Should I end it all Sup Forums?

Should I end it all Sup Forums?

>18
>Depressed since I was 15
>Medication makes things worse so I'm on my own
>Never had a gf
>Girls aren't interested in me
>Lost all my friends from isolating myself 2 years ago
>Have to ask people to invite me places
>Hate my job
>Borderline autistic

Seriously like my parents would probably be slightly bothered but nobody else gives a shit and my life hasn't gotten any better. What the fuck is the point in carrying on if it's just like this forever?

>inb4 kys faggot

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do a barrel roll

This will hardly be a revelation to you, but think of it this way; you die, it's all over. You failed. There's no do over. You don't get a stats screen or a review of your life, you go into the empty nothingness.

Or you keep going at life. Find things that make you happy. Do those things regularly. Work on improving yourself. Don't enjoy improving yourself? Don't do it. Who cares? It's your life, do whatever you want.

Think about the things you enjoy doing in life. When you die, it's all over. That's what keeps me going.

No shitposting in hell user.

I can't figure out anything that makes me happy. I've been fighting this battle so long and it just doesn't seem to end

get a fucking hooker dude

Do you listen to music? Watch movies? Play videogames? Try to get therapy, someone to talk to.

Also get off this website, or at least this board.

Honestly considering it mate

I listen to music sometimes, not too much. Movies not so much. Video games rarely. I go to counselling but my counsellor just pushes for me to get an aspergers diagnosis and doesn't care about much else.

Sup Forums probably doesn't help things

Try to find a project or goal to work towards, maybe travelling. I have no experience with hookers, but I don't think that's the way to go. It will just make you feel empty inside, as far as I'm concerned. Sex isn't everything.

Travelling has always interested me but the thought of going alone kind of scares me. Do you have any experience travelling alone?

youtube.com/watch?v=QwUz9SJFX18

I'm 53 and got laid only 4 times in my entire life. the last one was back in 2002. You get used to living completely on your own terms after a while. Relationships become tedious burdens and the people you know who are stuck in their own families can get pretty jealous. Enjoy the freedom. Hook up on Craigslist.

No. Remember I'm an idiot on the internet, just throwing out advice.

In my lowest moments, I think about travelling. I always think, you could just reinvent yourself while you're away. Talk to people you've never met, and will never meet again. Sperg out completely? Fuck it, I tried. That person will never know me anyway. Plus you'll have the advantage of being interesting just because you're different, which will help you to start conversations with people. And you'll get to experience a new culture, new sights.

Travelling alone could be scary, so if you could find someone to go with it would be good, but it's not essential in my opinion.

I repeat, sex isn't everything. Don't get all worried about not having sex, like other posters will try to convince you.

1) Stop being a pussy
2) ???
3) PROFIT

Yeah it sucks op I was in the same boat out of highschool, but then I turned 19 and then I got laid. Maybe wait a year?

I thought this when I was eighteen. That age seems like a dream compared to what I went through from 20-22.

I think I'm going to take your advice and go travelling over the summer. I've always wanted to see some sights in the US so I might book myself on a tour for edgy rich kids that need to discover themselves so I'm not completely alone and just take in the experiences

I left school at 16. In the UK we can leave early and work so that's what I did

What is that again? Is that where you get in a barrel with nails sticking into it and roll down a hill?

It seems like your emotional connection to life hasn't been broken yet.

One last thought OP; if you do it and have a bad time, at least it's a different kind of bad time. Better to have a shit time in the US seeing some interesting stuff than have a shit time in your house on your computer.

Take away the prescription pills. You have two options but it's best to try them both. Smoke as much N,N-DMT in one sitting as you can, close your eyes and let your consciousness be blasted away in search for answers. Eat 8g of dried psilocybin mushroom caps after you were fasting for a day. You have to surrender, do not fight the trips but even trips you are trying to control and fight off lead to personal growth.

Obtaining required materials for manufacturing either substance is easy and legal, the manufacture itself is not. Both of those substances are very safe and they may change your entire philosophy and help you out. You have nothing to lose either way. Also might be worth to check out your blood levels, any vitamin or hormone defficiency. After going through the basics you need to start working out. Daily cardio workouts, hard sessions on eliptical machine if your joints are hurting for some reason (like being overweight), HIIT 7 minute training with maximum intensity you can put into each individual exercise in those 7 minutes. Might be worth combining your training with sativa dominant hybrid strains of cannabis which are also easy to grow for yourself.

Not anymore faggot

There is not much to say here. You could do it. BUt you couldn't at the same time. IN the end. No-one will miss you. So why not go for it.

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What are you on about? I come under the laest rules and I got an apprenticeship at 16?

Anything remotely drug related will get me fired

I have chronical depression. Genetics, inherited from my mother. The only thing that can cure you is to do stuff and fuck some shit up. If your depression is a problem and is keeping you from doing stuff or thinking of other things then do just that, find some group meetup where you an tlk about your depression, meet people. You will be deceived by people but hey, it's ok, evreyone experience it some day. You might fight love, you might not, but you certainly won't if you end it here.
Personnal advice : read the bible, even if you don't believe.

>Should I end it all Sup Forums?
Yes

Excuse my autism, but how does a rope 'end it all'?

Stop reading this thread OP, it's making we want to kms because of how retarded these people are.

That's probably the only thing I've gained from my depression - a faith. I don't give a shit if it all turns out to be fake. It's one of the only things that gives me strength

You already hate your job, maybe it's time to find a new one. What are you afraid of? You want to die anyways.

>18
>Never had girlfriend
Dude I was your age and never had a gf, felt like a total loser.
Now I'm a fucking chad, don't even know how many girls I've had
Puberty hormones are just messing with your brain
Push through, things will get better.

>parents would probably be slightly bothered
Fuck them

>Borderline autistic
Massive plus!
Let it work to your advantage

Guy's, all religions were 'right'. Just not in sequential order.

I am literally wondering why you guys 'think' you are in hell, when you are just 'text on a screen'. You guys are just ways to transmit information, it's just that "I" learned how to basically supercharge English.

That's all.

Because I really wish people would let me kill Trump and direct the porn that did it.

Start doing a sport that you enjoy. It makes you feel better and you meet a lot of people. Go running and into a gym to get fit and sign into a sports club that is popular in your city. That helped me.

You just strangle your dick. Then cut it off by going back and forth with the rope. Anfter it burned and fell of. The wound now should either already been shut, or blood should leek. If shut, the procedure was worthless. Not put a knife up yo nigger ass. If it worked, congrats.

I need the job for the qualifications otherwise I have shit all to offer

Hopefully I'll end up like you user

Never even thought about sports clubs

How has Sup Forums not learned that 'bullying' is 'childish and stupid', and that 'shitposting' is 'trolling artfully.'

Parents NEED to LOOK after THEIR OWN fucking CHILDREN. And I am the one trying to ask Sup Forums to 'stop posting shit, shitpost better; preferably AFTER (male OR female) you idiots have a fucking wank!'

fuck clubs are better

OP here, took your advice and 'ended it all'. Thanks guys!

Churn your days at work for cash and spend it on rent, food and games.
Try to keep good connection with your parents. When you outlive your parents, just leave everything behind, buy a gun, do random shit you want to do and end your life with said gun when it's all falling apart.

Just leave it all behind. Fuck everything else.
Maybe things turn out to be ok and you don't want to die anymore.

My parents are pretty much the only thing keeping me alive rn so yeah that would work

>sports clubs
Drench your brain in endorphins, be happy af!

You need to change that mindset user.
Get a shrink and some positivity coaching

Bro, here is the truth. Probably you have low testosterone levels and high female hormone levels such as estrogen and estradiol.

Try to make some physical activity to get in shape, supplement testosterone, LOOK FOR AROMATASE INHIBITORS, READ ABOUT THIS. Go to an Endocrinologist not a psychiatrist. Probably your diet is making you feel all these bad symptoms. Avoid eating from plastic containers or even heating plastic container on microwave (they release a female hormone substance alike that binds to receptors and causes severe side effects [lf BISPHENOL aka BPA] )

avoid sugar, they increase anxiety levels... avoid coffee, tea and all those caffeine stuff...

dude, i'd start reading about health, getting into it, learn A LOT and share the knowledge..

do not surrender

Don't hurt others in your adventure

Stop being a fucking child and start being a man user
Stop with your whiny shit and start improving your life like an adult does

I recently fell in love with a depressed girl. Usually i am the first one to recommend suicide to people but it would literally shatter my hear into pieces of she would try again to kill herself. I do not even know how i got where i am, at some point she called in the middle of the night for help, i drove over and stitched her arm back together and stayed the night. A strange way to start dating. She's better now but we do not see each other often anymore. Both of us know what we feel for each other but her mental illness drove us apart.

You are 18, depressed since 15. That's 3 years, literally nothing. At 18 you do not even know how to live, have experienced next to nothing. Friends come and go, so do girls. Just quit your job and get a new one, You sound like a moron.

But if you seriously want to kill yourself, let me tell you some stuff about suicide.

If you use a noose, make sure the drop breakes your neck. Stuff like pills/painkillers/OD's do not work, the doctors will simply pump your stomache empty. Slitting your wrists does work, but that's pretty much the way to go if you want a way where you can bail out after some time. And make sure to slit them in the shower and leave the water running,so noone has to clean up your mess. Dying because of co2 Poisoning would be the way to go without pain, but my preferred method is a jump from a very high building.

Too young man. I always use the negative to motivate me. Use it as motivation to prove them all wrong. Fuck your friends then, shit fuck your family if they make you feel this way. No one, no one will ever care about you like you do yourself. If your job sucks, quit. Move and sell weed. 18, the world is at your finger tips, you can leave it all behind without ending anything. There are so many people, and only you are worth providing for. Fuck anyone else’s happiness but yours, and if they don’t get that, flick they off, mic drop it, and leave.

Try board games. Find a local friendly board game store with people playing there, find out if there're any groups playing regularly, come into the store during their usual play session, ask if it's okay to look, tell them you wanna play but don't have anyone to play with. Most board gamers are a friendly bunch, and there's a lot of them eager to teach a newbie how to play their favorite games.

This is basically how I jumpstarted my friendship with several people I hold dear in my life now, and I had none before because I've kept to myself my whole life. Try not to totally disgust them somehow though, just be polite and clean (everyone has their own quirks, so you being borderline autistic wouldn't matter, unless you're prone to jumping on the table in a rage after losing a game and pissing over everyone while gargling and shitting all over the place) and you won't have to ask them to invite you, they will invite you themselves, or if they have a schedule, you can just join them anytime, or even better, you'll be able to invite them yourself to play in the store, at the coffee shop, or at your own place if you have one, and it won't sound like a desperate attempt at making them your friends.

I now have a small collection of board games, and we gather somewhere regularly, somebody brings a bunch of games, and we all have a good evening, or even a whole day just playing and talking. It's really the best hobby for socially awkward people, and I'm not even trying to socialize really, I'm usually just playing quietly more or less, and I'm still friends with everyone I play with.

What I'm telling is, there are ways to find people you can call friends without trying too hard even if you're awkward or depressed, and you don't even have to conform to the social norms, just do some fun stuff, and there would be people nearby, and maybe you'll find a connection to them through such stuff.

Honestly one of the most motivating things I've read thanks user

What kinds of games do people play? I've never played D&D or anything like that before so I don't want to be the annoying guy constantly asking questions

Its all in your head. Its easy to understand but hard to break out of. Your brain is used to the state it is in. You aren't going to snap your fingers and be all cheery, shit doesn't work like that. As with anything, you need to work at it. Your brain\body will want to keep in the state it is in because its easier, you need to force yourself out of the self-destructing behaviors at all costs. Life isn't about being happy all the time. Life is fucking depressing as fuck. Life is about the little things that make the depressing parts less memorable. If you dwell on them its just going to get worse and worse.

GO THE FUCK OUTSIDE, IT HELPS. Walk through the park. Walk to the store. Do something where you are in the sun. People aren't meant to be inside all the time, it changes the chemistry in the body.

SMILE MORE, IT FUCKING HELPS. Nobody cares if its fake, everyone has a fake smile. Fake it until you make it, thats how it works. If you smile, you are more approachable. Nobody wants to talk to someone that grumbles at them every time they try and say good morning.

>Medication makes things worse so I'm on my own
Good, that shits fucked up. The best change comes from within.

>Never had a gf
It doesn't matter, stop measuring your self worth through other people.

>Girls aren't interested in me
It doesn't matter, stop trying to get approval from other people. You need to change and accept who you are before someone else will.

>Lost all my friends from isolating myself 2 years ago
They were probably assholes anyway

>Have to ask people to invite me places
Good, they will let you tag along. Keep doing it. Meet other people.

>Hate my job
Who the fuck doesn't, welcome to society. Get paid, get over it.

>Borderline autistic
Great, you and everyone else. Like 90% of the people I work with have autistic traits and just don't care. The amount of social obliviousness of people makes me want to fucking kill people sometimes.

>GO THE FUCK OUTSIDE, IT HELPS.
Been doing that every single day without fail for about 18 months so that's one step

>SMILE MORE, IT FUCKING HELPS.
Definitely something to work on

You're a fucking teenager of course you're depressed. Don't be a cliche. Suck it up and keep going.

Well, D&D is about your imagination and it's an improv in itself, so you have to interact with people a lot. If you're up for it, a lot of game masters do newbie game sessions with people who know nothing about roleplaying game at all, so everyone will be asking lots of questions, nothing annoying about it. You'll just have to find a schedule of such games. For example, our local board game store has a Google Calendar anyone can subscribe to, and game masters add new events there with descriptions and shit.

In general, there's literally nothing wrong with asking questions how to play a game you've never played before, and everyone playing board games knows that. Besides D&D, there's tons of actual board games. You can check out the most popular ones here: boardgamegeek.com/browse/boardgame For example, there's this one usually considered a newbie-friendly game called Catan - boardgamegeek.com/boardgame/13/catan You have a board with resources, you gather resources, exchange them with other people, and build villages and shit. The first one to get 10 points is the winner. Pretty simple, and it takes maybe 2 hours for a full play. You get to roll dice, do some trading with people, and just have fun trying to win.

I don't think a lot of regular players play Catan now, mostly because it's considered somewhat broken, but it's just an example. There's a lot of other, more complex games, and you have to figure out how to play them, so nobody expects you to know the rules by heart if it wasn't you who brought the game. Usually a person with the game explains the rules to other players, and the questions are totally expected (although it'd be good if you'd read the rules beforehand if you know what you're gonna be playing beforehand).

Basically, don't sweat it. If you tell people you're a total newbie or you've never played this game, others will explain the rules to you.

Girls, girls, girls fucking stop bitching about get a gf or what ever. End of the day they won't make you happy. Just have fun, live a life before you look for a girl.

Board games actually sound like a really good way of interacting. I'm definitely going to look into them a bit more

>Should I kill myself?
>Pls don't tell me to kys

Pick one, nigger

Nah it's not that I don't want to be told to kms I want people to actually talk me through why. Lots of people have told me why not to kill myself but most people are just trying to bait me. Apart from that one guy who actually told me the best ways to do it of course which was really helpful

The Joke

(You)

At 18 you didn't even have the chance to live yet.

18 never had a girl
19 same shit
20 same shit
21 same shit got depressed
21 no friends and no motivation
22 first job, nothing special
24 start to improve myself, lifting weights, running, learn courses online
25 no gf, kissless virgin but not depressed
26 i dont give a shit about girls any more life is goof.

Copy him

mass shooting or bust

>Killed three virgin chinks who were slightly less autistic them him
>Only killed a few random people after hours of driving and firing dozens of shots
>"/ourguy/"

Board games are a great tool for meeting other people, especially "nerdy" or shy ones, a lot of my friends met his/her second half in a board game pub/meeting.
Disc World or GOT are my favs, you should try those

18 is the worst age for a depressionfag (know it from autopsy). Peers are stupid, girls are interested generally in having fun with popular boys or not interested with relationships at all, you are starting to learn how to adult... generally - shit. But, it gets better with time, especially when you change your environment (job, college etc.). Also, have you tried psychotherapy? It helps, no bullshit

Wow, 3 years of depression. I can't even imagine.

>18
>Depressed since I was 15

Hahahaha fuck off. Get on my level. 26, depressed since I was 8. Motherfucker, grow the fuck up.

34 here.
The first time I ever thought of killing myself was when I was 5 years old. You get on my level faggot.

46 here
the first time i ever thought of suicide is 3, get on my level...

There is a team of people tasked with watching over a popular bridge for suicide.
They have rescued many people every year.
The majority of these people that we're rescued ended up saying the same phrase time and time again...
"As soon as i jumped, I imediately regretted it"

And that is true my friend.
We make many mistakes in life.
Im sure you've thought back to those times.
Thinking over your mistake, wondering what the fuck was going through your head at the time.
Well taking your life would be the worst mistake you could ever make.

See im basically the same as you.
Im actually even worse.
I have nothing to be proud of.
No girlfriend or much of a life.
But i still appricate every fucking day of this life.
Yeah im fat
Yeah i may be a pathetic loser for my age.
Ive had very degrading pathetic jobs.
Didnt even complete highschool or go to prom.
So I lived my life with no reguard for saftey.
Fuck it, fuck everything.
That was my mindset.
and one day that all changed for me.
I made a few mistakes that made me realise that life is precious
and every decision we make, could be our last if we're not careful.
especially if we dont keep our minds in check.
I wouldve missed out on so much of my life if I wouldve ended it 8 years ago.

So yeah, i may not have a girlfriend.
I havent lost my virginity.
Im well into my 20's.
I dont have a career or go to college
I dont go to parties or clubs.
Because thats just not who I am.
And I dont hold my self up to societies standards.
I stopped giving a fuck and started living my life.
I do what i love every fucking day.
I start out the day with smoking a phat fucking bowl of weed.
I eat my favorite foods.
Watch my favorite shows.
Followed by the usual afternoon fapping spree.
I may not be perfect, no one really is.
But I enjoy every meal and appricate everyday.
Becaues eventually, there will come a time when i wont be able to experiance any of this.
Anyway.. yeah.
Dont kys.
Appreicate the little things.

Meeting people is the BEST way to stay DEPRESSED.......

The more people you know, the more damage you will incur.

Pray that the HOLY TRIUNE GOD will comfort you and reveal HIMSELF to you!

JESUS can COMFORT you in every way..................................

1. Psalm 34: The Lord Helps the Brokenhearted

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted ?and saves those who are crushed in spirit. –Psalm 34:18

2. Psalm 23: The Valley of the Shadow

Even though I walk ?through the valley of the shadow of death, ?I will fear no evil, ?for you are with me; ?your rod and your staff, ?they comfort me. –Psalm 23: 4

3. Psalm 32: You Will Protect Me

You are my hiding place; ?you will protect me from trouble ?and surround me with songs of deliverance. –Psalm 32:7

4. Psalm 31: Turn Your Ear to Me

Turn your ear to me, ?come quickly to my rescue; ?be my rock of refuge, ?a strong fortress to save me. –Psalm 31:2

Death wont make you happy. Just run off and do shit that will. Death is complete nothingness and probably a constant state of what you feel now. Try to enjoy life because it will end one day and youll feel like shit forever.

I used to be depressed. I still am, but I used to be too. I'm 21 and I can tell you it doesn't get better. You have to make things better but for some reason I can't so I've resigned to my fate.

Not OP, but how do I get those drugs?

It does, when you're working with yourself, not necessarily alone. Visit psychiatrist/psychotherapist and start doing sth for real

If you know anyone who sells weed, they'd probably be your best bet. If they don't have any, they may know someone who does. There is also the dark net markets, but you have to be extremely careful with that and follow a bunch of steps to make sure you don't get fucked.

Find God

>>Depressed since I was 15
You've been depressed for 3 years, big fucking deal. Man up like the rest of us and be severely depressed for decades before you even consider whining about it - and even then, don't.

When people an hero by stepping off a chair with a noose how the fuck are they not nervous or at leadt questioning wheter or not they can handle the pain?

>30
>depressed since i was 20
>do a lot of drugs instead of medication
>had a gf
>girls arent interested in me
>got no friends to lose
>i dont ask to get invited, if they dont want me there why should i force mayself on them, just to know how uncomfortable it is to be in one place with ppl who dont wnat me there
>have no job
>borderline autistic