Hey Sup Forums it is me the user that was asking for encouragement for killing my self a few nights ago...

Hey Sup Forums it is me the user that was asking for encouragement for killing my self a few nights ago, I decided I'd greentext the full story for you and you can make your own judgments whether I should an hero or not. So here it goes (also general feels thread)

>be me
>17ish bisexual
>junior in high school
>have 7.5/10 bf
>we love each other a lot
>happy as fuck and looking at schools
>in a group chat with two female friends of mine
>one is solid 7/10 athletic, swimmer, really nice
>other one is 9.79/10 long blond hair and really quiet
>dont think about her at all cause she so shy and im in love
>four of us only hang out every once and a while
>find out 9/10 is eating lunch in the bathroom because she has almost no friends
>find out she came from all girls school
>invite her to eat lunch with me
>at this point we had only talked in the group chat and never really connected in person
>sit at table with bunch of smart kids they mostly ignore us
>we talk to each other every day
>she plays the ukelele, draws and likes memes
>cant put into worlds how unique she really is
>cont??

Kill yourself fag

im continuing anyway

Go

>still with bf
>talking with 9/10 alot more
>(gonna call her Anna for simplicity)
>parents are religouse and hate gays
>valentines is coming up and I ask anna if she will be my beard
>says yes
>tell my family we're going out to dinner
>in reality going out with bf she drives me
>get her chocolates as a thank you for valentines day
>after this i start hanging out with anna and swiming girl a lot more often (swimming girl is her best friend)
>bf go on dates maybe once a month if that
>anna and I text every day
>send memes and shit back and forth and eat lunch together every day
>we start hanging out just the two of us she takes me into some corn feild by her house and into the woods
>talking about life and shit
>tells me she has a mental illness I won't disclose but its bad
>mfw

Probably some sort of paranoia or anxeity like i have. Makes it real hard to talk with people. You shouldnt worry about it though.

Its important to note and I completely forgot to mention that Anna doesn't know im a bi fag she thinks im completely gay anyway back to the story
>i tell her about my really bad depression
>we bonded alot after that day
>im stilll with bf
>hardly ever see him because im always hanging out with anna
>usally do somthing dumb like see a movie or go out into the corn and play truth or dare
>usaly just the two of us
>is now may anna invites me to see a musical at her old school
>shes really opened up since I got to know her
>I definatly have feeling but im blind to them becuse im still with bf
>we go to play about 45 minutes in the car
>thinking about kissing her the whole way
>bitch out cause im a fag
>say to my self "next time ill really do it"
>next time we hang out we go see la la land
>romance inspires me and i grow the fuck up i lean in and kiss her
>shes in absolute shock and i get out of her car and go home
>im half bata so I start freaking out
>tell her parents were watching and need to make it look real
>both knew that wasnt true

>next time we hung out I kissed her again
>she thinks im confused sexually
>after that one warm june afternoon we go and sit in her old tree house and watch and entire porno (sex trek if your interested ) on my phone
>stupid as fuck and try and kiss her then too
> she fucking dodged it
>look like an idiot but she thought it was funny
>by this time im ready to leave my bf
>but i dont know if she really likes me or not or if shes just leading me on
>get a text from her
"I want to take you to meme hell"
>im very confused
>turns out meme hell is stacked hay bails that her friend swan dived into (pic related)
>were climbing on them and I get stuck under the second layer
>takes me 45 minutes to get out
(i promise there will be sex bare with me)
>one of the funnies expreinces of my life
>now ready to get rid of bf for her
>start asking her about romance and shit like that
>we both know there tension between us
>truth or dare games geting more and more intimate but nothing too good yet
>asks her if she has any sort of feelings for me
>anna tells me that she doesnt have feeling for anyone and only experiances sexual atttraction but shes never had any sexual or romantic experiance
>I have no clue what to make of this so we pretened the conversation never happened

go onnnnnn

Come on, nigger; I need to sleep.

dude is late, are you gonna finish this or not???

Fuck it; this is too normie for me, anyway.
I'm going to bed.

Too late. You had your chance. Now fuck off.

>next time we hang out
>spend the whole day in the woods by her house
>mostly laying down looking up at the trees
>tell her we should play truth or dare
>she says okay
>things get kind sexual fast
>though I did have to eat a leaf
>at this point we've kissed and stuff
>she dares me to strip to my underwear to the care bare themes song
>i do
>shes wearing a dress I dare her to grind me to Vivaldi's four season (just spring)
>notices wet spot on my underwear thats not mine
>i look at her and kinda poke fun
>next dare I get her to strip all the way
>thats all the progress I made that day

Yes. Do it.

moar plsss

>>thats all the progress I made that day
>progress
Fucking degenerate.

forgot to mention the last truth of that day was "will anything ever be between us" she says not while I have a boyfriend"
>next day
>break up with boyfriend
>that weekend we go out to cousins farm
>find and abandoned house that was half buitl
>really nice actually, all beaufiful stone
>took her there cause on the way to the play she told me abandoned buidings were a turn on
>i ask her what should we do
>she doesnt know so i sugest truth or dare
>in no time flat were making out on an old wooden plank
>Shes stradaling me and I take off her shirt
>start kissing her neck
(im typing as fast as I can btw)

well type faster

( didnt think people were actually reading)
> after a while of hot shirtless make out i start rubbing her through her jeans
>look at her for aproval and concent
>she nods
>i keep going eventually i take her jeans off we struggled cause they were tight im right on her panties
>they looked like a panda and even had little ear flaps abov the ass
>she says stay above the panties
>we go like that for a while and then i get off the plank and put my face in her crotch
>i start eating her through her panties and then i take them off
>i look at her for aproval but shes just staring up at the celing
>start eating her out it goes on for litteraly 30 minutes cause it was my first time eating pussy
>but she cums
>she asks if she needs to do me now
>say she doesnt have to but it would be nice
>by this time i have heard what sounded like a car beeping is horn for 15 minutes ignor it

Keep it coming

Moar

Cmonnn

DELIVER OPPPP

>LITTY

>and then she farted!

>17

b&, at least graduate first so you can say you accomplished something in your pitiful life

hurry up pls

why
are
you
so slow

I promise this is a feels thread but i might not get though all of it tonight but ill make sure youve got the fap material
>anna starts kissing me again
>a little nevouse
>first time blown by a girl
>about to take my pants of when i reaize beeping is getting closer
>we were out for so long my cousin was looking for us
>dont get blown that day but its okay im patient
>next time we hang out its the fourth of july (this all took place in 2017 Sup Forumsros)
>at her house
>little sister in room
>her parants are outside somewhere
>shes showing me american horror story (great show btw)
>we get distracting kissing again
>but the show on pause 3 or four minutes of kissing and my hand is already on her vagina
just rubbing the outside try and stick a finger in and she says it hurts
>stick to the out side then
>get her on her back and start eating her out
>her pussy was nealtly trimmed but the hair was corse got brush burn from eating her out but worth it
> she finishes just in time
>im laying there staring with my face in it taking in the sights and smells at this poin she still has a dress on but no panties and her little 13 year old sister burst through the door i must have jusped 5 feet in the air
>(no this isnt loli bread)
>she tilts her head slightly kina like a puppy and asks what we were doing and anna stubles and pannics and says playing card

Then what fag?

hurry up fag

.... ;-;
hmm i just wished you typed faster

Switched to mobile btw
>sister just says okay and leave the room
>Anna is freaking out and says her sister will tell her parents
>try and calm her down and she relaxed a bit
>we had a lot more encounters like this like every week and I guess we were just FWB but I definitely had feelings for Anna,
She toyed with me saying she might have and she might not but I put up with it
>skip ahead about a month it's the end of July
>user I've been thinking and I want you to be my first time, you're really nice and even though we're not dating I want you
>by this this is had gotten fingers inside of her and she preferred penetration to oral
>I have also gotten head by this time
>day comes, just before a big trip where I'll be gone for two weeks
>no one is at her house
>we take a bath together using a lush bath bomb my bf got me for valentine's day
>start kissing her in the bath,
>holy shit first time with a girl
>Leads me into her room

DON'T SWITCH TO MOBILE YOU DUMB NIGGER IT MAKES YOU TYPE SLOWER REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

e.e so you just stop at the good part?

>start kissing
>then rubbing
>then licking
>I must add although I've only tasted one pussy her taste was sublime
>I ask Anna if she's ready, she gives me a little nod and whispers yeah,
>I put on the condom and go very slow inside of her,
>shes so fucking tight
>feels amazing
> she looks like she's in pain and I ask her if she wants to stop and see says no
>we must have fucked for 25 minutes case I couldn't cum right away
>ended up doing it 4 more times that day

Take a bath? This story is kind of gey

nigger this bitch is gay

Done greentexting cause it takes to long so now I can type faster for you

After I finally came I kissed her on the four head and smiled at her and she beamed right back at me. Fuck I think I might be in love with her so all through August we fucked more often then not on a blanket in the woods by her house I must have gotten a thousand mosquito bites that summer one time we fucked right next to rabbit shit. The school year came around its my senior year, we fuck about once a week, mostly on the weekend but as it got colder (I'm from the north east) we started to bang less, we still did hand stuff under the covers and we banged a few times in her car but it was less, then we took are trip down south, her family had a house there, she says the walls are like paper and we won't get a moment alone and if we get caught her dad will beat me to death

I forgot, what's your ex-boyfriend up to at this point?

wtf happened next

So I don't even bother bringing condoms but guess what happens we get alone time and she want to bang at first I was just going to eat her out and finger her, (with the cold whethere I got really good at fingering) but she wanted my dick so bad. We do one round where I finger her and she squinted on the mattress we were on, God she was so fucking sexy, and on the second go around I suggest I could put it in and stop while I was half way there, so I eat her out to get her a little bit more wet, I can taste the squirt and I'm in actual heven I get in position (we always did missionary cause she liked it) and I slip it in. And let me tell you that you have not lived up telling you have had unprotected sex, it was the smoothest softest most amaging thing I have ever felt, so I started pumping and I'm hitting her cervix and then I get half way and pull out and she pulls me close and says "no" don't stop

He offered to hook up with me a few times because he obviously he didn't knew I was with Anna but I said know because I have feeling for her

OOOOOOH SHIIIIT HE FINNA NUTT DEEP BOIIS

Long story short, turns out she was my adopted sister and I got her pregnant with our mongoloid babies. So what should I do /b?

awwwwwwww sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet

dude hurry the fuck up.

god damn this is long and boring get to the part where you wanna kill yourself for crying out loud, OP

>inb4 he gave her HIV

Lemme guess she either dies or gets raepd and kills herself

im guessing her dad finds out she's pregnant and makes her get an abortion, then her dad sues user for statutory.

So I wait a little bit and I put it back in and she's close, super close but so am I so it's a race to see who will come first she did, and as soon as she did I pulled out and blew my load all over her stomach, she starts freaking out asking me if I came inside her I didn't but there can be early swimmers so the next morning she told her parents we were going on a walk and we went pharmacy and bought plan B she takes it and we walk back anna is isn't any calmed and everything's alright, we get back and later that day her dad says he wants ice cream Anna and I thing it's cool and we go along for the ride and we pull into the very same pharmacy from that morning, I even made pleasa the conversation with the clerk so we're hiding our faces as we walk into the very same store we bought plan b in that morning. The trip was pretty good though Anna got a uti while we were there it cleared up in no time and we were back at our regular hand stuff, but only two more time, this is where it turns into a feels thread

I'll go for that one too

>Four head
Anna was a Hydra all along

What the fuck? There's no climax to this fucking story!

your doing good OP....
allot better than some of the trash i have seen recently.

I'm 18 now it's December we only get together 3 more times December 5th 10th and 17th, after the tenth something happed at this point I'm completely enfatuated with her, in love, I would die for her. We're texting one night I'm drunk I donth exactly know how the conversation went but I asked her if she had feelings for me and she told me know that she could only have feelings for women she's bisexual too and this point she knew I was think gay anymore. So in my drunken depressed stupor I started cutting she finds out that I cut but not why and she manipulates a confession out of me I told her how I felt about her and we both cried for an hour in her car. After alot of thought she decided we can still be together but I have to activly look for someone else, I agree We have sex one last time, we went to see the movie lady bird (great movie btw) the she drives us out to an industral park and we do it, Ifor i would have known it's the last time I would have cherished it but I didn't, I didn't even cum. She did I did everything I could to serve her for all those months, I spend hundreds of dollars on gifts for her

HURRY THE FUCK UP

that's it?

ok, so relationship ended, feels like the end of the world. You are a teenager, at least you had some teenage love, a lot of people dont get that. Just treat it all as a learning experience friend. Move on, suck it up, are you going to university or college? You'll meet other people. You may fall in love a few more times, being a teenager, but eventually you'll find something more real so relax.

fucking shit my bro....im sorry doode that sounds ouchy

I got a chick pregnant at 17 and thought I loved her. I convinced her to have an abortion then broke up with her. Imagine how that shit felt to her. At least you got off clean. Life is long as hell dude, you will meet a lot more 9/10s who will crush you just like her. Till eventually you meet a 5-7/10 and decide she's fucking perfect and settle down.

annnd sweetdubz

So the next week she says she want to take a break, that shes do dependent on me for validation, I say okay what ever you want, she insists it has nothing to do with my confession that night I cut again. Over christmass break she asks me how im doing and im honest with her after all you should be honest with those you love , and she starts blaming her self for all my mental instablitly and depression snd self harm, i tell her over and over again thst its not her fault. I kept cutting sober this time, it's had been a few weeks and we get back to school after Christmas break , she barley talks to me, Im doing my best to be a normal friend but anna still acting weird, (this was last week) I ask her what's wrong and she say that I make her too sad when i see her I ask her why I make her sad and Anna told me she had been on a normal couple of dates my heart froze

T H O T D E S T R O Y E D

funny how they always wanna be friends after they rip your guts out

if your ex bf loved you, and was as unstable as you, he probably feels the way you do now, so just realise that people get hurt, they mourn, grow and move on. Thats how life works my friend, this is your first heartbreak.

You need to stop fucking talking to this women, its destroying you. Trust me, I'm in a spot like you right now but your situation is mine turned up to 11. I have a pretty bad demon lover complex and it sounds like you do too.

so stop cutting, spend time with friends, exercise, do some hobbies you enjoy. Hell tell your parents about it, believe it or not they have probably gone through the same thing, they may be able to help you.

I knew exactly who it was, a close aquatence of mine, but I still tried to be friendly I still tried to to the right thing I ask Anna if we can be still be friend and she essentialay says no, I make her too sad, I've got bat shit at this point I drove to the woods by her house and left flowers, to mourn the part of me that died the i went all over my town actually and now she thinks im. A creepy and a stalker I can't live without her Sup Forums she's dating a nigger who used to be my friend and she still pretends to care im planning to kill my self Sunday because i can't live without her she was my whole life so it's been nice knowing you Bros I hope you got a good nut out my life's destruction

i have never heard that term before user, demon lover complex???
wanna know moor.

hahaha oh god, you have no idea how many times ive heard exactly the same story. Just keep going bro, you'll get over it eventually.

>I hope you got a good nut out my life's destruction
that shit gave me a giggle
but for real though, stop being a bitch, there's more to life than your highschool sweetheart, fag.

She was my fucking soul mate but I wasn't hers, this is my story b I loved and lost and now im gonna end it all, as Anna would say "shit, man"

OP I really wanna talk to you tbh, lemme know if you gotta kik

don't kill yourself faggot...
ik it hurts.... but it will look different in time..
its just a thing bro.
i promise it will pass dude.
we can talk in discord if you want..but dont die cuz if a grill

Don't kill yourself.....yet


Do a mass shooting drag as many fuckers to hell as you can

She is a thot but...
>Feel really bad for someone, cut myself
> She says that she felt guilty and horrible and blame herself for that. And that She doesn't want me to hurt me anymore
>Cut myself again
>???
>Profit

no she fucking wasnt, you are a dumb as fuck teenager who thinks the one girl he has been into was his "soul mate". It was hormones, attraction and acceptance that you liked, and now its gone. Listen my friend, people have been going through these things for a long time now, others have survived, unless you are a complete pussy you will survive too. Talk to your friends, your family, do some other things, this pain will pass in time.

if she was your soul mate... you two would be together...
she is a beautiful stepping stone on your journey to find your soup mate...
for forget the beautiful times....cherush then and this feeling...
be grateful you had the chance to feel love doode

I'd also like to add I tried to get a rebound tinder date but she saw a picture of my face and canceled our date immediately and that's as funny as it is sad

Its a thing my old highschool english teacher used to say, it means someone you cant get out of your head.

After saying she could only love women, then going after another guy is pretty fucking cold man. It hurts to point it out but either she is heinous or indecisive and has no self confidence. And trust me, hope its the first one. My situation is option 2 and I dont wish it upon anyone.

That said, go talk to her one more time, give her an ultimatum, she will say no, and you will be better off for it, and have some closure.

Id let OP smash tbh

Oh no, my gf left me, what im gonna do now. Because, I loved those 17 years of my life with her. Uuuuh
Stop being a teenager for a second, an think like an adult. It was only a relationship, and she told you the whole time that she wasn't looking for a serious relationship. Search for a hobby man. Like Speedruning, or compilate memes. Or learn to draw. You know, things that people who used to be depressed do

how do you know? you havent seen OP

ya if it's any consolation id fuck u op...
and dont fucking kill yourself homo.

>be me
>17ish bisexual
>giant weeb
>feel sad and want people to say i'm special
>have no social awareness to speak of so coming up with a plausible social situation to share is next to impossible
>idea.jpg
>concoct a story by plucking from every high school anime stereotype I can think of
>post it on Sup Forums because the people I know in real life know I'd be lying and my reddit account is full of comments on /r/anime and /r/hentai_gifs
>wait for people to eat my bullshit story up

kys for sure

This. Great experience you have made there. Don't look on it with anger or sadness. Be happy that you've made it. There will be others lasting longer relationships.

Who tryna talk on kik tho?

What kind of ultimatum would I give her she really likes this asshat and she seems happy so I've been leaving her alone, I still love her and want her to be happy

>Found her Kik
>Spam her, picture of people cutting himself
>???
>Profit
I'm up with that

dude don't do that...
you will look pathetic....
just move on.... she will never respect you if you beg brosephine

She changed back and fourth from yes feelings to no feelings several times but I let my self get this attached to her it's no one's fault but my own im not looking for sympathy

Hoes be trippin bro. Whenever you think it’s the end of the line, it never is. Where do u live btw? I want to keep an eye on local news for research purposes.

Op this girl doesn't really sound worthy enough to make you end your life.
The best thing to do is to just move on. Hell, you should use this experience as motivation to stride for a better life and surpass what your ex had become!

im mean it doode....we can talk on discord if u want just don't kill yourself....
ik it is painful....but bro i swear to gid it will pass and look totally different.... that feel will always be there ya....but in time you will understand it differently......
that's growing up brosephine

Bro thats what you call a rebound, remember that whole "self validation" thing? Now its that guy. Hasnt it only been like 30 days since you two "broke things off"? Just fucking tell her you need to know if there is anything left between you. Hopefully she says no. If she says anything other than no, tell her you love her and want to hear her say it back. If she wont drop her like the bag of rocks she is and move on.

To be honest though you probly blew it with the cutting shit. Dont do that ever again. And certainly never tell anyone about it in the future, never ever (unless its a shrink). People will treat you differently for the rest of your life of the figure that one out,.

>I still love her and want her to be happy
You need to fix that.

And as you just turned 18, arnt you likely to be moving away soon anyways? College?

Nah who gives a shit what she thinks, screw her, he needs to do this to clear her from his head.

I had cut before that and she was upset but it didn't damage our relationship as for when she wanted a break it was over then, nothing i could say or do or not say and not do could bring her back because as soon as she was done with me that nigger swooded her up off her feet

Also were moving to the same city