Sup Forums, I need some advice

Sup Forums, I need some advice
I work as a freelance artist doing +18 illustrations and comics, I have a patreon and Im somehow a known person on the internet but I prefer to stay anonymous.

>Been with my gf for 5 years
>She had sex with another guy, found out by another person. Im currently devastated.
>Problem is I cant draw porn anymore, everytime I try I have to stop because I feel sick
>I couldnt reach the minimum amount of work during january

What would you do? Do you know any solutions? Im regretting more and more to have started drawing porn

your art is about to get real edgy faggot.

Just draw some hentai with tentacles and shit. The more alien the better. That way you get paid by some weird fuckos and so you dont feel sick with that sick penor + vag stuff

channel your feelings into your work
draw pictures that express how you feel about what happened

Doing erotic art or focusing on the girls body could be the way. Some other people advised me to start doing furry or /d/ things, but honestly I dont feel like working on that

Now I wish I had a random office job

I'd love to hear this Disability Iterview, mfw.

>guro incoming

is that you, sinner?

Hey can you send me ur patreon

Start drawing cuck porn. Embrace being a cuck.

Go read the sidebar in /r/theredpill

+1 for u

dump the bitch and start focusing on work?

you, bro, are triggered.

here is a formula, perform in a quiet safe place, one where you can scream and maybe even shed a tear or two.

1. When you try to draw some porn, what emotion do you feel ?

examples:


mad - angry - something you need is threatened to be changed or taken away

sad - something you need is gone. lost, taken. too late to be angry.

glad - you got or are getting something you need.

afraid - you and your sense of well being are at risk, or the risk is getting real and imminent, or happening now.

guilt - you did something wrong, against an agreement, or moral code.

shame - you are wrong inside, something about you causes you to do wrong things and that's just how it is.

numb - you don't feel anything cause disconnected, could be so overwhelmed with feelings that the switchmaster hit the circuit breaker.

WHICH OF THESE FEELINGS ARE YOU FEELING ? as you attempt drawing ?

2. WHERE IN YOUR BODY DO YOU FEEL THEM ? describe to yourself, if these feelings were objects, or textures, or substances, etc, in your body what they would be like, and what color they wold have, and MAYBE what sound or words they would present or say.....

(this is all about getting an association with your feelings state)

Now that you got all that... take your time, should take 2 to 20 minutes to get that.

Ask yourself WHAT IS THE EARLIEST TIME that you had this same experience, or one very very close ?

go all the way back to little child if that ever happened...
what do you feel IN YOUR BODY ?

it could be nothing, just notice where the nothing is. It could be any kind of sensation-I won't give a list cuz reasons, trust me, this has to come purely from your inner space.

once you identify what you are feeling and what part of your body you are feeling it in: it could be multiple feelings in different places, or one feeling in multiple places...let it flow and accept the feeling space you have.

Now notice waht

Cont'd soon

Now notice what its is like to have all these feelings, and listen to inner voices and notice if there is a sound or words that go with the feelings.

It is important to take what comes, and not judge, because where you are now is not the context to interpret them. remember, make the sound and say the words a few times, if there is any of that.

Now REMEMBER the EARLIEST TIME you were in this feeling state. If this is gonna work for you it is gonna be real early in your life, or, on rare occasion, earlyish and a reallly strong event. But go for earliest.

Once you remember the earliest time, imagine from memory where you were, who was there, and what was happening. Include where your guardians/parents were, and anyone in the family.

Now recount to yourself the story of what happened that day that led to you feeling that way....

Fire up tinder, go out and get your dick wet.

Come home and draw.

If this doesn't work go back to step 1 and repeat until it does work

For each person who figured prominently by what they did, or by there absence:
What did you judge about them about what they did/did-not do

Done with that list?
What did you judge about the world ?
like the world is -blank- and -blankety blank-, etc.


Finally, what did you judge about yourself ?
like -I am blank and blankety blankety blank-


Now let yourself say whatever comes, nobody judging here, just you and yourself.

seeing how you judged people prominent in your life around what happened, and how you judged the world, and yourself.... do these judgments have play in your life today ? Do These JUDGMENTS have Play in YOUR LIFE TODAY? (if not this didn't work, restart of let it go and see a shrink).

If they do, ask yourself if you want to do something about it....Answer honestly, cause if you want to, it matters.

Good, you want to rewrite the script.

Now look at yourself at this young age, look at young user... ask yourself, what does user TRULY need... I'll tell you now it probably isn't a kick in the face, figure it out.

If you let yourself have a soft heart, you'll know when you got it right.

Now ask yourself, what will you do about that if you were there all those years ago....

And what will you do today ?


Then look at what just happened with the GF, and figure out what the fuck really happened in side you, and what Present-user, and Young-user really need to deal in this world.

Artist here,

I'd personally just copy porn and push through it.

How did you get noticed in art? Any advice for an artist who is thinking of posting work online? I want to try and transition from pure hobbyist to making a little money on the side, but i have no idea how to.

The whole process takes about 45 minutes to infinity, if you have to break off and come back to it.

You might find a description or 40 on the web, but not in the -this is just about you- text I just typed out....but you might find something better....up to you if you will look right away.


I wish you well

>I'd personally just copy porn and push through it.

if you copy, you will feel things too...draw and have the feelings. You might to great or shitty work until the feelings know they have come home and are welcome within you.

Pushing feelings away will kill your art.

Are you still with your gf?

If you are, you need to move in immediately. Your care way more than she does if a) she fucked another dude and b) it's mentally incapacitated you from doing your job

Wut? It's drawing, not everything you do needs to be imbued with feeling.

Post your work?

unless you are drawing a sqare with a ruler, you are sourcing your unconscious. that is where the feelings bubble up from.

If you are doing any creative work, feelings are in the mix, as an aid or an obstacle.

calling it a 'block' is just labeling it, and not dealing with it.

myself, I've been grieving for a long time, and know the same kind of issues. Unfortunately the cure is to divorce my wife, and I have refused to do that, and continue to suffer the block.

>draw porn

found the problem.

I think it's time you sort your shit out.

Drawing porn is a serious sin because those drawings make edgylords fap. Also, those drawings may outlive you. Noone will actually appreciate you when you die, even if they fapped to your pics like there was no tomorrow. Also, it's funny you get money on patreon. Those people had the chance to spend their money on decent things (say a pizza or a pair of shoes) and instead chose to slowly waste it into porn. You literally helped them to waste their money and their penises.

So it's reasonable to think that entering the Cuck Club was your reward. You had a talent, you wasted it to sell porn. You had a girlfriend, you let her taste some foreign dick. Surely she considered you were too busy drawing porn and fapping. Surely she was sick to be your supplementary sex toy. Surely she was shameful to tell her friends "my bf makes some pocket money by drawing puny porn shit". You totally deserved this.

Also, it's been a long time she's been planning to dump you - you're lucky she took her time. Either you let her dump you, or you accept the fact that she's gonna dump you anyway, even if she cries "forgive me plox" (and it will be even harder for you).

Well, then. Sort your shit out. Use your talents for something less Jewish than selling porn. Go 100% nofap and 100% noporn, in a few weeks you'll already see results.