Can we get a god feels thread going, Sup Forums? I feel like shit and need to get shit off my chest. I'll start.
I feel stuck. I feel like I'm going to be stuck forever. I know that's a childish thought, but that's genuinely how I feel. I'm living day to day, with no hopes, no dreams, no nothing. I can't find work, I'm stuck in California, and there's nothing I can do at this point. I want to get out of state, where the job market is better, the cost of living is lower, and the people aren't fucking braindead, but I don't have any money or friends out of state, so I'm stuck.
I'm fucking dying, Sup Forums. I don't even feel the need or desire for human interaction anymore. I don't feel happy when things go my way, or excited for something I look forward too. All I feel is depression and pain and fear. I just want out, Sup Forums. My only hope for the future is getting on disability by getting my Asperger's and other mental disorders diagnosed and hiring a Social Security lawyer, and who knows how long that will take. At least I have somewhere to live right now, and I won't get kicked out for the foreseeable future. But I still feel like garbage because I don't contribute anything except doing a few household chores every so often and helping out whenever needed.
But it's not like it matters anyway. It's not like complaining will get me a job, or income of any kind. That's all I really want right now. A steady source of income that I can live off of. Hell, I'd be satisfied with just enough to pay for rent, food, utilities, and a little bit of spending money.
But, whatever. I'm just rambling in a thread that will most likely die quickly anyway.
I can't seem to gety shit together no matter what and I've fucked up so many times so badly too All in all it could be a lot worse but for my situation I'm doing terribly It just comes down to will power at this point Something I have none of, I've been very passive and a pushover when things get hard I always just quit >not OP btw
Hudson Johnson
She told me she loved me today. I'm both extatic and afraid of beginning something with her and coming up short. Not being the man she deserves or ending up losing her as a friend.
Ethan Phillips
-hit the gym -save up -apply for work outside the shithole -get the job -move -find apt -save more $hekle$ -buy house with a ficus -fap into ficus
Christopher Scott
just graduated college. feel nothing
lost 70 lbs to impress gf while she studies abroad. cheats. feel nothing
find new qt girl with "anytime, anything, anywhere" rule on sex and has held up on it. feel nothing
wtf is wrong with me.
Charles Williams
As someone who has been in your situation, let me tell you some advice. Don't let your self-doubt fuck it up. She clearly wants to be with you, and looks past whatever shortcomings you have or think you have. If she didn't know you were what she wanted, she wouldn't be with you. I learned that the hard way. Fucked up the best relationship I've ever had by doing that. The best thing you can do is just ask her to communicate if there's an issue. Fuuuuuuck, you're describing how I am right now, user. You're basically me. Hitting the gym requires both mental energy and willpower, things I lack in any capacity. Saving up requires getting money in the first place. Getting the job requires not fucking up the interview, and getting to the interview in the first place. I wish it was as easy as just getting a job, but that's actually the hardest part.
Jordan Sanders
on the bright side i made myself a pretty tastey sandwich tbh. so that's nice
Brandon Fisher
Thanks for the advice user :)
Charles Fisher
Of course, user. One of the only things that gives me even a small measure of happiness anymore is giving people advice and helping them, TBH. So I'm glad to help, even if only a little bit.
Luke Martin
Today was a good day, guys. I hope everyone in this thread has a good day. :)
Connor Butler
Holy shit, what more could anyone ask for? I could really go for a tasty sandwich.
Asher Scott
My day's almost over, and it's been the same shit. Feeling unsatisfied, depressed, anxious, and numb. All I did today was play modded Skyrim and get a little bit further in WoW, since I just started a few days ago. I know that I should be looking for work, and that I should be at least trying to better myself, but I've lost all motivation and energy to try.
I got a rejection email from Goodwill the other day. Fucking GOODWILL. That's how hopeless I am.
Josiah Fisher
turkey with butterkäse, spinach and tomato on onion roll with herb spread heated in the oven just to slightly melt the cheese with a Fresca to drink. comes out to just under 500 calories for the whole meal.
Nathaniel Martinez
Who hurt you, who hurt you, who hurt you user...
Isaac Kelly
Find myself in the same situation as you
Might sound cliche but booze,music,a hooker (or porn) is a good start to feel better,at least for some time
Hudson Stewart
Abusive parents, mainly. That, and I bullied for most of my life. Combine that with undiagnosed Asperger's for my entire life and every relationship I've ever been in going up in flames and burning everyone involved, and you get me.
I can't even leave the house anymore, unless I absolutely have to, and even then, only when it's a part of my schedule. People scare me. Society scares me. Life scares me. Whenever I'm out of the house, I'm getting more and more anxious and panicky. It's a fast escalation from nervousness to full blown panic attacks, especially if anything unexpected happens.
Life killed me, user. I'm a dead man walking. Only reason I haven't offed myself is because that would hurt everyone who's ever cared about me and who currently cares about me. I couldn't do that to them.
Caleb Ross
Hang in there user.
Keep your chin up and act like the man you want to be, remember you'll always have tough times and the important things is how you act and what you with your situation.
Don't get hung up on the past and the things you can't change. Identify what you CAN change and work hard to achieve it. Accept everything out of your control for what it is, no use bawwing.
William Perry
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Grayson Long
I wish I could get a hug like that... TBH, if someone were to hug me right now, I'd probably cling to them and cry. I know that makes me sound like a little bitch, but I am a little bitch, so.
... How ironic. I hate being around most people, but whenever I'm on here, or around people I care about, and I feel like this, I always crave a good hug.
Nicholas Martinez
maybe its depression?
Joshua Hall
Yeah. I miss being able to just hold my ex and feel like I could say anything.
It's weird to know that someone out there knows everything about you and now couldn't care less about you, you know? My roommate in college and I would sit for hours and talk about just emotional shit and basically kept each other in check since we both have depression. I don't think I'd ever hug him though. Idk, I'm uncomfortable with touching, but that's a whole thing.
Dominic Fisher
I too could use a hug right now
Ian White
military
Jacob Stewart
I just got a bj from my girlfriend a few minutes ago. Feeling pretty good right now.
Andrew Lewis
look for something online. Data entry, teaching English via skype, writing retard blogs on dog walking for content mills. Go to your local craigslist and look for freelance writing jobs. You can get chicken shit jobs writing stuff for people and bit by bit build up a little portfolio. Then you make yourself an e-lance profile. Then you eventually have enough freelance writing work to travel around and write.
Was busing tables as a 27 year-old and did just that. Been travelling and writing for the last couple years.
You can change your life, OP.
James Davis
Yeah, I really do know. My second ex was like that with me. She was my fucking rock, you know? She was one of the only people able to calm me down during a really bad panic attack... She was one of the only people I've ever truly opened up to. She taught me so much about life, and living. She told me she loved me every day, and that she would never leave me or cheat on me no matter what, no matter how depressed I got. Hell, we both kept each other in check. I helped her kick her opiate addiction, and I was always there for her whenever she needed help or advice. I genuinely thought for a time that she was The One.
That is, until she confessed that she basically begged one of her male friends that she wanted to fuck for nudes, and only didn't send him nudes and shit because she felt guilty.
She was both the best relationship I've ever had, and the worst heartbreak as well. To this day, I've never been able to trust another person and let them into my heart like I did her. It's like she tore apart my very soul.
Ian Murphy
About to get laid for the first time this weekend. any advice?
Jace Flores
Ey I'd give you a hug rn
same to you friend
Samuel Gonzalez
Don't be afraid to go down on her. Foreplay is important. Very important. Use protection. USE FUCKING PROTECTION. Build up slowly. Pace yourself, you don't want to end up orgasming within 30 seconds of actually having sex, or during the foreplay. Go for the inner thighs, neck, and earlobes. If you do bite, don't bite too hard. Don't force anything, it won't end well. That's all I got. Best of luck, user. Hope it goes well. >t. An user who has only gotten laid a few times with the same chick, but knows a lot because autistic research and experimenting.
Grayson Brooks
Don't do,the key to ''real happiness'' is individual happiness,when it doesn't depends on someone/something else that can be taken away
James Wood
Join the military if it's 100% impossible for you to find work in a reasonable distance.
Matthew Russell
Yup. Same with mine. We were friends since we were 14 and 16, dated for 3.5 years during college. She was like a golden retriever of a human, just pure positivity and loyalty.. then she went to study abroad and cheated.
Hell i even told her about being sexually abused months as a kid by my brother. She's the only person in the whole world who knows that and now she's none the wiser to my existence. I have a fuck buddy who is a sweetheart and has a "anywhere anytime anything" rule for sex, and she's great. But just not the same. She's getting really attached too, so I may have to end it in a bit.
Alexander Lee
Not to be weird Sup Forumsros but any of ya'll have discord? Would be nice to chat and game...
Wyatt Gomez
Damn, user... I guess it's true that long distance shit doesn't work.
My ex went long distance shortly after the relationship started because her parents needed to move and she couldn't find work. That was the beginning of the end for me. Yeah, it's IncognitoCreeper#6936.
Landon Wright
Sweet
Zachary Garcia
Protect yourself
Make sure you're both comfortable
Don't be afraid to tell her to guide you during foreplay and what not, it will do wonders for her and yourself
remember when fingering her: hook your fingers in a "come here" motion to hit the Gspot and aim that direction during sex, doggy is best for it
if you're getting to orgasming too quickly, pull out and do more foreplay. Or, personal trick if you're too in the moment and she's wanting more fucking, start counting your teeth. it takes your mind off of it
touch her body. run your hand over her. squeezing her chest and ass is fine, they're erogenous zones, just dont fixate on certain areas.
breathing on the right places can do wonders
most of all, have fun dude. It's just sex.
Noah Wilson
thanks user
Noah Green
Yeah bros, PixelDeity#2174
is me
Jason Edwards
> be born > kindergarden > school > college > work till 70 something > die
The saddest part about life is that you will spend it learning shit to become a slave of some richfag and never actually enjoy life.
> 1/3 of your life sleeping > 1/3 of your life working > 1/3 of your life lurking on Sup Forums
Jose Lopez
>g I agree, tbh I think i might want to be a drifter. Fuck ton more interesting than being another fag in the scheme of shit that is the job system
Nathaniel Johnson
This. Realizing this is what sent me down into the depressive spiral I'm in now.
I will never achieve happiness. My life is destined to be a wageslave or homeless. If I'm lucky, I'll be able to claim disability and live a simple life. I won't be wealthy, but I will be happy.
Nicholas Davis
Well hey if it makes you feel any better it seems you have like low self esteem or whatever but even if you had high self esteem you'd still have to deal with all the same shit. Confidence is bullshit. Show a little bit of humility and it actually goes a long way.
It seems like a lot of people are stuck on just even like becoming a functioning human adult but that is like literally the easiest shit.
>go to works >sup fam >17 year old is like ??? ... :0000000
like I grew up kinda thinking yknow those guys who're like yo yo man and wave their hands around n shit were giant faggots and that's true but you gotta have a lil bit o swag nomsayin
smoke weed coke acid etc
be whoever you need to be but that is just the starting point and you still have to have some good luck and hard work
the fact that you are in California, while my life is pretty shit and I've been wanting to move to California, and you say it's shit is really depressing. Sorry to depress you but it is also shit in not California
Michael Wilson
move to MN where I live with the parents. I am in the same shoes and the job market is strong and pays well enough to be independent but barely enough to live if full-time.
Josiah Garcia
I would, if I could. But moving costs fucking money. Money I don't have and won't have in my foreseeable future.
Liam Kelly
money you can have. just save up.
Carter Bell
Maeghan, its me, freddy. i feel that way too. i just would love to not have to deal with any bullshit anymore. women never care about me, when its in my dna to try for a woman but none can EVER be honest with me. life is shit. but the only reason i stay alive is because hey, ill die someday anyways so fuck it. might as well try to enjoy while i can
Andrew King
being in california isnt going to make your life better
Samuel Turner
>Just save up With what income, user? I don't get money. At all. I don't fucking have anything TO save. That's my issue.
Tyler Ross
Also thought about the disability thing, just need to find some way not to cripple myself and still be able to to avoid working.
Hardest part about it is, trying to convince family & friends that life has no meaning when you start working.
Fucking normies are so blind, all those fucking retards telling you that "education is good" or "you should get a good job".
Fuck that man, never gonna work, I'd rather die than become a sheep of the system.
Leo Gonzalez
I can relate. 25 years old returned to NEET status 6 months ago because i cant control my drinking and can't keep a job. Now where im living is same as you, nobody hiring and even if they did min wage is 7.25 here. No reason to wake uo every day, feeling like a useless piece of shit. Want to an hero soon, planning on making it look like accidental overdose.
Hudson Cruz
have you considered working at a temp agency for a month? You literally don't need to talk to anyone other than your temp agency and most of the work is simple labor jobs. You should be able to save at least $1000 from that single month.
Chase Allen
Booze helps me cope for a while but i ramp up to drinking a handle every couple days and being wasted 24/7 and then get too sick to continue and spend 3 days withdrawling hard and then repeat
Nolan Kelly
a good way to get that income is to be drug free and get into a work place accident. They pay out A LOT of money if it's pretty severe. That's not including your disability if you get it after the accident.
Owen Cruz
if u wanna die, die. if u wanna work, work. no one forcing u.
Brayden Rivera
If you know what's good for you, stay the fuck away from California. This place is a shithole. It doesn't seem like it, but it really is. This. College really is just a meme. In the end, no one gives a crap if you got your Ph.D in Biological Chemistry so you could work as a pharmacist or some shit. It's all about either having really good tits or ass, metaphorically (or literally) sucking off the bosses, or being friends with a higher up. No one cares about anything else anymore. Guess we're both in the same boat. My suicide plan is slitting my wrists and then letting my body float down a river by where I live late at night until I bleed out or freeze to death. I've applied to 6 different temp agencies near where I live. I haven't heard anything back at all.
Justin James
Use your dick as a weapon and remember: the first one to finish wins. Don't let her win. You get in there and bust a nut before she so much as gets her shirt off like a real pro. She'll respect your competitiveness. Oh and call her mother when your busting
Ryder Lee
I'm a little girl obsessed. I have a crush on this girl...she works at the pub I go to every Tuesday for stuff. She's a tall, thin, curly-haired ginger. I've known her for several months, but recently we've been more friendly and outgoing. The last few weeks I've stayed late after closing, helped her clean up, hung out while she did things, that sort of stuff. We seem to get along really well. Last Tuesday I stayed until she locked the door, but before we left she showed me the basement where they brew all their beer. She has been really kind to me, but of course she has because that's her job. But I have a serious weakness for redheads, especially one that smokes weed and acts really chill. I don't know her situation though...and it's entirely probable that she's just being friendly towards me without wanting anything more. I'm so desperate for a relationship though, and I feel like I'm always looking for someone without getting anywhere with anyone. Maybe this doesn't make sense. I'm high right now, so maybe I don't make sense.
I also have this penpal in Poland. We've been writing letters to each other back and forth for almost a year now. We agreed to exchange packages for each other. Yesterday I got the package she sent me. It had vintage postcards of her hometown and the other major Polish cities. It had some Polish coins. It had some other cool things inside. The weird thing that it had though, was one of her old earrings. I guess she had lost the matching one, and she thought I would like it. It looks pretty to be sure, but it felt strange. We met online, both sort of looking for a relationship, but also not really expecting one to happen. Well...now it might be becoming something. I mean, we're talking on Telegram now. The past couple days we've talked about things through the day. She works third shift with a IT company, so while she's at work we'll chat about things.
Cont.
Connor Barnes
Get a job working in security then. After they hire you, fill in the disability field that you would need to be catered to due to Asperger and they'll give you an easy "site" that does not deal much with the public. Try: >G4S
David Ward
Lower your standards or immediately change your situation. I went from running my own amusement park up north to having to serve tables at wafflehouse down south. Yeah I know, my life sucks... but I'm making it work. That's all that we can try to do brother. Make it work.
Take stock of what you do have. If you are in a house you're not homeless. But to be honest, when I had to go homeless for 3 weeks... It was the most free that I had felt. Probably easier to do here in Florida, but it really put things into perspective man.
Robert Perez
Just ask the ginger out, you fucking autist.
Thomas Howard
Bar girl is a no go. That's my perspective. Used to deliver liquor to bars and stores and friendliness was key. IT girl sounds like a better deal. Beauty fades. Accept that reality. Please tell me how to get a penpal. I gave you my genuine advice.
Chase Myers
Hey Sup Forums So today i confronted my mom (the only person i still loved) about how awful my childhood was and how it would mean a lot if she would apologize for making sleep on the streets when i was 9 and making me believe that my father hated me and wanted nothing to do with me while growing up,she responded by saying that she felt she had nothing to apologize for because she felt she raised me the best she could. My love for my mother was the only thing that kept me from suicide in the past and now i know that was also unrequited, Sup Forums how do i not kill myself now
Grayson Bell
I was actually just reading up on abusive parents and whatnot. A lot of comments in the articles were life storys about their abuse and people comforting them. An advice I can pass to you from my observation is that you don't need to love your parents. Just honor them. Also move out.
Isaac Butler
Cont.
I don't know how I feel about her though, I don't know if I'm really attracted to her physically. I've seen pictures of her, more than a few actually. It's weird, but in some of her pictures she looks really cute and in others not so much. Also, long distance relationships are really fucking difficult. I'm already anxious for a physical relationship. Not a sexual one, I miss holding hands, cuddling, sleeping together, that sort of stuff. I don't know if she's dated anyone else. She seems incredibly introverted, like she gets out and does stuff because she travels often, but she doesn't go with anyone. There's a strong possibility that I am going to Germany later this year though, and I have no doubt that if I was there, she would come visit me.
Really though, that earring just felt like something more than friendship. Like she wanted me to have something that had been with her, been apart of her. I don't know if she can handle my baggage. I don't know if I'm really attracted to her. Ugh.
Anyway, I can post pictures of her if people want to see what she looks like and then they can judge her looks for themselves.
Christian Turner
Smoke a blunt and I guarantee you'll be able to get your shit together lol
Landon James
I moved out, and i own my own home. I am young but i have been very successful, sadly success hasnt transferred to happiness and i have never felt worst
Anthony Price
>Implying that I won't get kicked out the second the people I'm living with find out I smoked weed
Blake Bailey
>tfw broke, haven't smoked in 2 weeks
Jaxson Flores
Dont like weed, just makes me panic. more of a coke/heroin guy but i had to move away from connects
Oliver Nguyen
Ayyy I'm smoking a bong right now.
Fuck it. Here she is. Please tell me what you think. Not conventionally attractive, I like her.
Robert Miller
Another one.
Mason Bell
Definitely not cute but not bad either. 5/10 for these pics.
Lincoln Bell
I think I have other ones. Let me look deeper...
Camden Garcia
I forgot to add that if you asked for an apology but they refuse to apologize like what your mom did, they think they're still right about what they did to you. Like I said, just cut ties and honor your mom by sending her gifts and stuff on occasions.
You don't have to prove anything to Sup Forumstards dude. If you think she's cute, I can take your word for it. I'm sure she's great
Levi Morris
le reddit
kek
Juan Myers
Nice dubs.
Zachary Lewis
I am going to cut ties, that is certain.
But i fear that now i have nothing holding me back from ending my life.
The last time i thought about it this much the only thing that stopped me was imagining how it would make her feel and how much it would hurt her.
But now its clear that my fondness for her has vanished. Im terrified by how willing i am to end my life now that this has happened
Joseph Gray
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James Stewart
6/10 now but 7/10 if good personality. She's just got a bit of meat but that's something a gym could fix. Not a bad option frankly. I'll have to go to Reddit then. Back to...
Gavin Jenkins
She has a wonderful personality. That's mostly why I am attracted to her. We have bonded on a deep level. But the distance....I thought it would be a nonfactor, but here I am.
Luis Morris
I fell in love once. It still fucking hurts and I think it will always hurt but you learn how to live with the pain. To push that person to the back of you mind. But you know they're always going to be there. You know you can never truley let them go. Youll still look for a little piece of them in everyone you meet. They will haunt you. I fucking fucked up so bad I know I cant fix it. So I just hold on to the memory of us together back when we were happy, where I woke up early in the morning to you next to me. How the sun shined through the curtain hitting your eyes. CSH you're the one that got away.
Leo Lee
I know this feel
Christopher Murphy
Yeah well you've got a good situation on your hands now. I am 90% certain she likes you. She definitely dresses modestly and I can assume from that that she is an introvert alongside your observation. If that is the case, she is looking for more than friendship if she likes you.
Thomas Richardson
Looks aren't that important to happiness my dude. I'm old, and I dated and fucked my way through my teens and twenties, and I swear to you, find someone you're happy with. A 10/10 a woman may be, but there's some guy, some where, who's sick of putting up with her shit. Happiness and compatibility #1, looks second, as long as you're within 1-2 grades of each other.
Kayden Jackson
Start a family fool. Occupy your time with love elsewhere including strip clubs.