I am deeply deeply depressed, and i'm not sure how to get out of this current rut i'm in

I am deeply deeply depressed, and i'm not sure how to get out of this current rut i'm in.

My next psychologist appointment isn't for another 18 days, and i'm not really sure how to handle myself until then.

Any tips? What do you do when you're feeling so bad all you want to do is crawl up in your bathtub and never leave it?

slit your wrists and use your blood as lube for your horse dildo

>psychoLOGist

I usually go for a run when I feel myself slipping. If that doesn't work I talk to my family about it or go hang out with my friends to distract myself.

I typically come here and look at political threads and YLYL thread honestly. It's worked for three years.

Man, it'll pass. No feeling is for ever. I know this isn't overly helpful but it's what I keep telling myself when I feel that way.

Other than that, find something to do that's distracting. Something productive hopefully...

I do exactly this too.

Also I believe in you dude. You're strong enough to overcome this.

Just got back from an hour long walk - I guess I'll take another one and just go sit in a park or something.

Political threads on here make me want to shoot myself. And I'm not even depressed.

Not OP but I have the same issue. Except no dr apt. I get the hanging with friend stuff and whatnot, but what about at nighttime? Just you alone with your thoughts. Friends asleep. Forums dead. Work/school in the morning. What do /b?

I usually play games and listen to podcasts. That way I'm focused on something instead of letting my mind wonder.

well if its bothering you that much you could probably call ahead and ask to be moved up the nearest available date. Theres also the suicide hotline. Sometimes just dumping all your inward bullshit on to someone can help.

Lately i've been getting more and more annoyed by my friends. I've just started disliking them all for basically no reason at all. I can feel myself pushing away from them - and everything they do and say just fucking gets on my nerves. I don't want to talk to them about anything, I don't want to even talk to them period.

A major part of learning to control anxiety is self imposed inhibition. That means stopping yourself actively.

One thing i found incredibly helpful during my therapy was finding a comfortable spot and just looking at somethin but without moving a muscle. Once you start, if you feel anything, discomfort, an itch whatever, you dont move but you simply experience whatever it is that comes up. If you can stop the ongoing thoughts then even better.

It's different to eyes closed meditation in that its more like discipline rather than meditation

Look up Ketamine for depression. There's a lot of evidence that therapeutic doses over a few weeks can cure depression.

Obviously, don't just take a whole bunch at once expecting your depression to go away. Be smart and do a bunch of research.

>Ketamine

I live in Australia. I can Get Weed and oils really easily - shrooms and LSD very occasionally, MDMA probably really easily, cocaine if I want to pay 300 a gram, but ketamine, honestly, i've never once heard of anyone selling it. I'd have no idea where to start.

try binge watching comedians on youtube. Do everything you can to laugh the pain away, it can actually work. If you listen to music, look over your playlist and get rid any sad deppressing shit, even if you like it. Its only going perpetuate your anxiety. Listen to more uplifting shit, even if it means trying out normie pop shit, its popular because it generally makes people feel good. Also stiop watching porn for abit, try to limit your faps to once every few days.

get a hobby. I know it's hard with depression but when you find one, it keeps your mind occupied. That's how depression wins. It overtakes you. I did it with chess and music.

You don't want it anyway. K eats holes in your brain meats and is super addictive. Just live day by day, keep busy. I tried to kill myself 3 times in my teens and eventually found that just by changing my thinking to be more positive my overall disposition is happier. An important thing to realize is that you have to want to change - when you're depressed you'll feel like you deserve to be unhappy, meaning you avoid happiness, which feeds your depression. You'll push people away and then take the fact that they don't like you anymore as proof that you're unlikable. It's all self defeating bullshit.

what is your daily routine?