I want to fucking die

i want to fucking die
lets see here..
250lbs fat fuck landwhale
ugly
virgin (handholdless as well)
everybody hates my outlook on life and my opinions
"oh,your an athiest? fuck you user!" or "you dont like this blah blah your immoral fuck you user!" like seriously i hate my petty existence so much at this point i dont even feel anger or sadness
just...numbness. empty. nothing.
i am beyond ashamed of my filthy being.
words cannot discribe how much i hate my life and everything i have done
i have no friends at all,no accomplishments,nothing
i have never achieved anything except for being a massive waste of space
of course,being the little faggot i am,im to much of a pussy to an hero
i serioulsly wish i had the guts to kms or else i would have done it when i was 14
im now 20
im just waiting for the heart attack to come anyday now and end my degenrate,pathetic existence

If you hate your appearance, do something about it. If you hate your surroundings, do something about it. If you hate your life, maybe it's time to start anew.

Make a date 2-5 years from now.
Write down how you want to be living life by that time
Don't be fucking retarded, make it realistic, example being: Job, own place, car, good income.

DON'T WRITE "GET GF" FFS Grow up.

Once you get yourself sorted other things like gf fall into place

If not make it to your goal in 5 years then make a 3 week goal to suicide

I'm on year 3 of my 7 year plan, (2025 END)
Still want to suicide every day, doubt i'll endure 2018, can't see myself making it to Sep.

>250lbs fat fuck landwhale
>ugly
>virgin (handholdless as well)
>everybody hates my outlook on life and my opinions
>"oh,your an athiest? fuck you user!" or "you dont like this blah blah your immoral fuck you user!" like seriously i hate my petty existence so much at this point i dont even feel anger or sadness
>i have no friends at all,no accomplishments,nothing
>i have never achieved anything except for being a massive waste of space

All of these things can be changed IF YOU WANT.

break the barriers. revert back to basic survival instinct if you have to. as long as you don't die, i will be happy, even if i don't know you, and even if nobody knows me. all i know is that you exist now, and that you are just as precious as every living thing. every living thing except wasps, fuck wasps.

>i dont even feel anger or sadness
>just...numbness. empty. nothing.
Sounds like you would benefit from taking an SSRI antidepressant.

It's all about attitude, dude. If you think shitty only shitty things will happen to you but, if you think positive, positive things will happen.

Hit the treadmill and start walking a lot.
Cut back on fast food and soda.
or try doing drugs.

Just do it, you fat fuck

tip: this is the worst possible place to say things like this unless you get turned on by people insulting you further

OP here
you faggots appear every time a OP makes a thread like these
we create these to show our intention that we have no hope and we dont want to get better
what im saying is fuck off,i dont want to be happier
im trying to be sadder

If your trying to be sadder then fuck off
Waste your fucking life
No one gives a shit if you post here, they are trying to help you and you don't want to, even though you hate your life.
If you want a worse life just get of this thread and continue with your shitty life you degenerate piece of shite
But if you wanna actually do something stay here and take their advice
God, ur so fucking retarded

And worst of all you can't even spell atheist.

>landwhale
so... tits or gtfo?

So what's the point of the thread, you blubber-butted boofhead?

oof

well, let me tell you, i'm on the other side

and it burns like hell

"what im saying is fuck off,i dont want to be happier
im trying to be sadder"

NO. What you are not saying is that you are a sad fuck who needs attention.

Go fucking kill yourself you absolute waste of space.

Trying to be sadder..... fucking joke of an excuse, just get off the net, turn lights out and close blinds, think of bad shit.

Paitence, you'll see.

take a huge loan and invest it all in bitcoin, either you will become rich and you can buy hookers, or you get even more fucked

No, you don't... You don't know what you WANT. You'll find out soon enough though.

You can still express your opinions on life without being too much of an ass.
Change your sorroundings, go for a walk in the park, stop eating junk food... Ask for help