Just did my yearly browse of my ex-girlfriends social media...

Just did my yearly browse of my ex-girlfriends social media. Where I check in and see how their lives have been in the past year.

>all in their 2nd / 3rd marriages now.
>another kid added in their families, so on kid 2 to 3.
>successful jobs and successful husbands
>seem extremely happy and well off in life
>More attractive than they were when I was with them and they were out of my league then.

While I'm on the other hand
>loser who can't even socialize with anyone these days, so I have no friends.
>About to hit 29 years old and no kids, get looked down upon by family as the only one without them.
>haven't worked for going on five years, can't get hired anywhere local.
>chronic depression, anxiety, and extremely poor.
>gaining lots of weight and aging like spoiled milk.

Anyone else know similar pain?

No.

No, I have a comfy bank job and love my life.

Trainwrecks. Plan a harem

Probably haven't even had a gf, if that's the case. Lucky you user.

Continue that LARP user.

I wish, how do you suppose I go about it?

Seems like you don't have much going for you. But no kids is a good thing they would only be a drain on the resources you don't have.

If you had a wife and son now but still no job and depression you would just feel worse for letting them down.

As a 30 year old fat guy it might be odd to take my advice but start running or hell even walking listen to some tunes or podcasts while you do just don't sit and stagnate in front of a computer it will only make things worse

Nope. Sorry op I'm 23 and making 140k a year plus made a shitload on crypto and have a qt 9/10 gf who lives with me and sucks the depression away from my dick. Good luck tho

>my yearly browse of my ex-girlfriends social media
>yearly
If you are having annual stalking dates like ormal people have birthdays you need to re-evaluate your priorities. The past has passed you beta.

Yeah, I wouldn't want to be a dead-beat dad.

My dad wasn't there for me growing up so I know the pain of being disappointed in a father.

Yeah, I'd like to start going for walks this Spring, I have a somewhat decent camera for a poor guy and thought about taking some pictures as a hobby.

Also I don't have a driver's license. Thought I added that starting out the thread but I guess I didn't.

Do something about it.

Why lie on Sup Forums if you aren't trying to make people laugh?

...

Yeah, more LARPing going on tonight.

Yeah, I'm a fucked up case user.
Every February 1st since 2006 I've been doing this. As I first started dating in 2005.

You have any suggestions for someone who can't even get a job in fast food nearly 30 years old?

>Hey user wanna hang out this thursday?
>OH MAN would if I could but I gotta check on my exes to see if their lives are worse than mine so I can feel better about myself or cry myself to sleep. I'm free on sunday though

Be rich as fuck. Do it in another country.
You can see a pattern here 3rd 2nd marriage is trash material no matter the money they married or the job they fucked into. I heard the cuck thing is popular.

>February 1st since 2006 I've been doing this
Why do I sense this isn't an artistic work of fiction presented as fact and I am replying to a true wizard?

The stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.

Get off this shit heap of a site and remove yourself from a situation where you are seeking sympathy from the least likely to sympathise with absolutely anything. Then you’ll be right

You're single guy with an apartment stupid. Id go full faggot on keeping my youth and not being a stepdad to any little shits. Living with Bitch plus kids equals guaranteed jail time or prison. Fuck that.

It's self destructive behavior. The only reason op hasn't done anything in his life is because he keeps doing shit like this. He intentionally destroys his moral so he can have an excuse to himself for not getting off the internet.

See a counsellor/life coach if you're seriously that beta and serious about change

Otherwise join the military

Why are you on Sup Forums

no

Wish I even had online friends, the only people who talk to me is on anonymous imageboards.

I'd fake some cuck porn on a serious level though. I don't care to watch two people fuck in front of me if I could get a paycheck.

Well it's all true except I messed up the whole wizard thing. I actually had sex with these exes. Then again the last ex was back in 2012 so my last 6 years hasn't been very impressive as you can see.

So much LARP

Yes. Stop trying to get people to solve your problems. Everything that's happening to you is your own doing and you alone are responsible for your life. There's never an excuse for being broke, fat or a beta faggot. Want money? Get a job, want looks? Work out and dress better, want a gf? Do the first two things. Life isn't easy but don't make it harder on yourself.

Good plan. Wait till the weather improves go for walks look for cool shit take some pictures, upload them somewhere visible, it might not lead to anything but it could get you some new friemds, a new social group where you don't have to think about girls you dated years ago

I like conversations and you anons are the only ones who will talk with me. Sad, but very true. Hard to leave here when no one wants anything to do with me.

>apartment
I never said anything about living in an apartment. I did live in a one bedroom apartment till last Summer though.

those of you who dont want to believe things like this are miserable and arent ready to handle a successful life with insecurities bowling over. im a loser, we get it. Get up and get some of your own, instead of denying the possibilities

The reason you are where are is you've probably had a decent life six years ago and you often wonder where did that version of yourself go and why you are who you are today. You're not stalking your exes because you care about them, you know you don't. What you're looking for in their lives is the older version of yourself, you're stalking your exes looking for it.

I'm not going to lie I do have an internet addiction the only thing that really "combats" it. Is when I smoke weed I get my mind off of things and end up playing some of my PS1 games laying around. I'm too poor to get any new games and literally still have games I had as a kid a lot of them are starting to not read now though.

I'm trying to get you to understand that you need to get the fuck out and you're talking to me about video games and weed. There's no hope for you.

I couldn't handle the military.

But I am in the process of trying to get my medical card back so I can go see a psychologist.

Internet companionship really for the most part, like I've mentioned a couple of times before in this thread. I have zero interaction with peers or even online friends. I have small interaction with a few family members who all hate me and that's it.

>Get a job
Do you know how many times I hear this a week?
I literally put in a whole wave of applications even to shitty fast food jobs every single weekend. I've been doing this since 2014 and I've had three interviews of which I never got a call back for. I can't even get a job in fast food. I don't understand it.

>Work out
I told another user in this thread, that I would like to get out and walk around come this Spring and maybe take some pictures with my camera as a hobby.

Yeah, how is DeviantART these days? I used to use it back in the mid to late 2000s.

YOU cuco them. Talk to the husband.

That definitely puts some deep thoughts into things. You also make a very good point and it makes sense.

>I would like to

Lmfao go fuck yourself. Nothing is stopping you you're just a lazy piece of shit who think life owes him something and everything will simply happen to him one day. You have no idea how lucky you are living in a country full of opportunities and open doors and you should use them. I've read your posts and all I've seen was excuses. You're a toxic person Op you're bad for society and you're bad for your family but more importantly you're bad for yourself. I do not condone suicide and I'd actually go to jail considering my title for saying this. But fuck it, if you can't get things to work out for you. Kill youself.

get a job is bad advice. yes. been there done that. Do you know what I'd tell you user? Get confident. Keep a daily journal, decide what you like about yourself, build on those strengths and the next time you get a job interview keep in mind what is FUCKING AMAZING about yourself and your interviewer will see it shine though you. By all means man get out and exercise, At first It's hard to make yourself, later It's hard to stop, as it is with any habit's you can force into being a lifestyle, even better if you have a passion to go alongside it (your photography) It gives you a reason ato get out and just do it.

Props man your putting things in place to fix your life and looking for help to do so. That's literally all it takes.

>Get confident

>No job
>No social skills
>No good physique
>No outdoor activities or interesting hobies.

Confidents comes from doing things that are self improving you fucking idiot.
He can't sit around and say fuck it I'm going to be confident

and don't fucking listen to this dick. They don't realise that negativity breeds negativity and will never help anyone or thing. I've been in your shoes OP It's hard when all anyone will do is tell you your filth and useless and blah blah .ect even though your trying your hardest. first comes intention next comes action. just because your still at the "I would like to" stage doesn't mean you aren't putting in the work you need to. "I would like to" is a damn sight better than "I just can't be fucked"

and does confidence necessarily have to come from the limited points you've brought up? Or can his confidence come from his desire to be better? or any one of a million things? confidence isn't limited by your scope of experience, and excess negativity, like in your stupid post doesn't generate confidence.

>don't listen to this dick

>makes almost exact point this dick is making

Some meanies but also some great advice here

I've attempted suicide before, also try being original.

First off I like your post, you're way better than the asshole above your post.
Secondly, that is a good idea. I used to enjoy writing when I was younger as well. My mom when she was still alive that was her passion and she was very happy about me being interested in it as well. Definitely seems like it would be good as well to put together with my photography. Maybe could even use the writing with my photography to keep up a blog even if no one reads it maybe for self purpose or to just set up my own "creative journal with photography" privately as well to save on my hard drive.

>20 year old virgin with self harm scars
>Trump made it so i can get a medical waiver and join the army, because I'm too poorfag to pay for school and need the discipline
>going to go army medic 68W, serve for a bit, then leave and become a paramedic/nurse

Things are going well for me OP, guess im not going to end up like you

Congrats, I hope you make it. I don't think anyone should end up like me but there sure are a lot of "us".

It can't come for desire because desiring something and doing something are different things. Confidence comes from putting yourself in situations where you're usually vulnerable and try to hold it together as much as you can over and over until you're comfortable in those situations. Confidence comes from testing the limits you've set for yourself. Like " I can't talk to girls" what does this person need to do? Talk to as many girls as he can until he's comfortable around them. "I'm insecure about my body" we all are most of the time we all fear our flaws, some try to hide them which is the "fake it until you make it" solution while others work on their flaws and turn them into points of strength. Op said that his problems were a job (money) a girl and his body. So he'll only gain the confidence he needs by solving at least one these issues.

I'm saying that because I've been there.

Do you have any artistic hobbies?

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Stop watching Disney

I hope they find your weeb folder during basic

Yes and this will go on and on and your life will become Groundhog Day and it will never end and time will stand still and you will hit 30 and then 40 and...

I don't know how much longer I can do this. I lost the love of my life a few years ago and have never been able to get it together since. But honestly I had only been faking it up until her. She broke me and I'm now almost 42.

I have no degree, no life, no wife, no family, just family money and comfort and a dog and a roommate. This is a hell so hellish I could never have imagined it nor believed I could let myself get there.

I know on some level it is still salvageable, maybe dreams are even still possible, but I also know my anxiety and depression will always hunt me and haunt me.

I used to do a lot of different creative hobbies such as drawing and painting. YouTube videos too, I was pretty decent at editing videos but I never really got anywhere only a couple hundred subscribers. I did some short films and then worked with a couple of a friends who also was interested in film making and just other various types of videos back then. I used to create music for flash animators on NewGrounds in the mid 2000s. It wasn't anything special though mostly just background music like ambiance, beats, and loops. But I did make a couple of songs I was kind of proud of. And even had a music project back in the MySpace days. Also posted earlier that I used to use DeviantART to post photography and various works of art that I did. So I did a little bit of this and that. I was probably my most happiest when I was creative however when I wasn't able to afford equipment anymore and my PC died. Everything started getting worse. I'm literally using a HP Stream laptop leeching wi-fi at the moment.

This post actually frightened me.
I definitely don't want this to be me.

Easiest way to get back on your confident side is to pick these hobbies up again.

Yeah, truly makes me almost hell bent on getting a new PC to try to change things around. I just wish I could figure out a way to afford to get what I need to start doing videos again as well as just anything creative. I think a lot of my depression is from lack of expressing myself through my work. Even though I didn't really but pennies for my work I enjoyed it. And it gave me a purpose.

This website is designed to breed people like OP

I honestly feel like Sup Forums can be good for some people. But very harmful to others.

As long as you're not shitposting and being somewhat serious and engaging people in true conversations, that I believe was the original intentions for the website being made.

I can't say that I know your pain because I'm somewhat younger than you, but I can tell you that I've gotten in some kind of endless loop of feeling like shit and doing nothing. To avoid elaborating my situation too much: I was essentially too anxious to go to a store and I would get into depressive episodes when I would feel like there's an echoing cave in my chest.

Anyway, my boyfriend eventually made me go see a psychologist who redirected me to a psychiatrist. I was given antidepressant (which also works as an anxiolytic), minor dose of antipsychotic and an anxiolytic that I now use when needed. I can say that my life has gotten much better.

So, my point being - go and see a professional; either a psychologist or psychiatrist depending on what do you think you need more. If you do decide to go to a psychiatrist and you get the meds, you should know that they aren't magic pills that will make your life better. They "just" help you do things that will make your life better in the long run.

So, anyway, that's my two cents. Good luck m8.

Sup Forums was made to post underage hentai you idealist autist. Why waste time guessing when you can find out facts? Lurk more before your next post.

Thanks, and I hope you're also able to pull through your situation as well.

I just yesterday filled out a paper to try to get my medical card back to do just that. Planning on trying to get it turned in actually in a couple of hours. I might as well not even go to bed, it'll be daylight soon and the office will open up.

Don't worry OP all these fucks that claim there better than you and have great jobs and love there life are all suffering in some way. Some even worse than you. I know it's hard to not give up hope but you'll get though it man. All these cunts that brag about how great and successful there lives are should tell you how awful a human being they are.

I'm happy you're here OP. You are valuable.

Thank you user, means a lot to me.

I agree with 90%. No one is valuable though. Too many of us. But misery loves company so welcome aboard lol.

Keep us updated on how things user.
These were my replies.

How can I keep everyone updated?

By being a huge faggot on Sup Forums

Feel right into that one.

I guess I could post again, I'm sure someone here probably would know it's me.

I'll keep my eyes open for a thread as gay as this one OP

Fugg just entered my mid 20s.I need to get my act together asafp, I don't wanna end up like you.

Definitely don't want to.
What's your current situation?

>exgf social media
>yearly browse

Ya dun fucked up, OP, I'm glad I'm not that pathetic

I assume that your ex-girlfriends are roughly as old as you, so at 29 they're going through their second or third marriage and they have TWO TO THREE fucking kids?

Their lives are hell. Living hell. God, you are so lucky user.

>seem extremely happy
>seem

It's all smoke and mirrors on social media. Don't buy it. Don't look at their stuff anymore and try to not see it as a competition.

I always dated younger.

They're mostly between 26 and 24 now. When I was 18 I dated 13 to 15 year olds. Girls my age didn't want anything to do with me nor did we ever have anything in common other than our initial age.

You want women to waste their youth instead of pumping out babies?

Because that's how you tank a demographics' fertility rate

Two of them lost a kid
One to whatever that baby sickness is, and the other one's dog got a hold of the baby.

Then two other exes have kids with down syndrome.

Bullshit.. would you be happier if you stuck with them?? No.. women are dead weight.. be grateful some other sucker is working to keep them rich

Why hello there friendo, mind telling me more about these girlfriends?

You dodged a fair few bullets there

read I honestly don't know how I'd feel about having a kid right now if I was in a good place. I'm not 100% against it. I just don't want to be a dead-beat dad. I'd want to give a kid the best I could.

I don't really miss them exactly or desire to be with them. I just have an impulse to keep up with what's going on in their lives once a year. It's almost on the level of OCD about it. This made 12 years now.

Parents never had a problem with me. I looked very young, if I could lose the weight that looks like a beer gut and shave my neckbeard I could probably still pass as 18 - 20 years old.

I even lived with the 14 year old when I was 19. Her dad wasn't in her live and it was just her mom and her older sister who I went to school she knew me and said I was "okay".

They even walked in on us having sex multiple times. I guess honestly I was just lucky for the most part that it didn't end up any legal drama.

Relax, as a man, you can wait, your fertility doesn't plummet in your mid-30's

Yeah, I really did. It made me think because at one time I was 100% sure that if I had a kid with some of these exes that the baby would be perfectly fine. I personally don't think I could handle a baby that had something wrong with it such as down syndrome. It would absolutely kill me.

Or you would absolutely kill it

My dad was 38 when I was born.

Yeah, I would be for abortion if it was found out in early stages.

And your mother?

21.

There you go, my mother was 22 when she had me, my father was 20, I'm 22 now, and I have no kids, and I don't plan to have kids anytime soon

I can't get over kids now days as well as people turning 18. Most of them think it's cool to have kids soon as possible. As well as they think their kids won't want an "old fossil" as a parent.