Alright Sup Forums, after too much mother fucking time on this website I have to ask you a question, despite being fully aware it is the worst place to do so.
4 years ago I was a recovering addict high school dropout working a minimum wage job to have enough money to keep the lights on. I decided I wanted to go to college to try to gain skills to enable me to have a better quality of life, and yes I know, it's not the best route for everyone, but I felt like it was the best route for me. I'm 2 semesters away from graduating from undergrad school, and I have doubled my pay, gained, work experience that will enable me to have a decent safety net with room to grow, and I'm still not happy. The reason I'm not happy is because I actually saw benefit in school and because I'm working all the time still, I can't focus on school. My major is software development and I feel like it's important for me to focus on developing some solid applications to have in my portfolio for starting my career, but I end up skipping all my homework assignments except the easiest/shortest ones to get them over with because I'm so overwhelmed with my job. I'm a "part-time" computer repair technician working 32+ hours every week. I am seeing my colleagues and classmates developing some great code and moving into very successful positions, I just don't know how they financially bought the time to do so. The case, it seems to me, is that they all have families capable of supporting them so that they don't have to work. My issues in life, of course, go beyond financial, but that is always my biggest concern. I've been broke, I've seen low, and I'm not there anymore and don't ever want to return there. I feel like I need to quit either my school or my work to advance my career or stabilize my finances so that I can ensure my financial security in the future. I don't know what to do. I feel like I should either quit my job, drop out, or commit suicide. What do I do?