There's nothing wrong with suicide. I give 0 shits about anyone and visa versa. I'm almost 23 and all I can say is fuck the rat race. Schools are retarded. I had an easiee time passing 26 units at once than passing one fing ap tests (never passed an ap test).
Fuck highschool for wasting my youth with general eds.
Fuck bachelors for being half ge classes (aka highschool classes except they cost a shit ton now)
Also,WHY the fuck are CCs so much cheaper than universities?Why not make it cheap the whole way through?
Fuck this world for being based on luck (aka genes and resources) instead of will power.
I need 6 surgeries and just one costs basically 50k. This alone makes me want to commit suicide.
I used to do 17k pushups in a month with 45 lb,lifted a 20lb dumbbell around 1800 times per arm (once every 2 sec per arm without stopping),got mvp of track,etc. The list is fucking enormous but long story short, I stopped for factors out of my control.
LONG STORY SHORT, FUCK THIS LIFE.
I REFUSE TO LIVE WITHOUT MY 6 SURGERIES.
Also,suicide is easy. The reason i can't do it yet is ONLY because I fear hell. Justifying my views is a somewhat longish post initself and I don't have the energy (but trust me,I use logic and not bullshit DOGMA).
LONG story short, I want to fucking die because I was emasculated.
My question here is WHY the fuck should I not kill myself? I said I feared hell too much but let's pretend I didn't. WHY should I stay?
If my suicide causes pain somehow, I give 0 shits. I am not interested in drugs or some diseased filled sluts (99% of females? Idk but most seem like disgusting sluts). Either way,even if i found a girl perfect for me,I see reproduction as the worst thing a human could ever do.
I also can make uo scenarios in my head (in other words, telling me to try 'x' won't cut it).
Tell me.
WHY should I give a shit about this life? There's no factual reason to give a care. I lost 6 years ago. I was stripped of my pride and it ruined me