I know there's been an over abundance of sissy/trap threads recently but I have a bit of a diffrent one then normal...

I know there's been an over abundance of sissy/trap threads recently but I have a bit of a diffrent one then normal. I'm a recovering sissy who started going down that road but then freaked out and tried to turn back cause I can't deal with my own sexuality. Feel free to ask me questions or whatever. Idk. I'm depressed so I'm back in this hell hole of a site lol.

All right then. How far did you get before stopping?

do you like wearing comfy yoga pants in public and casually display your moose knuckle?

Also post pics obviously

Sure. Well I met a dom(on here actually) and working with them in the course of a couple days I was humping a pillow constantly(like I was practically fucking addicted to it I still get the urge to do it) my area down south idk what exactly got so sensitive after a couple days I could get turned on and it felt good to even lightly bounce on my chair during class. I ended up eating my own cum and liking the flavor to be honest. Finguring mtself and used a carrot as a sex toy once(terrible idea but i was really horny and needed something bigger then my fingers) i was about to shave all the hair off my body I could without giving myself away and was gonna buy panties. My miss actually had me pick out pairs I like amd show them. I was constantly thinking about getting fucked. And eventually how slutty i was acting and how quickly it happened freaked me out so I cut off all comunication and swore off sissy porn even though I still do watch it. Idk man I always though I was a pan switch but I got off on all that way more then I though I would so I ran lol.

Never worn yoga pants but I bet they would feel nice. And I doubt I would ever wear them in public. I'm cute for a guy and realy young but my shoulders are too broad to pass as a girl.

I have none to post. And note I said I'm recovering lol.

Did you ever cum just from fantasizing about it?

Precum yes. A lot if I was humping anything lol. But no I've never just cum from thinking bout something. I wish I could. It would make class a lot more interesting lol.

So you never made it to the clothing or toys phase?

dom here. be careful about cold turkey as it may make you relapse and go muuuuch deeper down the rabbit hole than you thought very fast. try to get back in to straight porn. infact watch tons of it and condition your body to be sexually attracted to OTHER women again.

Same experience here, I thought I was alone. I was totally obsessed with it untill I got a complete meltdown because of it and then I kinda stopped.
Urges return alot and it blows

I've been trying to but I always fall back if I'm fairly honest.

Tell us more about the meltdown.

Wore my moms panties a couple times but they were wayyyyyyyyy to big for me. And some old dresses we had around the house. And a chocker. But thats about it. I use bottles to practice as a blowjob.

just know once you take a cock theres no turning back. youll fall inlove with it immediatly and youll never be able to get it off your mind. every sissy ive ever fucked has become cockdrunk from the intense pleasure they get when we fuck. apparently its extremely addictive.

I felt really bad about everything, how people around me would think of it, I didn't feel manly, I felt like I'd throw away my future if I kept going, I was afraid of pictures leaking and so on. Eventually there was no ignoring the bad situation, and I just broke down.
There was something addictive about it, and I could never really put my finger on why it were the case

Nothing in the ass?

I have been. I did actually relapse a couple times. Humping the pillow like twice and sissy porn more then I would like. But It hasn't been too bad. I have been watching a lot of normal porn and its good. But it does seem pretry boring now. Sexted with a girl for awhile before I had to cut it off cause she wanted a relationships and got vids and pics from her that got me off.

Good to know, thanks user

I don't feel like it's out of control yet, but I don't blame you for prioritizing.

I feel for you man it's hard.

Repression isn't healthy. Do what makes you happy man.

its a submissives fetish and extremely addictive Dom here again. if you truly want to be dominated. again if you wouldve took an actual cock in the ass you would be done. at that point youve experienced the extreme pleasure and going back is the last thing you would ever do.

Dom here. low quality. try this.

Glad I never went that far then even if i had the chance. Thats something ive worried about for a long time cause im bi ive known that since i was like nine. I also know I get off on both being a dom and a switch but i fear if I go sub I'll never come back and I dont want that. I have no interest in being submissive all the time normally I want to be in charge of my life. Which is why I've been trying to focus on that part of my mindset.

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Yea, I simply don't have the mindset to be dominant, and it bothers the fuck out of me

Fingers and a carrot

I have the mindset of both. But if I had to choose I would choose being a dom even if being a sub is hot as well.

get your testosterone levels checked. that might be the cause.

if you go sub you wont come back. youll be in love with it. period. youll feel like its the greatest decision youve ever made like my sissies do.

Then how are some people switches?

I wish my shoulders were that size so I could trap better

Personally, I find an unpeeled banana to be the best.

Are you in high school?

some people CAN switch. but if they can then that means they arent really a sub TBH. true subs never try to be dom because it turns them off. switchers are usually just bi or bi curious types.

youd either have to start HRT early or get lucky genes for those shoulders.

>I can't deal with my own sexuality.
isn't that your main issue if you can deal with that and accept yourself for who you are and what you like then you can do anything sexually, it's your life don't let anyone else and their attitudes shape you, easy to say i know but you have to accept yourself first.

>There was something addictive about it, and I could never really put my finger on why it were the case
Posting pics on Sup Forums and instantly getting positive responses can give you a rush of euphoria, especially if you can't pick up much girls/boys irl

Ive read bannanas turn to mush. And yah senior year.

I guess im not a true sub then cause being dom definitly turns me on as well. And I am bi.

just get a toy. its inexpensive. maybe 10$ - 15$ and much safer than a damn carrot. just dont get a massive one. there are plenty of options that wont fuck up your ass over time if you use them. there are also plenty of toys people wouldnt know are toys. pic related.

Or shitty genes depending on how you look at it.. lol. But yep, I'm neither of those three :/

That's if you unpeel it. Bananas have a little flex to them, unlike carrots.

If you ever get the urge to buy, I would recommend Amazon lockers if you can get around.

Yea, I live in a town with basically mainly thots, chads or rednecks and didn't really suit in with the whole twink body and being a bit of a nerd.
Once I started to post pictures online, things got real, since suddenly I got lots of attention

But idk what I am. I get off on both dom and subing. Hearing a girl moan for me to fuck her harder or seeing her lick her cum off her fingers gives one hell of a rush and gets me hard as diamonds. But subbing is hot as well. How the fuck can I do both. And how can I not let that attitude slip into how i act about life as well.

The thing about toys is that most people eventually get the desire to go ever larger. I would go past my large Chance if I had more time to train.

Could very much be the case actually

Yah I know the carrot was a bad idea lmao. Like I said I was in a bad place when I did that. I've considered buying a toy for a couple years now but never got aound to it. Probably cause I worry like the doms been saying that if I get something up my ass I wont be able to go back from that.

Do you put a condom on it? And isn't the end a little bit pointy?

Lockers? Like a cage? Or what are you talking about?

dont give up. you may noto pass 100% but plenty of guys will still want you and you might even end up in a real relationship. traps and sissies have it better than trans in that department.

theres a large amount of guys that love traps or have the same fetish but dom side like me. i love sissies and traps because they are great lays.

most do so i suggest only going one tier larger unless you want to take cocks.

and that depends on you. get a helix syn and see if its right for you. if not you can stop cold turkey with a clear conscience.

Initially yes, there is a rough spot at the bottom end. You use a knife or even just your teeth to smooth this part out.

No need for a condom, the peel texture is very smooth. Afterwards you can dispose of the evidence by eating it and throwing away the peel. Others will not suspect anything.

Basically places that the items can be sent to instead of your house, for discretion.

Amazon Lockers is a service where you order online and then you have it shipped to a nearby location that has Amazon lockers installed. They give you a code that you can use to unlock the locker when you get there. It's for people who don't want things left on their porches, etc.

If you don't pick it up within three days of the drop off, they take it back and you get a full refund.

>And how can I not let that attitude slip into how i act about life as well.
seems to me you are over thinking it and worried people will some how know by looking at you, people will think what they want you can't change that, i'm a typical leather and jeans biker and apart from a few close friends and sex partners no one knows i'm bi and like twinks, femboys, traps, we all wear a mask at times ;)

Alright thats a solid idea

I guess, maybe the struggle is just accepting myself as who I am

Thats interesting perhaps I will try it

don't you want to experience a cock cumming deep inside your ass? and walking around with that load inside you all day

Ok thats cool i didnt know that was a thing I was just gonna get a post box

Ahh ok thanks for the explanation

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Yah but you're not trying to be both a sissy and a dom at once lmao. But I see your point thank you.

I mean kinda. But I also want to have a slut begging for my cock you feel me.

just take cock and get it over with sissy

That's like my dream, but I don't think I could ever go through with it. I'll just settle for being able to take a horse dildo up to the rib cage.

And keeping it inside is a no that doesn't sound hot at all lmao.

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Post office boxes are quite expensive.

Bitch the fuck how is that more reasonable then actually getting fucked lmao

Christ, just be a normal person and indulge any of your given sexual desires in the bedroom, depending on the context. You don't have to build your identity around either one. That's how they can coexist, and how you switch.

And if you're ultimately more of a sub than a dom, then that's fine. That's just who you are. Because if being a sub excites you more than being a dom, that's probably the case.

But right now id rather fuck the girls mouth

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Thats true. And it was something I was worried about

Fair but dressing up and shaving and shit is a lot of dedication. But I see your point. I could be overthinking it. Just do what feels good.

You got freaked out by a carrot and you wanted to become a sissy? Bro Im straight (im not attracted to men) and have shoved far larger and scarrier things up my ass.

I guess I'm afraid of being judged. It's not the size or penetration, it just feels like I would be too embarrassed.

Even more than cock though, I would love be fisted Voltron style.

Are you like trying to turn me or something....??

Nah. It was how easily I slipped into the mindset of being a sissy.

I mean, if you feel it interferes with other aspects of your life, you don't have to shave to be a sub.

I can't say I personally understand but fair enougj

I guess that means you're a sissy, bro. Might as well embrace it.

But you do have to to be a sissy

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I also easily slip into the role of dom. I like both and can do both

You don't have to do anything you don't want to.

Umm k

No one will want me if i dont lmao

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I'm also very afraid that someone might find out. Once it gets out, you can never undo it.

Oooh nice one

Its not that hard to hide. Just make an account on grindar and get fucked lol.

I mean, sissies and traps aren't the same thing. Sup Forums is obsessed with traps but not sissies. The real world is more diverse. You can definitely find someone into a sissy that doesn't go all the way.

But if you want to be a trappy sissy, then it's probably not that hard to get away with being a shaved dom when the time comes.

And you wouldn't have to shave all the time, either. Be normal most of the time, when you want to get fucked you can shave, put on make-up, and get dressed up. But you can let that go other days. You're allowed to change how you present yourself and act depending on your mood.

I've heard of people looking that stuff up for job interviews. I'm just too afraid, I guess. At least using a toy to destroy my colon is something I can do in private.

What do you consider the diffrence to be. And I suppose I could do that with the shaving.

Then sue for dissemination. Itd 2018 being gay is a lot more ok

>I know there's been an over abundance of sissy/trap threads recently but I have a bit of a diffrent one then normal

*different one than

Traps are meant to be able to pass as women. They're not necessarily trans, neither are they necessarily gay, just really dedicated cross-dressers.

Sissies are just men who dress up like women for the sake of being submissive and degraded. They're usually at least bi, and there's no expectation of passing as a woman.

Thank you, user, I will think about it.

Lmao thanks for that

Hmm alright