I'm not usually a Sup Forums guy, but I want to tell you guys a story

I'm not usually a Sup Forums guy, but I want to tell you guys a story

>be me
>16yo kissless virgin
>had (still do actually) a small group of friends
>typical nerd group, but the kind that is generally well liked by everyone else
>5 of us, I'm the tall skinny one
>gay as shit hair cut were talking full blown Beiber in the height of his early popularity
>also the most depressed one, but not severely or anything
>every Wednesday school finish 50 minutes early for the sports players
>my bros and I would always walk down to the local fish and chips store to buy a scoop of chips each to munch on
>tradition that had been going for 2 years up to this point
>one day a girl comes up to me on the way back to school
>says I look like Death the Kid
>remember we were the nerd group
>holy shit I was a weeb, I only listened to jap music it was that bad
>flattered but virgin me freezes and just smiles like an aspie
>start seeing the girl around school more often
>her name is E
>we always make anime jokes to each other
>sometimes draw things on spare bits of paper and swap them
>after a couple of months of this we start dating
>holyfuckyesfirstgf.wav
>one lunch were alone in a classroom
>first kiss hell yeah
>things progress and E comes over to my house for the first time
>parents like her
>she stays the night, I get head
>things are good
>1 month later and she breaks up with me
>told me she didn't want to rush me into anything bc she wasn't a lame ass virgin

>>found out a year or two later she just wanted to get back with her ex who had already moved on
>still hang out with E and her best friend after school every day
>her best friend is the typical "holy shit she's hot" 9/10 big tiddy qt3.14
>compared to E who was flat as shit
>her friend, J, and I start to get closer
>E sees this and is unhappy
>in private conversations J and I reveal we actually start to crush on each other
>and it started bc I shouted her pineapple lump milk one time
>ask her out properly
>she says yes
>E goes aspie rage on us
>REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
>J and I cut her out of our lives and date each other
>we dated for 13 months
>we were each other's first
>this was the first time I had felt love

If you've ever been in love before, you'll know the highschool romances are always really quick and strong emotionally. Especially when they last for so long.

>J and I were token cute couple
>she only came up to my shoulder though it was adorable
>one day were sitting at a park
>"I don't love you anymore, user. I haven't for a while now."

>i was destroyed beyond belief
>I didn't go to school for a week
>we were in the same home room too and now we sat at opposite sides of the class
>when we were dating my depression had gone away completely
>now It was back and stringer than ever
>>one of my friends now says the break up made a darker and unhappier person he still hasn't seen nd recover from
>I watched like 5 different anime shows as quickly as I possibly could to get it off my mind
>shit like log horizon and psycho pass
>I still think those two are pretty good btw
>s3 when?
>gorge my weeb tendencies for like a month straight
>just stop watching all of a sudden
>stop listening to jap shit
>first proper white artist I enjoyed was chef faker
>asked my step dad if I could go to the gym with him
>never got swole but fitness improved
>did this all just to stop thinking about j
>went 6 months with coitus before I got drunk and lay with a landwhale
>regret the shit out of that but it snapped me back to standard
>go to the gym and think solely of J
> 18th birthday comes around
>woo big deal now I can drink legally
>invite 100 people from my year
>20 people said they'd come
>only 4 did
>I got so fucking unbelievably wasted
>first alcy was Canadian club btw, gin drinker now though
>everyone left, im in my bedroom still spinning
>I Skype call J
>I start talking as though we hadn't broken up
>told her I had a great night even though no one showed
>wished she could've come
>she asks why I'm talking to her
>start breaking down
>cry my eyes out on the call
>"I just miss you so God Damn much, please J I fucking love you"
>"goodbye user"
>I didn't see her the rest of the time I was at school

>spent the next year at a tertiary it course
>user is computer savvy
>the tutor is a total jack off so I start doing hooligan shit and get kicked our
>nbd I hated it anyway and I think I would've blown my brains out honestly
>I like design and art maybe I should do that?
>oh wait j was an artist too
>I spend a couple months deciding if I want to do it
>miss the enrollment
>Get a full time job in a factory then cool
>meet someone on tinder while I'm there
>her name is K
>she's alright, maybe a 7/10
>showed a few red flags on first meet
>But then she took her sweater off and tiddays
>ohsweetjesusimusthavethem.com
>I have a massive weak spot for tits btw if you didn't notice
>we date for like 6 months
>so many problems
>she frequently cut
>nearly od'ed once
>was always upset that she was my sixth and I was her first
>was not a good relationship for either of us
>we ended things, one of her friends that we met joins our group after the break up instead
>I have a habit of stealing friends from exes

>soon after we broke up I got a job in a cafe
>like Starbucks but not quite
>learned how to make coffee
>holyshitiactuallylovethis.mp3
>become really good
>work there foe 6 months honing my skills and doubling my count
>3 of them also worked in the cafe
>always screw the crew
>one of those girls was A
>she was particularly fond of me
>having just recently escaped K though I wanted to just have fun
>A actually had a bf at the time
>I cucked him in her bed where he spent half the week
>one day she breaks up with him, I go over for some fun
>he comes round to gran some stuff
>see my leg through the bedroom door while we're both naked as shit
>he loses his shit at her calling her a cheating bitch
>holy fuck I'm scared rn I'm stark naked and this guy sounds psycho am I gonna have to do the thing from the hangover?
>he eventually leaves but not before putting a shovel through the door
>the door was made from safety glass
>the guy shattered fucking safety glass
>spend a few hours there waiting for cops to come and grab details for a report
>I don't see A much for a month or two

>early Feb last year
>one of my old coworkers and good friend from the cafe is throwing a bday party
>invites everyone and also her roommates invite heaps of people too
>absolute banger
>drinks were flowing, tits were popping it was perfect
>except I'm a gin drunker by this point
>I don't know if it's just me
>But gin make a me even more depressed than normal
>brings out actual tears n shit
>the night is going well, but something happens that instantly drops my mood
>I go outside to sit by by myself for a while
>it's raining
>I sit there for like 30 minutes in the rain not even doing anything
>A runs up to me from inside
>"user there you are I've been looking everywhere for you I was so worried!"
>I collapse down and start bawling in her arms
>im Practically screaming I'm crying that hard
>I keep asking her why I'm not good enough
>why didn't she want me?
>I wasn't talking about A
>I was talking about J
>nearly 4 years had passed by this point, but it was still most of what I thought about
>A misinterpreted
>she starts crying too and jeeps telling me I am good enough for her
>she tells me she loves me and that she always will
>I tell her I love her too
>we kiss and then start dating

I don't know why I told her that. Maybe I did love her? I don't know, but if I did it wasn't as much as I loved J, but anyway back to the story.

>things start off really well
>A and I see each other regularly
>the sex is great
>she was only 4'9 and I'm 6'4 so cuddling her was like holding a body pillow
>I was actually happy for a while
>during this time I was studying hospitality and getting better at not just cafe work, but also bartending and waitering
>barista is still my dream though
>6 months pass
>I just finish my course with the highest marks
>even got sent to a national level trainee barista competition by my tutor
>got 4th out of 16 people from all over the country
>shit I love making coffee
>barista work is hard to find though
>everyone and their mother knows how to make coffee
>only a handful know how to do it well though
>bc of tight prospects I land a job as a salesman, signing people up to sponsor charities
>apart from my boss and I, everyone else is on a travelling road trip to other cities for the first week
>my first week I reach the first half of my sales target for my first promotion for leadership
>I'm talented at that too apparently
>A is super proud, I earned a really good pay from it, and things are good

>the second week everyone is back in the office and I meet another 10 or so people
>everyone is awesome and even though I don't work there anymore I still consider all those first people my friends
>except 1 person who stood out as different
>her name was S
>where A was a 9/10 at with a perfect face holy shit
>S was more
>long black hair, fair skin, beautiful smile, nd she knew what she was doing with her makeup
>I could tell even without it she was still beautiful
>absolutely smitten with her the moments I laid eyes
>except there was a problem
>I was with A, and S was dating someone we both worked with named Jo
>so I kept things low
>I obviously flirted with her
>But in a joking sort of way yknow?
>it was easy to bc S and I worked for the same charity, but jo was doing something different
>the most fun I ever had in that job was when I worked with s
>about a month or two into the job my relationship broke down with a

>she was a lovely girl, and I regret how it ended
>But I got bored, and I was infatuated with s
>roughly the same time S and jo break up too
>I use this opportunity
>s had reciprocated the flirting
>and she also loved working with me always sitting beside me in the car on the way out to wherever that day
>But she turned me down
>though confused, I accepted it and slept around a bit more
>she seemed upset by that
>I told her if she rejected me I wasn't going to wait for her
>one of the girls I slept with was her roommate
>apparently the roommate shares stlriesstories my big dick to S
>we joke about it she were working together
>"why does such a big dick have to be wasted on an asshole like you?" She joked with me one day
>jokingly I offered it for her
>jokingly, she turned it down saying she was gay
>jokingly, I said "yeah, [her roommate] told me a few stories about that"
>she looked mortified
>"what did she say?"
>"nothing but now you're gonna tell me this story kek"
>she told me she broke up with jo bc she wasn't into dicks anymore
>that's also why she rejected me
>I accepted that and we remInnes friends, though still doing the flirting thing

>one day I come in I find out s was fired
>I messaged her but she ignored me for a while
>the next week I see her in our reception area waiting to sign papers to finalise the termination
>I sit with her for a while and just talk
>she's on the verge of tears
>I give her a massive hug before I go back up to the office
>she held me really tightly
>after this we remained in contact, still seeing each other every few days or so bc we shared really close friends
>over this time my feelings for her only grow
>But she's gay so I'll bear the pain
>one day one of my old coworkers says something funny to me about E
>apparently he knows her, and says he used to date her
>this guy is known for bullshit and I thought it was hilarious so I asked her myself
>sent the screenshots of the chat and she just laughed her ass off
>it had been 4 years since we had last spoken properly, but talking to E again felt really natural
>in this time E had become thicc and bi
>she asked me if I knew any hot bi or Les chicks to hook her up with
>asamatteroffactido.gif
>message s immediately, arrange for all e of us to hang out that night
>were taking out now, chilling in my room
>S makes a joke saying she'll sleep with me if I smoke weed
>I am a good boy that has managed go avoid smoking anything so far and I was proud of if
>she had tested my morals against my feelings for her
>my feelings won
>I didn't even get high
>she pulled out though saying it was a joke
>alright kinda disappointed but I expected no less
>the hangout eventually resolves, I'm dropping both of them off

>I drop e off first, then s
>as I pull up outside S' house I look at her and she kisses me
>I didn't even have time to react it was that sudden but holy shit
>"you shouldn't have done that, s, I'm broken you don't want to get involved with me"
>"you're not broken, you were just hurt really badly by someone"
>she pulls me in to kiss again
>I pull her in too
>what only realistically lasted like a minute felt like a lifetime
>she stopped the kiss, got out if the car, and walked inside without even saying goodbye
>I was so stunned I just sat in my car for 5 minutes wondering if it was real
>what I did know was real was that I loved this girl
>if my feelings were a scale, where 0 is no love, and 1 was how much I loved J, then s fell on 1.1
>the whole next day were messaging each other with x's following each message
>I had a long day at work though
>as soon as I get home I pass out for 2 hours
>I dream about our new years holiday coming up soon
>S, Jo, bullshitting coworker and I are driving north to a really nice beach spot for a few days
>one of our friends has a Bach up there and it's meeting us there with her boyfriend who is one of my best mates
>I wake up and it's like 1am
>I start just doing shit on my phone when I get a message from s
>"are you up?"
>yes I am, what's up?
>"I don't have anywhere to sleep tonight, can I come over?"
>of course
>"one condition you're not allowed to try sleep with me though"
>I can do that
>I really didn't intend to bc I still thought she was gay
>I just figured she only kissed me to begin with was because she felt guilty about the weed thing
>I picked her up, nd we went straight to my bed

>she cuddled right up against me using my chest as a pillow
>my hand draped over her waist and hips lazily
>what skin was showing there was the softest I'd ever touched in my life
>ohfuckinstaboner
>I hide it away from her bc her leg is really close to it
>we lay there for a few minutes, eventually she says she can't sleep at all
>I suggest putting on a movie to help with that
>she says it's a good idea
>as I'm climbing over her when I'm on top
>I just stay there
>we lock eye contact in the dim gloom of the room
>But bright enough that I could see her face
>she smiles and pulls my face in
>this is unironically the happiest moment of my life
>I think of this one point every single day and it always gives me the feels
> I finish climbing over and put cabin in the woods on
>horror movies always make them cuddle closer
>various points throughout the movie we start making out again
>were both embracing each other in my bed, wearing only t shirts and underwear
>she gets on top of me ad starts grinding against my dick
>"holy fuck yeah I can tell it really is big"
>why don't you find out for yourself?
>I pull if out and place her hand on it
>she grabs it and gasps
>then we fuck wildly for an hour
>this is the best sex I've ever had in my life
>afterwards she says maybe she's only 50% gay
>I fall asleep feeling the happiest I have ever felt in my life

The story continues on, but it doesn't get happier so I'll leave it here for you guys to enjoy. Even if you've been broken before, you can always be fixed. I'm emotionally autistic as fuck but this girl has made me believe in things I thought had died long ago. Love is real bros, don't ever deny yourself from it. Peace out, have a good night.

tldr: Op fucks other men on the down low.

So what you're saying is gay sex is the first place your mind goes when nothing else is going on?

Thanks man

It was a good story man, but come on, keep going, honestly I was lurking Sup Forums today cause I feel like shit, anxiety over clouds and depressed as fuck, please keep going I need this sad shit to get out

Moar

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>claims to get get with multiple 8-9/10s
>claims to have a big dick that girls always talk about
kek who are you trying to kid here. i know your depressed but making ficticious stories isn't a good way to cope

Why would he waste so much time typing all the story at Sup Forums ?

you obviously dont know the lenghs some people go to to tell a story on Sup Forums