough to find new friends and even retry old hobbies that've become boring, or heck, try new hobbies with your new friends.

Building confidence is the leading treatment to depression. Confidence will help you help yourself if you truly have no one else to turn to. Oh, if you can, do the nofap and give your dick and mind a rest in the meantime; the exercise will distract you from the urge to beat up the little guy downstairs.

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Came here to expand my folder, caught feels instead.

>tfw had feels to begin with and came for my porn fix and got the feels again

Hope y'all get better

*gives you a hearty hug.*
The World is shit and we're all along for the ride because we have to, so we can help build a better world for the poor bastards that come after us.

Don't lose faith in yourself. Everything will work out, no matter how shitty things seem.

Yeah, I know. I just really like the people here. I have pretty severe anxiety too, and much of the time can't even bring myself to say anything here. Trying to interact with people in the real world is a nightmare, and I have nothing interesting to say anyway.

I've been seeing a psychiatrist and counselor for about a year and a half now, but I'm paranoid of doctors. My psychiatrist does not give a single fuck, and just tries to shove useless pills down my throat and send me to the psych ward for a week when I didn't need to. My counselor is nice, and I've been a bit more open recently, so it has helped a bit. I was actually supposed to have an appointment Wednesday, but I got sick as fuck and had to stay quarantined at my mom's house. I live with my grandma by the way, my mom is absolutely insane, and has kicked me out and whined and cried until I come back 5 times in the past 9 years. I cannot express how batshit crazy she is.

Thank you, I very much appreciate it. I just had to get that off my chest. You guys are the best, I love being here.

Maintaining a proper diet is the hardest part for me. I really do not like the vast majority of foods, and pretty much starve myself because I can't stomach it. The few things I do eat I'm sick of. It's caused me to have pretty stunted growth on top of already being short, I look like a 12 year old girl because I've always been so malnourished.

Confidence is very hard for me too. I'm very small, meek, and submissive, so I've always had horrible self esteem. I guess I should try though. As for fapping, I hate my dick and can't feel anything anyway, and haven't fapped in 3 days just because I don't care anymore. It isn't even pleasurable to me.

I'm sorry, I know it bothers people. But I literally have no one else to talk to.

We will as long as we don't quit. Help your neighbor, help yourself, help your family.

It might be hard, but you should try to gain independence. Small steps. maybe find a room mate you can trust and share a place. Though your age is not something I know, so don't do it unless you are comfortable with it and in a position to do so.

I do wish you luck though. Don't feel worried about bothering us with this though. If people find it unpalatable they can just not respond. Don't let us stop you if this is actually helping.

depression isnt an emotion retard

>I'm sorry, I know it bothers people. But I literally have no one else to talk to.

This is an anonymoys Indo-Chinese spear-sharpening expert forum you can post whatever you feel like