Hey faggots, porn addicted, Depersonalized, sexually confused...

Hey faggots, porn addicted, Depersonalized, sexually confused, Autogynpehilic type self hating 19 year old skinny white kid with shit tier genetics here. How do I get out of my current situation? I don't want to die, but I don't see a choice.

leave Sup Forums and realize that transitioning better than self hate

>shit tier genetics
Nothing you can do about it.
You're screwed.
I was born with very good genetics and I'm very handsome and attractive now. That's why I get laid every day.

Dying isn't an option, it's our shit birth right. Try to make life your bitch while you're here.

Stop watching porn. Stop logging onto B. Study. Work out. Its simple, but hard to stick to. Good luck buddy.

If you're ugly, get rich. Study hard and impress some fuckhole with your bankroll. But you gotta work hard.

Realise you are in one of the richest countries in the world. Buy something with money and go over seas and fuck all those bitches for dirt cheap.

Use what you have you fuckwit. Think those cunts from ww1 and ww2 fought for nothing?

Workout, better yourself, advance your professional career, do what you love

thing is, without the internet/Sup Forums, I'm truly on my own and lost. Even with all the wierd bbc/cuck/trap shilling that has surely fucked my head up for life I prefer the devil I know to the one I don't. I'm scared of irl life. Scared of being truly on my own. I'll never transition becuase I'll never actually look like a girl. I wondering what my next option is. I'm kind of sick of hitting and cutting myself every week or so.

>without the internet / Sup Forums, I'm truly on my own and lost.

>Religion

Do you not see why it exists yet?

Shut the fuck up faggot listen to this guy
Once Monday comes around hit the gym. Do some good cardio. Run a mile. Go to the library. Work on a hobby. Apply for a better job. Work hard in school. Starr watching a new tv show.

It's called balancing your life. Get into a routine and make a promise to yourself that everyday you are going to improve yourself pbysically, mentally, and emotionally (which for me is religion but it could be meditation or something else for you), along with adding entertainment to your life. You do those things and you will see improvement in your outlook within a couple months

To herd the sheep that is society/people into a lullaby while cosmic indifference is what truly awaits us? Not trying to be edgy. I wish God would reveal himself to me and make my path clear. Yet here I am, unspoken to. Lost.

nigger all you do is stop being a pussy. you find your own identity. analyze yourself. shit even make up an identity. then from there you become that person. you do it one step at a time until youre successful. but since you cry to people on Sup Forums, its unlikely that its possible to become alpha
also OC

The toughest times test our faith, user. OP of this post. Fight through it. Tough times don't last, but tough people do. The Lord will help you through this.

Listen, I don't cry to Sup Forums faggots. I ask for advice becuase I'm in my own personal hell right now. Hell on earth or in my mind, it's a real thing. I only cry by myself, and usually at night time. I've thought about going out in a "blaze of vengeful glory." but then I thought success is the best revenge. Don't know what I'm typing right now. I'm sorta fucked up. Always sad though. Always sad.

Wow I could not have said it better

everybody thinks they wont look like a girl, thats what dysphoria does. some do and really thats your best shot since conversion never works. you'll always come back and regret the time you missed

nah, I won't ever do that. Looks like it's suicide for me then.

Read the Art of Learning by Joshua Waitzkin.
Or get an audible version of it. Depends on how you learn

do it bitch. you wont kill yourself and we both know it. solve the problem and help yourself

I don't think this fosters the kind of outcome we want for this pupil

Go to your country's army. If you're going to die, it might as well be while serving the country you were born in.

>we
id bet you're like everyone else saying to man up. that shit never works and is the reason the suicide rate is so high

hah, no, I will kill myself if backed into a corner. Which I have slowly but surely backed myself into. It hurts my chest to think about my end but I know it's coming. It's been coming. So don't talk like you know me. A deep pain right where my heart is. Really, fuck you.

Masturbate yourself to death.

>handsome and attractive now. That's

lol. Don't worry op, this guy is lying.

Why is it that so many young people want to kill themselves? Your life has barely started. Can't you at least wait until 40? What do you mean you don't see a choice? Just do something other than porn. Join a club or something.

Seriously though. When I was 18, I was on the border of suicide and I was certain that there was nothing for me to live in this life anymore. But then it hit me. The only way to TRULY find your purpose is life, is to save other people's lives. I went there for 7 years. It changed me. I am not the boy I used to be. I guess you could say it made me "man-up", but it's just not a proper way to put things.

It doesn't matter if you think you're not strong enough. It doesn't matter if you think you won't be able to socialize with fellow soldiers.

There's a glimmer of determination in everyone's soul, even the ones in deep depression. Stay determined, and nothing can get in your way.

Please, don't die alone. Die in honor, at the very least.

i've been there many times. and i know denial when i see it. i'd hate to see another person die because they can't accept themselves.

OP, please. Don't do it.

...Did he actually fucking do it, or did he abandon the thread?

he dead

I thought this thread was going to go super emotional and all but nooo, OP had to be a faggot and leave the thread to rot.

For fuck's sake, this happens way too often. Lurk more before making a damn thread. Newfags...

Physical improvement. Strength training or cardio training, just become a better human physically, it has a profound effect on the rest of your life, whether you believe it or not, you will know it to be true when it hits you.

Check out and their Sticky for more info. If you're a skeleton, some basic weight training like Starting Strength + Eating a lot more (3000+ Calories a day) is going to be great for you.

Seek Jesus, ask Him into your heart.

He can help you with your depression and self-loathing. He can even get you a girlfriend.

He will change your life for the better, as long as you genuinely pray to Him and repent of your sins.

OP what do you spend most of your day doing?
I can give you some tips based on that

(Is there no more legacy captcha)???

still here, actually. Just lurkin, readin anons inputs. I've thought about the military route, but I don't believe in dying for some old mans gain. War is an economy. Plus, it's not like honor matters when you're in the dirt, and nothing you ever did mattered. Also Sadly not a new fag, this site has been rotting my brain since '14.

just give it a few more years, then you'll want nothing more than to die

>2014
>doesn't know he's still a newfag
kek

OP, know this. That when you vessel dies, your consciousness dies. When your consciousness dies, it's over. You're in nothingness. It will be the absolute, and there will be no going back. Life matters, because all the joys in life are waiting for you to be experienced. If you refuse them, they will be lost. Forever.

Have you tried seeking help, like a psychologist? It could do you alot of good.

you should really get off here whether you take my advice or not. this place fucks peoples minds, its not good for humanity

I'd also like to add that positive beliefs are importan. When you say that there is no honor, or that life doesn't matter, these thoughts that you are believing are truly bringing you down. Quit thinking that, and you should see things in a better way. If all else fails, seek guidance.

Nothing. Literally nothing. Maybe Play some fornite. Maybe watch youtube. Maybe go on this site (which has by the way made me more self hating, racist, degenerate sexually, and fucked me up more than I thought possible) About once every other week I'll have an emotional breakdown. Fantasize about life as a girl. I know, fucking weird. Yes I hate myself for even having these fantasies. No I will never be able to recover. Hit myself for not being more masculine. Worry about my body. Worry about my hair. Uhh philosophize about life and the likelihood of a creator. Be forced to interact with family members that disgust or annoy me. Hate my father for being a bitch. Hate my mom for hitting me and being a fucking lesbian. Debate with myself if I'm gay or not. As you can tell I'm a self loathing piece of shit.

>Autogynpehilic

You're a woman? Make with the tits, lady.

Exactly this. I rarely come on Sup Forums anymore. Even more rare is coming on Sup Forums.
I came here for the laughs and then realized that this site is one of the scummiest places on this internet and that is was making me even more shitty than I already was,

its a term used by transphobes and self hating trans peeps describing a supposed fetish of seeing oneself as a woman.

Kys

Mass shooting?

Ok. What you do is start doing basic chores around the house. Clean the kitchen. Sweep the floors. Take out the trash. Take out all your frustration on cleaning the house. I know a lot of people like war/hot showers. Start taking colder showers. Not cold where you jump, but the coldest you can tolerate. Start going on daily/weekly walks. Try to find a job that fits your personality. Probably an entry level job where you don't have to interact with a lot people, because it sounds like you want to avoid people. Then maybe later you can advance to jobs that requires more human interaction.
A lot of people like to shit on self help books.
Fuck em. Start researching ways how to build discipline, confidence, eliminate procrastination, etc. If you want to be more 'manly' research things about that as well. Start doing little things to increase your appearance so you can feel better about yourself. Get a haircut, take care of hygiene, get some clothes you like, etc.
Fake happiness around your parents if they're absolute shit, because they will probably use your flaws against you. Or if they're reasonable people try to more friendly around them.
I can't think of anything more right now.
Also stop coming on Sup Forums often.

Sounds like every average Sup Forumstard.

>leave Sup Forums
>profit

+1 for this

QUIT THE PORN
WHENEVER YOU FEEL THE URGE TO FAP GET IT OUT OF THE WAY BY FAPPING TO YOUR IMAGINATION
FIND A HOBBY
DO STUFF
QUIT WEED AND ANY OTHER DRUGS OR ATLEAST TAKE A BREAK FOR A COUPLE MONTHS
you've got this, faggot